You said it wasnt worth it. Looking for something but, nobodys perfect. I agree but I disagree...Maybe perfect aint the word and I'm just here for some searching. I just feel like I'm close to my soul and I think I'll be free when I let it all go. You know, I was built to weather the storm, I take many a form, but it's me at my core. So I wonder why you feel like livings a chore, thats some new shit, they ain't have these problems before. These Revolutions...For peace of mind their going to war. I feel pain through the visuals and ask what its for. I'll forvige for their fighting, I'm polite like that. You could stab me in the heart, I'll give the knife right back. So my last breath, let it be with peace in mind, Symbiotico, my strength and my weakness combine.

Symbiotico
The meek shall inherit the earth
Symbiotico
But the meek gotta find out a purpose
Symbiotico
Up above and underground, get into the sound I was lost but now I'm found
Symbiotico
Just to feel my feet in the dirt
Symbiotico
When I'm gone give me back to the earth
Symbiotico
I am quiet but loud, I am humble but proud
I was lost but im found...

SYMBIOTICO

First song in the self-induced Song of the Week Challenge. Lyric video up on youtube channel. Let me know what you think!

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Blue

Old And Grey (feat. J. Bone Little)

Baby Dont Break

When You're Alone

Place At The Table

Hold it
Getting a little too crazy
What seems to be the problem here?
You say they promise Heaven
But to me it looks like Hell

And I can't tell you what to do about it
I only know whats right for me
I can say you've got to take control
You gotta jump the jungle

I've been patiently waiting and hoping and praying
That one day I can step outta my box and maybe baby
I can breathe
And I've been hearing people talking about something
That ain't about nothing
They got the nerve to tell me they can cure my disease
Oh no no
And if they only knew
The pain they put these people through
For all them green back dollar bills
Maybe they'd sing a different tune
But they got no feel so whats the use?
They don't know whats going on

And I can't tell you what to do about it
I only know whats right for me
I can say you've got to take control
You got to jump the jungle

Jump The Jungle

After months of dreaming, writing, pontificating and trying to figure out the best way to sync myself with the waves of the universe, I created this. I started this at the beginning of lockdown. Many deaths later more energy was added into the celestial pot where my soul resides. Cries for social justice echoed with my own upbringing, my admiration for the unrelenting spirit of human beings, blessed with the gift of life and the desire to live, I realized there was only 2 ways to balance my perception. Seeing things as agents of destruction, noticing their purpose and questioning my own, I knew I wanted to be the cause for balance. I needed to bring life into the world. To steal a line from Jay Electronica, "You either build or destroy, where you come from?" I come from earth. Here is my covid baby, birthed from the empathic pressure filtered by my experience and painted with my heart, I hope you experience this musical journey how I have experienced life. Broken and beautiful. Peace.

Through My Window

A Page

looking for a concious mc to put it down on this. 

One More Day

Hinoki, a Japanese Cypress tree, has been shown to lower heart rates and chill out the nervous system. When that monkey brain is throwing real life horror movies at you, I think is essential  to be able to bring yourself down. Fractals are around us all the time, mostly in plants and studies have shown that looking at them can help your brain compartmentalize different thoughts and organize what feels like chaos. I used and still use these things as tools to battle my inevitable waves of depression and anxiety, when the dark leeches most and I need something to bring me back. 

I made this song a couple years ago. It was during the deepest parts of my PTSD. I was most afraid of losing my lucidity and leaving someone else to pick up the pieces. I have waited to release this, honestly didn't even think I was going to. But I have been thinking about the word 'release' a lot lately, and, while I hope it makes you feel good and you like it, I need to release this moment from myself. At the very least, you can bear witness to a mental health struggle and get a telescope to my brain and soul. This point in my life was the most intense and I can hear it when I hear this. It's not the most pristine mix, it's not perfectly balanced and radio ready but I dont really give a fuck about that. This is for me, and for some reason, the only way to get rid of this weight is to show it to you.

There's also a special mention for one of the best albums I've ever heard, on e of the most important pieces of art in my life, the Atmosphere album "When Life Hands You Lemons, You Paint That Shit Gold". All of the ideas and emotions in that album were flushing and rushing through my body and still do to this day. If you haven't heard it, you need to go check it out. Thank you guys for making that album, still one of the top 10.

"After inhaling Meniki essential oil, participant's systolic blood pressure and heart rate (HR) were decreased, and diastolic blood pressure increased. In addition, sympathetic nervous activity (SNS) was significantly decreased, and parasympathetic activity (PSNS) was significantly increased. On the other hand, after inhaling Hinoki essential oil, systolic blood pressure, heart rate and PSNS were decreased, whereas SNA was increased. Indeed, both Meniki and Hinoki essential oils increased heart rate variability (HRV) in tested adults. Furthermore, in the Profile of Mood States (POMS) test, both Meniki and Hinoki wood essential oils stimulated a pleasant mood status. Our results strongly suggest that Meniki and Hinoki essential oils could be suitable agents for the development of regulators of sympathetic nervous system dysfunctions."

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/285186525_Effect_of_Hinoki_and_Meniki_Essential_Oils_on_Human_Autonomic_Nervous_System_Activity_and_Mood_States

“We’ve looked at EEG [tests that measure electrical activity in the brain] and MRI scans, and we found that stress levels decrease by up to 60% just by looking at fractals,” 

https://blog.daveasprey.com/fractal-lower-stress/#:~:text=Fractals%20and%20stress%20relief&text=%E2%80%9CWe've%20looked%20at%20EEG,at%20fractals%2C%E2%80%9D%20says%20Taylor.

CYPRESS

I AM A VESSEL. THE PAGES OF MY STORY ARE STAINED AND ROUGH, THE TEXT IS DRAWN IN INK. THE SOUNDS OF MY ETHEREAL SELF RESONATE THROUGH MY BONES AND TRAVEL THROUGH MY EXTREMITIES. ENERGY TAKEN IS ENERGY GIVEN; THE CYCLE OF LIFE IS UPON ME. AS IT TURNS I BECOME A NEW SHADE OF MAN, A NEW TYPE OF SELF.

 

I WAS BORN IN PEEKSKILL.

Joshua Kaine

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