teyoken

Pain (Prod. 5head)

prod https://soundcloud.com/wheelprod
og version: https://soundcloud.com/j0shiguess/attachment-issues

Do I want to stay, or should I go away
Should I leave the world or have this risk to take,
Will it turn out worse or will it be so great,
Still I gotta try to accept my fate 

Only had to try this 2 times like I'm nate, 
But there's days that I feel I can't escape,
Stuck with you forever but I can't complain,
This feeling you give me  driving me insane,


Loving it, McDonald's, High pitched voice like Carl, 
hate on me I snarl, sun comes out like Charles,
 ride or die for me,  rise and shine for me
 but she been wanting drugs so she might die on me,
(you know I really don't want that to happen please don't take that serious i swear to god)

 she told me she promised not to lie to me, 
how am I still going, I always agree
Will this help in life or will I not succeed,
I'm already failing, hope I get degree


I just feel attached, she snatched my heart from me, benefits or issues tell apart for me, how do I continue she so far from me, 
always rejecting others that live close to me,

Do I want to stay, or should I go away
Should I leave the world or have this risk to take,
Will it turn out worse or will it be so great,
Still I gotta try to accept my fate
to accept my fate to accept my fate to accept my fate
she my one and only,
promised this forever, but it's going slowly, 
I hate being so she the one for me,
I hate having issues but they strengthen me

attachment issues (wheel)

prod @freveltrothy
with @akiradoves & https://soundcloud.com/mrtruereligion
Lyrics:
i'ma-i'ma decay 
i'ma die inside this grave
told me you would stay
now you left without retrace
was it something that i did
something that i said
i'ma open up your heart 
i'ma fucking die inside
pave me too weak for me
i don't need you no more
you told me that you care
and that's a simple lie
despite of your demise
you're coming from afar

okay i've been high on my mind since sunday
shit's gas but i'm still on the runway
skip class so i learn things the long way
get the fuck off my back i'm just doing my own thing
took some time but i get it now
i was trying to run things the wrong way
see if i can shut it down
why the fuck did i do things the long way

i'ma-i'ma decay 
i'ma die inside this grave
told me you would stay
now you left without retrace
was it something that i did
something that i said
i'ma open up your heart 
i'ma fucking die inside
pave me too weak for me
i don't need you no more
you told me that you care
and that's a simple lie
despite of your demise
you're coming from afar

@joshiguess
and you don't even care about me
you just sit there and stare you on trees
tryna move asap like rocky
why you tryna start drama we not even talking
i'm tryna change like out of pocket it's the wrong side
i'm always on the pro and you're always on the con side
but it would be hard for me to ever want to cut ties
i can't ever trust you when you coming with these dumb lies

spotify

a simple lie (frevel + 5head)

featuring https://soundcloud.com/diegointhedark
produced by https://soundcloud.com/nickp3tro
mix + master by both joshiguess & diegointhedark
lyrics below
____________________________________________________________________


doing shit with no hesitation
like a step by step animation
my life is a book full of pages
and i'm tired of going thru these phases

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

money on my mind go run my bands up 
got a xan under my tongue bitch i can’t stand up 
all y’all just some clones y’all just my fandom
talk shit bitch this 30 throw a tantrum

last year they would treat me like a reject 
everybody bouncing back like a reflex
stone island when i walk imma big flex 
your bodyguard gon die shoot a big tech

she wanna fuck i don’t even gotta ask her 
i pulled up turned the show to a disaster
you want smoke put your liver on a platter 
upgraded diamonds bitch my chain is dark matter

and i swear i had to do this on my own 
you ain’t never had to struggle all alone
my girl looking pale like a ghost 
stepping out i put that rick owens my toes

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

playing cities like i'm playing on nintendo
said she wanna hang out took her back home
she wanna smash so i put in some smash bros
if she meant the other way she a bad hoe (battle)

