Week 17 #songaweek2022. I also made a guitar version - https://youtu.be/9ooT2jrLK7Q

The whole world’s gone mad like it always was
Like it means to be forever
It’s the way we roll
Through the cosmic night 
Oh we spin and we spin all day 

When I was generous 
I could believe we could help each other out of disgrace
Since I got cynical
I can’t even see your hand in front of my face

Let’s lay off the news for a little while
I don’t need to know the latest
Leave me in the dark
Underneath this rock
Let me just catch my breath today

When I was envious
I couldn’t see all the beauty right in front of my eyes
Now that I’m out of time 
I find I believe we all can shine in the same sky 

Come stand with me under the canopy
Of a thousand points of light
Breaking through the dark
Of the threadbare night
Till it’s bright with the newborn day

It wouldn’t be good for me 
And I couldn’t if I tried to keep my life all to myself
So spill it out willingly 
Flowers will grow up from the dirt where it fell

When I Was Generous

Another brew from the witch's cauldron!  A spacey, vibey, space-vibe song aka space-rock-vibe-core, aka space-fusion-metal aka classical-from-outer-space.  As Sun Ra would say "I was supposed to bypass this planet."  J/k enjoy the audio waves Bro-hn Lennon! Take a wild trip, Bro Diddley.

Best paired with space juice (seltzer and your favorite 100% juice like limeaid or coconut mango juice) and dark chocolate.  As they say in Michelin star restaurants, "Put it in your mouth and enjoy it."  Why not?

October 11 Song

"Never Thought To Ask" (#728, 231031)

 	Co-written with Rob Stanley

He clocks in just after midnight
His world begins when the day is done
Livin' side by side with millions
Who never see the sun

Lookin' for the road to freedom
Paved with faces from the past
Walking slow toward the questions
They never thought to ask

Everybody got the answers
Comin' at you hard and fast
No one talkin' 'bout the questions
We never thought to ask

On a Wednesday in November
She's back behind the bar
Teaching someone off a night shift
How to fix a broken heart

They both see the glass as half full
And they know that it won't last
They're just lookin' for the questions
He never thought to ask

Everybody got the answers
Comin' at you hard and fast
No one talkin' 'bout the questions
We never thought to ask

I was born this side of midnight
Didn't see no silver spoon
Didn't see no easy answers
Just some howlin' at the moon

Chasin' memories 'round the corner
All but runnin' outta' gas
In the shadow of the questions
I never thought to ask

Week 44 - Never Thought To Ask (231031)

Grandma’s Flowers  
For Esther M. Henderson
(Mark I Anderson)

[Chorus]
Grandma’s flowers / were there on the table
Every Sunday morning back in 94
I can still see her / out in that  garden
Though grandma’s flowers aren’t there anymore

[Verse}
She tended her garden
With hands that were hardened
From turning the soil
From raising the kids
She never complained though
And I can’t explain no 
I only admired her
For all that she did

[Chorus]
Grandma’s flowers / were there on the table
Every Sunday morning back in 94
I can still see her / out in her garden
Though grandma’s flowers aren’t here anymore

[Verse]
The years were unkind though
The hardest of times you know
She lost her husband
To the angry old sea
Leaving no one to help her
And no one to tell her
You’ll be okay Esther
If you believe

[Chorus]
Grandma’s flowers / were there on the table
Every Sunday morning back in 94
I can still see her / out in her garden
Though grandma’s flowers aren’t here anymore

[Bridge]
It brings a tear when it’s painful
It brings a smile when I recall
Her gentle hand like that of an angel
Holding onto mine so I wouldn’t fall

[Chorus]
Grandma’s flowers / were there on the table
Every Sunday morning back in 94
I can still see her / out there in her garden
Though grandma’s flowers aren’t here anymore…

Grandma’s Flowers

Sorry doesn’t cover it
much too small for what I’m trying to say
I am so sorry - I’m sorry anyway
Tried to give the love I had but… 
Somewhere in the dark it slipped away
I am so sorry
I wish that I could take the pain away

And when I think of how it was, 
And how it seemed to fade
It seems to me it’s all because,
The same mistakes I’ve made

This time, I'll rise, I'll shine, 
I'll face it all
I'll give my heart to love
Or not at all
I'll walk towards the lights
That make me smile
In wonder and delight
I'll face it all this time

