skele

i'd give it all to give it up

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz https://soundcloud.com/lildriplildrip
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

sometimes i wish i went to college
and only ever dreamed bout the shit that i started 
getting sick of my apartment 
something’s wrong with my head 
but i just don’t know what to call it 
telling myself it’s fine 
it’s what you dreamed of
the city of angels where devils meet up
i don’t leave my room 
it’s hard to speak up
when everyone around me thinks I’m no one

i wanna dream on 
i told i my mom that i would make it 
gotta keep on 

i’m super paranoid 
i wanna make em all proud 
but i keep falling down
i never had a choice
i wanna make em scream it back to me 
and hear the noise

testing my patience 
can’t even get out of my bed 
i’m fucking breaking 
don’t know what day it is 
i’d give it all to give it up
i’m way too anxious 

i’m never breathing right 
i gotta drink until i’m spinning 
just to sleep at night
i need him by my side 
i get so scared to be alone
that i start shaking i,
wish i went to college
i wish i had a nine to five
i can’t see the finish line
i do this every time

sometimes i wish i went to college

sometimes i wish i went to college (prod. nate2timez & lil drip)

staring at me 


master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah
sitting with you 
in my small bedroom 
head on your shoulder 
didn’t care he was older
i knew 
it hurt too 
we kept on

and he smelled like cigarettes 
said i taste like medicine 
and we talked like newlyweds 
till i forgot we’d barely met

green eyes
staring at me 
and i cried
screaming at you
not to leave

off of them drugs 
quick new fucks 
paying my consequence for falling in love
you said that we could be friends 
you said that we would be fine if it ends 
own all the shit that you said 
tell me you’re sorry you left 
still scraping blood off the bed 
still seeing red on the white walls 
still breaking down when my mom calls

green

you promised

prod: https://soundcloud.com/sadboiforever https://soundcloud.com/jolst
master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

(mother fucker you promised
how could you do me like that, do me like that
pick apart my bones
you left me starving 
i can't even feel bad, even feel bad
i'm a perfect target)

mother fucker you promised
how could you do me like that
why'd you act so heartless
pick apart my bones
you left me starving 
i fell in love so fast
bet i looked so harmless
i'm a perfect target 

pointing out the obvious babe
i think something's wrong with my brain 
pray for love,
abandon my faith 
i know nothing turns out okay

i don't wanna think about it 
that knife pressed right on my lips
and if we're so covered in sin 
even god can't fix what you did

spotify

perfect target (prod. 2001 & jolst)

i was never the same

prod: michael harrison, aidan han, and max vossberg
master: @onlyfriendyeah

you said my eyes looked pretty
and wiped the tears from my face 
you told me that you're leaving
but it'll all be okay
and i was never the same
you didn't have to go 
why'd you leave me alone

i bet you're sick of playing innocent
aren't you?
you were happy tearing ligaments
weren't you?
i was always the participant 
for you to see just how bad it gets

and really baby you're a monster
and when i saw you by the water
i should've known i was a goner
but i took everything you offered

and really baby you're a monster
i was in love with that

you were on me fucking every night
sweating through the signs
you look so good in white
we do this every time
so baby let me go
i'll see you after i die
the last light
will fucking let me know 
i wasted my whole life

and really baby you're a monster
and when i saw you by the water
i should've known i was a goner
but i took everything you offered

you were on me fucking every night
sweating through the signs 
you look so good in white
we do this every time
let me go
i'll see you after i die 
the last light 
will fucking let me know 
i wasted my whole life

i saw you by the water

promise you won't leave

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

i got a bottle in my hand right now
i still think i'll make it out somehow
it goes down
inside our house
but i don't really wanna fight right now
i know i'm always on the road right now
it's too loud
inside our house

making sure my heart beats
slow 
the minute i let go 
it'll turn my heart cold
so put your arms around me 
and please don't let go 
until my eyes close 
baby look look at the snow 
and promise you won't leave

i think i broke this time
a little too much for you to come n fix
i think i fucked it up this time
but it's all my fault i did 

i heard you were on the phone 
that one painful look in your eyes
you were telling your mom it's been hard
but he always get's better
he said it'd be fine
i've been relapsing in my dreams 
take a minute to guess what that means
curl up n shake under covers
making sure my heart beats

video out now

the minute i let go (prod. eric godlow)