Cliffhanger

cliffhanger! w/ diegointhedark (p3tro)

produced by @whatafuckingbitch
features by: @whatafuckingbitch & @emoflytrap
mixed & mastered by: joshiguess + whatafuckingbitch


it's whatafuckingbitch and joshiguess and emoflytrap
we be on the track, yeah

stupid sad but god damn it don't @ me
i be popping off like the bottles in the backseat
pacing cus i'm geeked up only half the time
just mix that shit in different lines
getting hella faded for the free they say they know me
i guess i'll know when i see shit
too ignorant believe it
how you gonna fuck up my time barely breathing
who cares? god at least i'm tweaking 
molly's not for weekends
molly's not for weekends

molly's not for weekends
well i'll wait another season
and i'm staying up drinking
put me back together cus i'm falling into pieces


i should've known that you would never hit me back
all your texts are way too dry, i'm the shore and you're the wrack
and she got a nice rack but there ain't no point of that
when u ain't feeling attached yeah they always wanna nag

and the times ticking on a time bomb
tbh i'd be scared but tonight I'm staying quite calm
been alone in bed for days yeah I'm waiting for the right call
and I don't want to go back to something I just resigned on

repeated process, talk a lot of nonsense
when they see me gone they gon put me on colossus
the way that you been lying look like u got proboscis
and i wanna move out but I don't wanna pack the boxes

molly's not for weekends
jumping off the deep end
fuck being sad emoflytrap always geeking
always geeking yeah i'm always geeking
fuck being sad emoflytrap always geeking
dying in the back tho
fucking on a bad hoe
told me that you love me but that's not what your text wrote
drugs in my bag tho
i don't ever test those
fucking up my life got me ripping up your love notes

yeah got me ripping up your love notes
but i'm wishing you the best tho
even tho my life's a mess hoe
if you're ruining my life then i'll go out on a death note

time bomb (prod. whatafuckingbitch)

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/poisonseed
I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust 
They try to get advice but i can't when i'm never in love
And i try to be what i can but be honest i dont wanna bluff

I just want someone that can't easily replace me
For someone else it's mental hell
But yet when i get what i want
It's too hard to tell what i fell into
I don't want no issues

I've been eating and sleeping lately too many times
Watching the clock tick away staying in my eyes
And I stay on the block cus it's crazy outside
But i just wish that someone would put me aside

I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust

distrust

distrust (trynacommunicate)

featuring https://soundcloud.com/hoshiestar
prod https://soundcloud.com/omgartixan

She only finds interest while she getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then

I'll take another, no reason to cuff her
For the rave I'ma take her out the suburbs
Watching cars pass on the edge of the gutter
When she stay the night, she spread it out like it's butter

Yeah we stay up all night yeah we on mario party
Yeah we download play we connect to the lobby
And she want my paste but I just want a copy
And the two of us pair like we're walkie talkies

Like we're walkie talkies
What you doing walking with a bag of takis?
And i don't see a reason why you should love me
Realize I'm a star and I'm feeling like I'm hoshie

And I only have interest
In all the drugs that I ingest
And I know that it doesn’t serve a purpose
But tonight I'ma see if it's worth it

I tried to take her to the top
I tried to put her on
There's some work I gotta do
But I'ma put it off
Designer all up on my fit
You know I put it on
Live my life like its a role
You know I took it on

She only finds interest while she getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then

And yea we got too drunk another passed out on the pavement
And no one was in the right state of mind to say it
And there's been days I thought of going faceless
But I want to hear people scream my name and say it

Stay inside and bleed
I just wanna be me
And I just wanna feel free
But she begging on her knees

And she only find interest while she's getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then, huh

counterfeit! w/ hoshie star (artixan)

feature by https://soundcloud.com/supachefm
mixed by https://soundcloud.com/polearm and me
cover art taken at screwyounick's first ever show he threw

Love should not be bought you should bring the receipts
Erase my memories like a control alt delete
The way I'm in her head got her kicking up her feet
But my path to success is a construction on my concrete

Yeah time's passing by
And I'm still asking why
I'm stuck in this room where it's all flashing lights
And yeah I gotta work this out yeah I gotta get my stripes
So my life mountain sized, and I ain't talking mike's

And now these days keep flying, some bright some gloomy
And I don't got no time for another groupie
Only consider plans if you already knew me
And we always stick together, banjo & kazooie
Late nights in my room and I'm still feeling vacant
Overthinking shit, hoping I make the payments
Wake up 4am and I'm stuck on the pavement
If this a daily routine i hope to escape it

Love should not be bought you should bring the receipts
Erase my memories like a control alt delete
The way I'm in her head got her kicking up her feet
But my path to success is a construction on my concrete

Yeah time's passing by
And I'm still asking why
I'm stuck in this room where it's all flashing lights
And yeah I gotta work this out yeah I gotta get my stripes
So my life mountain sized, and I ain't talking mike's

Just hit me back when November ends
I could wait for hours til you're up in bed, yeah
To realize you want him instead
When two lines are too alike they coincide
But as time will always fly it's who will die
I'm headstrong but waist down i'm paralyzed
Love's gone and what's left is you and i
If the blood shed I wouldn't let you go

