lose it all

cover of agony by yung lean

prod. @lizdek

agony - yung lean cover

in remembrance of soryn, Jarid Anderson
rest in peace, i hope you know how much i always cared about you even through the distance<3 i love you ,, 7

https://soundcloud.com/user-36090459/soryn-laced-xanax-prod-misery?si=f5c5fe7b09af46ad9f3248849e991728

thank you @lizdek  &  @subsad for the prod.

for soryn <3 7

@vaeo-music 
@176s

lyrics:

vaeo:

take just a single moment
reflect on what you’ve done
and i
cant forgive you yet
cause the pains only just begun

havent seen the mountains in a minute
i like to start things but i don’t know how to finish it all
honeydew and cigarettes are on my breath
wonder if there’s something more to living

the days keep disappearing faster and faster
im scared of being left behind
and the pain is such a familiar feeling
it happens all the time

joss:

i don’t wanna see you go back home
cause i’m scared of being alone when it’s dark outside
i know it may feel like i’m using you
but i cannot tell the truth with what i get into

and i’d do it all again if i had the chance
saw the wrinkles on the bed and i thought you were there this time
but i never ever cared that’s why

stood outside thinking how could you believe me
when you never could believe in me
but i can say that i tried
even if it was late this time

i didn’t feel like staying
but i don’t feel like leaving you behind
i didn’t feel like staying
but i don’t feel like leaving you behind

feel like staying w vaeo (waifu)

produced and mixed by @blackwinterwells

the stars glow
but can’t see past your window
it doesn’t matter
when i ask you
you just say no

the blackout
blinds never leave your eyes
don’t make sense to me why
they never hit the side

i can’t help you like before
i swear i tried
i don’t know what you look for
stayin in my life
but i know better
this time

and way outside the city
where we’d go together
it would look so pretty
we didn’t make it any time

and just as i surrendered
felt it moving faster then i thought it would before
i couldn’t hold together
maybe we weren’t meant to work together
could be better

i can't help you

i can't help you ( blackwinterwells )

(szell)
you will never ever know me, you will never understand,
running packs up with the homies
we been moving contraband
i’m mixing wockhardt with what i got in hand
giving him a headstart bullets coming after him
killed him when i shot him
bullets got him flossing
talking put a hole inside his head like he dolphin
all, it’s all okay he don’t want it
stupid fucking dog, im ballin

(joss)
me & szell we got em lined up like some goalies
hitting shit unnoticed wonder why my nose bleed
gettin hard to stand
oh he better ran
fixed it with the plan
fixed it with the plan

yeah he got under my skin
how could i regret it
do it backwards for the game
doesn’t need no benefit

all, it’s all okay, he don’t want it
stupid fucking dog, i’m balling

stupid dog w szell

prod. @lizdek 

i wanna be everything that you need
so give me some time to put my mind at ease
i swear i’ll have your love issues go away
even though i put them there

it ain’t easy feelin like this day after day
i just wanna be your world filled in white and gray
say it right but all that comes is please stay
stay yeah

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
not the prettiest but you can call me nothin
drunk dialed pick up when i’m callin
not important i just like talking

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
didn’t think i’d see you here so late this morning
if i had been more prepared wouldn’t be blushing
wish i could get out a word to tell you something

something
oh oh
living in a dream world
don’t this feel so perfect

nostalgia hits my senses when i pass the register
i land out by the booth that we sat in when hungover
can almost hear the radio play that one song i knew
unlikely that it would have happened when i’m with you

still can feel the touch of your hand running on my skin
i really hope i can feel that within the next ten
like nothing else i’ve ever felt it all falls into place
and without another thought you’re taking me to your place

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
not the prettiest but you can call me nothin
drunk dialed pick up when i’m callin
not important i just like talking

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
didn’t think i’d see you here so late this morning
if i had been more prepared wouldn’t be blushing
wish i could get out a word to tell you something

something
oh oh
living in a dream world
don’t this feel so perfect

still wanna be everything that you need
i think i’ve had my time and i don’t want it to beat me
feels just like the first time again i don’t remember why
we ever dropped off

you took me in once then and then you just did it once more
i never expected to fall so hard for you before
guess love stories were written for the people to ignore
we’re getting in your car with lights behind saying diner

hazy

don’t care if i hurt you by this time
the way you talked looked like it was such a crime
obsessed with the way you said you’re mine
oh oh oh, i don’t wanna know

how her heart felt when it’s closer then mine
couldn’t have bothered once more then just twice
seems like a lot of effort on your side
oh oh oh, i don’t wanna know

it’s stuck in my head
no i can’t let go
it’s stuck in my head
but i don’t wanna know

felt like i was grabbing for you eyes
treated that shit like it was some type of prize
wish i could take back all the times i cried
over you, i wish i knew

made it feel better when it was such a rarity and i fell for it cause i thought i was clear to see
how many mistakes will i get thrown at me
until i learn, but i don’t wanna know

it’s stuck in my head

it’s stuck in my head
no i can’t let go
it’s stuck in my head
but i don’t wanna know
X2

in my head ( kimj )

