Lyrics:

See myself in your eyes again
Pulled between the now and then
On your toes, you reached my face
Time can’t steal what we can’t replace

Brown eyes burn like firelight
Sharp tongue cuts, but it feels so right
Ghosts of the past, they blur and bend
Future’s written where we began

Heartbeat racing, breaking through
Every shadow pulls me back to you
Love and chaos, memory’s flame
Every tomorrow calls your name


Back to you — it’s back to me
Back to you — it’s meant to be
Back to you — I can’t break free
BACK TO YOU IT’S BACK TO ME!

Back to You

Lyrics:
midnight glow on the dashboard glass
every truth I swallow, every chance I pass
built a throne from noise, they all bow when I speak 
but you look straight through my crown, leave me on my knees 

you were scared but you didn’t need 
I’d have caught you if you fell for me 
I know the place where your walls give in 
follow me there and don’t hold it in 

trace my name with your breath in the dark 
say it like a prayer that tears you apart 
hands at the edge of a world I can’t steer
I’ll take you where you’ve never been, you’ll be shaking when you’re near 

every chance that I missed, every word I held inside 
forgot the heat in my hands when your eyes met mine 
I’m a god to the crowd but with you I’m just myself 
every saint needs a sinner, every king to confess 

you were scared but you didn’t need 
I’d have caught you if you fell for me 
I know the place where your walls give in 
follow me there and don’t hold it in 

trace my name with your breath in the dark 
say it like a prayer that tears you apart 
hands at the edge of a world I can’t steer 
I’ll take you where you’ve never been, you’ll be shaking when you’re near 

soft as a tremor, rough as a flame
whisper your promise while learning my name 
if you fall, if you break, if you call my name 
I’ll be there in your glow again 

I’m still the boy you couldn’t see 
powerless where I wanted to be 
but when you fall, when you break, when you call my name 
I’ll be there again 

shaking

Lyrics: 
white seats hum like ghosts of the future
i’m in the back now, listening to you
ironic, how the wheel turned full circle
i used to drive, now i’m just passing through

you’re talking in flatlines, no highs no lows
say i overthink the words you chose
but maybe i overbuilt the girl i thought you’d be
while you’re a stranger wearing old memories

we still say the same phrases
timing like we’re in sync but faded
card flips, you told me my wife’s someone i know
or maybe i’ve yet to meet her—maybe both

we’re spinning, spinning in the same old loops
tesla white inside but the sky’s still blue
you’re cold, i’m patient, but i can’t break through
maybe i’ve met you, maybe i haven’t yet
but i waste time like i wasted it with you

oh-oh-oh, circles on the dashboard glass
oh-oh-oh, echoes of a love that won’t come back

you knew my friends, i never knew yours
your dry replies building hidden doors
ask me once “would you kill for me?”
but staying alive’s the harder loyalty

vows in sickness feel heavier than death
my legs say run but i hold my breath
shedding who i was to be who you asked
loyal, calm, patient—still a mask

and when your cards predict another life
i wonder if it’s you or just another disguise
if i’m waiting for a version i’ll never meet
or you’re waiting for a man i’ll never be

we’re spinning, spinning in the same old loops
tesla white inside but the sky’s still blue
you’re cold, i’m patient, but i can’t break through
maybe i’ve met you, maybe i haven’t yet
but i waste time like i wasted it with you

oh-oh-oh, circles on the dashboard glass
oh-oh-oh, echoes of a love that won’t come back

mirrors on the ceiling, ghosts in the seat
every vow heavier than a heartbeat
thought you’d change, thought i’d change too
but we’re both just old songs on repeat

we’re spinning, spinning but i’m breaking loose
tesla white inside but the sky turns new
i’m warm, i’m patient, but i’m done with proof
maybe i’ve met you, maybe i haven’t yet
but i won’t waste time like i wasted it with you

oh-oh-oh, circles on the dashboard glass
oh-oh-oh, echoes fade, i’m not looking back

spinning

Lyrics:

say—my—name / backbeat / breathe—me—in

soft light sweating on chrome and skin
salt on your lip—pull me in
your pulse says yes before you grin
say less, let the bass begin

say it slow on the backbeat (backbeat)
tell me with your body, not speech

make me lose my halo under strobes tonight
drip that midnight honey, take your time
ride my rhythm, ruin my alibi
ri—ri—ride it till we’re out of light
closer—lower—slower—stay
don’t stop / don’t stop / don’t—

skin on skin on skin 
let the night begin 

silk down your spine, sweat diamonds there
nails write secrets i can’t share
you once asked if i’d die—i swear
i’ll live for this, and keep you there

say it slow on the backbeat (backbeat)
press that secret under your teeth

make me lose my halo under strobes tonight
spill that velvet static down my spine
steal my reason, leave the rest behind
 ri—ri—ride me like we’re out of time
you say go — i say deeper
you say slow — i say keep it

name… name… bite… hold…

lose my halo under strobes tonight
breathe me in and keep the moment tight
don’t stop / don’t stop / don’t—


two heartbeats / one line / stay

stay

A glimpse into my chaotic mind. You’re my favorite tune.

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