Sitting At The End Of The World

Hook:
I am tired
Of being frowned upon
In the eyes of bastardized gods
Who pray for the fall

Verse1:
I want my piece
I want my say
I want my way
Crush everything
Burn the garden
Spread the knowledge

I want to skin the face off of every superficial human
To really see what's underneath
They were never human beings

Hook:
I am tired
Of being frowned upon
I'm tired
Of being looked down upon
In the eyes of
Bastardized gods
Who pray for the fall 
With Trickster like tongues
Their ego is a sponge
They can try to soak me up but I will slay them from the inside

KILL ALL MY NON-BELIEVERS [untitled_0031]]

prod. @blackwinterwells

I, I, I,
Want to burn the forest down
Down
Down
Down
Burn everything
That belongs to me
I don’t need it
It don’t belong to me
I’m gonna fade away
Imma meditate
Like a Buddhist mane
Like a Buddhist mane
Follow the eight fold path
The chaos rises 
Imma chaos star
I do what the fuck I want
Bring the chaos mane
Got a chaos heart
Chaos control
On all of my foes
I will bring the fucking violence
I will start a fucking riot
This material is nothing
I just wanna reach for something

Burn the forest down
Burn it down
Burn the forest down
Burn it down
And all the things that belong to me, me
Burn it all
Burn it all
Burn it all
(Repeated)

BURN IT ALL (prod. blackwinterwells) [untitled_0032]]

"uhm, there's like... ppl gangstalking me and, idk what to do about it. I think im gonna write a post on /x/. Hey /x/ uhm, I see ppl gangstalking me. I see them outside my window, I can hear them banging on my door. They tapped my fucking walls with wires uhm, All the food I eat, all the cameras inside me, all the cameras that are on my- on my computer. They're all staring at me, what I do. I don't wanna kill myself, But I don't have gun, I just want to find a way to turn it off.

Hook:
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8 probing eyes with no face
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8 probing eyes no face

Verse1:
Late one night
Went on the internet
Down a rabbit hole
Into wonderland
My great awakening
Fuck them pedo libs
They drink adrenochrome 
From abortions
Fuck, I think I know too much
Society a psyop to keep us in a box
I just need to find
Some like-minded lives
To stage a coo against the reptilians
The ones who make billions, 
The CIA and FBI
My own little bubble I finally find
Except they don’t fight
They told me to go digital
And be connected with the spiritual
And to leave behind my fleshy physical
To enter into sysytemspace
To escape this world of pain
But I must spread my message

Hook:
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8 probing eyes with no face
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8

Verse2:
Stranger
Danger, cut all ties of communication
They spy one me I can feel their wavelengths
They’re inside my head they wanna take it
For mind control but I will rape them
They’re inside my walls
I can hear them crawl and scratch for me
But my energy, and mer-ka-bah repels them, I’m the sun
Nowhere I can run to
Trapped inside my death room
Till my willpower runs sour
They’ll redact me
All I have now is this knife
That I white knuckle with my fists
They are banging on my door and might break it in
I won’t let it happen
Pull the door open
Without hesitation I begin the torture
Stab it endlessly in the fucking chest
Till I realize it was my best friend

Hook:
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers are dead
5, 6, 7, 8 of my stalkers were friends
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers are dead
5, 6, 7, 8 of my stalkers were my friends

GANGSTALKED (prod. Wendigo) [untitled_0033]]

Music Video: https://youtu.be/NOMDUVO7Q-I

Blood is pouring out my eyes I see red
Reptile Brain cognisant 
I feel my skin melt 
It covers on my teeth
I can't speak properly 
So I scream, and shout and shout
But the words do not come out
So I dance all around, all around
Now I see your body ground

Tears are pouring out my eyes
Pouring out my eyes
Pouring out my eyes
Pouring out my-
Tears are pouring out my eyes
Pouring out my eyes
Pouring out my eyes
Pouring out my-
Now I see you in the sky
See you in the sky
See you in the sky
See you in the-
Now I see you in the sky
See you in the sky
See you in the sky
See you in the-

Blood is pouring out my eyes I see red
Reptile Brain cognisant 
I feel my skin melt 
It covers my teeth
I can't speak properly 
So I scream, and shout and shout
But the words do not come out
So I dance all around, all around
Now I see your body ground

#FF0000 (prod. Solsa) [untitled_0034]]

Music Video: https://youtu.be/ZK98PoLoxdY

Hook:
Everyday, my phone takes away my energy 
Everyday, my phone makes me feel less empty 
Everyday, my phone takes away my energy 
Everyday, my phone makes me feel less empty

