i think that god understands 
my hands are tied
and free will isn't free
because it costs too much to advertise
how am i supposed to know my right from left
or will i just be left if i am wrong

i know i'm runnin'
i know i'm hiding 
i know i need to stop
but how do i?
how do i?

here i am
here i am
here i am
i don't know what i believe
but i'm singing to find relief
here i am
here i am
here i am
i don't know if i believe in you
but i'm singing just in case it's true

oh i want to know
if love is unconditional
or would you ever send me to hell

i know i'm runnin'
i know i'm hiding 
i know i need to stop
but how do i?
how do i?

here i am
here i am
here i am
i don't know what i believe
but i'm singing to find relief
here i am
here i am
here i am

i don't know if i believe in you
i don't know if i believe in you
i don't know if i believe in you
i don't know what i believe

here i am (demo)

Here I Am (demo)

Lesson Learned (Prod. by Sehemyre / Explicit)

Love Nobody (Feat. NO1-NOAH)

Love Nobody (ft. NO1 - NOAH)

la la la love me
la la la leave me
said that you'd be there
now you don't need me
la la la love me
la la la leave me
forever means nothing
when you don't mean it

I just wanna clear the air tonight
baby lately all we do is fight
said i'm sorry but you're through alright (she said)
this time i'm leavin
call you up no answer, oh
but those IG stories tell me all
never been the jealous type but now
this time, this time

I think that we are done 
i think that we are done
oh and i just can't believe you

la la la love me
la la la leave me
said that you'd be there
now you don't need me
la la la love me
la la la leave me
forever means nothing
when you don't mean it

we were never ever meant to be
wasn't right we forced the energy
made explosions from the chemistry
this time, this time

I think that we are done 
i think that we are done
and i just can't believe you 

la la la love me
la la la leave me
said that you'd be there
now you don't need me
la la la love me
la la la leave me
forever means nothing
when you don't mean it

i thought you were the one
i thought you were the one
now i think that we are done 
i think that that we are done

la la la love me
la la la leave me
said that you'd be there
now you don't need me
la la la love me
la la la leave me
forever means nothing
when you don't mean it

written by joseph mcilvain
produced by nick mira, joey mcilvain, 
aux production by colin holbrook

Love Me, Leave Me

love me, leave me

tell me what would it take
to get these words inside your brain
tell me what to say
to make you stay
and nothing in this life could ever
make me feel a thing
but you could you could you could
and nothing in this world would 
make me feel never the same
but you would you would you would

i keep on thinking bout you
and i know its a problem
but i just cannot let you go

but i know i know i know
i know it's over baby
oh i know i know i know
i know it's over baby

I Know

follow me

i know (prod. joey)

The More You Get The Less You Are

The More You Get The Less You Are (Anthony Green Cover)

i was just drivin' around
took myself back to that town
where no one thought that i was anything 
the people never make a sound
never say what they're about
they got nice shit but got no honesty
possessions posses you yeah honestly

honestly i fuckin' had to leave
pretty place with ugly memories
Still I wonder why you had to go
Now i'm layin' on the floor
looking out a broken window babe
i just feel like i might suffocate
and i wonder why you had go

now summer ain't the same without her 
rearrange my life around 
cause you're not around
wonder if you ever think of me
probably never
your memories have been wiped clean

i been in a different mood
yeah my friends say i been rude
i just want everyone to go away
hit postmates for all my food
never ever leave my room
i never wanted it to be this way
why am i like this i'm afraid to say

honestly i wanna fuckin' leave
pretty place with ugly memories
Still I wonder why you had to go
Now i'm lyin' on the floor
looking out a broken window babe
i just feel like i might suffocate
and i wonder why you had go

summer

summer (prod. joey)

couldn't get to the pain pills fast enough this morning
sittin' on your bed alone
lucky no one else was home
you had said you'd be long gone out of here this year
stuck inside a town you know
more than what you care to know

can you swear on it
don't you take the fall
will you be honest
tell me who you are

say it like like
say it like like
say it like you mean it
say it like like
say it like like
say it like you mean it (repeat)

didn't you ever learn when enough's enough
oh no
seein' just how far you slip
runnin' outta hands to grip
you had said you'd achieve these dreams of yours like gold
now they're like a map that goes
sitting in the glove box closed

can you swear on it
don't you take the fall
will you be honest
tell me who you are

say it like like
say it like like
say it like you mean it
say it like like
say it like like
say it like you mean it (repeat)

it doesn't feel like you its someone else
and no one should be strangers to themselves
it doesn't feel like you its someone else
and no one should be strangers to themselves

say it like like
say it like like
say it like you mean it
say it like like
say it like like
say it like you mean it (repeat)

say it like u mean it (creeV cover)

say it like u mean it (creeV cover, prod. joey)

I love this song so i made my own version

Saint Tropez (Post Malone Cover, Prod. Joey)

I eat my dinner in my bathtub
Then I go to sex clubs
Watching freaky people gettin' it on
It doesn't make me nervous
If anything I'm restless
Yeah, I've been around and I've seen it all

I get home, I got the munchies
Binge on all my Twinkies
Throw up in the tub
Then I go to sleep
And I drank up all my money
Dazed and kinda lonely

You're gone and I gotta stay
High all the time
To keep you off my mind
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
High all the time
To keep you off my mind
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Spend my days locked in a haze
Tryna forget you babe
I fall back down
Gotta stay high all my life
To forget I'm missing you
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

Pick up daddies at the playground
How I spend my daytime
Loosen up the frown
Make them feel alive
Oh, make it fast and greasy
I'm numb and way too easy

You're gone and I gotta stay
High all the time
To keep you off my mind
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
High all the time
To keep you off my mind
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Spend my days locked in a haze
Tryna forget you babe
I fall back down
Gotta stay high all my life
To forget I'm missing you
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

Staying in my play pretend
Where the fun ain't got no end
Ooh
Can't go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain
Ooh

Staying in my play pretend
Where the fun ain't got no end
Ooh
Can't go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain

You're gone and I gotta stay
High all the time
To keep you off my mind
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
High all the time
To keep you off my mind
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Spend my days locked in a haze
Tryna forget you babe
I fall back down
Gotta stay high all my life
To forget I'm missing you
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

Habits (Stay High)

Habits/Stay High (Tove Lo Cover)

Babydoll - Dominic Fike Cover

songwriter/producer

LISTEN TO "Love Me, Leave Me" 

contact: joeymcilvain@gmail.com

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