i learned

big brother - fail better cover

assignment song (demo 2)

how I would end it

oveido

depollute me
pretty baby
suck the rot right out of my bloodstream
oh dilute me gentle angel
water down what i called being grateful
oh u kissed me
just to kiss me
not to take me home
it was simple
it was sweetness
it was good to know
you look perfect
you look different
i don't wonder about your indifference
if i said you could never touch me
you'd come over and say i looked lovely
oh you kissed me, just to kiss me, and not to make me cry
it was simple u are sweetness let's jus sit awhile
depollute me gentle angel and i'll feel the sickness less and less
come and kiss me
pretty baby like we'll never have sex

we'll never have sex (cover)

this will never reach streaming platforms but I felt like it needed to b heard

flour and sawdust (demo 3)

we miss you even though you're here (demo 2)

a lesson from the moon (demo 2)

stay awake (demo 2)

red carpet fire (demo 2)

an ep that was never approved by management/was never made into a final draft.

inane mind (outro)

psychosis soliloquy

none (intro)

i can see right thru u
i can see inside ur shell
won't you call me worthless
won't you say you're doing well
and we were only 13
when we decided not to care
the lights are getting brighter
and now we're losing all our hair, and teeth, and flesh, and seeds, and mother seems to be calling
ignore the phone and cut ourselves, the blood will pour oh well, oh well
we'll find someone to raise us new, im growing pretty fond of you
addicted to a feeling that i miss 
a couple of them there's a list
and you would be the first to know
when i give in, into the snow
when i finally overdose
i love you, thought i'd let you know

i can't seem to breathe
i can't seem to stop speaking
about the freezing cold
and how it's making us grow old
and i always saw it coming
i never knew it'd be so soon
i need to get some answers
i need to get away from you, your eyes they draw me in
the gravity it gives me wind to pull myself out of the pit
i fall back in i fall back in
mistakes will make us greater in the end but there's no help to grow from them
whatever should i approach next
the choice could lead right to my death

and im so close
and im so close
the air is thin 
a comatose
dont go home 
dont go home
i need your help
down in my bones
and this must be the end
the grasshoppers will fly again
and all the long lost kids
will be abandoned once again, again, again and again

ignore the phone (demo)

white rooms (alt version)

gone (unreleased studio cut)

veins (unreleased)

not a mask by dream cover it is definitely not that

black vans and harsh realities-fail better heal faster cover

wondering how (acoustic lullaby version)

lyrics
i contradict myself too much
for my own good
i'm made of lust 
for love and loss
and when i lose myself i'll set the grass ablaze
i'll burn my face
july came through and i grew up in just a day
my wings are stuck inside the clay and i could break out but i stay why must i stay

elevation with a friend
i keep losing all of them
august only just began
i already miss my hands
rigor mortis fix my brain so i can level out my shoddy aim
i have a feeling you don't feel the same
so do i trust my gut or do i walk away

i move an inch 
the cracks will spread 
hope they can't hear
or else im dead stepped out of line a final time
my ego grows but now i'm right
turn out the light
i run away
but im not scared i run to change 
what i will share 
and now im shamelessly myself
im fucking drained
am i unwell

serotonin in the shell
i will dig myself through hell
may is oh so far away
but tomorrow won’t delay
dashing through the cloudless sky until i’m out of breath
and my wings are lacking rest
i know i didn’t give much hope but when we’re tying the rope
i wanna hold ur hand and say
i had fun
we aren’t done 
lookin thru the trash so we can find one
for memory
my lovely
i won’t let it go until my job’s done

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