casperrr

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me

(self harming i'm addicted to pain
blood flowing down the drain 
u fucked up my whole brain 
cause i still want u to have my last name)~

(skele)
what does it feel like to wake up with closure
drinking alone i've been drunk since october
hoping for change told my mom i'd get sober
blood from my veins ill bleed till it's over
and im so scared that i cant fix the breaks u made
and it's not fair cause i'd be fine if u just stayed
sometimes i wish u were just so i could get sum fucking sleep
sometimes i wish u were baby you are everything i need

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me (2x)

look at the place i'm in w/skele (pekarot)

prod. @pekarot_161

[casperrr]
nobody will love you as i do did
seeing u with some1 else makes me sick 
i wish u the best, but i feel like shit
hope u succeed in life while i can't even live 

(chorus) [casperrr]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

[casperrr & autumn]
ooh~

[autumn]
and they say i'll never change
just put that on my grave
not tryna resist this, but it's on my name
just calm down
you're aware of the wrongs that you did
so just let them run out
just not right now
just twist what you want, up until you fall down
i'm losing my hair
trying not to be scared
it took so much time to get where i am here
my knees to the ground
as well as my pride
the ones that i've hurt aren't good at goodbyes

so i stay inside
cause this home knows i
accepted what i've done
just not to that extent
oh how i was stunned from 
all of it

(chorus) [casperrr & autumn]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

casperrr x autumndropsdead - succeed in failing (pekarot)

prod. acey

[casperrr]
i've come to realize
that i'm dumb and i despise 
myself for all those lies 
im sorry for the fight

(chorus) [casperrr] 
i really am worthless
i can't change and im trying my best
my life is nothing more than a mess
i just can't seem to get well 


[autumn]
how do i focus when locusts are biting my neck
she cut me open and tore out my chest
"i swear to god that was not my intention"
fentanyl, over her innocent jaw
now it don't matter at all
time just isn't a road
it's all that i've ever known
so when i say goodbye
there better not be tears in your eyes
cause i warned you from the start
how we'd end before we even fell apart
before we fell apart (2x)

(chorus) [casperrr & autumn]
i really am worthless
i can't change and im trying my best
my life is nothing more than a mess
i just can't seem to get well 

[casperrr]
feeling alone
turn into ash all of these bones
my demons awoke

(a crash; the scent of metal)
(strewn across the air)
steal every moment
(strewn across the air)
but what is grief?
(if one isn't wrong)

casperrr x autumndropsdead - locusts (acey ii)

prod. @pekarot_161

[autumn]
as i crash straight down from the ship i manded 
shit's been tough, i been tryna manage
sinking from all the sand i stand in
got no luck with the shit i'm handed

oh, oo, oh
my bones; they grow
so slow
in this body there's nowhere left to go

[casperrr]
nowhere left to go
i'm down on my own
i know death is close
cause i can hear all these crows

(chorus) [casperrr&autumn]
breaking, im shaking, im aching i stg
what did i do to be treated so terrible
nothing at all
u were my downfall
u got me addicted and then u ran off 
i'm sick of the pain
sick of the hurt
wish i was dead
if we are being blunt
roll me another 1 
pass me another blunt
it's the only thing that keeps me going on 

[autum]
woah, what's going on?
i don't fear no death, but my head is hung
oh what have i done..
shadows; they scattered and moved to the sides
the webs on the wall, found commfort in spite
my life's not canon to what comes much after i die

[casperrr]
with these spiders crawling on the walls
im breaking every single bone
suck my blood out of my body 
but promise u won't leave me for~

(chorus) [casperrr&autumn]
braeking, im shaking, im aching i stg
what did i do to be treated so terrible
nothing at all
u were my downfall
u got me addicted and then u ran off 
i'm sick of the pain
sick of the hurt
wish i was dead
if we are being blunt
roll me another 1 
pass me another blunt
it's the only thing that keeps me going on

casperrr x autumndropsdead - downfall (pekarot)

prod. me

[casperrr]
the marks on my body
make me remember
what everybody made me go thru
back in december

[autumn]
this all is my fault
it aint no surprise
i lean into the wall
and back intol ife

[casperrr]
my body is rotting
could u save me now
i can't stop myself from falling
but can u pick me up from the ground

[autumn]
im stuck in the rubble and ash 
to fly in a line is a definite crash 
stumbled across who i was in the past
hope i don't re-la-pse

[casperrr]
they all think im different
really whats the difference
i do have feelings
how can't yall see that

[casperrr & autumndropsdead]
ooh~

casperrr x autumndropsdead - back_in2_life (casperrr)

prod. me

wanna lock myself inside
cuz ull kill me w ur eyes
duck, run and ill hide
cuz im addicted to ur smile

dead romance, lit candle lights 
not bruised but went thru fights
u say u love me but thats a lie
cuz u grin everytime i cry 

roll some blunts and give me a hit 
getting sober i'll never do it
i'm so scared i can't deall with shit
more anxious everyday i know i'm getting sick

dead romance, lit candle lights 
so fucking tired, i can't sleep at night
u say u care for me that's a lie
cause u smile everytime i say i wanna die
dead romance, lit candle lights 
not bruised but went thru fights
u say u love me but thats a lie
cuz u grin everytime i cry

dead romance, lit candle lights

dead romance, lit candle lights.

