"What Am I Waiting For" (#509, 211023)

What am I waiting for
Standing at the door
I had the keys but I can't find 'em anymore
What am I waiting for

Who do I think I am
Do I even have a plan
Tried to hold on but it's slippin' through my hands
Who do I think I am

Where do I see this goin'
So far away from home
I was close but now I'm out here on my own
Where do I see this goin'

How do I think this ends
Truth don't break but it can bend
Ring the bell or am I breakin' in again
How do I think this ends

What if this is all there is
Sit here wondering what I missed
Picture in my wallet and a string around my wrist
What if this is all there is

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Finished on October 23rd, 2021, at 8:27am CT

TN24 JTR 02 - What Am I Waiting For (211023)

I’m going down to the bottom
Of the deepest caves
I’m going up to the top of the canopy
In my pocket a tree ring of the aspen tree
mysteries unfolding our destiny

I’m exploring our heartbeats
See how it feels to be free
Palpitations of love

I’ll find your love in a music box
Heartbeats intertwined underneath the light of the moon
Underneath the light of the moon

In the air orange blossoms bloom
The cicadas scream what they know

I’ll find your love in a music box
Heartbeats intertwined underneath the light of the moon
Underneath the light of the moon

Our fingertips press into the sap that bleeds
Nature coalesce
My hair starts to curl, it turns so green
Vines begin to unfurl
You are my world

I’ll find your love in a music box
Heartbeats intertwined underneath the light of the moon
Underneath the light of the moon

Underneath the Light of the Moon

Lyrics: Fresh Lilacs collaboration on vocals by Emily McDoniels

Flying through time
It’s the sound of the sign
Melting fork tines, please stop rewind
That’s the spice of the splice
What’s it take to be nice?
Little bit of love would suffice
Excise, entice, cultivate wild rice
Ice is the nice cries as he tries
Breakdown rewind, stop the noise unwind
Take a break from the grind
Mathematical sine in the mind 
My numbers outshine the myopic blinds
Of ignorance, it’s impotent, spoiled brats
Attack the heart of earth and contaminate the dirt
Idiocy they blurt, out like vomit, their thoughts captivate nothing like a comet
Idiocy they blurt, comes out like vomit, their mind a bit too fried, like a spoiled omelete 
Of ignorance, it’s impotent, deep studying illuminates filaments
Shining bright like the sun, no guns can fix this crisis
You’re no different than Isis, fundamentalists scheming
To implement idiocracy, they must need dry cleaning
For blood they’re fiending, their era is ending.

The mystical revolution comes in kodachrome
Marrow in the blood deep red, down to the chromosome
The echo of the underground, coded sounds, deeply profound
Codes unfold undertow in the current
The ocean of visionaries, hivemind coherent
The ancients deep wisdom can become well known
ancestors living deep in our blood down to the bone
 Rainbows shining through epigenetic trauma
re-educating more powerful than Shakespearean drama 
The ways of the future are the ways of the past
Before colonization our ways were steadfast
The things great grandmother taught you were forecast
Before she was outcast, typecast as a scapegoat
The fascists are cutthroat, never give us a life boat
Brutalized by police so our people would cease
To the blast of the shofar or the sound of the drums
Polyrhythms and vibrations will bring our time in the light
Unite, end the blight, aid each other through our plight
Now is the time to fight, tooth and nail or should we prevail
Without needing nuclear bombs, atrocity and mayhem?
The answer lies in the pen and the sword, let the answers be trans and femme
Two spirit beings once again dreaming aloud, allowed to be proud,
commanding the crowd with more eloquence and vision than the fascist system
Bring the end of fascist systems

Chorus

Everyday I try to believe
Everyday I give til I bleed
I know I won’t concede
The future is in you and me

Fresh Lilacs

Copyright Erin Wolf 2021
feat. Baby (guitar) & Mando (mandolin)

Week 51 Prompt: Whiteout
*Please forgive the rougher cut - short on time this week - may go back to re-record a few parts down the road for a cleaner sound between the instruments*

i can't see the trees
in front of my eyes
the wind howls, the snow falls
from the sky
this icy breath gath'rin' on
my window pane
seems like another 
long haul again

oh wah oh oh wah oh
oh wah oh oh wah oh

the phone rings
you say it's whiteout on the roads 
i'm surprised that the
power lines haven't blown
but who knows how this
goes in the night
this cold grows sending
shivers down my spine

oh wah oh oh wah oh
oh wah oh oh wah oh

and i know you're
trying to come home
in this weather that's 
chilled us to the bone

pray you'll be okay
no matter what might come
hope this storm won't
take away my love

the clock ticks louder
to deafening
or is that my heart 
leading the cacophony
my blood feels 
thick as turpentine
not sure how much 
longer i can stand this time

oh wah oh oh wah oh
oh wah oh oh wah oh

and i know you're
trying to come home
in this weather that's 
chilled us to the bone

pray you'll be okay
no matter what might come
hope this storm won't
take away my love

oh i hope this storm won't
take away my love

Whiteout

I can feel a deadness
seeping out and sinking in
Coating everything around me with a
glaze of grey and tin
(And even) though I know it's chemical
A brain imbalance thing
When I'm in the first person
I don’t see a way to win and

Come alive
And let the animal inside me find a wildness to shine out through my eyes
Come alive
going QUIetly, my head bowed in submission - meekly to the night
Come alive
And bare my teeth and show my claws and show you everything, bubbling inside - I wanna
Come alive
I wanna shake off all the shackles that are holding me - live not just survive 
And come alive

