now it's the end of the line :/
- the most massive thank you to @dezforman for helping me tell this story and to @bonddot for the mixing <3 love you guys fr

~ never been the type for confrontation 
i lost all my power, i can't even fake it
so complacent, no 
the way you worked your magic is so amazing 
i lost who i was, i got out of your gaze and now i'm saving me 
the odds had kept me from breathing 
i never tried to get even 
write about how i'm feeling 
to clear my mind, yeah im drawing the line 
stare at your likes and a view count 
all of our issues you drew out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta speak out 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

thought about the night i left the station 
got off that train and left you all alone
oh how much did you grow?
the way you slipped back in, and got me again
i can't even shake you off
lost what i wanted, can't move all this weight, i failed in saving me 
is what we had really worth it?i
no need in tryna preserve it 
i know we're both probably hurting 
but it's easy sometimes, if you just drew the line 
fuck all the likes and the view counts
it's you and me that should figure it out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta stand my ground 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

i didn't mean to love you 
in fact i never tried to 
but here we are, here we are ~

terminus

amethyst

prod. chris marek and monto
mixed and mastered by ty lorenzo
artwork by @aletiune and monto

EMAILS

prod. ilytwelve

you say i sound like him oh well 
i’m just doing what i love 
tryna make it my living 
i don’t wanna be no scrub 
and i don’t wanna be no one but me 
i don’t wanna be no one 
this when shit get ugly 
singing shit through my lungs 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-

don’t know what to feel 
been so caught up in your lies 
don’t even know what’s real 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
stop 
show what you’re made of
don’t want the fake shit 
baby i want the real love but 
can’t ever get it 
i never know your intentions 
picked up my heart 
and you left me with these incisions 
i just 
wanna be me don’t wanna be no one else 
but how can i fucking do that 
i don’t even know myself 
trade a penny for a dime 
and my time for some help 
cause i don’t need to know nobody 
i just wanna know myself yeah 
( fuck ) 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-
fell.
( gone )

epiphany

Crossroads ft. oldcollin

sum light 4 today
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/stillu-4
thank u @prod.bended on instagram for picture

still:u

tears

i think that this'll haunt me for the rest of my life

prod. sudbath

i'm friends with a ghost
that doesn't mind my behavior
he's out of control
but i don't wanna be savior
are you ready to roll?
i ain't ready to face it
i can't do this alone
yeah i can't deal with the fake shit (x2)

so tell me why it's inside out
did the battle begin?
i'm stuck at home without a weapon
let my guard down again

baby this is god's fight now
and i'm over my head
there's a ghost on the bed
think i'm already dead

the way it all began
maybe i don't need you, baby.. who u think i am?
u don't treat me like an equal cus i don't think that u can
and we lost it all, don't even worry bout it
it's just a trust fall

i'm friends with a ghost
that doesn't mind my behavior
he's out of control
but i don't wanna be savior
are you ready to roll?
i ain't ready to face it
i can't do this alone
yeah i can't deal with the fake shit (x2)

where you want me, and where's my mind
i got a halo on me to bide my time
where you want me, where's my mind
i think that this'll haunt me for the rest of my life

the way it all began
maybe i don't need you, baby.. who u think i am?
u don't treat me like an equal cus i don't think that u can
and we lost it all, don't even worry bout it
it's just a trust fall

wanna be a friend to u
but u lost yourself
u don't want no help, (so okay with hell)
i just hate to leave you out

in the thick of it all, must be sick of it all
if i crash, ima f-

where you want me, and where's my mind
i got a halo on me to bide my time
where you want me, where's my mind
i think that this'll haunt me for the rest of my life

i'm friends with a ghost

ghost

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I pruhdooced this myslef

I’m putting out fires tryna prevent hell
To be honest don’t got anybody else
Tone it down try to calm myself
But I’m afraid I’ll change and 
That’ll never change cause