@bronzestandardlistening

i really didnt know you felt like that
petals fallin onto the bed
onto your head
you make it so obvious
you make it so obvious
im in my head
i really hate it when you talk like that
i really feel the disconnect
pain in my chest
when i can’t feel your hands
makes me wanna call you again

it never made any sense
you never dropped your defence
so i just spent 
the time waiting for you to go 
for you to open up some more

didn’t know you felt like that
didn’t know i wanted you back 
i don’t know how to get back
where we were

it never makes any sense
thats why it comes out intense
and now your feeling the tears
it’s not a means to the end
i want your lips so bad
so bad i can’t even think
too bad it’s run out of time
it’s something i can’t forgot
i think it’s over again
it’s just a means to an end
can’t seem to see it reversed
cuz that’s just how it begins
i think it’s over again
another means to an end
but i’m still stuck in my head
and that’s just how it begins

i really didnt know you felt like that
petals fallin onto the bed
onto your head
you make it so obvious
you make it so obvious
im in my head
i really hate it when you talk like that
i really feel the disconnect
pain in my chest
when i can’t feel your hands
makes me wanna call you again

12022021 w boysinblush

prod @rosesleeves 
@bronzestandardlistening

(joss)
i can’t speak at all
without hearing somebody else’s opinions

made me wanna crawl 
outside my skin and never see people again 

it was killing me
dont need it
not a bit 

for all the good things said 
i just hid
almost quit 

always another thing 
damn it stings 
i hate these things

(rose)
wish i was in control
its been a while since i truly knew what was going on
don't ask me why i'm still going at this point idk
this place no longer feels like home
at one point i belonged

(joss)
at one point i belonged
it’s been a while since i could tell you what was going on
at this point i don’t know
and i can feel reality is slipping from my throat 

(boysinblush)
it feels like 100 times could never be enough

sometimes its like im runnin with my feet up off the ground

and i wanna keep goin when u say u want it rough

i know u didnt mean it when ur sayin all that stuff

i gotta let it go, but im a psycho

you got me burnin the house that i built in my head

and i cant even kick rocks cuz im stuck in my bed

and this shits never gon change its gon haunt me forever

(joss)
it was killing me
dont need it
not a bit 

for all the good things said 
i just hid
almost quit 

always another thing 
damn it stings 
i hate these things

(rose)
wish i was in control
its been a while since i truly knew what was going on
don't ask me why i'm still going at this point idk
this place no longer feels like home
at one point i belonged

(joss)
at one point i belonged
it’s been a while since i could tell you what was going on
at this point i don’t know
and i can feel reality is slipping from my throat

don't need it w/ Rosesleeves & boysinblush

prod @4evr 

diamonds on my fingers
can’t keep fucking with ya
unless you got that status baby why would i be with ya

learn it all from me yeah
diamonds on your teeth and 
when you kiss me i can feel that you’re all that i need yeah yeah 

and did you cry when i left from by your side
i had to beg for a single moment in your eyes 
how could i do it all my feelings pushed aside
blame it all back on me
 
blame it all back on me
blame it all back on me

toxic it’s toxic can’t think
toxic it’s toxic let’s drink

yeah

diamonds in my hair piece 
i hold onto the keys
and i don’t have my license but you know i own the car please

my money it’s on increase
my love im kinda hard to please
only accept the ones that come to me for just me yeah yeah

and did you cry when i left from by your side
i had to beg for a single moment in your eyes 
how could i do it all my feelings pushed aside
blame it all back on me
 
blame it all back on me
blame it all back on me

toxic it’s toxic can’t think
toxic it’s toxic let’s drink

blame it all back on me
blame it all back on me

toxic it’s toxic can’t think
toxic it’s toxic let’s drink

toxic (4evr)

@funeral
@bronzestandardlistening
@remghost

what about us
you’re looking at me like i’m going under
but i don’t wanna talk about how i feel 
with you it doesn’t matter cause you don’t hear

you say you want love
but baby i can’t see you really being cuffed 
and i don’t waste my time when i’m still bout us
but lately i don’t even wanna discuss

cause what about 
what about

what about me girl, what about you
even if i aint here, still wanna be around you
you stay stuck in my head, and i can't get you out
girl i'm trying, i've tried to be something without you

girl i'm bout to, find my way out
i lie restless, everyday now
baby i'm feeling some shit i aint felt in a minute
just gimme one look and i'm finished
i fucked up i fucked up i'm reaching my limit

what about us
you’re looking at me like i’m going under
but i don’t wanna talk about how i feel 
with you it doesn’t matter cause you don’t hear

you say you want love
but baby i can’t see you really being cuffed 
and i don’t waste my time when i’m still bout us
but lately i don’t even wanna discuss

but what about
what about

what about us

what about us w funeral (boysinblush & remghost)