I feel my resistance
giving in and wearing out
As all my confident convictions
Get replaced with dread and doubt
(And really) who the fuck am I to try to do it anyway?
Just like every other no-one
I still get a voice to say Come…

Come alive
Let the animal inside you find a wildness to shine out through your eyes
Come alive
Don't go quietly, your head bowed in submission - meekly to the night - no
Come alive
Show me teeth and show me claws and show me everything, bubbling inside
Come alive
Shake off all the shackles that are holding you - live don't just survive
Come, come alive

This road will always roll
Out of my control
Don't you let me slide
Won't you help me try?
Say “come alive”

Come Alive

Bleed into you
(Mark I. Anderson)

Love cut me / and watched me bleed
A little bit more each day
It touched me / made me believe
That it’ll never fade away
It reached into my heart / and reached in deep
Into a place / where I will keep
A picture to remember what love can do
It cut me and I bleed into you

The picture’s / Watercolors run
To hasten down the wind
In our picture / we breathe as one
This is how our love begins
We captured the moon / then all the stars
I have to believe / that’s who we are 
And how I remember what love can do
It cut me and I bleed into you

(Chorus)
God’s watching us figure this out
I bleed into you / you bleed into me
Maybe he knows what this is about
When somebody’s falling in love
It cuts you 

It cuts me / and it leaves me here
Leaves me looking into you
Oh, trust me / this is perfectly clear
What it is love expects of you
You carry the weight / heavy or not
For as far as you can / that’s what we got
I’m still learning what love will do
When It cuts me and I bleed into you

(Bridge)
Thunder screams when midnight calls
And it reaches right through your bones
It cuts you the deepest the first time you fall
When you’re lyin’-in bed all alone / it cuts you

(Chorus)
God’s watching us figure this out
I bleed into you / you bleed into me
Maybe he knows what this is about
when somebody's falling in love - it cuts you

it cuts you / it cuts me and i bleed into you...

Bleed into you

Merry Christmas to everyone but Merry Merry Sickmas to anyone who has to spend the holidays in quarantine like me. I wrote this song for us 🙂. I hope you like it.

*****

Merry Merry Sickmas

Merry Merry Sickmas to me
now I have to spend this Christmas in quarantine

Merry Merry Sickmas to me
I don't care about the presents under the tree

my only desire
friends and family round the fire

Christmas might look different this year
I might be alone but this will never change
what Christmas means to me

Merry Merry Sickmas to me
little baby Jesus keeps me sweet company

I can't help but feel like
somehow I ended up on the naughty list

Christmas might feel different this year
I could be alone but this can never change
what Christmas is to me
 
my only desire
friends and family round the fire

Christmas is my one true favorite day of the year
there is nothing that could ever change this fact
and that is why
Merry Merry Sickmas
Merry Merry Sickmas
Merry Merry Sickmas
to me

Merry Merry Sickmas

Tomorrow never cries 
(Mark I. Anderson)
Every night I see you 
I touch you / Believe you
I’m holding you here in my heart
Another night without you
To touch me / To need me
Slowly just coming apart

( 1st Chorus)
Now, when / can I hold you again
I’m a man of flesh and blood
You’ll, see / how good this could be
I’m a man you can love
And with love
Tomorrows never cries

Baby I’m trying
Inside here / I’m dying
I’m holding on for my life
Leaving old tears
With their old doubts / and fears
I’ve cried my last tear tonight 

(2nd Chorus)
Trust me / love sets you free
You’re a man of flesh and blood
You’ll know / deep in your soul
I’m a man you can love
And in love
Tomorrow never cries

(Bridge)
With love there’s always tomorrow
And it’s gonna find a way
It’s stronger than yesterday’s sorrow
And any tears of today

(2nd Chorus)
Trust me / love sets you free
We are men of flesh and blood
You’ll know / deep in your soul
I’m a man you can love
And in love
Tomorrow never cries

I’m a man you can love
And in love
Tomorrow never cries

Tomorrow never cries

I'm trying to get a little more creative with my lyrics!  That's a goal for 2022 as well as improved guitar & instrumentation.

Lasting Marks

Once upon a time
Sniffing on the rocks
Red fur and dark gloves
Snuck into my thoughts
You ran circles around me
But I flew like the hawks
I don’t need you anymore
But a fox can leave lasting marks

I close my eyes and see your face
You lead me astray with beauty and grace
I close my eyes and see your face
You lead me astray with beauty and grace

Now I’ll be honest
I’ve forgotten your favorite meal
Perhaps you made me laugh
But you left before it got real
You ran circles around me
And I flew like the hawks
I don’t need you anymore
But a fox can leave lasting marks

I close my eyes and see your face
You lead me astray with beauty and grace
I close my eyes and see your face
You lead me astray with beauty and grace

It’d be a gamble to share your burdens
Or expose your softer spots
Run away you’re quick for certain
You’re too clever to be caught

I close my eyes and see your face
You lead me astray with beauty and grace
I close my eyes and see your face
You lead me astray with beauty and grace

The squirrel and the spider
Did so much more for me
The lion and the turtle
Can’t forget what they taught me
You ran circles around me
And I flew like the hawks
I don’t need you anymore
But a fox can leave lasting marks
Yes a fox can leave lasting marks

Lasting Marks - 12:25:21, 7.31 PM

Nashville songwriter and multi-instrumentalist, Godin Guitars Official Artist and Founder of www.songaweek.org.

His catalog of 500+ titles includes collaborations with hit writers Mark Narmore, Elliott Park, Steve Dean, and Pete & Pat Luboff, among others internationally from England to Australia.

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TN24 JTR 02 - What Am I Waiting For (211023)

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