black sunday (discography)

black sunday [essentials]

my lofi jams

prod. Sarcastic Sounds - move on / TRA$H - insomnia / charlie - pretending / TRA$H - bruises

idfk

girls from movies {mix}

paradise or paradigm

look what you've left of me...

prod. @nekoilove

i don't want to stay

prod. @kaonashibeats

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken
how could you have left us broken?
broken
broken

soulless soul
my shadow grows
they'll never know
they're letting go

i'm so alone
more than before
i cannot roam
i'm born at war

no matter all my efforts, i know it's not enough
i offer you my flesh cause our oath is wrote in blood
if you let go right now, perhaps i'll know freedom
before i'm down, killed by what's left of my love 

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken
how could you have left us broken?
broken
broken

don't let go
don't let go
ghost
can't escape
don't let go

spotify :)

broken vr. 2

prod. tapei

shadows glitch and disappear 
my skin rips and lives in fear 
a program of encoding 
one code preventing me from floating

at the cost of my self loathing
in the kitchen were tip toeing
like children we’re reborn 
a hope arrives that wasn’t there before 

mom and dad had used to scorn 
wearing sleeves, our skin was torn
living in a narrative, we wrote
just to escape her loving ghost

just to breathe in light in this eclipse
build a sanctuary for our love to live 
a love we didn’t know, craft a broken home
we grew to be alone  

***

this was everything i ever wanted i can’t let it go
you were older, guess your departure was not preventable 
camps and fires and tree houses
childhood dreams we barely knew about this 

our innocence was ignorance, a prison left us hopeless
didn’t know what hope is, so we found it in an opus
we had yet to comprehend, a world we could pretend 
a world that existed beyond the words they may have meant 

the words they never said, just two kids they neglect 
weak and can’t defend, the demons in their bed 
a world of our creation, enhancement of enchantment
a phantom lives between us, i can feel it where i’m standing

you had left, i lost my breath
i ran away, and no attempts to reconnect 
but i’m here now, begging for your memory 
tell me it was the same for you as it had meant for me

please tell me you remember me?
do you remember me?
do you remember?
do you remember?
please don't forget
don't move on
i need you
tell me
do you remember?
do you remember?

memory

prod. enluv (@enluv)

todoroki from my hero was sorta lowkey my hero 
if the toxins infiltrate my veins, then now your competition’s zero 
sheesh, you must be relieved 
i learned a lot in all the years i spent on rapper’s leave 

it’s time to pay your lease, it’s time to pay your fees
the dudes who joked a couple years ago, same dudes who treat me like a king
the clock forever spinning when i’m spitting, this is timeless
you’ve discovered treasure, it just took you years to find this

took some tears to write this, all my peers are lifeless
the bars are coming way faster than i can fucking type it 
i’ve captured your ear like i’m just mike tyson fighting 
though, you’re the one who’s biting, so enticing, when reciting

you wanna raise the bar, but cannot reach my height and 
i don’t need a ghost writer, i am too alive when writing 
you’re fearful of what god can’t see, so what i am providing 
is A and S tier projects, your shit the god of C’s, so it’s fuck poseidon 

my autobiography, synonymous with odysseus 
no modesty, fucking honestly,
you're lucky that the music that i make is free for all to see
otherwise i’d run this whole motherfucking economy 

i’ve been giving everything to see my portrait in the frame 
hand crafted, so no one else’s feels the same 
it’s ironic, my vision left me blinded 
i sought to find freedom, and i have yet to find it 

that same hunger, is the reason that i’m starving 
been grinding for 5 years, still feel like i just started 
if i am too unique, they don’t listen when i speak
if i sound like them, i’ve already accepted my defeat

running out the blood that's pumping my veins full of hate 
all my heroes fucking dead, jesus christ is not a saint 
freedom is a sin, and in my skin, i’m never safe 
i’ve become such an insomniac i only dream when i’m awake 

what i mean, is all my dreams, i cant perceive, they’re outta reach
halo deceive, the eyes with gleam, they don’t want me to just be me
but i’d rather die, than to ever be all the fucking same 
i’m not steering, but im swerving into every lane

what i’m hearing, my style needs to change it’s not enough to win the game 
it makes my ear ring, to your ear i’m always chained 
i’m arriving at the end of my road, look how far i came
happy dream manifested into nothing more than sorrow shame
sheeshhhhhh

feng shui

prod. enluv (@enluv)

check his spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5g8EUiiIZDqp2xd9eUUHin?si=FJr8Cws3S36sW-cHq1p7Rg

this goes for 'ms. what’s her name'
i know that there’s no differences between love and chains 
we said we wouldn’t grow apart but something’s changed 
this torture isn’t physical, it’s a bloodless pain 

try not to rupture things, and then the suffer came 
you can see it in my face, i cannot cover shame 
you got me looking like a fool, hoping you texting back 
i get frustrated, no stepping back, i’m on a reckless path 

fuck now i’m regretting that, wonder where your head is at 
all while knowing, that that fucking bed’s a trap
i’m upset, you sent a text, now that’s a dangerous road 
soon as those legs spread, your back bends, now my anger folds

feel like i’m betting against cards that a stranger holds 
adam can’t avoid the curve of sins that the nature chose 
and eve’s a sexy broad, i guess that’s all that matters
i claim i’m better off alone, but from a distance, wish i had her 

i wish i mattered, i wish your matter took a different shape 
demons try to body jump, they target those with pretty face 
young love quite peculiar, starts with white petunias
ends in in bloody broken hearts on my computer, my abuser 

starts with "forever," "i would sacrifice an artery"
then i win the lottery, and now "departing is a part of me" 
that’s the irony of love, you cannot believe it 
quicker that you love her is the quicker that’s she’s leaving 

that’s just how i perceive it, i’m alone and what’s the reason 
i don’t know, you don’t know, i’m barely breathing, fucking season 
every season
that biddie wasn’t lying when she said i was a demon 
i’ll just pretend that i’m not bleeding 

i ain’t seeing blood stains bleeding through my shirt 
so i’ll keep vibing even though it hurts 
i ain’t seeing blood stains bleeding through my shirt 
so i’ll keep vibing even though it hurts

emotionless thoughts

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All sounds used i this song belong to me, I personally recorded each and every sound, including my own voice.

© 2019 Sqorb Records

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