also im just a sucker for long ass songs:3

I'm so free 
And I'm so alive
But
I am so confused
I don't know what to do
When I finally know the truth
Why does it faze me
Cause I couldn't take the pain (and be so shady is the only thing I can hear after this)

And the curse has been lifted
But I feel so different
As if I'm more pure and gifted than I was ever before
For this cannot hurt me anymore 

I want all I want is
I just want to die
why am I alive 
look into my eyes in my eyes 
these people probably need to bring my demise 
these people know the truth but don't accept the truth 
and I feel so high that I just want to fly
escaping with desire 

Yeah yeah yeah 
escaping with desire
and that's why I'm on fire
and new flames so high
escaping with desire
And made a new fire
And made a new fire 
it'll take you higher 
the views of a squire (I'm not sure about this one)
There're so many people I killed 
and I did it for the thrill
and I feel so bad
now so many that I killed
now they can't go back they're just some meat sacks 
decomposing in the dirt 
rotting in the earth
and its cuz of the curse
that the gods gave me
it didn't fix anything

 just made stuff more crazy
now all I can do is just mourn
and I wish I could be reborn 

I wish I just want to die 
why am I alive look into my eyes 
people probably need to bring my demise  
these people know the truth 
but don't accept the truth 
and I feel so high
I want to fly to the sky
escaping what the people desire

LUNA

Born To Die

VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F8bs3jOhMUk
lyrics

babe sun 
you tell me what i want
better in my head 
babe sun 
better in my head 
yeah finally i let go 
knew things you didn’t know 
i owe it all to you 
i know you know it’s true 
i own you i love it 

i didn’t wanna believe 

putting hands on stove
it’s hot and cold 
i still bleed baby 
you reside in the sunlight 
i can never get the words or the things that i done right 
it’s mountain on top baby 
calm me down feeling crazy 
only you can break or make me 
oh will you please save me
watching going home 
wait up hit my phone

art by @dinoalienspacepunk

believing in something even if you know its bullshit (prod.rokuhonda)[VIDEO IN DESC.]

Found by XEMERZ on a random Russian website, recovered by me. Originally uploaded to John’s SoundCloud for 2 hours on Valentine’s Day in 2019. Cover Art found by Genius.com User: “Malevolent :3”

Lyrics:
I’m sorry for the things I’ve done (done)
That’s apologizing to myself and I don’t feel alright
I feel like before the bloody [?] fuck with valentine
Tomorrow be back to normal, it’s another [?]
Eyes creep to the back of my mind

One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
Yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh,

Go, I wanna just float
Float above the clouds in the skys and make it my home
Castle in the sky, float
Fuck a earthly love
I don’t want to feel pitty 
I want to stay with you 

Im sorry, for the things that i have done (done)
(Purple sticker, purp-purple sticker)

Valentine Blues

[FOUND] Johnnascus- Valentine Blues(prod.sleepingforyears)

#XTREMETRAP i love you guys, thank you for being here...

DUMB - W/ BRUHMANEGOD X LICH TYCOON X 4SHLEY - (PROD. ABI ) MIXED BY DJ 73RR0R1X7

I AM JOHNNASCUS

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bleeding (remastered version)

Life 2 The Fullest

The Demigod has returned to the Dark Side Of Nature
DSON Episode VII: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAcQDdsWKKE

Lyrics: It's my 17 birthday yeah
Celebrate it on a Thursday yeah
People say it's the worst day ahh
But to me it's the best day
But No! just kidding I don't celebrate it
Ahh birthdays are so overrated
Woaah look at the world we created
Now everyone thinks that they are special
Why would I even celebrate the first day of alive
When on the same day he, she and they have already committed suicide
All you fake loving owners get away from me
I will bark and chomp your fingers off if you try to touch me
Get away (x3)

Grand return to the dark side of nature at seventeen
Take my spleen, grind it up
Use it as your special cream
But you're the mortal type
And I'm the immortal like
And I will take this world
And I will take it's light
Your birthday's a waste of breath yeah
Cutting off your flimsy head yeah
Celebrate to your stupid death
*screams*

17 BIRTHDAY

First half prod sae
Second half with guitar by yours truly

Demigods Do Not Love Humans (but it sounds like demigods do not love you lol)
The young demigod was never supposed to
(repeated)

Fuck Love
The Young Demigod does not love a human

When I look into her eyes
I see my entire life
And i live on to the age
And I'll die with her someday
But it was all a lie
A beautiful of a lie
Demigods do not love a human(x4)

Demigods Do Not Love Humans

Demigods Do Not Love Humans (Prod. sae & JOHNNASCUS)

I don't like this dream
I must wake up
Fuck this life
I'll break out the prison of time

