a detailed and poetic physical threat

I heard u bought a gun

the metronome

glaive

the moment i turned 23
i grabbed the gun my father gave to me
on my birthday
when i turned 17
i laid a note right next to me that said
split the money that i have
evenly between my mom and my dad
i'll speak so eloquently
on what to do with each half
i'd tell my mom to buy a home
down the road from cypress falls
and i know mother you don't want me to go
but i must go
and i'll tell mom to buy a car
please know you're always in my heart
even when my conscious self departs
you did your job
and to nate i hope you're smiling
cause you kept the boy from dying
for almost a decade
but fuck what my friends say
one twitch of the finger fuck around and i'm dead weight
but fuck what the press said
i did this for me
and no one else in the best way
to all of my friends know i wish you the best
and when you say my name, say that shit with your chest and
i think i should be clear
i don't wanna

i don't wanna be here with people that
that i didn't know last year at fucking all
you don't wanna be here when i blow my top
fuck
no i don't wanna be here at all
i'll put the metal to skin and go off on a whim and say
that i don't wanna be here
at fuckin all

i wonder if tomorrow coulda been better
in all honesty it don't even matter at all
cause it bends, it breaks, it folds
but i'm here right now
so just hear me out
know i let you down
but i can't, no i can't, i can't
change anything
this trajectory
it was made for me
don't let my mom see me before they bury me
cause the kid in that coffin shit
he's barely me
lotta people gonna say they were there for me
they weren't there for me
they didn't care for me
so

i don't wanna be here with people that
that i didn't know last year at fucking all
you don't wanna be here when i blow my top
fuck
no i don't wanna be here at all
i'll put the metal to skin and go off on a whim and say
that i don't wanna be here
at fuckin all

oh are u bipolar 1 or 2

landon tewers

i may be evil
and i may be vile
but you must be stupid
cause i made you smile

expired license and driving and keeping it slow
drinking and trying to keep myself warm
you know i've been around
when there's bottles on the ground and
cheap cigs
cheap cigs
i'd kill to fall asleep and never wake up
but there's people i'd let down so
i haven't given up
you'll know i've had enough
when there's a letter folded up with your
name on it
your name on it

i may be evil
and i may be vile
but you must be stupid
cause i made you smile
i may be evil
and i may be vile
but you must be stupid
cause i made you smile

won't you take another look
at the things i've had to say i'm
broken and empty but i try to make a change
i've ruined many things and
traveled across the seas just to
throw it away
throw it away
my lyrics are sappy i never wash my clothes
my hair gets all nappy i've put
things up my nose
i'm trying not to fall
back to when i got that call that
changed me
changed me

and i may be evil
and i may be vile
but you must be stupid
cause i made you smile
i may be evil
and i may be vile
but you're fuckin stupid, yeah
cause i'm just a child
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I may be evil

fall at the same time

don’t call me peanut

angelina

stick season - noah kahan
lyrics edited to hit me right in the chest

as you all promised me that I was more than all the miles combined
you must have had yourselves a change of heart like
halfway through the drive
'cause your voices trailed off exactly as we passed my exit sign
y'all kept on drivin' straight and left my future to the right

now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face
and memories are somethin' even smoking weed does not replace
and I am terrified of weather 'cause I can see them when it rains
and the doctor told me to travel, but there's Covid on the planes

and I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks
and I saw their mom, they forgot that I existed
and it's half my fault, but I like to play the victim
I drank alcohol and none of my friends called me for christmas
and I dream each night of some version of you
that I might not have, but I did not lose
now i'm tire tracks and one pair of shoes
and I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

so I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad
that I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad
no, I am no longer funny, 'cause I miss the way y'all laugh
and you once called me forever, now none of you call me back

and I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks
and I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed
and it's half my fault, but I like to play the victim
I drank alcohol and none of my friends called me for christmas
and I'll dream each night of some version of you
that I might not have, but I did not lose
now you're tire tracks and i'm one pair of shoes
and I'm split in half, but that'll have to do
oh, that'll have to do

and I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks
and I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed
and it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim
I drink alcohol, still my friends don't call for christmas
and I dream each night of some version of you
that I might not have, but I did not lose
now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes
and now I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

stick season

iron eyes cody

Well I think you lost your mind
She said a million times
In a case of tired affection
In a race of our design
She closed her eyes and cried:
God, if there’s any justice in life
You'd take your feet off my heart and the needle off the 45

