Remixed Sample: the story so far - navy blue

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I walked her home, for the last time

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I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

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ready when you are

Sample: Running Shoes - Quinterlude

download: https://killedmyself.bandcamp.com/album/the-next-time-you-see-me-you-wont-album

but until then

remastered 9.21.17

thank you so much for 100k plays

Sample: Turnover - Disintegration

street lights

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baby its whatever </3 (prod. tothegood)

(remixed track: Message To Bears - At a Glance)

Didn't expect this track to blow up like this..

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don't worry about me

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revealing hope (ft. Lil Lotus)

Easier said than done </3

Prod. By Nick Mira

Goodbye & Good Riddance

Lucid Dreams

still numb

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

@guccihighwaters
@killedmyself

lyrics:
check the clock, 2 am and i cant sleep
scrollin down our photo album just to see our last week
ghosts up in my bed like you were laying in them last week
counting faces in my head like what you said is on repeat
i hope you feel the same in the morning

she said its over like it couldnt be
who knew itd end so cowardly
cant look me in the eyes
guess my stare is so damn heavenly
her kisses on my neck used to show my love so publicly
i miss her on my chest
like my heart, thats where it used to be
ive sown it on my vest
crawls away just like a centipede
i always tried my best
even that just wasnt good enough
she came through to confess
locked her up and threw away the key
depression will infest
hang me up just like a center piece
eroding at my brain
like she try and put the blame on me
but i never claimed to be
the one you wanted me to be
going through the motions
but i feel fucking emotionless
a minute to get mad, then ill get back to destruction
my head is blowing up just like a volcanic erruption
im always fucking up like an nes corruption
blowing down the ounces like i blow away my brain
i get out to escape from whats causing all this pain
friends and substance i abuse
in hopes to keep me all together
cuz without them i would fucking die
nobody lasts forever

i hope you feel the same in the morning
cus i don’t feel the same way any more bitch
im a ghost watch the rain while its pouring
2am i need u but you’re snoring
i need rest prefer a death bed
i need a hollow tip to penetrate my chest
i need to leave maybe then you’d be impressed
too far gone imma sleep on the grass
i stay lone and i hate it
i hate it
but your lips 
still taste still taste them
like come back ill buy u a gucci bag
u can play ur games if u let me hold your hand
please dont 
(please dont break my heart) 
ohh please dont
well is this not enough of destruction 
my body is sick of convulsing

Follow me <3

i hope you feel the same in the morning (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. killedmyself]

"All My Little Scars" 
 Nov. 2 <33333333
-------------------------------X3-----------
Prod: https://soundcloud.com/4evrgone
https://twitter.com/4evrgon3

dead to me <3 (prod. 4evr)

no samples / with love, @4evrgone + 93 <3

I went dry
Fucking giving chances
Lord knows
Bloods old
On my fucking mattress
Hands cold
No hope in us ever lasting
Old souls
Still prone to infatuation

You'll hit me up
say what's up
Hope you're ok,
Ok
Gotta go about my damn day
Yeah Shits changed

Try to sleep
Really late at night
Guess it's morning
Toss & turning
Guess u hurt me

I guess you hurt me x3

hmu say wsup hope ur ok, ok w/ 4evr

I'M SORRY FOR THE MESS
ITS BEEN DARK INSIDE MY HEAD
I FEEL LIKE IT'S THE END
BECAUSE I CAN'T GET A GRIP

AND I KNOW IT'S REALLY HARD
CAN'T GO BACK
I'VE GONE TOO FAR 
SO WHEN I MEET THE END
DON'T PRETEND LIKE WE WERE FRIENDS

IT'S A SHAME THAT I FEEL LIKE THIS
BUT WHAT'S NEW?
I PUT A LOT INTO THE THINGS THAT I LOVE 
YEA I DO

AND I AIN'T EVER ASKED FOR MUCH OUT OF LIFE
BUT TO MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY INSTEAD I COMPLICATE THEN PREPARE AN APOLOGY
AND HONESTLY 
IT TAKES ALL OF ME
SWALLOWING PILL AFTER PILL
NOT TO FALL INTO MY SLEEP