Love should not be bought you should bring the receipts
Erase my memories like a control alt delete
The way I'm in her head got her kicking up her feet
But my path to success is a construction on my concrete

Yeah time's passing by
And I'm still asking why
I'm stuck in this room where it's all flashing lights
And yeah I gotta work this out yeah I gotta get my stripes
So my life mountain sized, and I ain't talking mike's

vacant w/ supachefm (tykun)

https://soundcloud.com/youngburial
https://soundcloud.com/polearm
prod by: https://www.youtube.com/@QUITAllBeats
https://open.spotify.com/track/72fWpzdKn2tPeY3m7e13iQ?si=33ca61b0fd0a4383&nd=1&dlsi=2a7bb40ccad7477d

I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

And every time I go zzz
Up at least til 3
No it's not that easy
And I remember memories of you just cheating on me
But I just gotta hold myself together

I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

It's never enough
I'll just spend my night feeling down and I'm out of luck
Closer at the wall for an hour shutting off
I'm going mad I just need someone to trust
Laying in my bed disassociate again
Can't stop running back all the little things you said
Can't stop turning down all the chances that I get
I've become a fraction of the person that I was

I try to tell myself I’m over it
But I can’t stop endorphins
Still riding on the hope of it
But I might not get to close to it
And I know you raised the bar but could you lower it?
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for something more than this
But i wish you’d bring me down
But you got bored of it
I gave you all the time I had but you want more of it
All we do is sit inside
I think there’s more to this
I think there’s more to this
But you’re not supporting it

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

blend w/ fats'e & polearm (quitall)

this song is over a year old so sorry if the mix is a bit weird but so glad i could finally share this <3
https://soundcloud.com/devine-gorman-1
https://soundcloud.com/mccymusic


Love to me is scary
Because to me it varies
Can't choose who to marry
When you all are temporary
You on top like cherry
Head in my shoulder buried
Yet it's temporary
Love to me is scary

I do not know how to feel
When my head's just been going thru reels
Clips that just play through my mind
I promised you I would try (Yeah I promised)

I could never say goodbye
I'd rather start a brand new life
I wish that we could compromise
But now we only criticize
Sometimes I just wish I could be on my own
But what keeps me creating is not being alone

And I know by now past peers think of me as failure
Only know me thru my past bad behavior
Wish I could take back the love that I gave her
At least it made me look at times I should savor

I wish I could take back the love that I gave him
My heart's been abandoned my soul has been vacant for years
Shaking out here got to stay patient out here
But I know sometimes it's hard
I try to see the bigger picture but you just kept painting lies
Tried to take a better road your traffic stopped me on the side
Cautiously watching my heart skipping
And if you love me like you say you did
Then why'd you take your arms off me?

Tried to take a better road your traffic stopped me on the side
Cautiously watching my heart skipping
And if you love me like you say you did
Then why'd you take your arms off me?

Me, now I can finally see
Now I can finally leave
Now I can finally breathe, breathe
I knew you was lying to me
Sleep with admire to me
Don't try to deny it i'm tired of fighting
But why is you crying when i'm the one trying with you
With you, with you
Would you like it if I did the things that you did to me?
I'm through, i'm through, i'm through
Why the hell you coming back?
Boy it ain't no sense in that at all

Love to me is scary
Because to me it varies
Can't choose who to marry
When you all are temporary
You on top like cherry
Head in my shoulder buried
Yet it's temporary
Love to me is scary

Lovesick w/ Devine Jazz’Enay & Sha'Lena McCoy (Kira)

feat. https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami
prod https://soundcloud.com/1wayza
pic taken outside of @screwyounick first show
https://open.spotify.com/track/3FbODgk1VXlMKjrG9O6S09?si=80b008bca4214fea

Yeah
You know it's JoshIGuess
And we do it once again yeah 

Wake up in the morning and I reset the power
Cus I want it all different I can pass all the hours 
Taking elevators to the top of the towers 
Putting dirt on my name bitch I gotta scour

Bitch I gotta scour
My connection so lost like I unplugged my router
If you coming to my shows well here's a fucking voucher
I'ma break the fourth wall like it's fucking chowder


Drift in my whip but it ain't no joycon 
Staying all alone all these bitches wanna boycott
When I finna blow up you know ima put my boys on
And I gotta make a name on this world I deployed on

Tryna take my shit but all you ever attempt is from my pocket
It don't make no sense when everything is out my digital wallet
And whether you hate this shit or not 
I want the truth I would rather hear honest
Bet you never expected this from someone always staying modest

