What I Believe

no question, one messed up pedestrian
my rap is intelligent, then again 
do the rap crits care about eloquence
or do they want different elements
talk about selling shit selling bricks selling my whip 
just to live in the crib im in
talk about splitten up dividens
talk about dinner get missed or get skipped again
talk about hitten the 5th o' gin
ripping 
a rip in kitchen, 
its interestin
under the pressure but on top of the liquor its sickening
wishing for difference
bliss for the ignorant
me, I must be belligerent
you see how that could be a hinderence 
on progress
my lifes goals and conquests
I just light bowls and spit nonsense
lost in life to be honest
this-what-happens when jon just
get a little drunk and ridonkulous,
if god would listen
I don't even know what the fuck Id say
prolly just ask "why his twisted ass even put me here in the first place"
since first grade
I hated my birth place
hated my teachers 
and I hated my birthdays
hated the preachers
hated the world hey,
cant be blamed for the hate I harbored
I'm always late and I'm fucking starving
can't get dates, not fucking charming
Days are wasted, feeling sorry
for myself, pity party

Pity party
bring the streamers and the cake
I used to be a dreamer
now I sleep my days away
and now its only nightmares
like when the fuck is life fair
so light the candles
watch my life fall to shambles


I'm wasted and drunken but fuck it
upchuckin up in a bucket
stuck in a rut like a nugget
stuck in your rug, but still puff it
Im feinding for weed
and my rent is due
and every line I write
one thing becomes more true
I caused all of this
with tryna always calm the shit
try to push my conscious down
but what is that accomplishing?
far from "got it figured out"
pretty close to "fucking loss"
and it goes to show that what you don't know
still hurts a fucking lot
wait a minute, kids
wake up at party take a piss
retarded I can hardly walk I waddle with a limp
talking to the hottest bitch, I'm talking to a brick wall
it started talking shit I hit it with a fist yall
fiddy minutes later I can barely get a grip
figuratively, literally, hitten the tree
dizzy and weak, henny and weed, heart, skipping a beat
god damn what a fantatsic flow
too bad I can't cash in cuz that would be dope
cuz raps my passion, but they don't know
ain't got one fan or played a show




Pity party
bring the streamers and the cake
I used to be a dreamer
now I sleep my days away
and now its only nightmares
like when the fuck is life fair
so light the candles
watch my life fall to shambles

Pity Party

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Where's The Fire? (Ft Ashley Farkas)

Mad props to Evangeline for singing these vocals and the amazing art work. Enjoy everyone!!!!

and I'm not really sure anymore
how I feel or whats real
or what I'm looking for
and I lie with my face on the floor
chasing my chaser with more liquor
maybe im crazy
maybe I love you
maybe you hate me
maybe im changing
maybe im crazy
maybe its something
deep inside, too deep to save me
and I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
cuz I don't know what I've done
to derseve this, no ones perfect
Sorta think that, you're a jerk and
never worth it always hurtin
because of you
and there's nothing I can do

WELL I DONT WANNA LIVE LIKE THAT
IF YOU WANNA BREAK MY HEART YOU CAN  GIVE IT RIGHT BACK

you used to be cruel and I used to be foolish
Got used to the way you would use me truth is
I'm done
I'm oh so done 
do my best to forget this 
press delete when you left me a message,unless its.. no
I'm so so done 
now I'm throwing all your stuff away
your memories, your ugly face
and all the things that bring me down
I never wanna hear your name
Im so ashamed I waste away
Wasted cuz you're making me frown
and a promise is, a promise is,
a promise is a promise and I promise you this
because of what you did, you'll never know what I could give

WELL I DONT WANNA LIVE LIKE THAT
IF YOU WANNA BREAK MY HEART YOU CAN  GIVE IT RIGHT BACK

I Don't Wanna Live Like That (ft Evangeline Sellers)

I've been living on the bottom
sipping bottles till I waddle
no more dollars
no more ballin
no more job
much more problems
imma solve em with revolvers 
pop that pistol like my collar
pumped as pistons in the car and
cuz no one shit can hit this hard
well I don't see much in myself
when I just chief blunts with the wealth
that comes and goes
it ebbs and flows
when im selling dro
for the hella low
Imma tell my foes
just let it go
my flow is incredible
impressive and impeccable
special unforgettable
just slip in my bed again
use the spliff for Excedrin 
antidepressant medicine 
man I think this weed heaven-sent
hate to preach like the reverend 
y'all just evil and selfish and
Im just feeble from helping
feeling defeated, unwell again
well I think I'm intelligent
but maybe I'm crazy
and maybe that add
made me manic and lazy
im talking mannequin lazy
I cannot handle this daily
all them abandonment issues
done made me into a baby

ever since I can remember I been poppin poppin pills poppin poppin poppin pills poppin poppin poppin pills
ever since I can remember I been  Working too hard Working  Working too hard Working  Working too hard

my flow go 3-6 to A$AP
then a.s.a.p. I slay rap
wanna pay cash for that maybach
wanna new bitch, I want bae back
like the yankee's in 35 im ruthless
fuck with with me you toothless
like the dragon in the movie 
that noose is nuisance  
you should move on to new shit
well they tell me im stupid
and that maybe some trueness
and then they tell me there hope
but they don't help induce it
thus they can't be conducive
to boosting me when the gloom hits
I just need me some music
got my knees weak like cupid
I just love it and fuck it
if you dont fuck with the movement
I get stuck in the moment
like a kiss in a movie
like im getting some booty
just don't act like you knew me
when I get famous from vegas
to the Himalayas, get away just
gimmie space, I don't give a shit anyway
I'm just living for better days
I'm just livid at everything
gave it my all
and yall ain't giving me anything

ever since I can remember I been poppin poppin pills poppin poppin poppin pills poppin poppin poppin pills
ever since I can remember I been  Working too hard Working  Working too hard Working  Working too hard



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