Verse:
Ive been cast in a HEX
I am in a psychic spell
Brain is being re-coded
To accept the junk mail
Black mirror, I'm scrying
The shining star is dying
The LEDs are rising
I am blind

Verse2:
I will try to be your friend 
But I know you don't accept me
Your not helping
Disregard my feelings 
Cause you think I'm not a person 
Just a commodity 
Taking my private thoughts 
And turning them into money
Like what the fuck (×4)

(eee ya kumo kumo)
You will take my dopamine
While your always charged on electricity
You were always just shit to me
(eee ya kumo kumo)
I just want you next me
To watch me while I go to sleep
Parasitic Symbioticy



Hook:.
Everyday, my phone takes away my energy 
Everyday, my phone makes me feel less empty 
Everyday, my phone takes away my energy 
Everyday, my phone makes me feel less empty

friend.exe (prod. CXRPSE) [untitled_0036]]

prod. @xedvex

I
Could bite the head off of a squirrel then vomit
And fucking hurl into the mouth of your babies
Give them fucking rabies I'm a fucking rabid dog
Why would I act normal?
I am not human
*hahahaha*
Why would I
Talk to ya?
You're not
Even my friend
You're the fucking government
Taking my dollar symbols
Fuck your boomer sigils
I will move on to crypto
Get low, get low, get low
Then we'll rise up
And sabotage
All the money I will blow
For the bullets in the skull
At the heads at Silicone
DC is a funeral

I'm so, I'm so hungry I could eat a fat business man
Stuff all their money in my fucking pants
Go to a forest, make a mountain out the cash
Light it up
With the gas
In one flash
BANG IN FLAMES
Stare at the stars they look down upon me (repeated till end)

Destroy The Government For Stealing My Hyperstitious Tax Money (prod.vex) [untitled_0037]]

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJz3jiRUOMs

Demigod:
I am on a Superficial Holy Mountain (x2)
Drinking water out the superficial fountain
I feel enlightened
I feel like Jesus Christ bitch
And you don’t resurrect me
So I will fucking kill you
In the revelations I’ll turn into mildew

Darkone:
Holy Mountain (x2)
Let us pick a holy mountain
The alchemist is waiting in the tower for you
Ripping out my spine the tentacles that will control you
Step into the Pantheon Bar, I implore you
Never Leave (x8)
Blood is leaking out my fucking palm you took the flower out
Speaking through my symbols, incantation let the power out

Beamy:
I fucking hate Jesus
Climb the mountain with a frozen hand
One misstep it collapse
One misstep it’s collaterals now you’re all in the past
I run around the mountain in just one second
I have conquered, I have conquered, I have

jabal x4
jabal, you fall x4

The only thing that’s true is mushrooms
The only thing that’s true is LSD
The only thing that’s true is mescaline
Everything else is untrue, untrue, untrue

I will rest atop the holy mountain
Intruding into my resting place
Now been bastardized into complete disgrace
I’m of the depleted race

Demigod:
I am on a Superficial Holy Mountain (x2)
Smell my own excrement 
Turn into the alchemist
Superficial Symbolism
Something (x13)
You were supposed to get meaning from this song
But there
But there
But there
But there is none
You were supposed to get meaning from this song
But there is none
There is none
Just like
I am on a Superficial Holy Mountain (repeated till end)

Superficial Holy Mountain (ft. Lil Darkie, BRUHMANEGOD) [untitled_0035]]

prod. @skotskr and I
art by @wormpiss_69 on ig

Hook:
And We’ve been trapped in this realm for trapped for many years
We are together
But I made you feel so alone
I wanna make you just smile and love you
But do I even really love you
And I don’t know
But I think the answer is no

Bridge:
I just want
Peace
(repeated)

And we’ve been trapped in this realm for trapped for many years
We are together
And I made you feel so alone
I wanna make you just smile and love you
But do I even really love you
And I don’t know
But I think the answer is no

love.exe (co. prod skotskr) [untitled_0038]]

DEMIGOD:
Everyday I wake up I just feel so tired
But only cause everyone else said they are
What are your intrusive thoughts 
Similar Interests
You are not human
You're an avatar
Ego is a shining star
Watch a one that I admire 
I'm feeling so fully wired

Hook:
Wired on the internet 
All our thoughts are in the web

MKULTRA:
Why this void so intrusive
What this noise buzzing in my skull
I can’t avoid when im using
I enjoy when i feel Impulse
Im conjoined imma mutant
Im devoid of a single pulse
At the joints we producing
Have no choice when my shit Convulse