Wake up in the morning and I reset the power
Cus I want it all different I can pass all the hours
Taking elevators to the top of the towers
Putting dirt on my name bitch I gotta scour

Bitch I gotta scour
My connection so lost like I unplugged my router
If you coming to my shows well here's a fucking voucher
I'ma break the fourth wall like it's fucking chowder

Staying ground I can't be a coward
Chasing bags getting racks by the hour
Smoking sour good flower
I don't want an upper need a downer
Gave a fuck tho up every day so what
You so fucking frail why the fuck you acting tough
I was in the lunch line only had a couple bucks
Now I don't give a fuck get the check and throw it up

Throw it up yeah yeah throw it up
Throw it up yeah yeah throw it up
Throw it up yeah yeah throw it up
Throw it up yeah yeah throw it up

Wake up in the morning and I reset the power
Cus I want it all different I can pass all the hours
Taking elevators to the top of the towers
Putting dirt on my name bitch I gotta scour

Bitch I gotta scour
My connection so lost like I unplugged my router
If you coming to my shows well here's a fucking voucher
I'ma break the fourth wall like it's fucking chowder

I'm a beast spitting fire and I'm feeling like I'm Bowser
It's an alternate reality I'm feeling like the Prowler
Your girl hit me up while I'm tryna take a shower
And you better watch out she wanna take off my trousers

throw it up! w/ shinigami (wayza)

https://soundcloud.com/hkfiftyone2
https://soundcloud.com/angelsofsorrows

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

One day feel like me then the other different person
My mind never set straight yeah it's written all in cursive
But it's got a story ending on a cliffhanger
It's JoshIGuess I'm always dropping the bangers

Importance for years yet still got to decide
If any of choices are bad sacrifice
And everyone leave me so got no advice
But I'd rather figure out my own reside

Only feel like myself when I'm up to the mic
But the camera's too close to me like it gon snipe
Some of you guys just rely on a swipe
But that's not how I want to use my device

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

I'll be fine, I'll be fine
I'll be fine, I'll be fine (yeah i'll be fine)
Yeah I'ma get by I'ma live my life to the fullest
I'ma not be stupid I'ma live
I'ma keep on going and I ain't give a shit
And I found my inner self, yeah
But it comes with sacrifices
Now I know why people tend to stay the same, yeah

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, I'll be fine

I'll be fine
Yeah I'll be fine, I'll be fine, let's go (yeah i'll be fine)

i'll be fine w/ hkfiftyone & angelsofsorrows (quitall)

feat: @yungscuff
prod: Callisto Blue

PAIN SUFFOCATES THE SAME
I'M ON A RUNAWAY TRAIN
SHE GOT ME IN CHAINS
IN PAIN

Welcome to a world where you can never see where you are
Your footsteps have left a trail but then you can't see in the dark
And once you follow on the path that still ends in the same exact result
Trying my only luck with a struck from this sudden lightning bolt
CUS THATS MY SPARK

Taking things so sudden where I cannot even process
I would live more dependently but I ain't dealing with bosses

And every time my life has changed I proceed more and more with caution
With my temperature below the cold breeze feels like that I'm in Boston
And I'm cutting the connects I feel like that i'm living in Groton
Me & Yung Scuff yeah we know we bout to start a moshpit

Yeah I always surround
These people that give me frowns
But I just gotta calm down
I'm gonna make my own sound

I gotta do it for myself now
Even if everybody’s let down
Cus every endings all the same
And every time it ends in pain
But these chains don’t phase me
they barely even wear me down
And I’ll only break free
No matter what my fate allows
I’ll only break free
It’s just a matter of time now
NO MATTER WHAT MY FATE ALLOWS

Oooooo
I'm not afraid to lose
Your love is so true
But i'm always confused
Save me from this endless desire
But you let me rest your soul on fire

Endless Desire (feat. Yung Scuff)

featuring & mixed by https://soundcloud.com/9aradox
prod https://soundcloud.com/oritachi-sama
mastered by me + 9aradox 
photo by: https://soundcloud.com/whatafuckingbitch edited by me
yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah 
yeah yeah yeah yeah

shawty wanna buy me drinks while we turn up at the club
and i'd be doing that but i ain't even 21
so when we at the pub yea you know i get my grub
and i'm counting all my stubs and she tell me she the one

a bad bitch only want me for the night
a real one to me will always come to requite
my ex looking back at me saying she wants a contrite
i just tell her she a joke like mario is to spike