# 1 9
I am 19
Wasted another year made no change
I've only made some change
Guess im grown
Living on my own
Thanks to GI bill
Cause really i, am so bloody broke
Social
Anxiety still
Got me by the neck
Can't be like "fuck it fuck it"
Cause i
overthink all the time
Wanna leave the old me
Put him to the crows
Wanna kill myself 
To regrow
Anything to break the cycle
The cycle of habits, cycle of habits

Muhfuckin everything
That i wanna be mentally
Is the opposite of me currently
And it's been like this since i was 15
i like the thoughts of it but take no steps
But when i do, i just back track 
Or i just go around and around (repeated)

Fuck this predetermined life
I need to move forward (x2)
I just need to move forward
Fuck the voice in my head, I'll control it

Verse4: 
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
I am 19 and i must grow
Breakthrough on my own

19 BIRTHDAY

20 BIRTHDAY Lyrics
Being: 
JOHNNASCUS, how do you feel? (x2)
I don't know

Verse1: 
Livid 20
2 decades
I've been on and off
Wandering felt lost
I was scared to make a difference
To move out my box
So I stayed complacent
Never fucking changing
Always told myself that this time I would make that change but I flake out last minute
Falling back to the prison
Never opened up to anyone
For any problem I ever had
Kept it all in my fucking head
And my fucking heart
Demigod open up
So
Annoying
I
Say
The Same
Shit
Every fucking
Song
Song
Song
Song

Being: 
Then what are you doing?
You know how to escape.
You're not trying hard enough.
You know the answers to your questions.
You're staying here for a reason cause you're scared.
Don't be scared. Embrace the chaos.


Verse2:
Livid 20
2 decades
I am still so young
I can feel the change
From my actions
Not through words
Words only take you so far
Till you must alter the physical

Verse3:
Tok
Tik Tok (x2)
As I walk (x2)
In a world
I don't know (x2)
cause im scared (x2)
I am scared (x2)
Cause...
Something new..
That I have never experienced
But why
Should I 
Be afraid
Just Go (repeated)
Just see the world (x4)

I see. (x2)
And now you see.
And you know what you must do.
It's all been laid out to you.
You already-
You already taken the first steps.
Just keep going and don't look back.

20 BIRTHDAY

one of my favs from the album so just wanted to remix/flip it haha

800db Cloud Remix [100 gecs]

"what happens to the man... who wakes from and endless dream?"
cover art done by @zuhblorg on insta


Calling my
Calling my
Open Third Eye
Decalcify
I see the truth
I look at the sky
I see the stars
Turn into eyes
Staring at my skin
I feel unsafe
I cannot hide
Or escape this place
Run into my home
Close the blinds
I still feel their gaze behind
The motherfucking doors and windows
Bulges start to grow out the ceiling and walls hundreds of them all transform into eyes

Eyes spread apart
They group in pairs
I see a mouth form with some teeth
Face bulging out the wall, it leaks
Their necks grow, just pointing towards me

Bodies coming out the ceiling
Bodies coming out the wall
Bodies are forever screaming
Louder than a jet taking off
My ears will not go deaf
Constantly hearing and feeling the pain of 1,000 screams
Keeping me trapped in their flesh made building
There's no exit unless I tear the flesh
Start chewing

10 years and they're s-
10 years and they're s-
10 years and they're still screaming
Went from some humanoids to an unrecognizable meat sack
Now the sky is one iris
The screamers now have turned violent

10 Million Years
Still Hiding From Them
Always Hear Them Near
Screams Claw at My Ears
Iris Blew My Clear
Now They Torture Me For
A million years
A billion years
A trillion years
Endless years

Long Dream [untitled_0006]]

Second half prod by JOHNNASCUS

My Archangels want me dead
Face the wrath of God, eternal damnation
My creator formed me in his image
But now he wants me destroyed
So that must mean he hates his inner & wants to put an end to his immortal lineage

Angels falling from the sky like asteroids.
Crash into the earth, bring destruction.
I live every single day in fear
Hiding from the light overseers
Wheels of fire shine as bright as lightning
1 thousand eyes that just shred my body
Find the watchers and they won't protect me
Azazel struck down by the Almighty
 
My Archangels want me dead
Face the wrath of God, eternal damnation
My creator formed me in his image
But now he wants me destroyed
So that must mean he hates his inner & wants to put an end to his immortal lineage

Angels falling from the sky like asteroids.
Crash into the earth, bring destruction.
I live every single day in fear
Hiding from the light overseers
Wheels of fire shine as bright as lightning
1 thousand eyes that just shred my body
Find the watchers and they won't protect me
Azazel struck down by the Almighty

Demigods Do Not Love Humans (Prod. sae & JOHNNASCUS)

JOHNNASCUS

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