indigomerkaba - Did It Again

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HEAD HIGH

Huskii - Cry In The Booth

Army of drunks

Livin For The City

The Weight of the Rock

Elegence

Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds

Shattered bottles on the sidewalk shine
Men step over truth just to stay in line
Sirens cut sleep into broken parts
Rent stays late, fear stays sharp
I hear rage talk louder than plans
Smell of stress on the back of my hands
No exit sign in a crowded hall
Still expected to stand tall

Don’t test me when I’m holding it in
I’m learning control, not giving in
I breathe, I pause, I stay aware
The line is thin but I stay there
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds

Leaning out windows counting days
Watching engines drag their weight
A woman sleeps inside a coat
City taught her how to float
Everybody selling strength like proof
Nobody teaching how to heal the root
Masculine coded as clenched jaw
But nobody wins a war at home

Don’t test me when I’m holding it in
I’m learning control, not giving in
I breathe, I pause, I stay aware
The line is thin but I stay there
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds

My brother cracked under silent debt
Sold the screen just to dodge regret
Collectors knock with practiced tone
Fear arrives when I’m not home
No ride to work, no voice to strike
Bills stack faster than advice
Body tight, mind overstimmed
Anger feels earned but still feels wrong

Don’t test me when I’m holding it in
I’m learning control, not giving in
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds

My son said “Why should I play fair
When respect don’t live out there?”
Kids learn violence before math
That’s a system flaw, not a path
They fix the wound but ignore the cause
Replace the arm, don’t stop the laws
I keep my distance from nightfall parks
Not from fear, from knowing stats

Don’t test me when I’m holding it in
I’m learning control, not giving in
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds

A child arrives with open eyes
No map for truth, no guide for lies
Hope smiles first, then learns restraint
Love exists but pain gets trained
You see success wearing crime
Money talks loud, ethics whisper quiet
Masculinity sold as domination
Not accountability or regulation
Cycles repeat when no one stops
Manhood confused with taking shots
I argue this with every breath
Strength is choosing life over death

Don’t test me when I’m holding it in
I’m learning control, not giving in
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds
Pressure builds in silence
I ask myself how balance still holds

Conversations break into noise
Authority mistakes control for voice
Hands go up, tension spikes
Conflict tests the man, not the mic
I step back, refuse the bait
Masculinity means regulating weight
I don’t explode, I don’t submit
I stay present inside the conflict

Masculinity conflict

Vocals recorded at Pang Productions Studio

Army of drunks

kade ;/

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