Is this thing on?
Oh

I know I should start
But there’s one more thing
Heart melts when I feel it
Can’t control my love
Can’t miss out on my home
Want to rewind and let me stay
Can’t let me go on my own
Don’t you realize this is a mistake?
I made a mistake

Like how could I still feel for you?
When all you do me is get up and leave
Like how could I want you to prove
That you love me when all you do is lose me?
Lose me like loose change in pockets
Or brakes on a bike
Like good summer nights
Or half of our lives
Like having no words left
When nothing is right
Like all the times you didn’t try
Like I do my mind

Hmm

Yeah
I guess this is just me asking myself
Asking did you mess up or did I play myself?
Because you left I wanna change myself
I can’t see passed, this glass is all so broken
Who let me define all love by this one moment?
Who let me think all I get is just shattered love?
You picking pieces from the person that you wish I was
Nothing I can do, I don’t fit your mold
I’m out of luck
Why didn’t anybody tell me falling fucking sucks?
Wish I could go back and comfort me, fix the world
Wish I could go back and look after that little girl
I’d probably push her away from me, saying they all gon hurt her
Fuck, how am I ever supposed to be a mother?
I’m too confused to be hopeful, and I’m just nineteen
Can’t picture a future where I’m not so negative
I’m just a product of circumstance, and this is just a glance
Yet I’m still hurt when people tell me that they understand
I try to move on but I only get so far before I’m burned out
All the tears fall as soon as I take my mask off
All these words sit, hiding behind a pretty mouth
I’m starting to wonder if anyone really knows me at all
Would they like this me, or would they prefer the other
Same way you got a preference, didn’t love me altogether
Ain’t fair that even though I gave, getting ain’t a guarantee
Like just because I love you must mean you love me
Sometimes I feel so stupid that I believe in peace
That such a thing can exist for a sad girl like me
The same girl who defines love by the men who hurt her
Who feels worthless herself when they were never worth her
If I could save her then, I wouldn’t be so messed up now
I know it’s stupid to live in the past, but I’ve dumbed life down
She should feel like royalty but the men never show her
Don’t want to cry to daddy no more, don’t wanna depend on her father
Depend on no man is my best bet
Never worry again about who he fucking with
It’s a lonely life but which would I rather of what I’ve felt?
Yeah
I guess this is just me asking myself

Like how could I still feel for you?
When all you do me is get up and leave
Like how could I want you to prove
That you love me when all you do is lose me?

All you do is lose me
All you do is lose me
All you do is lose me

When all you do is lose me
All you do is lose me
All you do is lose me
All you do is lose me

Yeah
This is pretty much all I got left
See, October is a mess!

Written and produced by - Julia Luz Betancourt

Move On, pt. 1

LYRICS

When you looked at me I had this vision
You were mine
Never in my life
Do I get frozen from my sight

Something in my sticks
When your eyes shoot across the room
Now I'm making space for you
Come over, let's get to it

Ooo, feel the pressure 
High in my head on some bullshit
You're making me see stars
I know this

Isn't make believe
But I still feel like I'm in a fantasy
Can't even feel my own feet now
Kinda like floating, can you stay over?

Can you stay all night, Baby?
So we can both fly
Can you stay all night?
Not come down this time

You said that I'd brighten your night
Just might do it for life
If you fuck with me that much
I know we're young
But we still love like we're a hundred
What do you say
Wanna try it again with me?

Oh!
Doobee doobee, doobeedoo doobee doobee

I can feel it
Your seeds being planted in the middle of my circle
Ooh

Is this what it feels like to be with you?
So good, so good
Is this what it feels like to grow my own
Forest of love?

Ooo, feel the pressure 
High in my head on some bullshit
You're making me see stars
I know this

Isn't make believe
But I still feel like I'm in a fantasy
Can't even feel my own feet now
Kinda like floating, can you stay over?

Can you stay all night, Baby?
So we can both fly
Can you stay all night?
Not come down this time

You said that I'd brighten your night
Just might do it for life
If you fuck with me that much
I know we're young
But we still love like we're a hundred
What do you say
Wanna try it again with me?

Oh!
Doobee doobee, doobeedoo doobee doobee
Ha ha ha ha ha

All Night

LYRICS 

Where do I go when this is the end?
When all the ice will cave and break in
I wish that your mind danced under these lights
That try so hard to glow
And you can be my friend—
I wish you were mine
And then you could try to stop this,
be that bridge

Fight until the end
I fight until the end
I understand this is how it ends in my mind
I can’t be the one who saves if I am gone

Oh, you should be fighting for me
You should want me to stay but you don’t need me

Anyway, couldn’t care enough now
For trying to find another
If this is serious, then, this is until the end

What life do I live without a memory
That I want to remember?
If this is how it ends, do I dare to pick myself up again?

Dare I find light
When dirt is ingrained in my skin

I’m meant for pain
And pain can only be with pain
I should change
But I won’t change for the hell of it

‘Cause nothing is inside me
Except darkness and it’s rising
Oh…

Baby, I need to be pretty for you
Baby, I am so cold and so broken inside

I’m sorry I can’t be the one that you want
I’m sorry I am not the one that you love 
I’m sorry wishes don’t come true within me
I’m sorry my dreams seem to be nightmares

I’m sorry wishes don’t come true inside me
Sorry nightmares are the only things I dream
Sorry sadness is written across my face
Sorry I want to get out of this place

But I can try
I’m only so far
I’m gonna fight, fight for this and then
Put aside what I can, these old things will let go if I do

Watch me fight for you and everything I am
And everything I wish I could be
Watch me fight for you and everything
And soon the smoke will clear

Let’s be clear, this life is so golden
Life is so golden, it left me in tears
This life is so golden
I wish it wasn’t moving so fast but it is

How it Ends [co-produced by Lotus Tape]

When night starts to go
When I was with you
Slow we go
I go far away
I only want one thing
If you stay here
But it's never good enough
If I have to have it this way
I've got no words
There's no point in feeling all of this
To be like before
I'm afraid if you feel me

WRITTEN AND PRODUCED BY JULIA LUZ BETANCOURT

DEAR LANE

wavy

[Woo!]