You’re so vulnerable and lost at your lowest
That's when they’ll try to find you
You don’t need it and you know it
And if you let it get to the point where
You lose the point, well
I’ll hate me instead
Damn it
Don't fall off the hill that we been standing
I’m begging
I hope you understand it
That I’m all that you got so don’t abandon
I’m begging
I hope when you make it you won't be in shambles
Cause that’d be a shame
And it happened to Hansel
Well anyways
I hope that you get this
I’m leaving a message
In case u dont pick up the phone 
And you hit cancel
 
Please don’t ever push your friends away
I hope you keep em close 
And always make sure they’re okay
Stop the overthinking man 
I promise that they love you
Just be in the present you don't need a thing to say
I hope you never have a big ego
I hope that you don't turn into the bad people that we know 
Cause those people make me feel like such shit
So don’t you ever fucking think that you’re above it
Honestly I’m in a pretty fucked up state
I’m in my room nowhere to go I’ll suffocate
But I hope you’re doing so much better
Without your vendettas
You’re so vulnerable and lost at your lowest
That's when they’ll try to find you
You don’t need it and you know it
And if you let it get to the point where
You lose the point, well
I’ll hate me instead
Damn it
Don't fall off the hill that we been standing
I’m begging
I hope you understand it
That I’m all that you got so don’t abandon
I’m begging
I hope when you make it you won't be in shambles
Cause that’d be a shame
And it happened to Hansel
Well anyways
I hope that you get this
I’m leaving a message
In case u dont pick up the phone 
And you hit cancel

in case you don't pick up the phone

bye bye :)

prod. blank

lyrics: 
maybe this is the point
where all of it happens 
i look at the rest 
and leave my dreams in the past tense
i lost my affection for it 
and it don't want me back

all because i want it and you don't
you just say that i ain't bout it 
you're dead wrong 
but im letting go
im letting you take what i call home

taking everything i wanted
yeah
only one step away from 
stepping my ass away from 
every little thing 
that i've been laying on 
maybe it's too late for me
since i dropped epiphany oh 
its been a daze to me
an everlasting haze to me i 
thought i was right 
i'll get away for a while 
that's how im feeling right now
thought i was good as it gets 
so i just wasted my time 
now all those choices are locked in 
and i can't bear that i'm down
conscious thoughts of mine 
get in my way and 
i've been taught to lie
my brain caves in
i can't take it
so i just waste it 
pedal to the floor 
fuck the world
fuckin hate it

all because i want it and you don't
you just say that i ain't bout it 
you're dead wrong 
but im letting go
im letting you take what i call home

( goodbye )

home ( the end )

thx for 900 everyone <3
mastered by @zivve17
p. drma x mcx

@byekento
take my time away 
i’d rather go than ever see the light of day
keep tryna tell me what to do 
but i do not trust that 
you say im a scumbag
im feeling like fuck that fuck that
fuck that i don’t need no love i need a big bag
toe tag i know imma end up inna body bag
and i hope that you miss me the most 
i got my head inna rope 
i got my head in a- fuck
save me i think i’m about to take my own life 
how is everything i do just a waste of time
fuck my life up on the weekends 
do it by myself don’t even need friends 

couldn’t even tell you why 
ill be stuck inside my head for days
my head for days i 
(wanna waste my time, wanna waste my time)

@zivve17
i hate gettin my time wasted
im a wanted man
you can see me on the posters like the son of sam
oh you really wanna talk? that aint my problem man
go ahead and call my number and then drop a grand
im sorry baby but money first this is my business
if im not swimmin in cash man, then im not livin
im finna take out the trash man, so leave the buildin
cus u wastin my moneys worth
and my moneys worth
is time ive got on earth
ima walk this town
and get what i deserve

@byekento
take my time away 
i’d rather go than ever see the light of day
keep tryna tell me what to do 
but i do not trust that 
you say im a scumbag
im feeling like fuck that fuck that
fuck that i don’t need no love i need a big bag
toe tag i know imma end up inna body bag
and i hope that you miss me the most 
i got my head inna rope
i got my head in a- fuck
save me i think i’m about to take my own life 
how is everything i do just a waste of time
fuck my life up on the weekends 
do it by myself don’t even need friends 
save me i think i’m about to take my own life 
how is everything i do just a waste of time
fuck my life up on the weekends 
do it by myself don’t even need friends

tears

judah (@judah.wav)

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