Been working on a lot of music lately. I've finally decided to start posting ideas and demo recordings here again. This is the first of a bunch of new songs I'm working on.

Lyrics:

The way you make me feel all tangled up
Got a bird in my belly and my lungs
Taking every breath to let you know we breath the same love
I could never break you...
Cause' I could never break my heart

Wishing you could see me 
when I was young 
Couldn’t find the answers 
life just begun
And if I knew what I know now 
well it wouldn't have taken so long
If love was not the answer 
Then the answer was never good enough

I don’t know what road to go down when I’m alone 
I would rather sit in silence than drive away with tear filled eyelids
I know better than to leave you when we’re at our throats 
I would rather sit in silence than drive away with tear filled eyelids

Long ago they told me you were the one
The way you held my hand was just enough 
We were both so afraid of our touch, but
I will never break you...
I could never break my-
Heart was acting strange back then
Was never really beating right
Traded some of mine for some of yours
I never felt this way inside
If this is how I’m made to feel 
I don’t want it to ever end
When I heard you say you’d never leave me
Girl I took in every word you said

I know which road we’re going down, we’re going home 
Now we both can sit in silence and drive away with tear filled eyelids
I know better than to leave you when we’re at our throats 
Now we both can sit in silence and smile at our tear filled eyelids


Artwork:
reason to move on - Silky_is_here (Reddit)

Eyelids (Voice Memo)

Lyrics:

Give me a reason to pour out my heart.
Said you love me, can’t say it back once.
Gave you the weapon that floats in my spine.
Said you love me girl, well I know you’re lying.
I know you’re lying.

How come all the time I feel so on-alert? 
Like I’m not good enough to ever come first.
I followed the earth looking for her,
and damn the day they'd pull us up from the dirt.
She’s the light below the silverware, the fire.
The only thing I breath in the air is desire,
where nothing in the world could ever take me this high.
How is good always made with bad design? 
How the grass is green, but the air is tight.

Give me a reason to pour out my heart.
Said you love me, I can’t say it back once.
Gave you the weapon that floats in my spine.
Said you want me girl well I know you’re lying.
I know you’re lying.

But you took me by the hand - 
as we flew above it all.
I swear that bird was flying as fast as I could fall.
Yeah you flew so high I couldn’t find you, or see your point view.
When I saw you drop that bottle - 
oh I felt so blue. 

Gave me a reason to pour out my heart.
Said I love you, won’t you say it back once?
Gave you a weapon that floats in my spine.
You tore it out, at least I know we’re trying.
At least I know we’re trying.

For The Bird (demo)

So sorry it's been a while since I last posted. Here is an idea that I came up with recently. Hope you enjoy!

See You (demo)

For no reason
I would adjust to
To be implicitly without
Hopeful someday it won’t be -
so unpronounced

Another pain 
Another pain I submit to
Another way 
Another way to dismiss you

And so you brace for what’s coming
Someway, somehow, way down the line
For when I take the well out
And watch you ache along that dotted line

I saw you break and fall down
Where no mistakes could testify
Meanwhile these shameful come-downs
Leave us forsaken and terrified, I’m terrified
-Down-

As the iris deepens,
Aphonic from the untruth
I felt the trauma ring out,
Blamed everything to what we’ve come to

Oh, how I broke and fell down
Saluted quakes that undermined
Ideas shaped to promise
But I promised nothing
I had nothing that wasn’t in vain design

I saw us break and fall down
Made our mistakes and testified
Meanwhile these shameful come-downs
Leave us forsaken and terrified, I’m terrified
-Down-

Down (idea)

Where
I was
Standing stray as the bullets fly
But I’m not moving
At least as fast as I’d like

Where
We were
Two lovers stuck in line
We weren’t moving
At least we didn’t recognize the reasons why

Why
Should I
Stand here still?
Why didn’t I listen to myself?
Why didn’t I say something to help?

But there
You are
You are bright, and you are strong
You remind me of who I was
You remind me

There 
You are
Eyes as beaded as a bluebird’s cry
Eyes that seem to tell the reasons why
It took so long

There You Are (idea)

We can talk
We can talk without talking
To see through fog
To be without wanting

I don’t want it all
I desire
To be in your arms
To meet your designer

Safe, falling

To be, is to trust
While everyone’s crawling
I’m a “must”, I am small
I’m pollen

You’re the rose, in the bunch
The doll, forgotten
You’re the word that I call
To hurt and soften

Safe, falling

Safe, Falling (Voice Memo)

In The Morning (Voice Memo)

Lyrics:
All around me, walls are talking
Their paint peeling as I’m walking
And I talk to them to hear them ring

But I can hear the words tightening round my neck 
The type of pain a man just won’t forget
When he walks too far away from where he came from 

And gets to where there’s no such thing
To help him find a sense of belonging 
So he turns around only to find out that he’s lost 

What are you saying to me beautiful?
What’s been the point of hurting me? 
You say that I’m just hurting myself, but I just don’t believe. 

It’s painful enough to walk with you
As you walk along with steel-toed shoes 
Always kicking at me to move along

But it’s like needles scattered on the floor
You tell me go when I’m not sure anymore
That if I trip, will I catch myself? Or will you catch me if I fall?

So what are you saying to me beautiful?
What is the point of hurting me? 
You say that I’m just hurting myself, but I just don’t believe. 

I think I know how to stitch a cut or two
But I can’t ever stitch a heart that’s bruised 
And I don’t believe I have the energy 
Yet you always think I do

So what are you saying to me beautiful?
What is the point of hurting me? 
You say that I’m just hurting myself, but I just don’t believe. 


Artwork: From "The Moon" series (2014) by Crystal Liu

What Are You Saying To Me?

(Feat. dog)

Lyrics:
I’ve felt the sting
I felt deceived
Too good to believe
When I heard you singin’
To feel that relief
That for once I’m not dreamin’
For once I’m not dreamin’

In disbelief
I used to think
I could just try and take it out on me
But I felt relief
To the sight that I’ve seen
For once I’m not dreamin'
For once I'm not dreamin'

I gripped my teeth
Just as you ran away
Held my feet
Just as you tangled me up
Stole the last piece
Of my memory
Head shifted sideways, all hung by a thread
Damn sure I won’t sleep
Less’ I’m awake or dead set

One day you swore
You’d spend your whole life away
In a crown you adored
Shaping your self to make up
The decor
Hung sideways inside my of brain
With one thing I’m sure of
You won’t sleep til’ I am half 
Awake

I’ve felt the sting
I felt deceived
Too good to believe
When I heard you singin’
To feel that relief
That for once I’m not dreamin’
For once I’m not dreamin’

So in disbelief
I used to think
I could just try and take it out on me
But I felt relief
In the sight that I’ve seen
For once I’m not dreamin'
For once I'm not dreamin'

For Once, I'm Not Dreaming (demo)

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