I am a butterfly, free from my cocoon
Flying into the world far too soon
Wasn't ready, but what could I do?
Life doesn't stop, so I can't stop, too

I am a baby bird, falling from the nest
Trying to catch the wind, I'm trying my best
Wasn't ready, but what could I do?
Never got a warning, but I'm glad about that, too

Just trying to let go from everything before, like
Fish outta water, the air hit me hard
Couldn't take a full breath without breaking my own heart
Youth was shattered into distant memories
Pick up the shards, and help me put them together please
Please?

I am a young giraffe, trying to stand tall
But life has this thing of making me feel small
Wasn't ready, but what could I do?
I can reach the top branches, too

Just trying to let go from everything before, like
Fish outta water, the air hit me hard
Couldn't take a full breath without breaking my own heart
Youth was shattered into distant memories
Pick up the shards, and help me put them together please
Please?
Please?
Please?

The Nest

Didn't know how much of myself I lost
When I lost the chance to talk to you forever
Finding out how much we are similar
It finally feels like you are familiar

Not many people in this world
That I would get as much as you get me
How many people in this life
Do we match up with this perfectly?
Realistically?

After all this time, why end it here?
And I can still imagine all the years
Where we could be happy,
But was I thinking realistically?

Your crying eyes say you love me
But your lips say something else completely
Souls stitched together now
Feels like it's been torn apart in pieces
Torn apart in pieces

Can't even think of starting over
With somebody else, with somebody new
Reminiscing on years of joy
I can't think of anyone but you
Anyone but you

After all this time, why end it here?
And I can still imagine all the years
Where we could be happy,
But was I thinking realistically?
Realistically?

Realistically

Timing's really funny
When you're not looking for somebody
And you're always being asked "are you sure?"
But you finally bent to the universe
Because after all that nothing could be worse
Then someone comes along to make you want more
Make you want more

But I'll be gone in a few months
Moving across the world to find my soul so
Timing's fucked it up twice this go around

Doesn't even matter anymore
'Cause one thing's for sure

You will be cherished for your part in my life
For the certain reason, for the certain time
I will never forget you as long as I live
For the good memories, and the happiness you give
If I'd have known the last time would be the last
I'd have cherished you more than the past
If I'd have known the last time would be the last
I'd have cherished you more than the past

If only I'd have met you now
I wonder what we'd be and how
I'd see the future of you and me
Billions of souls but we meant the most
Of you did the leaving
But you were there for a specific reason

Doesn't even matter anymore
'Cause one thing's for sure

You will be cherished for your part in my life
For the certain reason, for the certain time
I will never forget you as long as I live
For the good memories, and the happiness you give
If I'd have known the last time would be the last
I'd have cherished you more than the past
If I'd have known the last time would be the last
I'd have cherished you more than the past

Cherished

I wrote this song circa 2014, a little over a year after moving to NYC. Once the excitement wore off, I saw the city’s struggles & felt that rushed feeling of doing everything and anything to strive for success - & I felt it’s effects on me. It was like someone was sitting on my chest for years & I felt lonely even though there was literally millions of people around me at all times. I wrote this song within 15 minutes. It’s one of the saddest songs I’ve ever written, but personally one of my favorites. Not many people know this, but no matter how much I liked NYC, for almost the entirety of my 8 years there, I suffered from severe anxiety. If anyone is struggling with anxiety or depression, please know that there are resources out there whenever you want or need them & that you are not alone. Many people in this world love you whether you know it, feel it, trust it or not. It gets better; stay strong.
Recorded at: Better Company Studios 
Cover photo by: Adam Exha
Edited by: me
Font by: @totaloliviamove

Lyrics:

Sirens wailing through the night
No one looking to the left and right
When crossing the street anymore

Shadows walk by you
No I'm not used to
Not one body smiling back

Smoke cloud mushrooms blow through the sky
Walk past destruction without another glance by
At what the fuck is this place in my mind

Shadows walk with you
Yes I am used to
That as the only comfort

I wish I knew what love was about
What it feels like and what my life was without
The darkness creeps closer each and every day
Threatening to pull me under from the sunshine in the way

Shadows

I wrote this song during the winter of 2020, once I came to fully understand myself/who I am, & once I came to the realization that I can make myself happy & base my life choices on solely myself. In life, we will always wake up with ourselves and go to sleep with ourselves - we’ve got a whole lifetime with ourselves, so even if we are alone sometimes, we can still be our own best friends. 

A huge thank you to Allen Tate for his production/engineering skills & for taking another chance on me & of course to Sean McVerry for his musical genius & making my songs come alive. 🎸🎹🥁🎧

Recorded at: Better Company Studios
Cover photo by: 이 건희 
Edited by: me
Font by: @totaloliviamove

Me, Myself & I

Me, Myself, & I

I wrote this song about what it is like living life past the age where wild, pure imagination colors your daily life in such a wonderful way. Through tough external circumstances as a child, I had my mind & the ability to see little things that brought me joy. I feel like I have been chasing that kind of magic since I lost it as a teenager, hoping to see the world like that again. I wish the worries that I had as a child were the same worries I had now, but they are so much more heavy on the soul now. I hope you guys find it relatable & like the tune !!

