i'll just think about her for 5 mins

excedi: https://soundcloud.com/excedix

thanku to all u guys <33 ur support means the most :)))) <3

fiveofive (prod. excedi)

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

produced by @anobodyreally

art found at sad-space-kitten.tumblr.com

lyrics:

its 30 below
i see the blue in my toes
i feel the ice in my throat
and ive never been this cold
baby dont go
just when we start to see the light
clouds come block it out
the timing never fucking right
plaid green sweater
couple loose threads around the wrist
hole in the back
thats what i get when everythings thrift
ripped black jeans
and some bruises on my fists
my eye turned black
thats what i get when everythings shit

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

i cant help u
i cant save u baby
dont know how to

but dont worry maybe
we could find someone
that might know how to

flashing lights
streetlights when we in the benz
what was that
could u run that by again
going fast
not paying any attention
saw my page
now im always in their mentions

not my type
dont know why she wanna go out
i stay inside
and no u cant over to my house
got shit to do
u know im working all the time now
all these words
work their way into the songs now

woah
change my mind
all the time
i feel shit
now im fine
got so much of this free time
and i dont even count the nights

no
i wont text
i wont phone
think too much
when im on my own
i think its best
if you said u would go 
i think its best
if u leave me alone

im still walking home
think im freezing through my coat
where have u been
where should i go

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

warm (prod. ʎpoqou)

produced by @idealismus

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

sorry i was couch locked
i heard you knock but i couldnt get the door knob
that excuse applies to so many people this year
but its not my fault you in your feelings
on my riff raff shit
blueberry rocketship
your tonsils out your mouth
when i split your bottom lip

the flow just came to me
the belt has double g's
im facing bong rips and i blow em off the balcony

im feeling presidential
whole squad deep queen street in a rental
no one get inside my mental
but i could shutter island someone if i need to

the fear is colour and its bleeds through
fuck im only here to greet you
why you talking getting drinks like we should plan it
i didnt even wanna meet you

december christmas party
last year dont get me started
new year was so inviting
compared to the one before it

christmas party (prod. idealism)

@guccihighwaters

produced by @notmorgn

lyrics: 

guccihighwaters:

i think i’d be good with a sedative 
anything to fucking stop the trembling
shit baby put a bullet to my brain
waste of fuckin space i guess i was just replaced
hood and the headphones don’t wanna talk to you
don’t take it personal i always feel uncomfortable
i guess its a part of me
hard to breathe when im at the party

for once aim your love in my direction 
cut me open baby kill my imperfections
for once just for once i crave all your attention
this is not a life with the loss of your affection

9TAILS:

i think id be good with a sedative
anything to bring me closer to emotionless
life is boring when you take out all the additives
live in the illusion or youll only make depressing shit

beamer go skr
uber gon swerve
cold as a bitch in the city
when you hit pavement just know it gon hurt

putting in work
grape juicy papers filled with the purp
shit baby put a bullet to my brain
come and shut me down cause im tired of this earth

i could see snow in toronto
we got some snow in the condo
smellin the dank cause that people
that entered dont know that were keeping the door closed
friends switching like time zones
blunt flicking keep my eyes low
in a new form like a super saiyan
you base form like a zygote

salt stains on my nikes
winter weather too silent
phone screen low brightness
6 digit pin cause im private

truth is gon hurt
u do not know what is best for me
like a non profit or a charity
this shit aint a cheque to me

this is building up a masterpiece
raw emotion is the centre piece
like goku i got enemies 
but none of them match my energy

your power level not testing me
like god form can you follow me
im down as hell but this backwoods got me bouncing back like a senzu bean

BOTH:

for once aim your love in my direction 
cut me open baby kill my imperfections

9TAILS & guccihighwaters - for once (prod. notmorgn)

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＲＵＮ　ＳＯ　ＦＡＲ　ＦＲＯＭ　
ＴＨＥＳＥ　ＳＨＡＤＯＷＳ

//私の心の断片//

lyrics
-------
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

produced by ocean beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCpipAjo9fIhDMXOoo0Mm86Q

lyrics:

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces
tell me do u need me
do u wanna see me
do u want a sweater you could keep it when u leave me
i cant
keep it together 
this cold winter weather
has tricked me to feeling a way
i got nothing else left to say to you
forget my embrace

you could sleep at night
youll be alright
but i tore you open inside
bring raw emotion to life
he doesnt have what i have inside
and i know you know that i could treat u right
make u feel right
evanesence girl ill bring you to life

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces
tell me do u need me
do u wanna see me
do u want a sweater you could keep it when u leave me
i cant

dnt leave me (prod. ocean)

ＴＨＥ　ＶＯＩＣＥＳ　ＩＮ　ＭＹ　ＨＥＡＤ　ＣＯＬＬＩＤＥ

//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
--------
this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

with @guardinmusic @i_x_t_a_i_l_s @sewerperson
prod and mixed: @jakkyboi and @lilpolearm

whatever it takes (feat. guardin & 9tails)

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

youtube

solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

floating away (prod. killedmyself)

leaves (prod. ʎpoqou)

better days (prod. hateful)

ARTWORK BY @scottysplash

produced by LCS and Silent Fresh

mixed & mastered by 9TAILS

thankyou for listening

proud of me (prod. LCS & Silent Fresh)

lyrics
--------
i bet you like
the way that i
sit inside on a friday night
doing nothing with my life
while you’re out partying with other guys 
but i’m not wise 
& these aren't lies
according to you it’s all in my mind
but i see the things that they post online
and it makes me sick to my fucking spine
i worry a lot about the day you leave 
cause the day you leave is the day i leave 
and i think too much about suicide 
about killing time 
about time i try 
something new 
cause this shit gets old but i love the way that she says i love you
and i tried many times to rewind to the days you were mine
and i tried many times to erase what we made what have i done
cause a part of me died when you left in november that night 
think he’s right beside you telling you what to say to me why
do i think what i think cause i think i’m in love with a lie

inside

lyrics
--------
i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

lyrics
--------
is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
he's a cunt he's an asshole
is she fine without him
is her mind in a black hole
does this night ever end
are we locked in a capsule

sorry that we're doomed
i guess this is truce
crying at the crib on a friday afternoon
this is how i live spent the day up in my room
made a couple bucks imma dip & get some food
and maybe get some shoes
the max's lookin' smooth
the loud pack smacks & my snacks all chewed
teeth all dead cause my sugar hit the root
if she don't text back she gon have to get the boot
and imma get my move on i ain't even trip
fucked up on a sunday mondays lookin lit
got twenty eight grams and a bottle of some shit
sip henny with the boys at the hotel on the 6th
i've got plans baby do not intervene
yeah i wanted this forever but you decided to leave
so i'll rewrite the script got sagas to complete
try to hit me with i miss you like what the fuck you mean

from the way that she moves you can tell she's a cyclone
and she's back once again it's a hell of a cycle
with that look in her eyes you must tell yourself i know
this is only a test and you must remain vital

is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
she's a cunt she's an asshole

i'll just think about her for 5 mins

kxm