and there's a reason that i live a private life
cus once everyone knows they will all just try to entice
with everything that interests me feeling so memory wiped
and i just want discoveries someone to show their other side

feeling like grimace with purple stains all on my neck
my fit so bright that rave lights show in the reflect
that bitch say she want me but then she looks like a grotesque
there just comes a point where me and people never intersect

shawty wanna buy me drinks while we turn up at the club
and i'd be doing that but i ain't even 21
so when we at the pub yea you know i get my grub
and i'm counting all my stubs and she tell me she the one

girl i'm in the club, you know that i been turning up 
if you hear me thru your speakers baby you should turn it up
addicted to you girl your love is like a drug 
i'm coming for you baby you should give it up
i'm so sick of everybody they all act so typical 
the way that i be flowing on the beat is so despicable 
i just popped six tabs like bitch i hope that i get visuals 
i'm moving like a thief in the night bitch i'm invisible

onenitestand + 9aradox [nokia2k]

https://soundcloud.com/imactuallyd34d
https://soundcloud.com/omgartixan

i see u dancing in the club with the lights on
shawty you're the only one I got my eyes on
every other memory has been bygone
i'm always on the stage say i'm an icon

i see u dancing in the club with the lights on
shawty you're the only one I got my eyes on
every other memory has been bygone
got the paparazzi on me with a nikon

spot on my neck, you can say that's your landmark
feel like nothing nowhere with your cold blood black heart
and oh that's your girl why she wanna throw it back for
if she wanna take my tarot, i already took her v card
hop on top to the rhythm cus the beats hard
i'm rock hard yeah I'm feeling like a t-tar
afterparty hotel you better have the key card
and i'm always going crazy every night i gotta recharge

we met on the dance floor in the lights in the night yea
sippin’ on my cup flying up on cloud 9 yea
baby what you feeling? cus you know i’m feeling right yea
i’m so high i’m so high walk up on me it’s on sight
i can’t feel my face started feeling like i died 
bass hitting but it just makes me want to cry
i’m just tryna fuck baby i’m not tryna fight
i need to sober up and catch my morning flight

on the dance floor dance more
do you wanna take a chance or
take this shot as well as this one in the glass poured
once im on the stage the persona in me transforms
this the energy I want and that I always planned for

i see u dancing in the club with the lights on
shawty you're the only one I got my eyes on
every other memory has been bygone
got the paparazzi on me with a nikon

used to play shows for no one i enjoyed it anyway
and now look at us raving at the dna
these numbers keep on adding like its 2048
i'll do this til i die i'ma moshpit in the grave

AFTERPARTY HOTEL 2 W/ D34D [ARTIXAN]

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

It's complicated whether or not to continue strolling thru this valley
I just confuse myself with a brainstorm cycling fast like a rally
This math don't fucking add up please excuse my dear aunt sally
It's hard to live life knowing next second could be the finale

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back


In my room and there's too many empty cups
Wondering when I will fill them up
All these memories fading, and hope to awaken and try to remember whatever's up
There's never true love in between a bitch with high standards or wanting to fuck
i feel like an alien inside of this world, and it's ran by people with infinite bluffs
There's too many problems continue ignoring hell i'm tempted for once i will roll up this blunt
But nah i'd rather sleep away, lights off and door shut hope the demons won't haunt
They saying that money don't bring happiness well how do you feel with a couple of bucks?
I'm tired of people online acting like there's only one way, with their narrative shoved

And just when you think things are fine and dandy
Your plan b turns to plan z
Cus it ends in such a random pull of possibility
Life itself is like playing your own game of the lottery
You ever feel the voice inside your head is just a form of mockery?

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

canvas (lmg x everest)

https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves

cause I see you 
hurt me twice this year 
cause I see you 
and I see you running back I'm dying 

nothing compared to what we have had once before
and i know you're sending texts to me but i can't help but ignore
the moment you chose someone else over me
i realized to my own table that i never bring nothing
huh?, gotta sit back and pause
she only cared about my flaws
and now i'm out another job
hotel room that's booked for two but i'm the only one that's staying
but i guess i can't complain because i'm not the one that is paying
hiding in a maze that i created in the vineyards
cus i'm staying on my own but i still see you in the picture 

cause I see you 
hurt me twice this year
cause I see you 
I'll see you right back

i see you (taymxru)

https://soundcloud.com/imactuallyd34d
https://soundcloud.com/amenphoenix
i said run it back!
spending all my racks yeah you know she like that
if she treat me well yeah i'ma wife that
she get a little intimate we could try that
only tap my cards cus we don't swipe that

