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https://open.spotify.com/track/3QU7aMTXzMxBo5OTbEaUVM?si=2cce7e70b2384c28

dedicated to my cat gerald, made w/ https://soundcloud.com/dead4cf, prod me :^)
album soon

inspired by the goats https://soundcloud.com/kurtains and https://soundcloud.com/heavenindaclouds

gerald's song w/ 4cf

lil bit of much needed therapy

i can't stand myself anymore
i'd end it all if i could
but that's too selfish, of course
so i
cut you off, hurt your feelings and force
you out my life, close the door
crush every hope i could hold onto
sharp knife
remove and cut ties
chamber round
one shot, a deadeye

clawin out the brush in my brain
driftwood in my veins
weeds in my lungs
dandelion in my stomach
feelin clean for today
lotta work little pay 
daisies pushin through my teeth
dead leaves under feet
i'm a waster 
i feel like i'm always
dyin by nature
it's a problem i can't fix
that i enable
no you cannot help
you not my savior
that's off the table
i hate reflections
i just wanna disappear
you hate these sentences
how you think that i feel

deadeye (p. michael harrison + ayoley beats)

FREE PALESTINE
PROD CHIBI
COVER ART BY GARY

Oh To Be a Goldfish (prod. Chibi)

lost the keys to the cemetery
cutting down thorns
cutting my losses
down to the place you met me
gritting my teeth and clenching my fists for what im bout to bury
its all the weight you carry
its all the weight you carry

what i got to do to not run out of time 
when i drift unconscious and can taste the sky
all my senses gearing up for flight yeah
all my senses gearing up for flight

lost the keys to the cemetery now its square one
i dont wanna carry on
aspiration long gone
always trying to find peace in the things that feel wrong to me
in the things that feel wrong to me

take a couple months out for my senses 
try and lead astray anything that you mention
heads in the cloud im locked in
pensive
got a different definition of what heaven is
cause everyone got their own run and i dont ever wanna get caught up in difference
lost the keys to the cemetery

SPOTIFY

carry

all me @1spooz
this song is terrible lmao

i was being so careful
i dont care about you that much
ur the demon im the hero
is that really how it goes?

i dont wanna be your friend now
if you say that you wont leave me
i wont burn down my house
*noises*
stay to the end
*more noises*
what happened!
*make a wild guess*
i dont wanna be your friend now
if you say that you wont leave me
i wont burn down my house
*noises*
stay to the end
*more noises*
what happened to us?
*make a wild guess*

wont you think of me for one time?
would it kill you over one line
*noises again*
one of a kind
well i'll get you next time
wont you think of me for one time?
would it kill you over one line
*noises again*
one of a kind
well i'll get you next time

*funny slow down*
insightful lyrics, i know

what happened

prod me
backing vocals by 8485
art by 8485
album next
<3

SHELL

https://soundcloud.com/prodbyaustyn
https://soundcloud.com/corefish
https://soundcloud.com/swazyhq
https://soundcloud.com/oldcollin

[austyn with a y]
cause when the world collapses
and the sky it falls
i’ll be the last remaining
till the curtains close
it’s so exasperating
when my feelings bubble up
so sick and tired of fucking up
yea, i think i had enough

[corefish]
the Sun's bright
the sum ain't right, I don't know why.
I'll tally up all the Adderall and take my time
you left me blind my sanity is somewhere dying
you tore the lines reality is just a lie

face down on the tarmac
hope they find me downtown with a rucksack
I won't be lying roots down I wanna tame that
I just wanna find a loose crown
Maybe step up out my house x2

[swazy]
fallen grace feel my heart beating out of my chest
i can always go up but i cant lie i always be scared of descent
i been way too up i can feel the air taking my breath
you can take my face away i dont really care about the people ive met
what i been seen cant tell no one
finna die on my own time and probably tell no one
its just the way that i move
sorry if i hurt feelings over the things that i do
i be so damn tempted to jump from cliffs
if you see me in the sky just know i got through

[oldcollin]
it always gets worse before better ill give it some time
was it something i said or maybe did something that you didnt like
how the fuck am i supposed to help when you when all that you say is that youve been alright
didnt think i was learning my lesson when you turned the question into a fight

if you want it you got it im not tryna piss you off
paranoid but nobody is stopping the way you talk about all that you lost
was it really that hard to just tell me what you want
only hit me up when you been falling apart

[yungmaple]
never really felt this lost
worst case happened yea look what it cost
everything fell apart
felt so safe right in ur arms
now my world is collapsing
i flew too close to the sun
my wings burned up in ashes
god damn im just tryna hold on
hold up lemme flex right quick
not bought, just brand new whips
never thought itd end like this
your're gone, im fine, not missed
bout time im finally happy
now that ur outta my life
switched up got a new bad bitch
now im not wastin my time

fallen grace (austyn with a y + corefish + swazy + oldcollin)

art by ashley
guitars and bass and backing and additional drum programming by riley

Diphylla w/ Riley Nuala

EVERYTHING BY ME, ALBUM OUT SOON <3

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from (x2)

another fleeting thought
I'm anxious once again
I'll double down on feeling worse
thought I'd get far this time
and how I'd know you'd fake me out just in the end
I'll take my chances, spin my fate
I'm on the angel's time

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from
run from those
empty thoughts, no more
oh how I'd know
you'd leave me down and torn

(vocal chops)

yeah it takes the toll (x4)
oh yeah it takes the toll (x2)

oh how I'd know
it would take the toll
oh I can't go
back to where I fell from
run from those
empty thoughts, no more
oh how I'd know
you'd leave me down and torn

(vocal chops)

It takes the toll

hope u guys enjoy this ! new song with 8485 friday <3

homeward bound (shinju)

prod & performed by me:p

lyrics:

they
keep pestering when i'm doing my best
i wanna lay my head upon their chest
but they won't let me catch another breath
it's where these things go

they
keep giving thoughts i wouldn't want in my head
i wanna lay and put my brain to rest
i do my best to stay away from death
it's where these things go

wrong
where do i belong
it doesn't feel right here
i knew all along

but that don't make sense
why would i pretend
i'm stuck in denial
i needed a friend for when it

rains
on my head
thunderstorms
fill my dread

they

st jimmy

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