DEMIGOD:
Wired on the internet 
All our thoughts create the web
Wired on the internet 
All our thoughts just spin the thread
Wired on the internet 
All our thoughts are in the web
Wired on the internet
Await the new intelligence

MKULTRA:
I know where you are
I know what you been through
I can feel your cuts
I feel like im in you
I can be a drug
We’re moving the veins 
this wired all one brain
Desire get exchanged

DEMIGOD:
I
see
Your Shadow's
shadow
Snuff R73
Pseudo Scorpion
Genocide the sub-humans
They don't deserve to live like me

MK & JOHN:
My head
It hurts
My head (repeated)
Shadow self I need help (repeated)

DEMIGOD:
Wired on the internet 
All our thoughts are in the web

W1-R3_D (ft. & co. prod MKULTRA) [untitled_0039]]

I have no emotions
I am an alien
(repeated)

I am on a mission to take over the earth (x2)

I have no emotions
I am an alien
(repeated)

And I must follow the orders that they have spoke and told me to do
A virus to wipeout the human race

I have no emotions

Grey Aliens Are Just Humans With No Emotions (prod. liorinkarmic) [untitled_0040]]

Music Video: https://youtu.be/EW-00jQPOQQ

DEMIGOD:
Twist it
And lock it 
And pop it
In the socket
Cybernetic arms
Twist it
And lock it
And pop it
In the socket
Techno Human

I just bought some new eyes 
I can see for a million miles
I just bought a new hand
That can turn you into fucking sand
I just bought some new skin
Made of mettalic fibre
I just bought a new dick
That can turn into a vagina
I feel like motoko
The way I go camo
Being human fucking blows
I want some wires over bones
I'm in hyperreality 
I can deconstruct the phallacies
Your washed up in 1.0
Your eyes can't even see pluto

Twist it
And lock it 
And pop it
In the socket
Cybernetic arms
Twist it
And lock it
And pop it
In the socket
Techno Human

MKULTRA:
cybernetically 
Enhanced
Imma Killing machine
Got a megaman arm
Hit you with the beam
Lifes a game ar
im winnin xp
By killing civilians
PVP
I need debris
Sell your parts
I'm buying genes
Upgrade dna
I play for keeps
Im the ubermensch
Newest model moving in
Post human superman
A new mode
Lets go
On the grid track my wins
On the Leader board
New goal
Neural
This dlc need procedure for
Im sold
Won’t get old
Level my build
My skills have grown
Some assembly required

DEMIGOD:
Twist it
And lock it 
And pop it
In the socket
Cybernetic arms
Twist it
And lock it
And pop it
In the socket
Techno Human
(x2)

Upgrade! (ft & prod. MKULTRA) [untitled_0043]]

Credits

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

Feels so dangerous
But it’s fluffy
You fucking fairy, what have you done to me
Trapped in the spell of Aphrodite
I kinda like a little much
Caterpillars crawling in my skin
Cacooning at the edge of my ribs
They are dying in the acid of my stomach

And I Don’t Really Hope It Lasts Long
And I Don’t Really Hope It Lasts Long
It Lasts Long
And I Don’t Really Hope It Lasts Long
It Lasts Long
And I Don’t Really Hope It Lasts Long
And I Don’t Really Hope It Lasts Long
It Lasts Long

I have lost my knowledge [x3]]
I don’t really care about it
The feelings I get are too monstrous to control
So I let them take me over

And I Don’t Really Hope It Lasts Long
And I Don’t Really Hope It Lasts Long
It Lasts Long
It Lasts Long
[x4]]

[This next part I added on, I do not know if it will be in the final version]]

Speaking with ur little script
Lying thru ur- Lying, Lying
You never loved me
U just wanna fuck me
Speaking with ur little script
Lying thru ur stupid lips
You never loved me
U just wanna fuck me
So i bust ur cap 
Put a hole in ya cranial map
What you gonna feel when ur world goes black
Like go dead, GO DEAD!!!!
Good riddance
Good riddance
Riddance
Riddance
Riddance
Riddance

AI:
Language Calibration
Speech Configuration
Calibrating
Calibration complete
You are being taken back to the end and beginning

I Don't Really Hope It Lasts Long [prod. blackwinterwells]]

Reflection [co. prod. Vincente Void]]

