lyrics:

dark eyes whispering secrets
pretty lies, baby just leave it
took so much time, was it really needed?
didn‘t have to try, guess it was easy

no you didn‘t mean it
that moment i could almost feel it
but i never wanna see, i rather listen
now look at my condition 

say, did you get a kick out of being my next?
must be proud of getting what you couldn‘t get then
oh, tell me did you plan to never see me again?
cause that‘s kinda lame

now i’m out here questioning the things that you said
believed the only part that couldn’t break was my faith
but you helped me start unlearning, oh
i just hope it was worth it

no butterflies, that‘s what they tell you
are a good sign, but is it really true?
i can‘t forget, the memories haunt me
this is the last time i‘m telling this story

cause you didn‘t mean it
that moment i really did feel it
seems i never get the truth from when i listen
regretting my decisions

say, did you get a kick out of being my next?
must be proud of getting what you couldn‘t get then
oh, tell me did you plan to never see me again?
cause that‘s kinda lame

now i’m out here questioning the things that you said
believed the only part that couldn’t break was my faith
but you helped me start unlearning, oh
i just hope it was worth it
hope it was worth it 
to you
oh, to you

worth it

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in a different life
we turn out alright
in a different life
we have all this time

in this magical world
there is nothing to learn
no pain, no more hurt
only love

in this different life
i‘m still yours, you‘re mine

in a different life
we never said goodbye
cause in a different life
you never made me cry

i‘m consoling myself
yeah, the thought of it helps
there‘s a world somewhere else
where we just love

in this different life
good things never die

maybe it was meant to be
maybe just not meant to last
(dreaming with a head full of stars)
it's such a pretty fantasy
that a life like that
could be ours to have

in a different life

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oh, i can‘t keep living like this
all these parts of my life being parts of his
and i feel it from time to time
sending shivers down my spine

and it‘s not like i love him, i know
if you‘d ask if i want him, i don‘t

this is just nostalgia 
long time, no see, yeah
but if you believe her
then she got you good
she disappears into the night
and reappears with you
oh nostalgia, not gonna let you get to me

i indulge in the wrong kind of sting
but distraction‘s never been my thing
it creeps up, haunts me all the time
by day and by night

and it‘s not like i love him, but oh
if you’d ask if i miss it, i don‘t know

this is just nostalgia 
long time, no see, yeah
but if you believe her
then she got you good
she disappears into the night
and reappears with you
oh nostalgia, what do you want me to do?

nostalgia (voice memo)

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i got to see the dark side, oh
why did i get so close?
twenty knives in my back
and fifty more in yours

stop the lying, stop competing, please just stop it all
stop the crying, the mistreating, this is not your fault
another night, another day, another evening alone
(is that really what you want?)

bad things happen in darkness
hurt people hurt people
(break the cycle)
paint them to be heartless
or learn to forgive the one you used to trust, oh

how does it feel to be alone?
cause i can tell you hurt on your own
yeah, we’re all just the same way
you tried to let go of baggage
made me collateral damage

stop the lying, stop competing, please just make it stop
know you never meant to find a way up to the top
who am i to tell you what you gotta do
but is it really what you want?

bad things happen in darkness
hurt people hurt people
paint them to be heartless
or learn to forgive

hurt people 
hurt people

hurt people

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just because we‘re fighting
it don‘t mean we‘re fighting for us
sometimes, i‘m still taken back
to nights before us
i‘m wondering were we happier 
before we ever met?
but i don‘t think i‘m ready for 
giving up just yet

maybe it‘s my ego
and maybe that‘s the thing
maybe i don‘t like to admit that
love can‘t conquer everything
cause i just wanna fix it all
feel the way when we first met
and i don‘t wanna say
we tried again just to reforget

don‘t make me reforget

give me another memory
take me to the past
make me forget all my regrets, the wish I never wish I had
cause you’re the only one who understands all of my ways
and what to say to make me stay

i know that it’s not reasonable
and maybe I’m to blame
maybe I don’t like to face the fact I’ll always stay the same
cause I still wanna fix it all
feel the way when we first met
but I’m just scared that if we tried again
i’d have to reforget you

