https://youtu.be/-cOlYHFZFk0

im sorry ive been gone for so long <3

prod by me

Visuals

onewish

guitar by @evanjolley

lyrics:

this isnt working out dont know why im still trying now
all by myself and im thinking about dying now
behind four walls is where im hiding out
been up the whole night couldent sleep been crying out
piece by piece im just falling to pieces
and i can barely breathe as my heart rate decreases
wondering how far this road reaches
taking all these drugs 'till the point they feel needless

i cant even tell i cant even tell i cant even tell
how far have i fell
i think im in hell
im not feeling well im not feeling well im not feeling well
will anybody hear me if i scream and yell
x2

im sick of people saying everything will be alright
i cant close my eyes i toss and turn for the entire night
i dont go outside i stay deprived of sunlight 
monsters in my head that lately ive been trying to fight
whats the point of waking up when everyday is terrible
and every nights comparable
rip me apart 'till the point im irreparable
trying to keep it together im already hysterical
i wish i could wake up from this nightmare
i cant help but feel like im going nowhere
losing my mind and i dont care
feel like im not here or there
staring at a blank white wall
like why did i wake up at all
all by myself no missed calls
how much farther do i have to fall

i cant even tell i cant even tell i cant even tell
how far have i fell
i think im in hell
im not feeling well im not feeling well im not feeling well
will anybody hear me if i scream and yell
x2

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