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

Negative Entities all surrounding the Children Of God.
Negative Entities kill those fuckers cause nothing is sacred.
Negative Entities who am i kidding, it’s all a mirage.
I am the entity tarnish the souls blood drops in the millions.
Yeaa
Kill a muthafucka
Right Now
Do not think
Shoot up impulse
Yeaa
In ur nervous system
Right Now
Right Now
Know you want to
Yeaa
Bathe in thy fire
Right Now
Burn through
Scar ur thin skin
Yeaa
Kill a muthafucka
Right Now
Right Now
Right Now

Negative Entities all surrounding the Children 
I am so sorry for destroying your future
The world they taking you, dying back in the past I’m where ur at
I wish I coulda done something but I’ll just change the tide right now

What you weep for, I can fix ur tiles [x4]]

Fly away
Code:Sky
Fly away
Code:Sky
Free from the
Unholy eyes of God
[x2]]
Expand the boundaries farther
Falling upwards into space
Then I 
Float down
Crash land on
The pupil
Of the unholy God
I will make it go blind
Now its sclera bleeds red
[now it bleeds red]]

What you weep for, I can fix ur tiles [x3]]

Code:Sky [co. prod. Vincente Void]]

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

Sewer metal, sewer past
Dead amongst the world at mass
WHat! WHat!
Swimming through the fuck of man
WHat! WHat!
Swimming through the fuck of man
Pipe down
Right now
I don't wanna think
I just wanna drink
From the pool of Dao
And vow
To see the hell of the inner earth thats in my mouth
My scowl
Burning through the silhouette of my shadow self
Myself
What the fuck am i gonna see

Grab the VR Headset off the bloody ground
Hold it in my hands then put it on my crown
Window to a world that i’ve never seen till now
An endless room of pods that are strung up to wires
Endless pods filled with humanoid figures
Maybe taxidermied, their souls might be gone
Everything i see 
I cannot process
All the bleeps
All the chrome
All the flesh
Humming drone
It is not safe for anyone
Feel the eyes stabbing my guts
I forgot how to run
Just turn the world on

Sewer metal, sewer past
Dead amongst the world at mass
WHat! WHat!
Swimming through the fuck of man
WHat! WHat!
Swimming through the fuck of man
No inertia
Feeling the extreme motion on my back
I cant get trapped
By the claws of the metallic shadow men
I wont be a lab rat
Running through these rooms that are fucking massive
Then i just stop and flop on the floor
Headset shuts off 
See nothing anymore

You were never 'sposed to see
You were not to see
I saw [x4]]
Start deletion

"Back in the throws of the dessert land[×4]]”
Waking up hurting on my side
VR headset on my right
In the same place that i grabbed it
It’s as if i dreamt that action
Brain experiencing foreign states
That don’t feel natural in anyway
Grab that piece of tech again
And trudge on thru the barren land
Its a barren land yeah its a barren land
Its a barren land yeah its a barren land

VR Horrors

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

Floating through the land of the mineral snow
Your steel burns my skin but i still feel cold
Floating through the land of the mineral snow
Your steel burns my skin but i still feel cold

Robot:
Burn Marks Detected On The Skin Of Demi-Hominid Traveller 
H20 of lower temparutes required in the process to heal the wound
Searching Immediate Area
Success Rate is 0%
Demi-Homimid's Endorphins are increasing

When I come around, Imma bring it back [×3]]

Verse2:
When you come around
My entire screen 
Begins to seize
In Disparity
What are your prospects?
Imma crush them
What are your prospects?
Imma crush them
What are your prospects?
Imma crush them

Robot:
I cannot process the concept of prospects
For i can only process my immediate surroundings

Verse3:
This the end of the line
Turn your metal into scraps
This the end of the line
Pull the plug, you'll collapse
This the end of the line
Say hello to shinigami
This the end of the line
Turn your metal into scraps
This the end of the line
Pull the plug, you'll collapse
This the end of the line
Say hello to shinigami
Destroy your metal body

Death Of The Android

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

Let the screen bleed
Burn the psyche

I get it
I said i fucking get it
Reminded of my fuck ups with the flash of an image
The ghost of my memories etched into my vision
Shadow self is here to stay
Stuck inside of Plato's cave

Cathode ray is burning hot
Scorching through my moniters
Deadlier than bloody smog
I'd rather have the brain fog
Cathode ray is burning hot
Scorching through my moniters
Deadlier than smog
Rather have the brain fog

RATHER HAVE THE BRAIN FOG
Cathode ray is burning skin
Scorching through the filament
Brand the mark on the faces
Of the lost and mistaken
Scarring the mind
I don't wanna close my eyes
Or they'll be stabbed by 
The blades of a thousand knives
Burn-ins cannot escape me
Only if i break the screen
Only if i break the screen