reforget

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apple-picking in the summer
falling asleep in each others arms
you say with all the pressure you are under
you don‘t remember ever feeling this calm
i haven’t seen my own reflection in a couple days
you say there‘s nothing you would change
guess I’ll just see myself in your eyes while you smile, it‘s all okay

and we‘d gotten a taste of heaven 
before we went through hell
yeah, once upon a time, you were mine 
and all was well

i‘m feeling under the weather
you shouldn’t kiss me but you don‘t care
you put your lips on mine and i feel something shifting
i know it right then and there

and you gave me a taste of heaven
then you put me through hell
but before it’d run its course
I was yours
and all was well

ooh, all was well

now i guess we‘re doing catch-ups
semi-annually from now
do you wonder why things so different
feel so the same somehow?

and sometimes, i wish everything was well again
sometimes i‘m scared
cause you‘re the only one i‘ve ever loved
will I ever love the way i have?

cause i know i gave you a taste of heaven
no one will ever get again
but nothing that's worth having is forever
I tell myself now and then

so all is well
yeah, all is well
(all is well)

all was well

you say nobody‘s ever known you better than you know yourself
if you let me, i’d like to give it a try
thought i had found my peace as an afterthought in someone‘s mind
but you got me setting sights i just can’t deny 

good things take time and it’s all worth trying
even if you‘re scared
if this is all there is and all there will be
at least i can say someone cared
and God knows i cared

i think deep down, we all have the same fears driving us wild
but in your arms, i can almost watch them unwind
am I tweaking the facts or am I just now seeing the truth?
'cause i’ll play the game waiting, anticipating to lose

good things will wait, it‘s never too late
if you play it fair
maybe it‘s okay to love for the sake of it
even if it leads nowhere
cause at least i cared

God knows (voice memo)

you're asking me what it would take
fixing something that you didn't break
you tell me you don't care who's driving
as long as we both enjoy the ride, and

too long, I’ve deemed it damaged goods
goes to show I never understood a thing

'cause for you, i
i’d risk it all again for love
I’d risk it all - the pain, the loss
i’d risk it all, I did before
my heart has cracks, what’s one more?
i’d risk it all again

i brush it off, say i‘m being dramatic
unfair expecting you to sense the panic
but i always know what is evident
can‘t meet me where i‘m at if i don‘t tell you where i went

yeah, for you, i
i’d risk it all again for love
I’d risk it all - the pain, the loss
i’d risk it all, I did before
my heart has cracks, what’s one more?

risk it all (voice memo)

what if I don’t learn to let go in time?
what if I can’t keep the best thing that’s been mine?
what if you won’t like giving up too much space?
and what if you find that I’m too much to take?

'cause i can’t help but think that love is fragile
i’d like to hear it’s nothing time can rattle
but when you make it feel safe, i forget to need faith
picked up too much of what is clearly untrue
now you heal what you didn’t put me through
so I can’t complain, you say it best when you don’t explain

know they always get what they want from me
and I’ll gladly give what they want for free
but i don’t wanna be easy to love for you
don’t want you to stay simply cause there is no reason not to
and i

guess i can’t help but think that love is fragile
i’d like to hear it’s nothing time can rattle
but when you make it feel safe, i forget to need faith
picked up too much of what is clearly untrue
now you heal what you didn’t put me through
so I can’t complain, you say it best when you don’t explain

i’m aware that it’s easy to love and to leave me 
but when you say you care you make it seem like you need me

faith (demo)

I go through your playlists 
just cause I need some new music
no other reason, no other reason
I look you up online just cause I’m bored and I’ve got time
there is no deeper meaning 

there’s one thing I won’t admit
I’m not headstrong, but I resist
no, you won’t catch me slipping
and if I’m running out of explanations
i’ll find replacement
could quit anytime if needed
cause there’s no other reason

do you check your story just to see if I have seen it
and tell yourself then there was no intention?
it can't have nothing to do with what I say and how I move
i won’t assume that it does - but would you mind if I do?

is there something you won’t admit
is your heart scared I’m holding it?
say, did I catch you slipping?
and are you running out of explanations
like me, can’t take it?
cause I never quit when needed
okay fine, there is a reason

jo my dear