doing all these shows yeah it got me sidetracked
bitch we stay secure i got on that white hat
but you know we staying chill like a striped cat
looking for your lifestyle cus i can't find that

bitches boyfriends be mad just because we had a past
it ain't deep don't be weak or maybe you will fucking see
that the bitch lowkey is still attached and she right behind me
less she the one that always wanna keep it lowkey

bitch i'm tryna chill i'm not taking pills
you know where i live now it's free will
and no i ain't talking about that fucking orca
but if it's free a willy for a bitch? well sorta
yo momma still stream me on pandora
and the haters ain't shit cus i'm more up
yeah i'm 21 this year, i'ma pour up
and i'm speeding down the highway but it's not forza

i said run it back!
spending all my racks yeah you know she like that
if she treat me well yeah i'ma wife that
she get a little intimate we could try that
only tap my cards cus we don't swipe that

doing all these shows yeah it got me sidetracked
bitch we stay secure i got on that white hat
but you know we staying chill like a striped cat
looking for your lifestyle cus i can't find that

i put em in the ground
and i told em run it back
7.62 he cannot get up from that
i said pick ya mans up
and take em back to ya trap
i'ma be there fuckin soon
smokin on ya homies pack
i'ma pull up in a demon
and leave ya broski leakin
drop a fuckin emote
got ya whole squad seethin
i'm yo fuckin dad
you my kid u still teethin
when i dash out his spot
i'm the only one still breathin

i said run it back!
spending all my racks yeah you know she like that
if she treat me well yeah i'ma wife that
she get a little intimate we could try that
only tap my cards cus we don't swipe that

doing all these shows yeah it got me sidetracked
bitch we stay secure i got on that white hat
but you know we staying chill like a striped cat

MAYHEM!

MAYHEM! w/ D34D (ATTACKISHERE)

with @akiradoves
come see me and him in august <3 tickets below
https://app.fanfly.live/ticket-claim?showId=67&ticketTierId=67
prod @exkimelyy

you faced the consequence
and your own state is surrounded by a fence
and why do i have to keep on losing friends
i'm hanging by a thread 
and i cannot go to bed

i feel strange
what's the point?
she told me to go
you'll never find a way
down
down
(down)

you faced the consequence
and your own state is surrounded by a fence
and why do i have to keep on losing friends
i'm hanging by a thread 
and i cannot go to bed

hanging by a thread (exkimelyy)

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

They try to creep up in the comments but it doesn't mean shit
If they weren't so pressed wish it was something I could fix
But you know something you can never fix, guess what? A bitch
Cus it ain't no grudges only stay how it is

How it is? I ain't give no second chance
Got other plans, i'm not gonna interrupt it for my fans
What you ask? What you ask? Why don't you say in my dm
They be staying talking back no matter what like Talking Ben

Why do I keep waking up in my own dreams?
Break the door down in this movie please cut the scene
If it goes on lockdown just grab my keys
Now I'm in the dark void the new sentry

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

And there's a big eye watching from above like Mike
Watching my every move far from sight
Always rejected i'm not their type
But stick to my gut it don't hurt to try

scare floor

I'm just chilling in the back with those i met over years
I feel like i've done it all and I have faced all those fears
So why does success not ever bring me back into tears?
I guess I cannot feel a thing even if around my peers

I gave it my all, it's mostly just rise and fall
Just waiting patiently to receive my future life on a call
Every success stories different just think it's not quite my time
More than 20 years have passed at least you could say that I try
Been doing shows so frequently got bigger artists asking how
Guess that's what you get when you just open up your mouth
And I know the success of others just has its ups and downs
So that's why i'm tryna self reflect and make more solos now

So what you think what you think?
What you think?
All I had to do was lock in just to feel like me

I don't need to reach an audience I just love my craft
Practicing these songs in my room but wish it was with a band
And I just need someone sweet to offer to take their hand
But it's like looking for a treasure in the deep buried sand
I was on the stage with those i've looked up to my whole career
And i've done dream collaborations with people that i've held so dear

I'm just chilling in the back with those i met over years
I feel like i've done it all and I have faced all those fears
So why does success not ever bring me back into tears?
I guess I cannot feel a thing even if around my peers

self reflections

Say I'm stuck in a box
I really don't give a fuck
I'm just sticking with the sound that I fucking love
I'm here to prove em wrong
Yeah we blowing up

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Over 5 years and you can't stay situated
Even tho i grew up they'll still be hating
And even if I blew up, don't know what they saying
Just know it won't be anything worse investigating