She’s got a fire that grows
Restless to her soul
Relents and then suspects that she’d be reckless not to go
Says I don’t know, but I’ve got a feeling comin' up from below
So in the morning if I’m running at least we had the summer to show

Locked in the backseat
Looking at me, holding me
Like you won’t let up and let me alone
But how could that be
Wait you look, I can’t breathe
I’m knocked down, but strong enough to shout

That you’re an animal
And you can’t stop the habits that form
And I told you they run when you call
And if you had to crawl on back they’d ask nothing at all

She says I shake the facts
And the rest remains intact
In plasticine depictions of the past that seems unpacked
You won’t suspect
And he calls and tells her just to hear her react
And she says man, the farther we run
The harder we act

Like in the backseat
Looking at me, holding me
Like you won’t let up and leave me alone
But how could that be?
Wait look, I can’t breathe
I’m knocked down but strong enough to shout

That you’re an animal
And you can’t stop the habits that form
And I told you they run when you call
And if you had to crawl on back they’d ask nothing at all
And like an animal
You loved me then you left me alone
I hope that you’ll go where you go
When you dance, you look like someone I used to know

Because you look so good when you wake me in the middle of the night
And say take me like you know I like it
And we’ll make believe that waiting wasn't wasted time

And like an animal
I ran into your wrecking ball
And I crashed into the record wall
'Cause when we dance
We’re just a little bit out of control

And like an animal
You can’t stop the habits that form
And I told you they run when you call
And if you had to crawl on back they’d ask nothing at all

And like an animal
You loved me then you left me alone
I hope that you’ll go where you go
When you dance, you look like someone I used to know

animal

crash land

plays pretty for baby

my mother wants me dead

pluto was never really a planet even

modest mouse

sometimes all I really wanna feel is love
sometimes I’m angry that I feel so angry

sometimes my feelings get in the way of what I really feel I needed to say

if you stand in a circle
Then you’ll all have a back to bite
Back logged voices from the seven wonders
we’re all so funny but he’s lost his joke now
a communication from a one lined joke
a stand up comic and rock musician
making so much noise you don’t know when to listen.

why are you judging people so damn hard
you’re taking your point of views a bit too far

I made my shoes to shine with my coal
but the polish didn’t shine the hole

if you stand in a circle
Then you’ll all have a back to bite
Back logged voices from the seven wonders
we’re all so funny but he’s lost his joke now
a communication from a one lined joke
a stand up comic and rock musician
making so much noise you don’t know when to listen.

edit the sad parts

mineral

I wouldn’t mind if you took me in my sleep tonight
sure, I wouldn’t even put up a fight
I wouldn’t care if you took it all away today
sure, I wouldn’t even miss the pain.

so come on with the darkness
and come on with the fear
cause we gotta start somewhere
and it might as well be here

so when I’m finally naked and standing
in the sunlight
I’ll look back at all this selfishness
and foolish pride

and laugh at myself.

parking lot

pity party (girls club)

tell me that you will not go
I don’t want to die alone
so I’ll slit my throat
the next time
you hold me down
down, down
just hold me down
down, down
just hold me down
down
down
don’t hold me.

i thought of u somewhere in new mexico

drive

they
kept you in a room
they only let you eat with spoons
talked about your feelings
and how
things get better
too
many pills to swallow
stopped thinking about tomorrow
you know that one day
your pain will wash away
but that day is not today
that day is not today

you wore
the same white shirt
the same grey pants
the same sad face
everyone else seemed to have
you thought
about the days before
and where the old you went and stored
all the feeling you once had
and if you had ever felt this bored
sometimes you miss yourself
more than you miss anyone else
but only parts of you that matter
because you fucking hate yourself

too
many pills to swallow
stopped thinking about tomorrow
you know
that one day
your pain will wash away
but that day is not today
that day is not today

that day is not today
that day is not today
that day is not today
that day is not today
that day is not today
that day is not today
that day is not

spoons

i'm losing friends

please notice

After all this I'll say
There's always more time
There's always tomorrow
Cause I can't be honest with myself
And I hope you'll forgive me
I'm trying my best
To be what I want to be
Say what's on my mind
Be a better man
Fucking learn to socialize
But I won't
Maybe one day
Just as long as I stay awake
Just as long as I wake up
Just as long as I leave my bed

