I Don't Think I Deserve This(2021)

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FULL LYRICS:
I DON'T THINK I DESERVE THIS
Verse (CGAmF)
Acceptance is the enemy of fantasy
If you’re doing good, you’re in a trance
If you couldn’t move, that’s your chance

Don’t regret decisions made in good faith
In self-loathing days, I learned that
Some endings are out of my hands

PreChorus (AmGFG)
But I couldn’t move
I couldn’t move

You know I am afraid of the truth
so what if I’m asking the wrong questions?

Chorus (GDCEm)
I paid the price in two decades,
I don’t think I deserve this.
And if, If this price comes with interest,
Don’t think I deserve this.

Verse (CGAmF)
A tired, mad boy like me can create accidents (am I innocent?)
No control: none for one, and one for all

A tired, sad boy like me can manipulate drastic events
In times like this: three drops fall, let the good times roll

PreChorus (AmGFG)
But I couldn’t move
I couldn’t move

You know I am afraid of the truth
so what if I, I couldn’t move?

Chorus (GDCEm)
I paid the price in two decades,
I don’t think I deserve this.
And if, if this price costs my… happiness
Don’t think I deserve this. 

Bridge (CGAmF)
If this is the result of my madness,
Don’t think I deserve this.
I know I’m ambitious and fearless but
I don’t think I deserve this.

Outro (CGAmF)
Ah, we can make it, ah, we can make it
I can’t take it, I can’t take it, now
You can take me now
We’ll be alright

© 2021 Johnael

I Don't Think I Deserve This

Almost Always (2022)

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FULL LYRICS:
ALMOST ALWAYS

Verse: (DF#G DF#E)
I’m twenty-three and it’s foolish of me
To ever think somebody could put up with me

The ground’s my friend, only you understand:
The damage is done, and it’s done by the damaged one

Only you understand how this will end

Chorus:
Everything’s almost always too good to be true
Everything’s almost always too good to be true
Everything’s almost always taken for granted

Maybe someday I’ll have the future I keep talking about
No one told me, From my experience,
Everything almost always ends.

Verse:
We may be the only that walk the earth, whichever is true, it’s comforting, terrifying too
I’ve been living, believing for two decades, now, I’m the master of the game charades

You could say you’d love to join my company
But the gap between our sight tells us it’s not a good fight
Twenty-four, what could anyone wish for?
But the guilt inside my mind tells me I don’t have the right

Chorus:
Everything’s almost always too good to be true
Everything’s almost always too good to be true
Everything’s almost always taken for granted

Bridge:
I listed down the unexplainable, untouchable train of thoughts in a hundred songs
I’d write it down a thousand more

A thousand more, ten thousand steps
My muscles sore, my millionth step
You know I’d be: 6 deep underground if I had more

If I had more, let’s not pretend that I’d get there in three, light steps
I once believed, I could reach altitudes that are more than Icarus,

The knee caress, the lips said yes
What you did then was not your best, I’m almost impressed
What you did then was not your best, I’m almost impressed

Outro:
Maybe someday I’ll have the future I keep talking about
No one told me, From my experience,
Everything almost always ends.

© 2022 Johnael

Almost Always

Saturn Can Float (2022)

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FULL LYRICS:
SATURN CAN FLOAT

Intro:
The earth is frozen, few miles from here I hear them marching in
I survived the apocalypse of your lips
And the lies that came with it

Verse1: DFE DFF# DFE DF#
One thing we know is time perpetuates
Not until we got over our body aches
And the wind was wild in the wicked west
And shallow breathing was our rest

I need comfort in this

Chorus: DEF DFEF
Romantic how you were wearing brown for a wedding dress
And you said, “Saturn can float among the rest”
The earth is frozen, I hear them marching in
I heard what you said, I heard what you said

And I was scared where my thoughts will lead me tonight
It’s been years since I was this terrified


Verse2: DFE DFF# DFE DF#
The dirt held our feet like a long lost friend
Made from ashes and buried underneath
Now, I’ve got tired eyes and infinite steps
These are the things I wish I didn’t said

I need comfort in this

Chorus: DEF DFEF
Romantic how you were running down from that childish mess
And I said, we don’t deserve anything less
Good friends stick like the mesh and the beads stitched in that hell of a dress
And you said, “Saturn can float among the rest”