I’m saved, never sorry
[Whoops, sorry!]
Won’t break when they throw me
[Go ahead, try it]
Don’t play, only money
Can promise me anything

These men never owned me
They can think, but know nothing
For I am their one king
All their mistakes serve my brain

I saw them running by me
Next to you
Running by me
Next to you

By me, next to you
You, next to me
You, me

Running by you, next to me
You, next to me

[Running, running!]

Well, apparently 
Next to you
Where would I be?
Next to you
Be next to you
Be next to you

WRITTEN & PRODUCED BY JULIA LUZ BETANCOURT

Run interlude

Yeah

It took me awhile to build up this confidence
I’ll never forget when I thought everything was wrong with me
Wanted to change in a blink, didn’t want to live at thirteen
And two years later my mind would build enough strength to almost kill me
Most of my life I’ve been my worst enemy
Waging wars and fueling the negatives inside of me
This is the shit I used to picture when I’d go to sleep
Pray to feel as powerful as women look on those magazines 
I’m nineteen and I’ve had ‘bout seven boyfriends
A champ at losing most of my self worth and standards to them
When I was young I used to tie my shoes and not worry ‘bout leaving loose ends
Didn’t think I’d trip this much and be on my knees or nothin’ or think that I’d be put up to something
Yeah, now I know more
My mama used to see me cry and say what you crying for?
How could I tell her, mama boys tell me “give me head” but I don’t think they really love me
How can I tell which ones are bluffing, how come they all just wanna use me
Truth is I lost it when I was sixteen
Not much to say, it’s just a little meaningless memory
What hurt me bad was treating young women like they can’t be active 
If I knew it was okay then I probably woulda talked about it
And so I make this for the younger girls who get shamed for growing up
‘Cause we decided it was their fault and not the dudes who fucked ‘em up
Expect us not to fall for it when they lie to fuck
But don’t teach ‘em not to take advantage and not to use no one
And baby girl, I promise you’re worth the world
Love and self respect
Those are things you’ll never lose, don’t matter who you fucking with 
Just let ‘em know, girl, you’re deserving
You know just what you give
And if they give less you won’t settle, won’t even stand for it
And I originally was gonna write this shit for all my exes
Just to say that I accept every part of my past they’ve been in
I accept what I gave ‘em, even though I won’t be with ‘em
Gave them my heart and my mind, some I felt close enough to, I gave ‘em a view 
And that’s fine 

I know that that’s fine
Yeah, I feel all good, 360
Know that you can’t be with me

WRITTEN AND PRODUCED BY JULIA LUZ BETANCOURT

all good, 360

You can't see what I know
We would never go far
It's not that it is your fault
It's not that it is your fault

There's just no way for us to win, babe
You and me, we don't want the same things
I try to fight it but I can't change
Yeah, I'm no good 
That's why I'm afraid

Know I would never give you what you need
The way I'd treat you'd make you fucking bleed, babe
It's not that you're not what I wanted
I just don't want you enough to love

To love
And I know that we fucked
That wasn't fake
I'm still stuck on someone I used to date

I wish there was something more
I wish there was something more
I wish there was something more
I wish there was something more

There's just no way for us to win, babe
You and me, we don't want the same things
I try to fight it but I can't change
Yeah, I'm no good 
That's why I'm afraid

Know I would never give you what you need
The way I'd treat you'd make you fucking bleed, babe
It's not that you're not what I wanted
I just don't want you enough to love

You can't see what I know

WRITTEN AND PRODUCED BY JULIA LUZ BETANCOURT

something more

I bet this'll surprise 'em

I hope all of these girls have won
No world to make them feel bad
I hope all of these girls have won
No world to make them feel bad

No smooth your skin
Take these pills
Girls like boys
Got me saying
"Look what they've done to me"
Morph us like 1,2,3

Have a boyfriend?
Where is he? 
Girls like boys
Got me saying
"Look what they've done to me"
Morph us like 1,2,3

Like 1,2,3
Like 1,2,3
Like 1,2,3

Go ahead, take that off
Now that's just too much
Where's your boyfriend?
He'll need you to be feminine

Don't you take that off
Put some makeup on
Girls like boys, sweetheart
Girls like boys a lot

I hope all of these girls have won
I hope all of these girls have won

No smooth your skin
Take these pills
Girls like boys
Got me saying
"Look what they've done to me"
Morph us like 1,2,3

Have a boyfriend?
Where is he? 
Girls like boys
Got me saying
"Look what they've done to me"
Morph us like 1,2,3

There you go, listen up
I can't ignore it
Don't make me, I can't afford it
Say at least "I love you"
There you go, listen up
I can't ignore it
Don't make me, I can't afford it
Say at least "I love you"

Like 1,2,3
Like 1,2,3
Like 1,2,3
Like 1,2,3

WRITTEN AND PRODUCED BY JULIA LUZ BETANCOURT

Jules

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