But you're the only one who kept me together
And I'd be lying if I said I was fine
You don't have to call back
Just thought that I would try

Cause I still feel your presence
Flowing through my veins
I can only blame so much
On my fucked up brain
And the pills that I've been taking
Just accentuate the pain
So I'll build my own wooden home
To rest my frail frame

Cause I still feel your presence
Flowing through my veins
I can only blame so much
On my fucked up brain
And the pills that I've been taking
Just accentuate the pain
So I'll build my own wooden home
To rest my frail frame

I felt the cold wind in Minnesota
Felt that old heat in Arizona
I've seen the barrenness of Oklahoma
I've been to Little Rock, down to Kansas
Seen the pretty folk in Los Angeles
But I always knew that I'd come home
So I can drive around the Rotary
Listening to Owen
Wishing I was someone
Spending time with anyone
And when we leave this Earth
What will we have
A couple laughs and a couple fights

Cause I still feel your presence
Flowing through my veins
I can only blame so much
On my fucked up brain
And the pills that I've been taking
Just accentuate the pain
So I'll build my own wooden home
To rest my frail frame

I can still feel your presence
Flowing through my veins
I can only blame so much
On my fucked up brain
And the pills that I've been taking
Just accentuate the pain
So I'll build my own wooden home
To rest my frail frame
 
never,forever.
(nothing,nowhere.)

wooden home

cavetown

Life's alright in devil town
They're right, no one's gonna catch us now
Dad has bought a new car now
We're fine, no one's gonna catch us now
You said something dumb again
She's mad, at least that's what they say
Mum and daddy aren't in love
That's fine, I'll settle for two birthdays
Devil town is colder in the summertime
I'll lose my mind at least another thousand times
Hold my hand tight, we'll make it another night
I still get a little scared of something new
But i feel a little safer when I'm with you
Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you've fallen this way too
We're all dead in devil town
That's fine, cause nothing's gonna scare us now
We're all in our dressing gowns, mine's white
And stripy yours is green and brown
I forgot my name again
I think that's something worth remembering
Spiders in your favourite shoes
Just leave them be cause they're more scared of you
Devil town is colder in the summertime
I'll lose my mind at least another thousand times
Hold my hand tight, we'll make it another night
I still get a little scared of something new
But i feel a little safer when I'm with you
Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you've fallen this way too
Devil town is colder in the summertime
I'll lose my mind at least another thousand times
Hold my hand tight, we'll make it another night
I still get a little scared of something new
But i feel a little safer when I'm with you
Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you've fallen this way too

devil town

what do you want me to say
it's never going away
'cause I'm stuck on you like the smell of cigarettes on your flower dress
I want you under my fingernails
I want you in my sleep and in my dreams
I wake up spooning my pillow
sweaty hands but please don't tell your friends
now I'm addicted to cigarettes
at first I didn't let myself inhale
but smoke got through and so did you
and now every burn hole smells like home
and I know it's killing me but that still won't stop me
'cause now we smell the same but you still kill me faster
I don't mind that you lie sometimes
because I lie too
guess I'm just like you
I don't mind that you lie sometimes
because I lie too
guess I'm just like you
I don't mind that you lie sometimes
because I lie too
guess I'm just like you
I don't mind that you lie sometimes
because I lie too
guess I'm just like you
I don't mind that you lie sometimes
because I lie too
guess I'm just like you

edward40hands

always start to feel better
just a little too late to soak it in
this is just the way it always ends

no time to count all of the times
i wish i could change my mind
about changing who i am

sharp pain in my chest
can't tell if its sadness or a heart attack
i'd prefer the second, god i wanna bring myself back

the sun is out the sky is blue
so why the fuck can't i be happy too?
everything's alright, so what's wrong with me?
don't want pills or therapy cause they just numb me
or leave me be
cause i'm just not fucked up enough
is this really what i've become?

