[hero]

I COULD SEE THE SUBSTANCES THAT SCHOLARS NEVER COULD
AND I COULD FEEL THE SIDE OF HER THAT NO ONE UNDERSTOOD
and it ended in
blood
on the floors on the walls
bodies strewn in the hall
and i swear they weren’t there before
motels and hostels
with residues been charred off
at night i keep my shirt off
i’m not worried bout the bed bugs in the safezone
shit’s a no go
i dont wanna leave i just got here front the slow pokes
i feel them right behind me with their logos
tryna advertise in every place they control
she lashed out i felt flashbacks
she wont open my snapchat
i’m tryna choose my casket
she came back to jus backstab
I didn’t come to get laughed at
i got morals and a format
for this shit talk that i hash out
i’m sorry did i scream too loud

[yokai dreams]

Woahhh
I can feel the blood flowing from my heart as you clawed it out
Woah I can't stand this doubt

That gun shot called sirens
To where you had me dying
My friends say that I'm lying
You can't blame me for not trying
I picked up most pieces
But the last ain't been found
Got shit that I've lived thru
So I'm sorry if I scream a bit loud

[hero] (sewerperson - comet 2 outro)

till then
im sitting on the comets
im way up here
i just got the news and i was brought to tears
feeling on my body she gon raise my hairs
honestly im scared but im guessing
till then
im sitting on the comets
im way too high
friday night was crazy think i almost died
baby take my hand ill let u touch the sky
when im on the comets i come to life

blood vessels (ft. yokai dreams) (jolst)

happy eyes :(

i could never be your hero

Lyrics:

what happened to love 4 the rest of our lives
fucking flipping the puzzle when the pieces fit fine
i always knew it'd be us against the world but
i jus thought it'd be us
n not me then you

is it maybe the lifestyle i chose
could it be 
well we'll never have known
and the reason won't present itself
so i hope he treats you right 
whatever stranger you fuck with
cause somehow i'm not 

someone 
that somebody's daughter 
should see for the rest of her life 
cause i do b4 i think
and i'd travel the world just to do this with you
but i don't
and i write 
every song about you
you
you
you
or who you could've been

kill yourself its not so bad here
the afterlife is cozy
i'm talking from the grave
as a man who lived life lonely
i've learned so much about me from deep in the drift
i jus looked a bit inside and found a spine in me too
found a spine in me too
ay 
i found a spine in me too
ay
babe im built just like you
ay
the dead still clicking their shoes
we took the afterlife
i'm fucking up ur god with my dudes

i'm not
someone 
that somebody's daughter 
should see for the rest of her life 
cause i do b4 i think
and i'd travel the world just to do this with you
but i don't
and i write 
every song about

villain pt. II

ty for listening <3 
w/ @sxdtune !

// sxdtune
you're always in my dreams
get the fuck out
cause i still dream about you

cause i will never let go, of you
you will always be burnt in my skin
i will never let go
i will never let go

i saw you yesterday
did you see me too? cause i saw you
i wonder what you thought when you saw me
would you wanna talk if I walked up?

no, cause what you did to me was so rude
i gave you all of me and you gave me parts of you
and i still hold on cause i can't let go
but sometime i will lose the bones and fly away

cause i will never let go, of you
you will always be burnt in my skin
i will never let go
i will never let go

// geist
i will never let go

wished we would work but i know that it wasn’t to be
and you know i love you more than you could ever love me

stole my heart and tossed it
knew that it was better in the garbage
and i still
hold on to your pretty little lies cause
i need you now

// sxdtune
cause i will never let go, of you
you will always be burnt in my skin
i will never let go
i will never let go

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sxdtune & i'm geist - never letting go [vagrxnt]

time goes over and over 
in circles it hurdles me forward towards destiny 
i know 
there’s no where left for me 
everyone’s dead to me 
but i keep chasing 
after 
falling faster 
everythings backwards
everything 
but there’s nothing left you can do now

nothings what it seems 
i been tearing at the seams 
getting lost inside these dreams 
and i know it’s not good for me 
i’m losing sleep
i’m feeling weak 
i’m counting sheep 
it’s like i’m somewhere 
inbetween both 
life and death but
i can see what’s going on 
and i can’t do a thing 
it’s like i’m paralyzed 
staring at the summit i have to climb 
i have to learn how to swallow my pride 
the pressure has me feeling buried alive 

time goes over and over 
in circles it hurdles me forward towards destiny 
i know 
there’s no where left for me 
everyone’s dead to me 
but i keep chasing 
after 
falling faster 
everythings backwards
everything 
but there’s nothing left you can do now

everythings backwards

We can never restart…

Check out notcursed she’s amazing <3

Lyrics:

AutumnIsEnding (Lovell)
I said if you won’t say it then I’ll save you the way
I really think we need space I’ll go back to my place 
You can tell my mom that we’re okay 
In truth we’ll never speak again and I can do it til we’re like that 
You know how much you meant to her 
But you’re both crying as your bags packed 
And oh the impact you leave as you turn for the front door 
And take your ass back home 

We can never restart you’ve already gone 
The bags all packed in the back of the cab 
And you’re not looking back 
And my mom wants to catch you up 
But you’re not slowing down and now 
I gotta pick up all of the pieces 
Of my own heart as well as my moms 
Cus she loved for what and you gave us up
Due to stress related reasons 

AutumnIsEnding (madison)
You know how much she adored you 
She treat you like a daughter too 
The downfall of falling in love too soon
And you let your true colours show 
And it wasn’t a pretty sight 
It’s awful uncalled for 
I fell out of love with your pretty eyes 
Goodbye goodbye goodbye 
I hope you find the right one in time 

Notcursed 
I'm sorry that i made a mess of this 
I thought i’d be back
To pick up the pieces i left in your home
Didn’t want it to end like that
But you’re hard to let go of
And i wish i did it better than this 
I know it’s not a lot for you to ask
I regret all my choices 
And now when i look back
I see i hurt more people that that
I thought i was better than this

Ok abandon us w/notcursed (kingtheta)

i just wanted to know ft. spookybands (gaxillic)

room23
prod me:)

a small ep i made a while ago that i've always enjoyed and i wanted to share with you. thank you for listening and i hope you enjoy!!<3

stream: https://open.spotify.com/album/61UDJucnEc2sYoFtazVc0v?si=tWTbMcjTQje-8e54gdML1A


starstruck

lyrics:

Guess that I have never done a thing right in my life
Only see me when it's dark, never in the spotlight
On the streets in the car, I'm just tryna clear my mind
Only keeping the scars that I need to remind
All the rest gimme stress, I don't need to rewind
I'm the best of the less than, never gonna shine
It's a test I guess but I'm never gonna try
I'm better than the rest but I'll never be that guy

Opened up my heart
And you shut it down
Don't know where to start
Do you feel it now?
Try to maintain a good mind space
But I lie awake, think about you
Give you all the time and space
That you might crave
But I'm dying to still be around you
I guess I'll see you when I get back
I guess I'll see you when I get sad
Only ever see you when it gets bad
Only wanna be me when I get mad
Got you in the beamer in the backseat, nasty, crashing
Never gonna see you in the morning
Make it last, please
Never gonna be the man that I was being last week
Gotta get some sleep
Dream of love, everlasting

Guess that I have never done a thing right in my life
Only see me when it's dark, never in the spotlight
On the streets in the car, I'm just tryna clear my mind
Only keeping the scars that I need to remind
All the rest gimme stress, I don't need to rewind
I'm the best of the less than, never gonna shine
It's a test I guess but I'm never gonna try
I'm better than the rest but I'll never be that guy

starstruck

"Happiness ends" to me is just simple thoughts that weren't said long ago. You can either learn to love it or you could be the one to burn it down. Till next time my friend.

Happiness ends

@softhert

Mind always racing
I’m always chasing
The dreams that I’m making
Are mine for the taking
Mind always racing
My mind always racing

Cracks and crumbles, falling down
If no ones there, does it make sound?
I try to flip and turn my frown
I’m killed by chemical compounds

Weight of an empty room
Keeps me inside a tomb
Dust my thoughts off with a broom
A flower in the dark may bloom

Wake me up in another reality
Help me find a piece of vitality
Do my best to protect my morality
Escape the thought that this is the finality

Creep through the night like a monster
I’ve broken her heart, I know it haunts her
Maintaining sight, but I still wander

Mind always racing
I’m always chasing
The dreams that I’m making
Are mine for the taking
Mind always racing
My mind always racing

i waited for you all night long 
just to get let down
just to get led on
do it for the days i was skating
tryna build a park in the backyard
now im smoking on the lawn
and im smoking dank
trust me you can smell the stink
when you walk up in my place
catch me rolling up a big ass jibbah
imma face it then dip
i got i big weed dependance
in a daze how i'm living

i can hear em talking telling lies 
like it aint shit
prolly somewhere looking at the sky
like an ancient
theres a cherry in my joint
but i'm smoking on grape bitch
yeah i'm smoking good 
but i'm tryna be great bitch
everybody wanna try doubting me
got me all up in my head im drowing
nothing without me
no i didn't find the music it found me

youtube

racing - ft. softheart (prod. syndrome)

i don't wanna wake up

hi, i write & sing <3
contact me on insta juliaalex.a
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