IT'S TEMPORARY 
NUMB THE PAIN
SOME DAYS I REALLY CONTEMPLATE
NEVER WAKING UP AGAIN

IM UNGRATEFUL;
UNDESERVING
EVERYONE THAT HAS A LIFE 
THEY SERVE A PURPOSE
BUT I CANT FIND THE REASON WHY
IM FEELING WORTHLESS
THE PRESSURE THE SORROW 
BRINGING ME CLOSER TO CLOSURE
STILL I CAN'T HELP BUT TO CHOKE
I'M SORRY

I'M SORRY FOR THE MESS
ITS BEEN DARK INSIDE MY HEAD
I FEEL LIKE IT'S THE END
BECAUSE I CAN'T GET A GRIP

AND I KNOW IT'S REALLY HARD
CAN'T GO BACK
I'VE GONE TOO FAR 
SO WHEN I MEET THE END
DON'T PRETEND LIKE WE WERE FRIENDS

I THINK A LOT ABOUT DYING
I WISH I COULD STOP IT
CONVINCED I NEVER WILL ERASE  
THE HESITATION TO DROP IT

MY OPTIONS
FIRST THE PAIN 
NEVER THE PLEASURE
I ONLY GOT TWO CHOICES
LIVE LIKE THIS OR CLOSE MY EYES 
 AND FOREVER

YEA
I CAN SEE JUST HOW IT'S GONNA BE
GOT DREAMS GOING SIX FEET DEEP
BUT FOR REAL I COUNT MY BLESSINGS
LEARN MY LESSON
AND THIS LIFE
ITS KEEP ON TESTIN' 
PUSHING ME STRAIGHT TO THE EDGE
BLOOD IN MY VEINS FLOW TO MY HEAD
SCREAMING TIL MY FACE IS RED
HOW MUCH I WANNA GO
NOBODY CARES SO
I SHOULD GRAB THIS GUN AND PUT IT TO MY FUCKIN DOME 
THIS IS THE LAST TIME
COULD BE MY LAST RHYME
YOU NEVER KNOW
I THINK IT'S TIME FOR ME TO COME HOME

I'M SORRY FOR THE MESS
ITS BEEN DARK INSIDE MY HEAD
I FEEL LIKE IT'S THE END
BECAUSE I CAN'T GET A GRIP

AND I KNOW IT'S REALLY HARD
CAN'T GO BACK
I'VE GONE TOO FAR 
SO WHEN I MEET THE END
DON'T PRETEND LIKE WE WERE FRIENDS

DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M TRYNA DO 
BUT I REALLY GOTTA GO
YEA

DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M TRYNA DO 
BUT I REALLY GOTTA GO
YEA

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SORRY4THAMESS [Prod. @basementghost]

@iamtrapcode

you were her sacred flame
she wanted you to love her again
but you had pain stronger than your heart
so you kept her while you could...
she waited all night,
but you left her without a sign.
without a light…

but her love was real.
so she fell…
how am i to deal? 
you left me, i’m in hell...
and so i fell.

you were my holy grail,
can you see my pain?
when i’m reaching for you
i grasp nothing
it’s hopeless now,
i’m drowning slowly.
you, my dear, you were my only
please don’t go, no...
it’s hopeless now,
i’m drowning slowly
you, my dear, you were my only.

and so she fell. (prod. Trapcøde)

ft. 
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prod. 
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM

art.
https://soundcloud.com/wolf_drawn
https://twitter.com/WOLFDRAWN

just a memory ft. lil zubin (prod. nedarb)

FT: https://soundcloud.com/lilzubin
 https://twitter.com/lilzubin

PROD: https://soundcloud.com/charlieshuffler
 https://twitter.com/CharlieShuffler

ART: https://soundcloud.com/wolf_drawn
 https://twitter.com/WOLFDRAWN
 
MIX/MASTER: https://soundcloud.com/nick_colletti
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amphetaminez ft. lil zubin (prod. charlie shuffler)

take it day by day.
wanted 2 make a song w/o a kick lol
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