Written/Performed: by me
Producer/Mixing Engineer: Allen Tate
Mastering Engineer: Tyler McDiarmid
Recorded at Better Company Studios
Cover art: by me (yes that's me haha)

Lyrics:
When things were simpler
And my mind would wander
And I didn't have a lover
And my soul wasn't undercover
When things were simpler
Miss it so much my body hurts

My head was less crowded
With thoughts of magic instead
Was wandering around dark halls
With all of my friends

Now I don't know those people anymore
And my brain has no corners to explore
The beauty of life stripped to its core
Wish I could see magic like before

When things were straightforward
Not happy for what it's worth
But at least for a time in this world
I was unaware of truths yet unearthed
When things were straightforward
Wasn't overly concerned

My head was less crowded
With thoughts of magic instead
Was wandering around dark halls
With all of my friends

Now I don't know those people anymore
And my brain has no corners to explore
The beauty of life stripped to its core
Wish I could see magic like before

No one had warned me
That this is the way it was gonna be
The joy in my heart over little things
And the trust in others is all missing

My head was less crowded
With thoughts of magic instead
Was wandering around dark halls
With all of my friends

Now I don't know those people anymore
And my brain has no corners to explore
The beauty of life stripped to its core
Wish I could see magic like before
Like before, like before, magic

I Used to See Magic

I Used To See Magic

I hope you like it! I’ve recently been told my music is best listened to on a cold fall or winter night, so get some tea & cuddle up in a cozy blanket ☕️🍷

This song is a rather tough one for me, the lyrics speak for themselves. Dare I say it is emotional 👀 I noticed that I even tried to lighten certain aspects of the subject in the lyrics when writing, like the first line, or just now writing this description out. This song is about empathy & how it has become an incredible burden to me. As adulthood & life hits people close to me hard & the world seems to be crumbling around us, injustice every which way, it’s difficult to take it all in. I’m not alone - there are plenty of highly sensitive people when it comes to other people’s emotions. But at the end of the day, we also have our lives & our own emotions to deal with, too. And when the universe constantly gives you things you have to deal with, everything can become quite overwhelming. So I wrote this song in February. And since then I am learning balance.

Thank you as always to my awesome producer Allen Tate for believing in me & helping me make the music I want to make, appreciate you more than you know 🙏🏻 & of course mastered by the master Tyler McDiarmid again too 🙏🏻 

Cover photo by: the talented Nick Deveau
Font by: me

Lyrics:

Why does it feel like I'm everybody's therapist?
Seems as though all the signs I sent out have been missed
I don't wanna listen, I got problems of my own
I gotta shut them up, I'm in this world all alone

Every time I get close
It's like everyone but me knows

I'm the emotional punching bag
I'll be there, I've always got your back
But who thinks of what I need?
It's just me
I'm the emotional punching bag
I'll be there, I've always got your back
But who think of what I need?
It's just me

Getting really tired of having my energy drained
It's like whenever I'm around, it's always the same
They see a smile, and think everything's alright
I'm just tryna make them feel comfortably light

Every time I get close
It's like everyone but me knows

I'm the emotional punching bag
I'll be there, I've always got your back
But who's got the eyes to see?
It's just me
I'm the emotional punching bag
I'll be there, I've always got your back
But who's got the eyes to see?
It's just me

But it's always been this way
Got a smile on my face, then everything's ok
Go ahead and tell me your problems
Forget about me, I'll just solve 'em
I give and give, and make you laugh
Because without my jokes, what do I really have?
I'm sad and I'm lost under the mask

I'm the emotional punching bag
I'll be there, I've always got your back
But who thinks of what I need?
It's just me
I'm the emotional punching bag
I'll be there, I've always got your back
But who's got the eyes to see?
It's just me

It's just me
It's just me
It's just me
It's just me
It's just me

Emotional Punching Bag

“Last Song About You” is out now on all streaming platforms ✨ this song is my most straight-forward, no metaphors. So I’ve been a bit nervous about releasing this one. But here goes. I was brought to a very low point last summer & I wrote many songs about why, this one being the last (so, aptly named). I showed a few close ones this song before releasing today, & one friend told me, “He may have completely traumatized you & left you no longer believing in love, but hey, at least you’ve got a beautiful song out of it .” & hey, I hope she’s right. I hope you find it beautiful.

Best revenge is the success & happiness you find without them. Help me out with a listen? 

Huge thanks as always to @avtate can’t do this without ya 🙏🏻
Recorded at: @bettercompanyrecords 
Cover Art by: Daisy Gomez
Edited by: me

Lyrics:
The day I realized I would miss your smile
Wished upon a star, that I didn't have to go too far
You said from across the world, I would still be your girl
Without a second thought, you would move across it
No matter what you do, still in love with you

That's an attachment issue
Is anything you said true?

All my waking thoughts on the love that I caught
Guess it's my fate, to always figure it out too late
This is my last song about how you are gone
Cut me out your life as if you didn't ask me to be your wife
Still in love with you

That's an attachment issue
Is anything you said true?