The earth is frozen, I hear them marching in
I heard what you said, I heard what you said…

Outro: DEF DFEF
For someone with infinite number of years to live,
I see no soul in losing what others keep

© 2022 Johnael

Saturn Can Float

Bulong (Sambit, Sigaw)

Pahintulot

Till Death Do Us Part (2020)

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FULL LYRICS:
TILL DEATH DO US PART

September 9th, oh what a sight
I opened the book and my eyes burn bright,
burn bright, burn bright, burn bright
I could start a fight

September 10th, and I chant again
Looking for the right words to cast the spell
to them, to them, to them
out of lion’s den

I could start a fight
It’s my divine right 
And I can chant again
out of lion’s den

CHORUS:
I can love you more for another day
If you could remember what you said
from the start, the start, the start
Till death do us part

Or you could be my slave inside this cage
Or I’ll let you join the stage and make you
My art, my art, my art
‘Till death do us part

‘Till death do us part
‘Till death do us part

VERSE:
September Eleven, I could say then
You wanted to make friends but I could stay tame
And it drives you insane
Damn.

CHORUS:
I can love you more for another day
If you could remember what you said
from the start, the start, the start
Till death do us part,

Or you could be my slave inside this cage
Or I’ll let you join the stage and make you
My art, my art, my art
‘Till death do us part

BRIDGE:
‘Till death
Red bed
It was up to you, up to me, up to us (us baby),
It was greed and lust, diamonds and dust,
Unprecedented.

CHORUS:
I can love you more for another day
If you could remember what you said
from the start, the start, the start
Till death do us part,

Or you could be my slave inside this cage
Or I’ll let you join the stage and make you
My art, my art, my art
‘Till death do us part

’T’ill death do us part

Till Death Do Us Part

Blood Moon (2020)

A land who doesn't follow laws is as good as a dead land: dystopic. But what if I tell you that it's real and it's happening and for some, it's now. Not so long ago, I thought to myself "Who protects us from the government? Not even the constitution, I'm afraid."
This song is written in the eyes of a whistleblower of one, big scandal which may or may not have happened.

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FULL LYRICS:
BLOOD MOON

Verse: (CED)
I got a secret, can you keep it?
Swear it’s tragic, just black magic
Just a lesson of understanding of me and you

I got a secret, I know you heard it
But if you learn just how to treat it
You might’ve love it, you might’ve need it
But there’s a payment…

I said, “Isn’t it cool that we met during the blood moon?”
You said why relate this with natural phenomena
Should’ve known exactly that by the same night not too soon
You saved me from my eudaemonia

Chorus: (Dm, Bm)
In a room of three, there’s a tragic, there’s a curse
One’s a liar, one’s a saint, and one’s a magic that money can’t reverse
Keep your eyes on me, I know you’re looking for the trick
I know you’re looking underneath but
One can’t find what’s in front of me

It’s no secret, I know you kept it
I know you hid it from the news
I know you’d hunt me down the river
Quartered if I don’t do it first

So I run, I run and I run
I ran to Iran,
And you got there first so…

I said, “Isn’t it cool that we met during the blood moon?”
You said why relate this with natural phenomena
Should’ve known exactly that by the same night not too soon
You saved me from my eudaemonia

Chorus:
In a room of three, there’s a tragic, there’s a curse
One’s a liar, one’s a saint, and one’s a magic that money can’t reverse
Keep your eyes on me, I know you’re looking for the trick
I know you’re looking underneath but
One can’t find what’s in front of me

Bridge:
And you were mad, and you were angry
Your disciples crucified me
Like a leader of believers
That take this crime as games, and grimes, and fun

Torn my house, burned my town
By secret rebels where I come from
Tea’s so hot, it burnt my tongue
The scandal of Nineteen-Fifty One

In a room of three, there’s a tragic, there’s a curse

Chorus:
In a room of three, there’s a tragic, there’s a curse
One’s a liar, one’s a saint, and one’s a magic that money can’t reverse
In a room of three (oh!)
Keep your eyes on, keep your eyes on me.
One can’t find what’s in front of me

I said, “Isn’t it cool that we met during the blood moon?”

