It's been a while :) Headphone music, of course.

Lyrics:

nothing left to lose
nothing more to hold 
not a single memory 
to keep me from this cold.

got a ransom on my heart
so i ran some ways away
i ain’t coming back alive
i ain’t seeing brighter days

was hell bent now i’m hell-bound

heartless and unknown
passion starts to fade
broken at the core
vision turns to grey

was hell bent now i’m hell-bound

bent

Welcome to my insanity.

Lyrics:

darkness holds unless we fight
(thgif ew sselnu sdloh ssenkrad)

turn into the ground someday
turn into a dusty grave
turn to the brush outgrown
turn into a restless soul
haunt the lands in which we lay
haunt the heart that fell away
leave a flower on my stone
leave and return alone

emptiness in afterlife
no death for a darkened mind
the living never want to lay
so write a little song today

we’ll just run
(but, darkness holds unless we fight.
do i want to fight?)

this is such a painful wake
this is such a big mistake
this is not how i should be
this is not eternity
this is all just in my head
i don’t want to end up dead
i don’t want to die alone
this is not my fate in stone

with every breath i hate myself
imagine that i'm someone else
escapism is heroin
run around the mess i’m in

we’ll just run
(but, darkness holds unless we fight
do i want to fight?)

fight or flight

hefty song for y'all :) hope you enjoy listening to it as much as i did creating it!

LYRICS:
what time is it
and where am i
what’s your name 
i don’t really mind
forget the name
enjoy the ride
cause i’ll forget 
by morning light

cause i forget
like every time
every time 
every time
cause i forget
like every time
every time 
i lose my mind

in the chemicals.

i can’t regret
the other side
faded as
you dim the lights
vacated soul
so get me high
strip me down
and show me life
show me life
show me

cause i forget
like every time
every time 
every time
cause i forget
like every time
every time 
i lose my mind

in the chemicals.
(i been smoking up just to be so-so)
(vacated soul)

chemicals

ahhhhh life.

lyrics:
you and i
we’ll have a little place
we’ll have a golden dog
we’ll have some picture frames
we’ll have a rack of wine
and we’ll drink it all
and i’ll be happy

you and i
we’ll have our little jokes
we’ll touch eachother right
we’ll kiss between the tokes
we’ll say i love you, night
about a hundred times
and i’ll be happy

living hopeful daydreams
know its wishful thinkin'
my dreams are slowly breakin
my mind is slowly taking over

you and i
we’ll fall into routine
i’ll start to see you less
and i’ll start wondering
what happened to
when we were happy?

you and i 
we’ll take it day by day
then take it when we can
settle for memories
and soon we’ll find
that passion fades
like being happy

(aaaaand pause for some naive optimism)
“when we first met,
i looked at you and i knew that i wanted you.
you were so good looking,
and you were so intelligent,
and i loved your mind,
and the way you thought it just… it… just 
ugh! i don’t know what it was… 
you were just amazing.
even though we’ve fallen apart because the circumstances don’t allow for us right now,
i’m going to wait until everything’s okay.
i’m going to wait it out because... i want you.
i really want you.
i want you to be mine… 
and i want you for a long time”

wishful thinkin'

HEADPHONES OR QUALITY SPEAKERS ONLY :)
thanks for sticking around people <3 lots of love.

LYRICS:
you ignored me when i called ya
yeah i knew you would be late
you never cared to keep a promise
and i forgave all your mistakes
waste a thousand precious moments
being caught up in yourself
all i wanted was an answer
oh and i got something else

…all i wanted was an answer oh

i got a call to arms
a fire in my soul
i got a fuel that burns
a chance to lock n load
i got a fire…. 
i got a call to arms
a fire in my soul
i got a fuel that burns
a chance to lock n load
i got a call to arms
i can’t, i won’t, control
i’m gonna hurt you good
win this war

you left me waiting for ya
yeah i knew you’d mess around
you never gave a shit about me
you never let me live it down
so now my heart is in a coma
and you, i’m better off without
all i wanted was an answer
oh and i got something else

call to arms

headphone music. layers. produced + written by me.

rob my bones
thieve my cells
sell my skin
use me well

this mass of matter
serves one purpose
and i don’t matter
i deserve this
you must have been hurt 
to be this heartless
no one has shown you
from your darkness
can only love 
me for my uses
you’ve learned to love 
all of your bruises

in your mind
my body’s yours
nothing much
and nothing more

this mass of matter
serves one purpose
and i don’t matter
i deserve this
you must have been hurt 
to be this heartless
no one has shown you
from your darkness
can't only love 
me for my uses
you learn to love 
me for my bruises

matter

Headphones only. I only post when I'm heartbroken, so here I am. Heartbroken.
Vocals in need of rerecording! But please enjoi

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I see the demons on your back
I feel your darkness in the room
With every word, your lungs turn black
You can’t escape, it’s much too soon

It isn’t fair to need your love
As you suffer through this pain
It isn’t fair to need your heart
But I can’t suffer this {sadness} again

…I need you, love
Suffering this pain
I need your heart
I can’t do this all in vain…

Do I hold on
Do I wait for
You… to come through…
Do I fall back
Do I trust in
You… to come through…

I hear you lost within your mind
Your thoughts are separate from your heart
Wish I could help you find your peace
I just don’t know where to start

I’ve loved you more than my own self
Our love is shadowed by your loss
This is more than you and I
Can’t help but fear for you, for us

…I’ve love you but
We are shadowed by your loss
You and I,
I fear for you, for us…

Do I hold on
Do I wait for
You… to come through…
Do I fall back
Do I trust in
You… to come through.

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toledo

come through the darkness

- headphones required -

A rather analytical twenty-something who enjoys expunging her thoughts in the form of compositions and covers alike, start to finish, at 2 in the morning. Sound: melodic, flowing and lyrical; favouring ambiance, sensuality and sass. Feel free to listen and show love.

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