im 17

(0:00) "choice, pt2"
(1:10) "divided"
(2:27) "perfume" + @tuaaandx
(3:57) "flowers decay" (ib with3r)
(5:10) "ranked" + @tuaaandx
(6:23) + @tuaaandx
(7:19) + @tuaaandx, @prodmelik
(8:27) + @so-r-u, @chewy
(9:43) "mechanism" + @okeefey
(10:41) "blue" + @2variant
(11:47) "thru the rain we glo" + @1lsdcore
(13:05) "laboratory" + @tuaaandx, @makemeapromise, @prodmelik

bday #17 + tdx, okeefey, cranes, heroine, lsdcore, melik, surgeon & variant

https://soundcloud.com/lilboweep/r-we-1

jus wna blow up
and fake my death
the pain it never ends
i would throw it all away
jus to b with u again
yr a perfect sentiment
ill chase you till i’m dead
cut my skin, ,i bleed cement
i watch my environment destruct

look into her face
yrr an angel
i love everything about u
every angle
i got wires in my heart
n they’re tangled up
i kno tht we’re far apart
at night i pray for us

sleep thru the day
imma vampire
stick the needle in my vein
i can’t higher
look at me
do i inspire ??
in the city ,
i got hysteric on my attire

i swear to god
when i see her face i shed a tear
always sayng tht u had my back
bitch you were never here
effortlessly
running from the truth
feelings never clear
everybody saying they love you
probably never cared

i know tht you never felt the same
get it over with
my emotions just decay
im so over it
i know tht you never felt my pain
you just said u did
she can see my rib cage
in malnourishment

never ending #Pray4Me_@176s @lilac

dying light (sunrisess + pitfall)

me + me

lyrics:
idr wanna go
idr wanna find my way home, im so alone
i been stuck up in the dark for so long, but i got my bros
i been smokin on this dope
i been smokin on this og,
why they actin like they kno me
u dont kno me you a phony
now im up and they talk about how they used to me
i done made some bands by my lonely
ima burn this shit till its over
hell na i aint sober
bad luck, three (3) clovers

idk whats happened to me,
focusrite color on my feet
i dont really wanna go to sleep
you didnt mean shit to me
why you so cold to me?
you js feel like a ghost to me
ive fallen way to deep..
but i got right back up on my feet

wake up, broken heart
idk how to fix this
i just play my part,
just tryna mind my business
pack came thru the mail
im just tryna restart
im jus tryna restart...

flowers decay (sochi)

https://soundcloud.com/erdo
https://soundcloud.com/terastic

no matter what i do there's someone better than me
wither me down to my bones you can throw me to sea
she just lives up in my dreams i wish you'd talk 2 me
i just dropped a couple meds inside a boba tea

we intertwined so briefly 
now im on my own wishing that you kept me
i hate myself there's no one to accept me 
seeing you with other people hate how it effects me

i shouldn't care i wish i didn't
wanna keep my head low wanna keep myself hidden
and all of these thoughts they feel like a prison 
i only get them out over these rhythms

move a box like a piston
do this for myself don't care if they listen
its been awhile hate the distance
got some downers in my system

got what i wished for no one wants 2 talk 2 me
coping with materialism go on shopping sprees
hate what going thru and how my lifes been going
i've been rlly going thru it hope that its not showing

no matter what i do there's someone better than me
wither me down to my bones you can throw me to sea
she just lives up in my dreams i wish you'd talk 2 me
i just dropped a couple meds inside a boba tea

we intertwined so briefly 
now im on my own wishing that you kept me
i hate myself there's no one to accept me 
seeing you with other people hate how it effects me

better than me (erdo + tera) *djswagnasty33*

produced by me, beat inspired by @vampiremutual
i love you @ch2rms
art by me

[im too numb]
i cant feel a thing
i cant feel a thing at all
can you save me from myself
i just go through these withdrawals
u cant see the way i tried to fall
im screaming out that i still wanna die
i wish i didnt know what this was like
im scared but im too scared to lie
im scared but im too scared to cry

im so numb
i feel so dumb
i wanna run
but i feel so torn
cant feel inside
i dont know
how to go
bring me home
bring me home
bring me home
bring me home

empty ft ch2rms

much more 2 come love u all

@mental @lilac

https://www.instagram.com/b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5/
https://www.instagram.com/7mental7/
https://www.instagram.com/contentwithlosing/

(b5)
i cant even feel
they all want me gone im still winning still
im still going strong ima keep it real
i linked up w god yea we signed a deal
true religion pockets they full of steel
i cant trust dat boy i kno he gonna squeal
i jus wana kno if this is really real
im w my whole gang we going 4 the kill

im off w that bag jus like a runningback
heard yo lil track we making fun of that
spread my wings im going im not coming back
took apart of me i just want something back
i cant trust a soul but u made me whole
chilling w my bro we pop out oh no
u move way 2 slow u jus cant come close
think im going ghost ask me "where'd u go??"

(@mental)
i don't know why i've been like this
took it to heart but my hearts made of diamond
i'm so cold
i tried to hide that i'm crying
i'm seeing less and less and less of your kindness
i don't know
where'd u go?
i feel so alone
since so long ago, ain't been feeling whole
i'm still praying that you're coming home
secretly inside i don't wanna know

(b5)
i cant even feel
they all want me gone im still winning still
im still going strong ima keep it real
i linked up w god yea we signed a deal
true religion pockets they full of steel
i cant trust dat boy i kno he gonna squeal
i jus wana kno if this is really real
im w my whole gang we going 4 the kill

look up at the clouds i just need u here
losing ur smile the only thing i fear
i just try to show u that i really care
all these ppl hate me i dont rly care
yea im off that za i can barely steer
vision hazy but u made it clear
kno u hate me i just disappear

spotify

miss_me featuring mental (lilac)

@mental

sunlight hit ur skin u look so perfect
i jus need u here yea its urgent
swear i never had this i think its worth it
if u need me rn im @ ur service :D
i jus keep workin swear its hurting (lil tjay flow)
they all tried to snake me like a serpent
swear my vision hazy i keep searching
but u made it hd i dont deserve this

yo fit all white my shit all black !!>
i cant trust them that shit all cap
but i trusst u cant take that fall back
ask the clouds if i'll get that call back
touch my hands think i lost all feeling
we 2 high told em lift the ceiling (lol)
ziplock pack came in crack the sealing
yea we off2 cause im w my twin

im jus tryna get my heart back
i cant trust them that shit all cap
baggy trues n my shoes all black
u tried 2 bite the swag kno we saw dat :D

i don't deserve this (mental)

shoutout my bro @k1zetsu
mixed by @diegointhedark

pop a xan
it goes straight to my belly
everybody hates me
couldn’t even tell me why
i’ll forever try
just to make things right
i’ve spent every year in shade
you could be my light

i just wanna talk
i don’t wanna throw words
screaming in the mirror
until i feel my throat hurt
really wanna end it all
since this world is absurd

i know your heart is empty
and love is not tht fun
but can you show me sympathy
cuz girl my spirits crushed
i try & try again
n fail every time
all the meds they didn’t take me
can’t even end my life
i try and try again

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