"what will this do to my soul?" is the debut independent record from singer, songwriter, producer, and music video director; arizona's very own, babyboyjudie.

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my name is judie. i grew up in ok but i now live in az. i been making music casually with my cousins for over 10 years now. 2023 we decided as a group, to release a new music video on our CUZZY BUDDIES youtube channel (52 videos in total), as an attempt to gain some type of audience to follow along our music journey with us. long story short it didn't really work.

january 2024, after PROJECT52 ended, when we were supposed to be taking a well needed break, i stayed in the studio. i began songwriting over my own production for the very first time, and after 6 weeks, "what will this do to my soul?" was created. it took me many more months after that before it was finished, but I think I am finally at the point where I am proud to show it to "the world" (aka a few 10s of strangers).

tho PROJECT52 didnt "work" the way we had planned, i do not regret a thing. I think in the age of the internet, it's more important to, that i create and release art, than to become famous. and in regards to this album, it isn't perfect by any means. i made it in my bedroom using splice loops and logic stock sounds and plugins, mixed by my younger brother and all the visuals were taken on an iPhone, shot by my cousins. but despite all that, i am very happy with it. which is not a sentiment I have always had when it comes to perfection.

thank you for listening. thank you for reading. create your own art. and enjoy this imperfect life.

"what will this do to my soul?"

(prod 808 verb)

( Chorus )
I feel like I been all pent up
I don’t get why I been so stuck
I feel like I been holding back

( Verse One )
But can you blame me
Life been crazy
Since i was a baby
Young lil judie with a dream
How he made me
Always had confidence
But always a perfectionist
So I make dope music
But no one ever hears it
Because i never put it out
Showing some of friends in the stu(dio)
I play it loud
If my feet are on the earth
And my head is in the clouds
Than my hearts in outer space
And my career is on the couch
I gotta move one day
Make a couple songs
Put it together on a mixtape
Send it to the world
Even if it dont sound great
At least i got something for the kids
To bump in the hallways

( Bridge )
I woke up
Just like this
I’m feeling like Beyoncé
And all of these rappers my kids

( Verse Two )
Post partum perspective
Life ain’t been the same
Since i felt the ressurection
Life ain’t been the same
Since I started making music
2011 was a year that I’d forever change
Serenade, serenade
Birdies singing songs
And the wind help me levitate
Lemonade, lemonade
Come along with me
And we’ll create something fresh today
I’m fresh to death
Freshly squeezed
Scrapes on my knees
I never say hate
and i always say please
It’s always been me
And all of my cousins
And we always say cheese
( Cheeeese! )

freshly squeezed

2014 hyundai elantra freestyle (prod erra) [demo]

"fall from the sky"

"death grip"

"stuck like glue"

"where did your love go?"

"rats"

"simple things"

best behavior

money up

selfcare (feat PROJECT JAM) [prod sirwave ii] {demo}

butterfly knot

i am legend

try my best (feat Cousin Chrissy) [prod butterwrld] {demo}

produced by me + splice loops

[ lyrics ]
ayo this for all the dreamers, I guess.
the believers, the schemers, the... yeah.

baby you been on my
you been on my mind
but I can not let you in
'cause you got a man
and "his name isn't mine"
God I don't want to feel like this

yeah, ummm...
no I don't know
I don't always know
what I'm after
or what I'm looking for
but I sure hope
God I surely hope
that I'm after
what im really looking for

you been on my
you been on my mind
but I cannot feel like this

his name isn't mine

produced by me + splice loops

[ lyrics ]
and what would you say
if I asked you to stay
hold me close just a little while longer
I could be brave
I could have super strength
'cause together, you and I are stronger

I got, I got a problem
and i cant resolve it on my own
deep in my head
i need some rest
i need relief from the sorrow
maybe tomorrow 
it'll all be gone

super strength

produced by me + splice loops

[ lyrics ]
don't forget me
I won't forget you
I got it
no, I want it
but...

I fall down sometimes
you're always by my side
I've called you more than "once or twice"
and you're always picking up my line

and I what I want really
is for you to stay til the end of time

you would think I had fell from the clouds
the way I touched down, rolling around like,
somebody call an ambulance
I tripped and fell right over my tail
worse I got was a broken nail
still I scream and whale
you held me close
you knew that I needed you there
right there

once or twice

produced by me + splice loops

[ lyrics ]
I got a plan
we get some matches
and spread out the ashes
and claim it our land
clean up the garbage
and set up the markets
oh I got a plan
you can take your name
and write it on my hand
so I don't forget
everything you said

everything you said
and everything you done
and everything you are to me

I got a plan
I'll draw it out in the sand
I'm up on my roof top
done kicking my can
and now I use it for phone calls
oh man like
where did the time go
where did my mind go
where are you now

you mean much more to me
than you could ever believe
you mean much more to me
than words could say

memory lane

produced by me + splice loops

[ lyrics ]

this gotta be the hardest thing I ever wrote

no I don't wanna
have anyone else as
my sugar mama
I want you
I don't wanna
have anyone else's
stupid drama
its only you

what you want? an invitation
I see you staring in my face and
I like it, like your eyes
your lips, your hands
so what you wanna do? some dating
I'll pick you up around like 8ish
I like it, I like your hair
your style, your voice

I been thinking about you all day
and I can't get you out of my head

sugar mama

produced by me + splice loops

[ lyrics ]

tell me would ever have noticed
if you never had called you again
just be honest

tell me, could you ever have focused
on someone thats not you, even
for a moment

i dont think so
but i dont really know
i dont think so
all i really know is

i dont need this anymore
than you dont want it
no you dont want me

Judie Fishtail

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