prod Jon Santana, Joe L and Toast

i don’t think i’ll lose you
feelings grew improved so
i said i wouldn’t want this
but i do say i lie sometimes

and all it really means is that i’m hard to get
or maybe what i think, wasn’t so hard was it
took me on a date, and next thing i’m living
in your fucking house, and i don’t wanna ever quit 

make the time for it
i don’t wanna waste 
anymore of it
i can really taste
my love on your lips
X2

feel alive when i get to know you’re with me
like an angel i love it i love to see you need me

two hearts we fall as hard of all
i know where you’ll be when i call 
 
oh

and all it really means is that i’m hard to get
or maybe what i think, wasn’t so hard was it
took me on a date, and next thing i’m living
in your fucking house, and i don’t wanna ever quit 

make the time for it
i don’t wanna waste 
anymore of it
i can really taste
my love on your lips
X4

luv on ur lips

prod. @tontowsp & @remghost , engineered by @bronzestandardlistening

i wanna know
how do you see me
i’m all alone
waitin for you to need me
wear your cologne 
to feel a little closer 
but you don’t know
how to give me the closure
X2

to feel what is all i
abuse what i can find 
think about it until i cave in and follow your lines
i swear that i don’t want this
but you been gone so long i miss
feeling needed feeling like i meant somethin more then this more then this

i wanna know
how do you see me
i’m all alone
waitin for you to need me
wear your cologne 
to feel a little closer 
but you don’t know
how to give me the closure
X2

i don’t feel like myself
embarrassed so helpless
i can’t find a reason to keep going can’t catch my breath
it’s really not like me
to be so untrustworthy 
but i can’t leave my house or get out of bed without a need 
and thats more than me
it’s more than me
i don’t wanna be this way 
i swear it isn’t me
just believe me

closer

wish that i could go back
tell myself do better
your voice rung in my head
could hear every letter

struggle with the feeling
that it couldn’t get better
if i could show myself love
i wouldn’t learn to settle

yeah first to know it
at least i’m self aware
yeah second mistake was
letting her touch my hair

yeah wish i could stomach
the words you said to me
or even something
i wanted badly
X2

i move on too quickly
never feel what i should
i always been like this
knew it couldn’t be good

told myself don’t do it
but i’m more stubborn then i look
told you so don’t matter
when it effects me only

yeah first to know it
at least i’m self aware
yeah second mistake was
letting her touch my hair

yeah wish i could stomach
the words you said to me
or even something
i wanted badly
X2

badly

badly (Jon Santana & Jack Laboz)

cover of song by spooky black / corbin

@tooonto

take the blame so i don't have to ( TONTO )

missed calls ( pposture )

try again w Rosesleeves

serious ( kimj )

come back w funeral (TONTO)

ur touch ( TONTO )

agony

ur touch

come back

come back (feat. funeral)

in my head

over it

sugar

sugar---jon-santana---final

prod. @lizdek

cover of confidently lost by Sabrina Claudio

confidently lost

(lyrics)

selfish 
i'm feelin' selfish
you got me feelin' helpless
and i just can't compete

breathless
chasin' you got me stressin' 
i'm evil baby reckless
all i want is you here with me

i see the way you look at her
i know thats what you feel
i thought that it was meant to be
but clearly you don't want me

you say three words 
they mean the world
but you just can't commit
i'd give my all to make you smile
but that just isn't it 

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

but broken hearts do awful things
and mine is damaged
the more it takes the more it aches
can't you understand

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

selfish

selfish

prod. Lizdek

(lyrics)

7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
alcohol & credit cards was all that you could love
7 shots in my head 
7 shots you're in be
held by you so tight but i felt lonely as it's night

wish i was in a different life
wish i could say something right
wish i could tell if they cared only
but it;s alright, i'll just stay lonely by your side

7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
kept me all alone in isolation it got worse
7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
day dreamin' or sleepin' of the moment it felt right

fuck you for not letting me enjoy the rain
scent of mint carved in the side of my brain

write it on my collarbone to make it real once more
7 shots go through my head and onto the floor
told me once again how i make you feel so poor
all you say you want is my love but don't give yours

7 shots at the wall
7 shots till they call
pounding on my door 
won't leave me lone
since you've been gone

7 shots not enough
7 shots dare to bluff
gets better they say 
but damage done
what have i become

7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in be
alcohol & credit cards was all that you could love
7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
held by you so tight but i felt lonely as it's night

prod. @lizdek

(lyrics)

i'm not so good at writing love songs
seems when i'm happy creativity is lost 
but with support that i've been given
you make me feel like i could really do anything

i'm not so good at writing love songs
feel like my love is shown through touch that may last too long
and yet the distance don't mean a thing
it's like you're here with me every time i hear you sing

i'm so comfortable with you
i have never felt this way
and i wish i could show you 
so i hope i will one day 

i'm not so good at writing love songs
feel like my love is shown through touch that may last too long
and yet the distance don't mean a thing
it's like you're here with me every time i hear you sing

joss lockwood

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