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

i c ur face shining baby its moonlit
wearing the same clothes i did last week
momma keeps telling me that i look sick
if only she knew whats goin on w me
cant sleep cant eat im so weak 
almost died last night goin highspeeds
paradox that shit makes me wanna live
outta box thinking people always called me weird (2x)

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

snowball (santana)

luv this cover! hope yall love it as much as i do, yall deserve way more than this. but its all i can give you atm<33 ty for the love and support yall are my family. stay safe and luv eachother

glimpse of us (cover)

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us 

fucked n im not high
baby got my heart tight
with all ur lies 
why don't you act right?
mind aint alright
that's why i can't sleep at night
shits hard or am i~ 
swimming against the tide

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell 
i hope ur resting well 
dad ur my fucking champion
will love you til my lifes done
till earth does its last turn (2x)

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us(2x)

slow down, take a smoke in the porch (lavendertxwn x pekarot)

she told me to kill myself
and to throw all my songs away
how did we end up in this mess
we were fine just yesterday

miss the old look in your eyes
it made all my pain subside
nowadays u've scars on ur thighs
and u spend most of ur time high 

i know it hurts when u feel alone
but all you need is a little love 
i know it hurts when u feel alone
the feeling comes but it goes

i miss your hands grabbing mine 
when u felt like u're gonna cry
nowadays all u do is lie
and make me wanna die 

midwest emo love 
u push and i pull
im scarred and u cut
ur toxic and im the fool

i know it hurts when u feel alone
but all you need is a little love 
i know it hurts when u feel alone
the feeling comes but it goes

she told me to kill myself
and to throw all my songs away
how did we end up in this mess
we were fine just yesterday

miss the old look in your eyes
it made all my pain subside
nowadays u've scars on ur thighs
and u spend most of ur time high

midwest emo love (dead yami)

i'll move out and move on
sitting silent and all alone
but underneath the thunderstorm
there's always hope to move along

i'll move out and move on
all over my hands the scars are shown
but i believe that if i stay strong
this emptiness won't stay for long 

i'd give my life to see you smile 
and if i could i'd do it now 
just promise me that somehow
everything will workout 
do u remember our first date
we hid near a shop under rain 
i held you close u felt my pain
i loved u ever since dat day

i'll move out and move on
sitting silent and all alone
but underneath the thunderstorm
there's always hope to move along

i'll move out and move on
all over my hands the scars are shown
but i believe that if i stay strong
this emptiness won't stay for long 


this left me with a wreck inside my head
this left me with a wreck inside my head

i'll move out and move on (acey)

prod. @byedias

i don't feel like me today
not much is feeling okay 
these pills hurt my brain 

leave my body under rain
u can ruin my name
just please end this pain(2x)

stab me again i don't care 
in my back or my face is the same yuh
the amount of scars's insane
try to count the times ive been betreayed yeah
yeah, life's never fair
but all i can do is get faded
different strains of dona juana 
got my eyes spinnin like a fucking beyblade

i'm really about to get hollow 
got my heart filled with sorrow 
i got no hope for tomorrow 

i guess i go where the river goes
in the river with the the reefer smoke
ill hit the hay until i go ghost    

i don't feel like me today
not much is feeling okay 
these pills hurt my brain 

leave my body under rain
u can ruin my name
just please end this pain(3x)

plug_luv pt.2 (dias x savior nate litothedon)

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

stare at my body as i bleed
what did u even find in me 
a bucnh of dreams ill never reach
a lot of ideas ill never be 

stare at my yeah (4x)

im fucked up and shits not over
i want to but i can't get sober 
ur death made my whole body colder
everynight i dream about when i used to hold ya(2x)

love life but death seems charming
can't stop myself from falling 
eyes glued to the back of my eyelids
when i die fill my coffin with violets 

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

misfit (santana)

i want to live life but i
can't seem to get outta bed 
im so sick and tired so sick and tired
of living in my head 
i want to live life but i
can't seem to get outta bed 
im so sick and tired so sick and tired
of living in my head 

i swear, i tried
but i can't forget her 
being honest no lies
i want to have  her 
with me all day
so she can steal my sweaters
can't sleep alone
w her i sleep better

can't sleep alone
with u i sleep better
sick of this place i call home
it never gets better
plus my heart of stone
makes it hard to remember
hwo u were, but ur the one 
i want to be with forever

i want 2 live life (king theta)

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

cutting my wrists, breaking my bones (young taylor)

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway    

(all that u do 4 me, is it pitty or love?
the things you say 2 me, do they come from the heart?
have i been a waste of life right from the start
cause im feeling lost, i needa sit down n talk)

i only have u left i don't know what to do 
don't know how to act, defense or attack
i just can't lose you
don't know what to say are things okay 
are you also confused?~
need something to see, something to touch 
or ill lose myself soon

down a spiral of hate, back to the blades
touching my skin,
im losing my faith, in need of a change 
the bloods runnin thin
nothings feelin great, and when you say 
u love me idk whatchu mean 
ill go back to my room and the drugs i consume
and keep doing my thing 

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway  
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway

watch me. (michael harrison)

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私は-

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

won't ever change, i thinks it's genetic
engraved in my brain
used to the problems not used to pain
praying something makes it all go away
all go away
u left me alone dealing with MYself
u said u were gonna watch over my health
taking all the pills lined up on the shelf
like a buncha soldiers killin in stealth

chip me away, slowly
make me do it ur way, like it's holy
take our ring, break it
show me u never cared, bout me

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood
don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

don't say u hate me, i know u do (king theta)

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

casperrr

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