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

look what you've done to me

prod. acey
master: @vito2300

sometimes i don't know who i am
look in the mirror
i don't see me there
that's a monster
and he looks somber
but he just killed a man

well lesson learned
i won't get my hopes up
i won't care if you show up
show up
won't be here when the sun comes
the sun comes out

sobered up
missing the way out
locked in
i need to calm down
i can't calm down
in a cold house
i hear every sound

if i was perfect why were you fucking him
tell me what he had i couldn't do better than
n i saw it
you're sobbing
i put the knife in him

i'm numb to the bloodshed
good at destroying
and i'm home when
i'm hearing voices
and in the morning
i'll be what you need
look what you've done to me
look what you've done to me
look what you've done to me

i've had enough for now

home

home (prod. acey)

until i see the moon 

prod me 
master: @vito2300

so long 
i’ll wait right here for you 
until i see the moon 
i won’t move
i cried 
this happens every time 
tell me you’ll be alright 
make sure that you don’t die

i’ll stay right here
right by the phone 
until it comes clear 
until you come home 
and pin me right on the wall 
if that’s enough for you to stay here at all 
i’ll be good for you 
just like in that song 
that i wrote you last fall 

just give me like 
five more minutes 
baby and then i’ll be finished 
there’s no one to hold 
i miss you, it’s cold 

so long
i’ll wait right here for you 
until i see the moon 
i won’t move

cold

cold (prod. skele)

just to see you alive 

prod: @jolst
master: @vito2300

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 

it doesn’t really get better 
that’s the lesson i learned 
now i wait for the day 
that i turn one with the earth 

i just love to sit and watch it burnout 
i’ve been sleeping with the bodies in the fallout 
i know i’ll die if i ever let my guard down 
there’s a creature waiting by 
to take my heart out 

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 
(i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
it’s everything i)

tell me is it wrong 
i just love it how it hurts 
darling is it wrong 
how i'm wishing for the worst 
baby in the end i’m just a body 
did you know 
that you’ve been sleeping with a zombie?

aside

aside (prod. jolst)

just like you promised 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/youngburial https://soundcloud.com/anxietyattackss
master: @vito2300

put me through the pain 
just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
i wanna watch while you leave 
put me through the shame 
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest 
i can’t be what you need 

every night it’s silence 
i always dream i’m dying 
i wake up before the knife hits 
you used to hold me till my tears quit 
now you’re there watching as my skin rips 
helping hide the evidence 
cleaning up so elegant 
like it’s so lovely how your day went 

look in my eyes, for once 
i want you to tell me i’m never enough 
throw me on the bed so rough 
bite through my neck till i’m covered in blood 
want you to hold me down 
cover my mouth till i can’t make a sound 
want you to hold me tight 
and give me some scars to remember you by 

just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
(just like you promised, you promised)
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest
(you promised, you promised)

put me through the pain 
just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
i wanna watch while you leave 
put me through the shame 
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest 
i can’t be what you need

pain

pain (prod. fats'e & anxiety attacks!)

i'll make you my only purpose

prod. acey 
master: @vito2300

cut me open
let me feel you
ripping up my skin
i’m a masochist at best
i let you come right in 
pulling out my heart
(i let it happen)
lying in the dark
(i heard you laughing)
chain me up so tight 
that i can’t feel my wrists 
and let me stare at you 
in anguish 
losing oxygen 
i’ll treat you like a god 
just let me worship 
leaking blood out at the sermon 
put me down right on my knees
and i’ll be good for you for certain 
let me prove to you i’m worth it 
i’ll make you my only purpose 
i’ll be waiting till the winter ends 
just let me be of service 
look at me now 
i’m fucking collapsing 
i don’t wanna feel fucking anything 
every time i dream i’m fucking relapsing 
sipping it straight fucking kerosene
look at me now 
i’m fucking collapsing 
i don’t wanna feel fucking anything 
every time i dream i’m fucking relapsing 
sipping it straight fucking kerosene
(let me be that once, once
and let me feel your touch
and let me be your crutch, crutch
until you’ve had enough)

sermon

sermon (prod. acey)

there's no love in those eyes of yours

prod: acey & @vito2300
master: @vito2300 & https://soundcloud.com/diskrypt

can we talk for a second 
i can't breathe when i'm next to you
stop for a second 
reassess what's gotten into you
tell me why i'm looking at a monster
a monster
i feel like a lamb sent to the slaughter 
the slaughter 