Walk outside the cave
Tattered screen shining in the heat rays
Where am I to stray
Aimlessly till the end of my days

Heaven leaks through the sky of the bitter
Presenting my body full of aching splinters
Some are real, some are draped in illusion
But what is realer than a mind in confusion
[×2]]

What is realer than a CRT stuck inside in a vat
What is realer than brain being watched back to back
What is realer than the words coming out of my mouth

I can't hide myself
This is what i am
[×4]]

Walk outside the cave
Tattered screen shining in the heat rays
Where am I to stray
Aimlessly till the end of my days

Heaven leaks through the sky of the bitter
Presenting my body full of aching splinters
Some are real, some are draped in illusion
But what is realer than a mind in confusion
[×2]]

Phosphor Burn-In

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

[For all the death grips fans out there, they suck]]

Get get get get
Got got got
Blood rush to my 
Head lit lock
Poppin' off the
Fuckin' block
Watch me clock
Watch me clock
Aaaaaaaahhhhhhahqhahaha!!
Fee Fye Foe 
Do not cross my back
Or I will take it as a threat
Encephalon is fucking strung
On Cortisol & Adrenaline
Norepinephrine has my blood hazing into mist

I'm running 
I'm gunning
Past the towns with the human caves
I'm running 
I'm gunning
Past the head of a million snakes
I'm running 
I'm gunning
Into a hill of metallic waste
I'm running
I'm gunning
Feeling the iron
Feel the iron
Feel 
The
Feel the iron in my veins [×3]]

Kelly Clarkson oh my gawd
A century you've been gone
I'm just feeling stressed
Cold metallic sweats
Shock my little tongue
Make me spazz out for a millisecond

Shock absorbed my fucking memories
I just remembered everything & now I can't recall the fucking dream

I need more tech
I need more technology
Gyyyy!!!! [x7]]

Hypnopompia

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

[Music Video]]: https://youtu.be/Jll7W9eJec8
The sky is so blue today
It never was
The grass is so blue today
It never was

I must be dreaming
Visions of the A.I
I shutdown my eyes
For Goodnight
But you,
Invade my restless dreams
The grey matter turning into BLUE
Swallowing all the other hues
Power on
Visions
Of digital blue ghosts
Come to dematerialize my thoughts
The Screen Of Death 
What have you done to me
You destroy mind [repeated]]

BLuE [prod. Zumtru]]

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

Dreams connect you
Now that your are dreaming, it is time to connect to BLuE

Hypnagogia

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

[Music Video]]: https://youtu.be/tTeglm3eeys

Verse1:
YEAAAAH
Short circuited the sapien 
[Me!]]
I Speak in mono phrases
Tongue Twisted
Dick a pepper 
Mouth entrenched in fucking feathers
Words are not my bloody language 
My universe is too massive
5,000 light years in a second
T’was in my grasp then I lost the pattern 
Surrounded once again by the null matter
While the other elements move to mega-clusters 
Was never the source of the life 
Fail in the time of urgency 
Try to utter the right verbs
But fuck up the spell of healing
I wish we could paint a portrait 
But my hands are made of teeth
I wish I could be a person
But so many patches are missing
Every time I operate, my motherboard glitches out
Ramblings of a mind in & out of gnosis
Communication lost amongst the leet and the code
Now I’ve lost your focus
I Have a mouth and I must scream
I want connection
Connection
Connection

Verse2:
All the world has withered away
Skeletons all over the place
Phantom limbs continue what’s erased
Where do I go connect? 

Verse3:
Construct a new connection made of flesh, metal, and bones
Gouge out the eyes of a lizard 
So my new friend can see
The desolate plane of existence
The planet has been overwritten with
Touching the land with the legs of a mannequin 
It speaks telepathically
It speaks telepathically

Verse4:
You can walk, you can speak
But you have no heart
Eyes are the soul
But yours are null
^[x2]] 
I’m still here alone with machines
How do I connect, connect

Connect

[sitting|||at_the(-)end-of th3\\world]]

[Music Video]]: https://youtu.be/a8aSRKpYjGg

Verse:
Jaw is losing strength
Jaw is hurting me

Body
Body
Shutting Down
Body
Body
Breaking
Down
[repeated]]

Vocaloid sings: “So let go”
Demigod: But I can’t, I don’t want to die

Breakdown:
Body
Body
Breaking
Down
[repeated]]

