prod lawncare
https://www.instagram.com/matttthew2/

i had three dreams last night i only remember two of them
they were interesting sometimes i go online
just look them up and start dissecting 
what they could mean 
very good though 
not totally bored
bored to the core i wanna only hide don't mind forgot 
confide in the void my pride left away yours in the way
my heart races braces faces you
discovering new places in my head
overheated body caving in 
tired of naming unfelt emotions 
filling it whole i want more
sometimes i don't want to build anymore though 
life gets hard 
quit
show up for me
help me believe
i hurt 
i'm sore 
let's go out tonight 
yeah

bored (prod lawncare)

prod cleo walks through glass 
https://soundcloud.com/cleowalksthroughglass

fuck 
i guess i'm trying not to think about you today
i have to like focus on myself again
stuck in my body
i’m detached from my sleeping 
my knees are bleeding as i’m waking up
choking holding my breath  
feel the weight wait for me 
i was in bed for a week 
are we ever truly ready
wanted to cry i felt paralyzed 
heaven heals me i am kneeling
so much drinking out of control
went to therapy mending on my own 
i cried 
i cried 
i cried 
i cried 
i cried
um i guess i'm just gonna like take space

therapy (prod cleo walks through glass)

because love is patient love is kind love is long-lasting everlasting (reupload)

softest flowers led me to you
hard trials bled through
in abundance you dance with me
in abundance you dance with me 
so much in my head
so much in my heart 
lacking sleep 
lacking sleep 
just need a break some emotional space
lacking sleep

trials (broken iphone7 recordings collection)

new people new disruptions 
new distractions and old love the kind of love that becomes stronger as time goes on
liquid oil in your ear
all that was left you tried to take away
grateful to unravel you today 
and you feel like you can’t bear the minimum but you can more than the unknown 
i swear we will see it through 
just don’t let me go
don’t let me go
don’t let me go too soon
don’t let me go 
don’t let me go
what you missed growing up 
you feel it’s your time to blame them 
your time is up
will you play the blame game with me? 
iii want to see you
i don’t feel the same way you paved the road for the end the end of our time together but it’s nothing you’re nothing
i don’t feel the same way anymore 
we were never on the same page 
i just invested just wasted my time my energy 
that’s forming again

wasted (broken iphone7 recordings collection).m4a

my heart yearns for more 
all of this is taking me away 
showing me holy and bad 
your glitter soul stuck in the rain 
you look at me and see 
that i’ve got nothing to say 
nothing to say all day
sitting and waiting
i’m sitting and waiting 
they tell me they miss me 
i think to myself all day all day

yearn (broken iphone7 recordings collection).m4a

half awake half asleep 
half awake half asleep 
half awake half asleep 
crying all the time 
cleansing my tears 
my ritual’s extreme 
with dirt in my eyes 
dirt in my eyes 
half awake half asleep 
set me free call me crazy 
i am here so sacrificial
been decaying for you 
half awake half asleep

ritual.m4a

spiral

relapse

hyperfix.wav

just one more
just one more
just one more kiss
everything makes me wanna cry
all the most beautiful things tear me up inside
feel my spirit so sensitive 
release release release release with ease with ease
release release release me from these norms from this world 
detach completely a flower girl of your dreams 
dreary under an ice storm 
im your pillow so rest forever forever
tell me don't go ask me to stay 
ripping my life away pulling my death 
ashes paint me grey and wash my sins away into eternal powder so you can snort me away until i disintegrate 
so under the weather
finally see my reality
i wish to be 
i ask the gods why im feeling

wash my sins away (prod cleo walks through glass)

lick my open wounds

december 2022

blurry/foggy ꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱      ꨄ︎

dry lips dry skies ೋ

https://soundcloud.com/vexe0100

https://soundcloud.com/darlingimsleepyagain/wash-my-sins-away?si=f9dc7d978b9945f1a0c775bdedb14777&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

https://soundcloud.com/cleowalksthroughglass

wash my sins away (VeXe † remix)

background noise☻

existing

don't you believe that lovers collide?
don't you believe that lovers arise?
don't cry now try to calm down
we slip we slip through god's fingertips
we slip we slip through god's fingertips
don't ask me why, can't you see?
carry me like a pocket knife
chew me like gum and believe 
drink me drink me like a waterfall 
drink me drink me like a waterfall

we slip through god's fingertips

for evian: your mother's private heart, emotionally charged behavior, and promises

extract my teeth: residue

in another dream my sister said to me pour out i still pray for you it was so perfect so rotten so spoiled now i'm making love to life so perfect rotten soul rotten dream perfect the way i cried the way i died plucking my own wings like an eagle i'm your heart locket everything was so perfect perfectly ugly taking my energy

perfectly

frostbite 8:40pm

can you

hardcore kansas girl

disconnect (with terminal horizons)

all alone alone all alone alone
god sent you to me to me to me

in my season of isolation i called the prayer request hotline

the more i fear you, the stronger i feel though

parece ceremonia mia

your theory's at stake (my dj mix for september)

salem - redlights https://soundcloud.com/salem-official
peake - tantalyse https://soundcloud.com/we1rdd/tantalyse

chopped (my redlights/tantalyse mix)

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