© 2020 Johnael

Blood Moon

The Undoing (2020)

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FULL LYRICS:
THE UNDOING

We are all going down
We are all going down

Verse:
I dreamt of a chance to take it back
In tinted windows from just two blocks
(This is my undoing, this is my undoing)

I dreamt once but it’s just jet black
Except that I just got my sight back
(This is my undoing, (and I get all confused and) this is my undoing)

PreCho:
It’s a medieval solution, I get all confused ‘cause
I never set foot in this promised land
Don’t know if it’s true at all, what’s waiting for you?
 
Hook:
Can’t believe but your sad eyes
Told me that today that we will die
And it’s my undoing

Can’t believe but my tired eyes
Told me we’re losing and we’re going down 

Bridge:
I found myself looking at the shimmers tonight
I see it wide, it’s pale and white

PreCho:
This chaos is not what we prayed for
Learned to live with the trouble
Free falling, holding our breath
Holding your hand, that’s a bluff

Hurry home, I am alone

Hook:
Can’t believe but your sad eyes
Told me that today that we will die
And it’s my undoing

Can’t believe but my tired eyes
Told me we’re losing and we’re going down

I dreamt of a chance to take it back
In tinted windows from just two blocks
(Don’t know if it’s true at all, what’s waiting for you?)

© 2020 Johnael

The Undoing

We Will End In Fire (2021)

Exactly a year ago, I wrote this song as a call for the government and the repercussions of their actions amidst the fire in the Amazon Forest. It’s unthinkable how many still cease to believe the existence of climate change and it’s happening now at this very moment.
The afternoon that I finished this song (12 Jan 2020), at around 2PM, the Taal Volcano in my province erupted - embracing cities in its gray shadow, destroying lives, crops, and hopes. I’m no believer of coincidence but I believe that we are alive to witness this happenstance for a reason.

2022 Election is right around the corner. Your votes will determine whose promises are bound to burn or build. Choose wisely because fire hurts, fire burn - and as for us? We will end in fire.

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FULL LYRICS:
WE WILL END IN FIRE

Verse:(FEmFAm) 
It’s all out now
If we’re still to blame
It won’t stop now
We’re up in flames 

(Interlude)(FEmFAm)

(FEmFAm)(FEmAmG)
It has no friend nor enemy
Can’t ask for help that I can’t see
The future’s here, let’s sit and watch
Like what you did, yeah, that’s the catch

(Interlude)

(FEmAmG)
I promised you nothing’s the same
welcome to the game, welcome to the game

Chorus: (AmCFG-E)
“The nation’s raged, but your wrath came”
The higher name, he’s not to blame
Oh well, well, an adult fairytale 
Isn’t it odd what we tell?

Mark my words,
we will end in…
fire hurts,
we will end in…
fire burns,
we will end in fire

Verse:
It’s on the news,
But you refused
To tell the truth
You burned the roots

(Interlude)

And then one day, the fire woke me
In dreams and nightmares you can’t see
The future’s here, let’s sit and watch
Like what you did, yeah, that’s the catch 

I promised you nothing’s the same
welcome to the game, welcome to the game

Chorus: (AmCFG-E)
“The nation’s raged, but your wrath came”
The higher name, he’s not to blame
Oh well, well, an adult fairytale 
Isn’t it odd what we tell?

Mark my words,
we will end in…
fire hurts,
we will end in…
fire burns,
we will end in fire

Bridge:
We can’t inhale all the lies you say and tell
And the trash that we sweep has the promise you keep

Everything you did
Just to get that seat
And it just cannot fit
Like the ash that we breathe

Mark my words,
we will end in…
we will end in…
we will end in…

Chorus: (Palm mute)
“The nation’s raged, but your wrath came”
The higher name is not to blame
Oh well, well, an adult fairytale 
Isn’t it?
A nation’s raged, but your wrath came
The higher name, he’s not to blame
Oh well, well, an adult fairytale 
Isn’t it odd what we tell?

(Bridge)

Mark my words,
we will end in… (fire)
we will end in… (fire)
we will end in… (fire)
We will end in fire.

© 2021 Johnael

We Will End In Fire

I tell myself, "I don't need to have the best voice, I just need to tell the right message."

Essentially, song-writing is my creative outlet. Occasionally, I put it out on the web.

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Saturn Can Float

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