Words can be so important to me
But also be so deceiving
Insecure wounds make me cling to you
When I feel your love wandering
I've got no answers as to
Why I'll never get the love I deserve

That's an attachment issue
Is anything you said true?
Is anything you said true?
Is anything you said true?

Last Song About You

I wrote this song about questioning your path in life, regretting decisions, wondering whether you should have gone a different direction at certain crossroads at certain times in your life. It's about feeling lost, not knowing your way forward, and having your imagination run wild about what could have been or what could be. I think it's quite a universal feeling, and I put this feeling into the specific context of my life. I'm "only" 27 but I feel like there have been other paths I could have pursued earlier in life that would have helped me, led me to a different maybe more successful spot. But I also know that this path is the one I’m on, so while there are other versions of my life that could have happened, they didn’t. This one did. Sometimes it’s just fun to imagine.

Produced by Allen Tate at Better Company Records
Mastered by Tyler McDiarmid
Cover by me, with contributed photos by Ryan Sellars & Nick Deveau 

Lyrics:

I read this quote today that stung my heart
It asked me, "How do I know from the start
That this path leads to the right version of you?"
How could I know? I figured it out too slow

But maybe these other versions of me have got it figured out
Maybe one has a house on a lake, or one doesn't make mistakes
Maybe one has found the one to make life more fun
Or the other's got a New York Times bestseller
Maybe one has never stopped chasing her dreams
Maybe one didn't give in to society so easily
Or maybe one finally got her words out to the world

The dread in me shows that maybe I could have chosen differently
So many paths long gone, only kept in this song
But lately I'm wondering vaguely if I could ever live greatly
Am I right or wrong? Or is life just stringing me along?

But maybe these other versions of me have got it figured out
Maybe one has a house on a lake, or one doesn't make mistakes
Maybe one has found the one to make life more fun
Or the other's got a New York Times bestseller
Maybe one has never stopped chasing her dreams
Maybe one didn't give in to society so easily
Or maybe one finally got her words out to the world

How do I know just where to go? I'm trying
Lost in a sea of other versions of me, I'm drowning

Other Versions

Produced by Allen Tate at Better Company Records
Mastered by Tyler McDiarmid

Lyrics: 

Like rain tiptoeing quietly
Across the roof helping you fall asleep
Like tripping over a tree root
Your hands are full of twigs and dirt
Like swallowing seawater
When you're all filled up on laughter
Breathing in a dark gray cloud
Your thoughts are vague and messed about

You ain't sunshine baby, but you're my moon
Don't want it to be daytime so soon
But it was past midnight and we both knew
I'll just bask in the moonlight of you

Like lightning and thunder
Rolling 'cross the sky together
Like oil and water
We were never meant for each other
But like birds singing in spring
They sound pretty over everything
When the sun sets low
All you can see is a deep, warm glow

But you ain't sunshine baby, but you're my moon
Don't want it to be daytime so soon
But it was past midnight and we both knew
I'll just bask in the moonlight of you

The stars seemed to align
To point at you and I in the moonlight
Little did I know I would love you so
'Til our hearts overflow
Broke the dam we built, with too many tears spilled
Left filled with guilt
It's better we part now, than always wonder how
We got here in the moonlight

You ain't sunshine baby, but you're my moon
Don't want it to be daytime so soon
But it was past midnight and we both knew
I'll just bask in the moonlight of you

"Moonlight" by Jules Renner

Lyrics:

If only people knew what you'd been through
They'd ask you
How you could still smile at all?
You'd grimace back, and say
After all that, smiling's no walk in the park
You'd say I spent many nights crying alone in the dark
In the dark

Did it all for you,
I give you my life
Did it all for you,
Child of mine

Started asking the right questions
Broke my heart in two
'Cause all of a sudden, I could see right through
You became a superhero
Because you had to
You'd say I'd do it all again, so I'd have you

Did it all for you,
I give you my life
Did it all for you,
Child of mine

She said I knew in the seventh grade
A good mother I would make
But life went wrong, and I was afraid
Didn't know how much it would take
How much it would take
This life of mine
Give it all to you, child of mine
I give you my life, did it all for you
No matter how much it takes
And I'd do it again, too

"Superhero" by Jules Renner

Monsters

A mauve upright piano, with its chipped keys and peeling paint, was German-American Jules Renner's introduction to music at the age of 5. Classically trained, she found herself drawn to emotional, lyrical music and began writing her own at fifteen. Her debut EP "Daisies" is influenced by the likes of Daughter, Ben Howard and Angus & Julia Stone and showcases ethereal vocals, cinematic strings, and story driven lyrics. It was produced and recorded by San Fermin frontman Allen Tate and includes string arrangements by nationally touring ensemble, Little Kruta.

Her 2nd EP, "To Climb Mountains",  was released at the end of February 2022. Her slight shift in style is represented through strong piano and melody lines, reflective lyrics, as well as various ambient instrumentals with the help of artist and composer Sean McVerry. 

More singles have been released, and hopefully more to come. To support Jules Renner, please purchase her songs on her bandcamp here: 
https://julesrenner.bandcamp.com/

Official website: https://julesrennermusic.com

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