i suppose it's unavoidable
you were sent to kill me off 
so make it horrible
want you to cut around my neck 
like i'm deplorable
and i'll sit pretty for you 
rotting under soil 
oh i just give it up right 
i'm so easy don't lie
there's no love in those eyes of yours
oh i'm just wasting my life 
and it's just about time 
i'm just waiting to die
for sure

don't wanna tell you that i like it 
all the blood's got me excited
and if you wanna put me down 
i wouldn't mind it
you can treat me like a dog 
i love the violence
you can tell me what to say 
and i'll recite it 

if i'm the puppet 
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up
do you what you want 
i'll understand 
you're such a demon
(x2)

if i'm the puppet
you're the hand 
so pull the strings up 
do what you want 
i'll understand
you're such a demon
it's so hard for me to talk 
i can't speak up
if i don't see you at the end 
i love you so much

puppet

puppet (prod. acey & vito)

pretend i'm somebody else 

prod: jewelryboy
master: @onlyfriendyeah

if we can't be good to ourselves 
(cut me out)
pretend i'm somebody else
(pull me down)
he wraps his hand 'round my belt
(slowly now)
i'll be your personal hell 
your hell 
your hell 

am i allowed to be this desperate 
it's not right
i just beg for your attention 
over ice 
give me just a little bit more 
and i'm finished
i can just pretend 
that i'm yours 
for a minute 
do i make you feel nice 
when i text for no reason 
you don't even reply
"night"
when i need it 
back and forth 
out the door 
no remorse
don't let go 
i'm so close 
my amour

close my eyes 
and pray that i get less attached 
i let you treat me so damn bad 
it's all i have
look me in my eyes 
baby make me melt 
all i ever do is fucking hurt myself 
look me in my eyes 
baby make me melt 
all i ever do is fucking hurt myself 

i'm so aware of it
i hit him up 
if he's a gun 
i'm fucking loading it
i always let him in 
i'm like a dog 
he says my name 
and i just run to him 
pour it up 
i wanna drink till i can't feel at all
in my defense 
i spent a year without the alcohol
i didn't feel much better
it just helped me remember
i'm still too hung up 
on what we did in december

i'm so sick of it 
i don't feel so well 
it's a swing n a miss 
sure you'll be back in a bit 
it's my personal hell 

if we can't be good to ourselves 
(cut me out)
pretend i'm somebody else
(pull me down)
he wraps his hand 'round my belt
(slowly now)
i'll be your personal hell 
your hell 
your hell

personal hell

hold me like this one will be the last time 

prod: michael harrison and gavin hadley 
master: @onlyfriendyeah

i took a trip out to vegas 
and you had lost your wallet 
i think we both tried to save it 
i think i knew i can't stop it 
cause baby we were breaking 
so many cracks spread without 
and by the time that it had split 
we had planned out a house 

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

i'd give up everything i have to fix the things ruined
but i just can't make myself put my heart through it 

i don't want it to stop 
i can't feel it all 
i don't want you gone 
i ran right through the wall

tell me everything
you want it too
i can't be your rendezvous
even if i tried 
i couldn't even if i wanted to
i always lose 
it's the truth 

i don't think that we can try again
now there's no me without you 
and baby i know that you lied again 
cause that's just what we do 
tell me that everything will be alright 
hold me like this one will be the last time 
kiss me so softly, i'll cry the whole night
grab on my body and look in my eyes 
look in my eyes

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done 
(did i say too much, did i say too much?)
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

icantloveyouenough

say a prayer for me 

prod michael harrison 
master: @onlyfriendyeah

i wanna feel you as you climb underneath 
i can't move 
it's like i'm stuck to the sheets
i've been so bad
you say at last
i just wanna see you mad

oh i'm immature?
you are the reason i'm so fucked
you really speak the worst 
things to me 
shit that i didn't deserve

(if you want)
i'll take it off for you 
just tell me what to do

just wanna love you 'till it hurts
(is that bad?)
my baby put me through the worst
(is that so sad?)
so darling swing around the hearse 
oh, you know i'll let you kill me first 

black dress waiting for me
if i'm asleep
would you adore me?
if i was home 
would you hold me?
i could've swore 
that you once told me
oh,
i fucking swear i'm moving backwards now 
figure out 
what's left of me
i'm shaking 
can you hold me down 
i'm holding out
prayers up 
was the water over my head enough?
will i be saved
if i'm brave enough?
i would do it for us