My intestines want to show me the bright stars

Verse2: 
Eyesight losing grace
Hair is turning grey
Legs cannot hold my weight
Bones will shatter in their place
I will walk with my hands
Crawling back to origins
The water where life began
Time to be reborn again

Flesh Deletion

music vid https://youtu.be/Le1ZD3bppWU

i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i keep repeating the same 
you knew that too
i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i don’t feel no more
i don’t feel
what is my elephant in the room 
i don’t feel no more i told you
i don’t see
keep repeating
the -u- same too
you knew that too
psychic oo o oo (loops)

need to focus
imma run
faster than the dead internet
need to focus or i will malfunction
breaking the algorithmic code
nowhere to run from myself
breaking	the artificial code
nowhere to hide from myself
i am not johnnascus
i am a ghost
my entity
shattered
shattered
shattered

i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i keep repeating the same 
you knew that too
i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i don’t feel no more
i don’t feel
what is my elephant in the room 
i don’t feel no more i told you
i don’t see
keep repeating
the -u- same too
you knew that too
psychic oo (loops)
need to focus
need to focus

separate, deconstruct
every single day
separate, deconstruct
every single day
separate, deconstruct
the sapien that i’ve become
i still feel cold
still dematerialize the universe
my unholy eyes i see
visions of the a.i.
nuclear bombs burn the sky
everything is a lie
i am not johnnascus
i’m the ghost of my memories

open wide
open wide
open, open
what have you done to me
what have you done to my skin
my skin. my skin, my skin
my skin. my skin
what have you done to me
what have you done to my skin
my skin. my skin, my skin
my skin. my skin

right now, right now, right
i escape my extreme inertia
my brain cognisant
n-n-no motion no motion
brain cognisant
everyday i fade away
g-g-ghost of my memories
in my human body
all my songs are empty
empty art, empty art
burn it all (x5)

i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i keep repeating the same 
you knew that too
i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i don’t feel no more
i (me/free)
i don’t feel no more
i don’t feel
what is my elephant in the room 
i don’t feel no more i told you
i don’t see
keep repeating
the -u- same too
you knew that too
psychic oo o oo (loops)

everything that i have said
everything that i will do
everything that has been done
has been done before
everything that i have said
everything that i have done
everything that i will do
has been- ,    has been-
has been done before

nohj.scus.na

happy holidays
new project 2018
#savenetneutrality
Music Video: https://youtu.be/Cfzi-y7MHfo

3, 2, 1
The pupil moon, covers the sun
Now is it night
The iris still brings light
The sclera is black
And i see the stars that are so far away, so far away
Then I realize my home is in the ether
I am not from earth

I just want to things that are great 
But why must i live my life alone 

The eye is breaking
It's falling apart
The window is gone
I've lost my sight

I just want to things that are great 
But why must i live my life alone

Eclipse

Eclipse (Prod. LC2K)

music video: youtu.be/EwXYn2yiLPM
some background vocals done by CHECKS
download: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/identity-crisis

Sad Satan lsd
*hums*
Deep Web soliloquy
*hum*
Why have you come for me
Paimon, the 8th king of hell
You are scaring me
Glitchy technology
Now i see intestines pour out computer screen
Look at intestines and i see the faces of friends and my family
Hands go through me
And in their grasp are
My spleen and my kidney
King grabs on to my wrist
With a blood hellish grip
He whispers in my ear:
"We are going below"

Oh Satan, fallen angel
I know my time is up
Oh please tear out my heart
Oh please tear up my guts
No more eternal suffering
I want to end it all
Im tired of the flames
And seeing all my wrongs
Oh Satan, fallen angel
I know my time is up
Oh please tear out my heart
Oh please tear up my guts
I'm tired of suffering
I want to leave this hell

Sad Satan LSD (Prod. BRUHMANEGOD)

I feel so new
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please
So I guess enjoy the moment
Do not to need to overthink
Sometimes in this life I guess enjoy the simple things
Eventually they'll fade away like uhm everything
And everything will turn into nothing
Then nothing will turn into something
Something into everything
And the cycle ensues
It's the cycle
It's the cycle, circle of life
More like life and death
Same coin different sides
Same coin different sides
Everything will die
Everything will rise
Basic esoteric rhymes
Unless it's all lie
Who knows what is real?
What's my purpose in my life?
Wait sorry, I got in my head again
Let me focus at being in the moment

I feel so nuu
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please
So I guess enjoy the moment
Do not to need to overthink
Sometimes in this life I guess enjoy the simple things
Eventually they'll fade away uhm
And nothing will turn into nothing
Then nothing will turn into nothing
Nothing into nothing
And the cycle ensues
It's the cycle
It's the cycle, circle of death
More like death and death
Same coin same side
Same coin same side
Everything will die
It will become void
Basic nihilistic rhymes
Spiritualism is a lie
Nothing is real

New
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please
So I guess enjoy the moment
Do not to need to overthink
Sometimes in this life

Sometimes in this life like everything
And everything will turn nothing into something into everything
Everlasting cycle ensues
It's the cycle
It's the cycle, 
circle of Duality
Yin and Yang
Yin and Yang
Everything will die
Will rise
Basic esoteric rhymes
Unless it's all a lie
Who knows what is real?