Too pure for this world my greatest strength and weakness
I be getting booked for shows every other weekend
But I always been sober yeah I wasn't ever tweaking
Guess that's enough to call me a poser for a reason

Just know that my vocals better than most the scene
But these people stay in boxes for their labeling
They say this music styles dead, well not for me
I'm bringing this shit back for eternity

Me and tykun making banger after banger
Shawty hmu later I might bang her
Showcasing my own styles on some hangers
Cus man im one hell of a genre changer

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Yeah they're going to the galaxy
And I do my own mix and mastering
But I suck at vocal balancing
Better stop 4th walls are damaging
I wish I could explain my life
It's a thunderstorm cloud I feel like strife
I hate to break it to you all
But that's the end of this song

keep on

was supposed to drop on the alt but eh
(prod by. kinderyessir + centrlx)
https://soundcloud.com/kinder-603456337
https://soundcloud.com/centrlxx

feat: https://soundcloud.com/joshaw4tt


Joshaw4tt
Bitches what's up

I can feel the magic in this world
Like she cast a spell on the whirl
She seductive, but i'm destructive 
Of many people mixed in like a swirl
She only like when they locked in doing curls
Then she say she aint like other girls
How do I believe in something that gets thrown back and forth like a hurl

She throw me back and forth on the bed
But you know it ain't for the sex
She in my head but she not giving in
She say that we're better off as just friends
And I said baby can you give me a chance?
This is the first i've been in the camp
In a tent with you we stay overnight
Looking at the stars shine
At the campfire and they shining so bright 
You're a marshmello with the face you hide
These seconds fall like rose petals 
Are we on the same level?
I don't want you to do all this to satisfy me
I want us to be one i hope you fantasize me

Joshaw4tt 
You don't really know what it was til its gone
Cus I know what I want
But when you turning to another you start to notice all the flaws
Fuck, I'll pause and sip some white claw

I can feel the magic in this world
Like she cast a spell on the whirl
She seductive, but i'm destructive 
Of many people mixed in like a swirl
She only like when they locked in doing curls
Then she say she aint like other girls
How do I believe in something that gets thrown back and forth like a hurl

magical fantasy

feat: @yungscuff
prod: Callisto Blue

PAIN SUFFOCATES THE SAME
I'M ON A RUNAWAY TRAIN
SHE GOT ME IN CHAINS
IN PAIN

Welcome to a world where you can never see where you are
And your footsteps have left a trail but then you can't see in the dark
And once you end up on the path that still ends in the same exact result
Trying my only luck with a struck from this sudden lightning bolt
CUS THATS MY SPARK

Taking things so sudden where I cannot even process
and I would live more dependently but I ain't dealing with bosses

And every time my life has changed I proceed more and more with caution
With my temperature below the cold breeze feels like that I'm in Boston
And I'm cutting the connects I feel like that i live in Groton
Me & Yung Scuff yeah we know we bout to start a moshpit

And yeah I always surround
These people that give me frowns
But I just gotta calm down
I'm gonna make my own sound

I gotta do it for myself now
Even if everybody’s let down
Cus every ending's all the same
And every time it ends in pain
But these chains don’t phase me 
they barely even wear me down 
And I’ll only break free
No matter what my fate allows
I’ll only break free
It’s just a matter of time now
NO MATTER WHAT MY FATE ALLOWS >>

Forever in your lost and found
I know you don't want me around
When you dream of me aroused
Save me from this endless desire
But you let me rest your soul on fire

Endless Desire [2025 Remaster]

(Prod. Anyvibe & Enigma)
Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

She got that perfect body show me how it work
When she shake it she gon change my universe
Bad bitch yea you know she got the curves
And she gon make it work, uh uh
We be at the club all night
Yea we making love tonight
So let’s enjoy this life
Dance like it’s our wedding night

Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

Who that girl in the photo right there?
Pretty eyes and that natural hair
Looking good no matter what you wear
You and I would make a pretty good pair
So let’s go on the dance floor show me what you’re made of
And you look so perfect with or without your makeup
We’re locked in forever you know I won’t break up
She feeling kinda freaky she might put the tape up
Te amo bebe exploramos el mundo
Solo quiero que te mantengas seguro


Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

Gifted (Prod. Anyvibe & Enigma)

She doesn't care when I'm gone
She don't text at all
She on the gram saying i'm bored who wanna call
It doesn't even cross her mind i'm like a ghost in the hall, in the hall

I remember those days you said you loved me so
I kept staring at your eyes they were so beautiful
So how the hell we ended up is unpredictable 
Spend my life waiting for reciprocal