(say a prayer for me)
say a prayer for me
stop and stare you see 
i'm right here on my knees
take it off for me 
hope that god don't see 
baby make me say please

prayer

i hope you're proud of yourself 

prod/master: @skinnyatlas

i don't think there's something wrong 
i love it when you bite my tongue
pull my skin apart, dismember 
put the pieces back together

gone, i can't bring you along
sing the words to a song 
that i wrote you in fall 
(baby now you're)
gone, you don't even call 
baby is that so hard 
do you care at all 
(baby, grab my)
grab my neck any harder you'd break me 
i love that sex where you say that you hate me
if i won't scream then you don't hear it 
if i don't bleed then i won't feel it

hide myself in isolation
don't come close love
i can't take it 
bind myself, there's no escaping
hold me down i just,
hope you're

proud of yourself 
told you once, but i'll see you in hell
all his sins 
think you've ruined yourself
all the things that you do to yourself 
cards that you've dealt
cut me down into submission 
carve me up 'till god can't fix it
not even saline could wash out the stitches 
i'm not worth saving, there's no need for wishes

hide

hide (w/ skinny atlas)

i can't look at you

prod: @irby314
master: https://soundcloud.com/diskrypt

another missed call
it's all that i wanted to see the leaves fall
please i'll 
be all alone 
and i'm not able
skin crawl 
i know what you want 
and that it's painful
tangled
it's not hard to see your angle
i see the cuts in this 
baby it's not picturesque
can't cover up the stitch
see the scars surround my chest
oh, i think i love you too much to be a good thing
don't think i trust you enough 
i get the feeling

this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you 
this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you

can't get out of what i started 
that's a problem
cause you like to lie regardless
if i'm honest
try,
keep me broken hearted
be your target
cry my dearly departed 
i'll be your last one

it goes on 
and on 
and on 
(i'll be whatever you want)
and on 
and on
and on
(until i beg you to stop)

i'll be whatever you want 
until you beg me to stop
no matter what the cost 
i think about it a lot
i'll be whoever you need
pretend i'm on tv
want you to stare at me 
want you to reach through the screen
i'll take it off for you,
regret it
a doll for you to mess with 
he told me have some respect for myself
didn't get the message 
pour it out, get me drunk
oh i'm and easy one to bed with
let me down, not enough 
oh i'm an easy one to end with 

this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you 
this'll all be over soon
baby i can't look at you 
feel my skin turn pale and blue 
baby i can't look at you

picturesque

i don't want to get destroyed again 

prod: jewelryboy
master: @onlyfriendyeah

didn't want to but i let it hurt
put it on me, we can make this work 
will you still want me when i sleep in dirt
giving me poison, baby do your worst
god i'm so
psychotic 
paranoid, i'm so fucked
somebody did me in 
break my voice
i don't want to get destroyed again

i wanna stay sound 
pour me out 
six shots down 
god i'm still stumbling
he doesn't love me 
he just loves how my palms bleed 
oh,
he doesn't love me 
he just loves how my palms bleed

holy ghost 
i feel it 
hands up 
that's the spirit 
hold me close
it's real
it's hard to show it's killing me 
take it all off 
baby won't you be 
good for me?
take it all off 
baby won't you be
around,
too long 
i can't calm down 

i wanna stay sound 
pour me out 
six shots down 
god i'm still stumbling
he doesn't love me 
he just loves how my palms bleed 
oh,
he doesn't love me 
he just loves how my palms bleed

i cave through 
i'm sorry that i love you 
don't tell me that i saved you 
don't tell me that i saved you

poison

i love him more than i love myself 

prod: michael harrison
master: @onlyfriendyeah

do i deserve to be this broken?
i must've done something wrong 
and when i speak i feel like choking 
it must've been all my fault
i love him more 
than i love myself 
i'll endure what he gives me 
nothing can change my mind,
nothing i won't sacrifice 

you've got such a violent taste now 
is that what it takes to turn you on?
he want me to pour my veins out 
is that what it takes to be your crush?
i'll keep a compliant face now 
you know i would hate to make you stop 
i'll be so silent, stay down 
if that's what it takes to be what you want 
(be what you want)

violent taste

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

skele

hearteater