Will this year's love be worth the name?
I've fallen into lust again
And only got lonely
It's no-one's fault but mine I know
Kept trying to make it work and so
I wouldn't see it couldn't 
And all I did was hurt us both
And stole our time away

Bridge 
Chorus

And when I think of how it was, 
And how it seemed to fade
It seems to me it’s all because,
Of old mistakes I’ve made
If all I did was hurt us both
And stole our time away
I only hope that Grace and growth
Can show another way

Chorus

This Time

Float Your Boat (#732, 231104)

 	by Donna Frost, Milton Blackford, Jay Brown, and James Tristan Redding

Stay out of the water if it don’t float your boat
Stay off of the stage if you can’t hit the notes
If you ain’t got gas in the tank don’t hit the road
Stay out of the water if it don’t float your boat

When the lightning strikes don’t take a walk in the rain
And if they think you’re crazy ain’t no need to explain
When you can’t say something good there’s nothing good to say
And if the boat don’t float stay outta’ the lake

Stay out of the water if it don’t float your boat
Stay off of the stage if you can’t hit the notes
If you ain’t got gas in the tank don’t hit the road
Stay out of the water if it don’t float your boat

Don’t make no promises you don’t mean to keep
Don’t say it’s over until you’re six feet deep
Don’t hate on the sinner unless you’re free of sin
Don’t hold the door if they ain’t ready to come in

Week 45 - Float Your Boat (231104)

In the afterglow

I’ve wandered 
I have wondered
I’ve pandered
I have blundered
Hearts asunder
Like a condor
Raining lightning
Woodstove burning
Writhing churning

(wandering running)
Under ashes 
asunder coals
Basking in the afterglow
Ashes dance in the wind like wild  snow

On sandy shores I lost myself
A bit of every being became me
The birch tree swaying, a little elf
Inside the retina, dreams are playing
A bit of light became every flavor to me
    
Surrender, flee, survive, attempt to dream
All the sacred parts lost in the scrap heap.

Copyright Evan McDoniels 2023

In The Afterglow

you know, I was scared too.

lyrics:

I was starting to believe in you.
I was starting to think it was true...
I fell in love with you.
I was starting to build up my trust
but it took one blow to turn it to dust,
now it hurts like a bruise.

And what a dangerous man you are,
taking my worst fears and turn em into your work of art... cause I fell in love with you.

Dreams of snakebites and fallen teeth,
you became the root of my insecurities...
oh what have you done to me?
I was scared in my blood and bones,
still you had the nerve to leave me alone
cause I fell in love with you.

And what a dangerous man you are,
taking my worst fears and turn em into your work of art... cause I fell in love with you.


(dreams of) fallen teeth

When it all kicks in together
It can be the perfect storm
Yeah and the task that's there before you
It just feels like so much more
Than you can do, keep walking through
And though it's shit, I must admit
There's no way it'll beat you
If you don't quit

If you're going through hell, keep going
If you're going through hell, keep going
Keep your head up, baby
Don't let up, baby
Let your feet take you on to the top
If you're going through hell, keep going
Baby don't stop

With the seasons turning colder
With the winter on the way
When the devil on shoulder
Knows the darkest things to say
Don't turn away,
Just take a deep breath
Let your feet get on the move
I know you'll find the fight inside of you

Chorus

Don't stop TAKing the next right step
Don't stop MAKing the best of what you get
Don't stop PRAISing the progress you see
ONE foot in front of the OTHer you'll get THROUGH eventually 


Chorus 

Going through hell

Begin again
(Mark I Anderson)

If I had a heart 
It would beat like yours 
If I had a heart
It would beat like yours
I can’t  pretend
I’d never turn away
But I’d turn and say 
Begin again

If I knew of love
It would look like you
If I knew of love
It would look like you
I’d remember when
That fire burned 
That’s how I’d learn 
To begin again

[Bridge]
Are you here with me  
Or have you gone
Too much metaphor
For moving on
I’ll be here like this until the end
Then again
Ill begin again

Every setting sun
Tries to fade away
Every setting sun
Tries to fade away
I would rise up when
I’d cried those tears 
Throughout the years
To begin again

If I had a heart
It would beat like yours
If I had a heart
It would be like yours...

Begin again

Paint the Sky - Lilly Fleming (1).wav

Half of folk pop duo Cabin of Love. One-quarter of Americana band The Foragers.

When I Was Generous

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