infatuated eyes
long fingers, stroke my thigh
bruises on my neck
and a heart full of consent

you say i’m adorable
i say i adore you so
they mean the same, but do they really?

folding me, pleasure’s mine
breath heavy, we align
grip your shoulder blade
in your neck i fit my face

you sway back and forth until
my forearms are grabbed by you
you shake and look at me euphorically

i believe in morrow
let this be
reality
i don’t wanna borrow
for this dull
reverie

breathing in your musk
lay on me, sheets are tugged
your press on me is light
kiss my lips and make me laugh

your lips wrestle mine until
we both pull away from
our faces, now we’re together, asleep

i believe in morrow
let this be
reality
i don’t wanna borrow
for this dull
reverie

so i’ll lie
won’t imply
there’s someone else

tint then dye
me inside
forever

i believe in morrow
let this be
reality
i don’t wanna borrow
for this dull
reverie

reverie

all the peonies do is wilt
collapsing into my arms 
what have i done with my life

this can’t be the end
please
now i can’t mess up again

the one thing i wanted 
was a peony, a part of me

i was just pretending 
now i’m barely mending 
i was out here messing
now the feeling’s pending 

i was just joking
no, i didn’t mean it

you misheard me 
misunderstood me

i think i’m gone, now 
gone now (x8)
gone

peony

i’ve always gone by all the odds
with boys like you i only plot
won’t take action or reply 
i did with you, i don’t know why

you came close to what i had
it was better i’ll give you that
you were flat and i was jagged
now all i see is you doing acid

i am off the wall 
off the wall, for you

and though my heart will fall 
my mind with brawl with you

he was a haven in that phase
and that school just wasn’t my place
then he was forced to move away
since then, my dreams still slowly fade

i guess i felt what was not there 
the force that keeps two in a pair
he moved on and i was late
imprinted in my mind, are the dates

i am off the wall 
off the wall, for you

and though my heart will fall 
my mind with brawl with you

sofa
front yard
probably more
i’m tired

sometimes
i forget
like you
did with me

three times
i’ve dreamt
i lose
you went

you win

-

i am off the wall 
off the wall, for you

and though my heart will fall 
my mind with brawl with you

off the wall

i could follow him
i’d listen to him
i’d like to come see you
if you wanted me to

blinded by your height
blinded by the light
craving someone different
don’t care you’re not my type

please don’t, move on, too fast, i can’t, be the victim this time
please hold, me close, on the line, i can’t, love the person you hide

come right back, right to me 
i want you to call me
come back, don’t be sorry
left on de-livered again
(again, again)

know that i’m a friend 
a friend with benefits 
can’t say we’re official
but i’ll wait for you again 

when we text it never ends
properly again
takes only 2 seconds
to type something in

have me waiting days and hours
for replies that could’ve been
sent in only seconds
say that you’re busy again

no labels, this gem of mine
think this guy’s my valentine
said that he wanted a home
in a place he’s never been

it’s darker
it’s darker
feels darker
it’s darker
it’s darker

darker

when’ll you unveil your true face
and break the facade just to admit your embrace
a triple four means you miss me
they all say you’re a fraud but i stand here in place

the limerence, indifference
so sensitive to the signs
chasing a bliss, fictitious
these numbers make me go blind

more so than me
yes you’re so pretty
“he wrote a song about me”
well then watch who you lead

even these ephemeral things
remind me of the cause, how i know you need me
your silver eyes keep me floating
i’ll do anything for my glorious king

and with a ring, i’m yours to keep
so ask the question at bay
would you marry me, mold this physique
initiate a new way

more so than me
you let your sense around me
they wanna call me naive
maybe i’m one to believe

i know what you like now
i know what you’re like now
i know what you like now
i know what you’re like now

two years, two years, two years, two years, two years
now it’s three years, three years, three years, three
in between i embed myself beneath here
strapped to lethal things i feel

signs

picture me
can you picture me?
little scrawny thing
desires a piece
six foot beast
my ideology
features i can see
won't you swallow me?

you’re starting to bleed
evident you’re being
i can’t even think
you i’m still mourning
back and forth we speak
with years in between
deja vu it weaves
in and through my fleece

please x3

i believed
we were meant to meet
time and place was key
never made our seats
couldn’t breathe
‘less it’s you beneath
controversial thing
to stick to your teeth

sing me to belief
sonic deity
brown hair silky sweet
worship over thee
face the end of me
palms pressed on your knees
flawed and betraying
and i’d love you after everything

i don’t wanna be
something stuck in between a decision
just cut an incision
in me
not some wannabe
some penultimate thing in position
your indecision
killed me

and when you think you have
no one left, i’ll be here, waiting on you
holding onto you
or maybe it- is- the- idea, of you that, i’m in love with
you were never real

i feel everything so much earlier than i should

i don’t want to be
something stuck in between a decision
just cut an incision, in me
despite your conditions
holy love visions
never wanna know
what your mind would hold

penultimate

remnants of your accent
(are) in the men that, i am seeing
couldn't help but remember
moments i believed (you were it for me)
my next descent

so when
when- do- you-
think that you can
forgive me an end
i went
i went through you
and i haven’t
recovered again

step in it lover
make a pit of it all
step in it liar
i remember you in every form

even with how long it’s been
(i’m) balancing silver tightropes
inner me still, floats over
moments lost to me (rewind endlessly)
you were, a gem

so when
when- do- you-
think that you can
forgive me the end
i then
repented you
and i finally
refuse a second chance

step in it lover
make a pit of it all
step in it liar
i remember you in every form

are you ready?
i'm ready

say you love me!
say- you- want- me
hold me tightly!
(and) not- in- my- dreams

i just wanna go up to you
and fear nothing when i view you
and feel endless (and feel endless)

i just wanted you to feel me
and hold me in your arms so sweet
until
you see that i’m real

csong (bonus)

one of the first songs i ever wrote.. (revamped of course)

supermoon

‘cs3’ out now
thank you for listening :+)
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