don't wanna drag you down with me
cause you're the only thing i see
in my future, whatever that word means

they say van gogh only sold one painting
while his beautiful heart was beating
but i'm a joke so where does that leave me?

the sun is out the sky is blue
so why the fuck can't i be happy too?
everything's alright so what's wrong with me?
don't want pills or therapy
cause they just numb me or leave me be
cause i'm just not fucked up enough
is this really what i've become?

written hundreds of songs
written thousands of words
is this empty life really what i deserve?
stick it all in a bottle and send it out to sea

the sun is out the sky is blue
so why the fuck can't i be happy too?
everything's alright so what's wrong with me?
can't afford pills or therapy
cause i just loathe in my own pity
i've dug my grave i've made my bed
so i'll just go sleep in it

i am sleeping on a sinking ship

hot mulligan

did you think i could stop being selfish?
i do what i can, but its chemical
there are just some things you can't change,
like the color of your eyes,
or how your hair parts to one side naturally
please don't tell me to change
i'm more than content living this way and
i hope someday you will feel the same
about me

if you could change anything
please just stay the same because
i love everything about you

its the color of your hair
the way you rub your eyes when you get tired
and how you could fall asleep nearly anywhere
and you said just two things
that you hate your dad and i'm just like him
i always become afraid when she gets real
i've lost all of my composure 
falling down the stairs breaking souvenirs that
your grandmother handed down to you

lets just say i messed everything up
and my attitude sucks too damn much
i could never be what you need.

i fell in love with princess peach

originally by the one and only XXXTENTACION

I've dug two graves for us, my dear
Can't pretend that I was perfect, leaving you in fear
Oh man, what a world, the things I hear
If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?
Some kill, some steal, some break your heart
And you thought that I would let it go, and let you walk
Well, broken hearts break bones, so break up fast
And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot
I've dug two graves for us, my dear
Can't pretend that I was perfect, leaving you in fear
Oh man, what a world, the things I hear
If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?
Some kill, some steal, some break your heart
And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk
Well, broken hearts break bones, so break up fast
And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot
In my grave, I'll rot

revenge (cover)

i guess i took the words pop punk too seriously

you say you really care but I just can’t 
believe that
it’s my fault, things have just gotten bad again
my best friend just seems to make me feel like shit
but I don’t really care cause I think I deserve it, yeah

I’m building up walls that I think will protect me
but I’m not an architect, they keep falling in on me
I should just go to school, get some kind of degree
but the thought of waking up again
just makes me wanna go to sleep

I don’t really mind if I never make a penny
cause the friends I have think I’m really funny
and I don’t really care about the afterparties
i’d rather get stoned, go home
and surround myself
in mediocrity

and I’m sick of being sad like
all these celebrities
seems like there’s not a single person
that doesn’t have GAD
and this might be a hot take
I don’t like controversy
but why they only care when a billionaire
says somethin’s beyond me

and maybe it’d be easier if I 
just played along
but I’m sick of hearing all these stupid corporate songs
designer clothes, money comes and goes
for some reason they all buy in to these
teen drama tropes

I don’t really mind if I never make a penny
cause the friends I have think I’m really funny
and I don’t really care about the afterparties
i’d rather get stoned, go home
and surround myself
in mediocrity

afterparties

I’m always so lonely, frustrated, and angry
And I never know if it’s my fault
Or if it’s just my brain working fucking wrong
Cause I have got problems that I cannot withhold
Cause I have got diseases that I cannot control

And my feelings are at the mercy of my chemical imbalances
And I’m trapped inside the torture of living with all of this disorder

And I always hate myself more than I hate anyone else
I’ll always hate myself before I hate anyone else
Cause I know I have earned it
From years and years of treating myself like shit

And I want to believe that it’s not my fault
And I want to believe that I can live a fulfilling life
But I might not
I might not

justwatchthefireworks

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