And I don't wanna wait too long
Distance got me weak not strong
And to them don't wanna be no flop
I'm hoping that I go up
To show them what could've been us
Spent years living in these bluffs
I'm alone with my ear muffs
One moment of attention just got me in a bubble
I never get to talk about one of my troubles
I'm starting to think this will all fade again 
I guess everything has to come to an end
And they won't say nothing unless i'm the speaker
And some of them just want the wood like a beaver
And it doesn't have to be from me
There's always another to take that seat
And I may be lonely, but I give it all that I got
I put all this luck inside of this pot
Hoping that it just strikes gold one day
Now I stay away, from this fed up trait

Don't hit me if you're not gonna hit me back
I'm just too attached
And I get detached real fast
Why do I gotta feel this way
Gotta feel this way?

reciprocal.

https://soundcloud.com/1mosh
mad hoe im mad
spill wok on my v2 jeans
louis bag caught a bag
i can't ever trust no bitch
put that mag on my fans
think i found a brand new lick
and my bad can't lie
i can't ever trust no bitch

bro bro bro
in my fucking cut
you want more more more
then get to fucking sucking

chew on that molly
then i'm really fucking bugging
i don't trust nobody
but i told that bitch i loved it

bitch i'm rolling up
but it ain't a blunt
just gotta pick em up
them shawties wanna fuck
she said she wanna come back to all of my shows
she switching up more than my flows
but i made a deal and i told her so
she need to slide if she want some more
bitch we turnt up
get the word up
all this fire we burned up
she too perked up
we off them shitz again
we getting lit again
better watch yo thot she all up on my dick again

turnt up! (feat. MO$H)

prod. crescenta
You know you know
You hurt my soul
And I don’t know if I can take this anymore
I fall to the floor I don’t wanna be ignored
But they think that i’m a- 

Person they can brush off
If you feel that way i’ll rush off
Cus i don’t got time for overthinking and shit
When you can fuck off
I’m tired of falling for these silly games
But I guess i’m always the one to blame
Meeting artists and now how they behave
Yea it’s fallen off and its so ashamed

And I be staying in my own lane
Cus i’m on my own shit anyway
I’m just tryna get thru better days
I might only stick to my next job

This may be a passion, hasn’t paid off
But I don’t wanna treat it like a lay off
Just wanna lay back be a real adult
Feel like cxltmoon I might join the cult yea

And I know this is nowhere near peak me
But this the only way you can peep me
Cus no one wanna hear me out
I don’t even know why they fucking keep me
In their fucking life
I don’t wanna come off as that weird guy
But when I need people not nearby
I just lay in my bed with a teared eye
And you know that I can’t even steer drive

You know you know
You hurt my soul
And I can’t take this anymore
I fall to the floor I don’t wanna be ignored
And I spent all day tryna call someone

Why do you like to talk to me indirectly?
I’m just tryna catch some z’s
Yea I wanna rest in peace yea
Or maybe I might want to literally yea
But you know I don’t wanna get to deep, uh

I don’t wanna put every single thought out there
But where the fuck does it belong then?
And maybe I just need to go and get fresh air
But JoshIGuess is stressed beyond this

You know you know
You hurt my soul
And I can’t take this anymore (And I don’t know if I can take this anymore)
I fall to the floor I don’t wanna be ignored

What am I to you?
I don’t got a clue
What am I to you?
I don’t got a clue
Before I go I gotta say one thing
I love you..

stressed beyond (crescenta)

beat by @prodby_amity 
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeb0oy4qVFel4VUnBz8dSLQ
mixed/mastered by joshiguess 
lyrics below

Come on, may I make an offer?
Dont worry doesn't cost a dollar
This chapter that I am the author
And one day I won't have to call her
She'll be right here next to me
That will be the next step to me
And you it's true, I don't count on losing you
Cuz I know you'll always stay inside my heart, yeah

I want to just keep you mine
Let's stare and let's watch the sky
There's a million reasons why
Rest my head right on your thigh
Come on you can be my mai
Baby you just look so fine
This love I just won't resign
No matter what i'll always try

Let's teach each other lessons
And continue through this adolescence
I want this to continue for eternity
And continue from what's currently, yeah

Come on, may I make an offer?
Dont worry doesn't cost a dollar
This chapter that I am the author
And one day I won't have to call her
She'll be right here next to me
That will be the next step to me
And you it's true, I don't count on losing you
Cuz I know you'll always stay inside my heart, yeah

JoshIGuess

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