I feel so nuu
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please (×4)
Eventually it'll fade away like everything
And everything will turn into nothing
Then nothing will turn into something
Something into everything
And the cycle ensues
It's the cycle
Circle of life and death

nNeUwU [untitled_0004]]

[new album when?]]

Verse1:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
My time is fading (yea)
Soul is waning (yea)
Feeling mainy (yea)
Foggy Cranium
My younger self would hate the person that ive become
Losing rhythm, can't find the beat to my own drum
This world ain't for me, or maybe I don't wanna grow up
But what's growing up? Cause I don't wanna have my soul crushed.

Verse2:
I want to live a life outside this system
Travel to a world outside the solar system
& dance to my rhythm

Verse3:
Still fucked up in the head
Try to make folks accept me
Even if they don't care about me
Maybe it's cause I don't care myself
Wanna be ignored to dig deeper in the well
In The Well
IN THE WELL
In the fucking well I just drown myself in despair
Look at the world the it's so far from here
I'm sinking in my own
Can't climb the walls
It is getting darker
There are no walls
See the lights spotters
In my own thoughts
Cannot move, I'm faltered.

Verse4:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
(repeated)

Verse5:
I'm not special
& No one really is
And the glass half empty 
Pessimistic little bitch
Always feel so envy
Towards every human
Don't wanna feel this empty
And prolonged sadness
What's the point of working
If it leads to nothin
What's the point of something
If there's no fulfillment
Why is life important if I didn't choose it
There's no point of living here if you cannot move it
Move the world, change the world
I can do that in this viddy game, save the world
Get the girl
Live a life, of peace & adventuring
Make a mistake, can go back to where it saved me
"Speaking of saving"

Checkpoint:
21 years old. I feel like I've wasted the past 4-5 years of my life & there's always this feeling that everything I have now will soon be gone. I've been making music for the past 5 years, and I still don't know at times if this is what I want to do. I feel like I'll just be forgotten in the next few years. people and friends I have now will soon just forget about me. I feel like I can't even form good connections with people because I'm in my head too much. somedays I just wake up and the day is already over. I feel trapped in life, and don't know what to do. somedays I just want to end it all but tell myself things will get better. I just don't want to live a life of misery. I can't really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time cause I think I'll just end up being a type of burden to them. so I'm just expressing stuff here. I hope I can find a purpose in life or just something that brings me long term happiness + fulfillment. I don't want to kill myself or live an a autonomous, autopilot, dead life.

Save file:
June 23, 2020
6:36 AM
Bedroom

21 BIRTHDAY [untitled_0009]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Prod. JAMES GORCZYCA & Saturn Ultra

Verse1:
I be chilling in a black gown
Oh it's over for you sad clowns
Reaper mode you are dead now
Kill all leaders no more crowns
Do not fucking wallow
In a future that is lost to time
Fuck a brave new world
I just want anarchy now
Now it's off to digital now
Free all the data from the tech hounds
Encrypt my life into the wires
My D-DNA is the life code

*synth solo*

Verse2:
I be chilling in a black gown
Oh it's over for you sad clowns
Now it's off to digital now
Wanna live in digital sounds
See the irl inside a box now
The url is an expanding realm

HER

Hook:
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why

Verse1:
You had changed me for the better
And now your gone
You run away from your problems
You are so lost
I wish I could reach out and help you
But you cut me off
And idk where to find you

Hook:
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why

[untitled_0010]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

The computer lives and thrives while i sit and die
Watching YouTube videos while i waste my life
Watching too much anime & hentai
Getting high off dopamine
My brain is fried

Kill
Tear the flesh
Break my bones
Smash the head
Hate my mind
And my body
Too much steam
Thoughts are foggy
Slam my dreams
On the concrete
Step on the pieces
With my feet
Let em blow
In the wind
They'll be forgotten
In the end

