i’m looking for a reason to say good night
communication hasn’t happened for a long time
countless times i replay when you said goodbye
moment that it happened burned into my eyes and mind
i’m fine
i’ll say i’ll try
if you look into my eyes you know i’m lying
you’re the one that really knows the reasons i cry
you’re the one that had to see it with your own eyes
i swear this life is a joke
fill up my time with my music and hope
that it will work out it’s the only way i cope
in the journey of life it’s the one and only road for me
i don’t know what you done to me
every time i think about you i can’t fucking breathe
then my thoughts are overtaken by my ocd
and i rot away my mental as i fall asleep

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
x4

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
losing track of time
my eyes are on fire
i been up all night
you are on my mind
x2

i’m restless and reckless
a mess 
why is death in life always endless
always in the midst my emotions are deafened
i dissociate until i’m lacking all my essence
if i leave again then i won’t come back
i feel like i’m under attack
where the sun don’t reach
and my eyes don’t see
and my lungs don’t breathe but you won’t understand
there’s a face underneath each mask that i see
i can be what i need in my dreams
i don’t sleep
i just worry 
never eat
but the beast won’t rest til it’s free
and then feast on my heart til doesn’t have a beat
i swear
it's a sad sad world that we inhabit
keeping goodbyes so dramatic
stay away from people it’s a habit
isolate myself go live on another planet

sweet dreams, my little insomniac ft. ivri (prod. capsctrl)

i don't think love is real

Written by: Thomas Reid & Fog Lake
Produced by: boyfifty

Discover Thomas Reid:
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Lyrics:
we were always miserable together
riled up and underneath the weather

i been running away for so long
got everybody asking me where i’m from
i couldn’t even tell you
tell you
i got nowhere to go now

and i been running away from myself
got everybody saying that i need help
i couldn’t even tell you
tell you
cause i know you’d just run out

and i got no one
no one
nobody left to talk to
it’s no fun
i wonder where highway
might lead
if i just started driving

and i got no one
no one
nobody ever calls now
they moved on
i wonder if i’m breathing
maybe not
if no one can see me
no one can see me

we were always miserable together
(together, together forever)
riled up and underneath the weather

i been running away for so long
my lungs are curled up and i’m slowing down
i wish that i could tell you
tell you
i’m too tired to move now

and i been running away from the past
the finish line’s empty when you’re in last
i wish that i could tell you
tell you
but i know i’d just run out

and i got no one
no one
nobody ever calls now
they moved on
i wonder if i’m breathing
maybe not
if no one can see me
no one can see me

running down your face and on your sweater
something I've been thinking for forever

no one can see me (prod. boyfifty)

written and performed by: @futoh
mixed and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @futoh
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wandering soul.
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lyrics:

the birds silent,
and I’m my own tyrant,
I rule over the world for a bit,
but then I snap,
the worlds not vibrant,
and it all just seems so violent,
in a prison of requirements,
I let go of my garments,
I’m the one without a target,
I’m free (im free),
I’m truly free (im truly free)
I got no fees to pay (no fees to pay),
I got no friends to make (no friends to make),
I got no goals to reach (no goals to reach),
I got no truth to seek (no truth to seek),
it’s only me myself and I,
the flowers blossom as we speak,
they pay attention
when no one else would,
but no one else should,
they’ll just laugh at me,
the apathy’s,
disgusting,
they just ask me for my money,
beat me till my nose is runny,
and then they’ll think it’s funny,
swear I’m better as a mummy
decompose into the earth,
I’ll be part of something greater,
in a hundred years,
when grass is green,
you’ll hear my name in fables,
but for now you only hear my name when teachers send me home,
(they send me home),
that kid was getting picked on,
and they left him all alone
(yea all alone)

nature sleeps and i'm still wandering (prod. futoh)

the pain of things being too good

the first time we met - Julia Alexa

ashes - Julia Alexa

Spells for days ✩𓏲⋆🌿. 🍵✮

Much love to the fam @rxseboy and @ivrii for creating this with me <33

Lyrics:

Ivri:
I want your eyes
on a silver plate
And your lungs
Don't hesitate to breathe
I will absorb you
Watch the bugs as they swarm you
I only adore you
I will absorb you

Despise me
Despise me
Despise me
Despise me
Just a tip from the dead sequioa tree
I'm sorry
I think so violently

Thomas Reid:
Our lips met and it felt like a snake bite
I wonder if you miss me late alone in the nighttime
The earth rotates and your love runs past me
You threw my heart away, I’ll pick it up if you ask me

Now I’m falling falling
But I’m never calling
Even though I want to
You were my home to run to
But this home is broken
God, wish I could focus
Memories we share now embers burned above us in the air

Rxseboy:
Turned to a mockery
What do you want from me?
Body on top of me
Can you get off of me
Hate your reflection like I hate myself
And I hate my reflection I was I was somebody else
You look at me like I'm something you need
I think that you're into making me bleed
I see bones, I see daggers all pointed at me
Fell the pain while you torturing
Gouge out my dreams

I don't get intimate
Vibe getting sinister
I run away like a cold-hearted criminal
All these subliminals go to my conscience
I'm falling deeper is this what you wanted?
(Yes)
Is this what you wanted?
Memories haunt me
That's why I'm cautious
I let my gaurd down
You took advantage
Evil inside you I don't understand it.

Despise Me

Spotify

Thomas Reid x Rxseboy x Ivri - Despise Me

not good enough

if our love was a castle

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Skinny Atlas, Laeland & oc - if our love was a castle

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