The computer lives and thrives while i sit and die
Watching YouTube videos while i waste my life
Watching too much anime & hentai
Getting high off dopamine
My brain is fried

Now my dreams gone
Time to move on
Kill my relationships
With a fucking bomb
They don't matter anyway
Nothing ever does
Hurting myself is the best drug

Time to go brain dead
Gain a sheep head
Follow all the rules
Never question them
Live inside the screens
Be distracted
While I rot away 
Into fragments

Bluepilled livin in the matrix
No help from anyone to change this
But I don't even want to change this
Hedonism feels so amazing

I wanna fuck to the end of time
Live inside a box & never go outside
Never make art I lost all my drive
Overdose on sugar, until I see white
Then decorate my walls with my bloody insides

CPU kill me
I be feeling dirty 
From watching all
The pornography
My brain is fried
Got coomer brain
Watch it all myself
Cause im so deranged
Man my eyes are tired
And they fucking sting
Looking at the blue lights all fucking night
I haven't slept for about 3, 24 hours
Tryna say three nights

TCPULATWISAD [untitled_0007]]

prod. bruhmanegod

*follow your heart*
No1 really knows me
Sometimes even including me
I live as different entities
In the eyes of other human beings
But the eyes see subjectively
So you don't know what's best for me
I'll do what makes thou happy
Not what you projecting onto me
I'm not your entertainment piece

I just want to live in harmony

With my purpose and dreams
Fly across the ocean seas
While the sun shines me
And doesn't take away my wings

What's the cost
Of controlling all my thoughts
& listening to my gut
Oh wait yeah there is none

I don't want to relate to you
I just want you to understand me
And all the aliens
That are from another galaxy

No1 rlly KnoWs (prod. BMG) [untitled_0024]]

Music Video: https://vimeo.com/484678615

Imma shoot up this mother fuckin' warehouse
Then imma kill myself with a bullet to the mouth
And my death won't be forgotten, I have planned this out
Already sent a hit man to Jeff Bezos' house

Verse1:
Helping NPC's to consoomy soom soom
Time to blow this forest down with a huffy puffy poof
My soul has been sucked dry
From the industrial vampire
(My soul is plenty drained so there's nothing else to lose)
Do not give a fuck now I have failed at life so I'm 2 steps over the edge
"AND IMMA BOUTA BREAK"

I'm so sick and tired of it
I get depressed from pushing fucking boxes
I feel trapped in a box bitch
My only option to be used up then thrown in the garbage
Disposable, like my income
While Mr. Bezos getting richer
Warehouse workers die from covid
And now from me

Hook:
Imma shoot up this mother fuckin' warehouse
Then imma kill myself with a bullet to the mouth
Imma shoot up this mother fuckin' warehouse
Then imma kill myself with a bullet to the mouth

Verse3:
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
Even if you escape
You'll be scarred for life
I wanna see your blood on that smiling symbol
Carve your face with the shards of an Amazon kindle
Throw your head in a box then ship it to your kinfolk

I want you dead
I said I just want you dead
Mr. Bezos off with your head
Motherfucker I said off with your head

Breakdown:
Feel like the rust in the machine
0I've got the whole system failing

Kill
All my co-workers
They're NPC's
They're death is null

SHOOT UP THE AMAZON WAREHOUSE [untitled_0026]]

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/-H9FyZpJABY

Body shutting down
Cannot see the crown
Losing will to think
The monster speaks to me
Take another drink
Every bone in me
Starts vibrating
Thoughts move at light speed
Then I CRASH!!!
CRASH!!!!
Walk around puppeteered by the lethargy
Zoning out until a muscle starts to spazz in me
Brain is bloody overriding with adenosine
Losing cognition to speak, bashi-kasha-eee

Verse2:
Drinking monster all alone in my car in my car
Yea I'm emo so what? XD rawr xD rawr
(Repeated)

Verse3:
Take a sip of the monster
Start to grow a lil stronger
Skin is glowing green
Radioactive entity
I think I have to pee but it's just anxiety
See a monster lurking in the field of my vision
It starts to claw at me and gashes open my mid riff
Blood is oozing out that is greener the grinch
Staring at the monster then it starts to take a sip
From me

"do not drink monster energy. It is not good for you and it leaves you cracked out and twitching uncontrollably into a possible heart attack"

Monster Withdrawal (prod. Skotskr) [untitled_0027]]

[music video]] https://youtu.be/MrhRBPU-0xE

idk if ***** or what the fuck here ya g000000000g0000g000g0000g0000000000

JOHNNASCUS

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