wish this was on streaming <3 love this song sm

If we would just talk, then you'd understand

I love you so much, do the best that i can

Don't move, on don't leave, don't leave me again

Now i just don't want them to see me like this

Don't go, don't leave, don't leave me again

produced by hiraeth


Call me
Bitch u never wanna call me
I don’t wanna die tn but im hoping
Crying in ur arms and I deserve all this
Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss

Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss
Hang me out to dry 
Drip blood from the ceiling
Im losing my mind so tell me if u mean it
Try not to cry while u rip me to pieces

Try not to cry just tell me if u mean it
Stop looking down its the blood from the ceiling
Its never my fault how tf do you miss him
Apart of me is gone that’s a part of me missing

forged

She met a boy, he was nice enough
She didn't care that much, she knew it'd never be love
He came to visit, slept in her bed
And all her friends had said just how this would end

She was too high to stop him, he took what he wanted
And no one believed her, she dropped out of college
His friends are all toxic: "I know him, he's honest"
This shit makes me nauseous, I wish I could stop it

I know you like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
You like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
I know you like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
You like me better when I'm too fucked up

She told her friends and no one seemed to mind
If it was just one time, or they were both too high
Or if she led him on the way she likes to do
I bet she asked for it. I bet she liked it too
This body wasn't yours to start, so why the fuck you complaining
Fill up the sink with the blood and the vomit, body decaying
Swallow a million pills til we can't understand what you're saying
We'll call you crazy til you kill yourself and watch in amazement

But she didn't listen, thought maybe this was different
Maybe she deserved a break from all the shit she'd been in
He didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, he says "I like you better when you're too fucked up to talk"

I met a girl, she was nice enough
I didn't care that much, I knew it'd never be love
She came to visit, let her sleep in my bed
And all my friends had said just how this would end

But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk

I was too high to stop you, you took what you wanted
And no one believed me, I dropped out of college
Your friends are all toxic: "You know her, she's honest"
This shit makes me nauseous, I wish I could stop it

But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk
But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk

TOO FUCKED UP TO TALK

featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

spotify

pathetic ft. residential

produced by branwen

completely non profit

lyrics

turn it up turn it up for another night
getting drunk on a sunday till the morning light
waking up in a monday in a strangers bed
i think i finished all my drinks theyre in my fuckin head

holy shit here i go again
i been off my meds for a while
n im a god again
i dont really know who i am
n im alright with it
at least im being honest
if it hurts then u dont feel regret

ur head will hurt in the morning
u dont give a fuck
shes kinda cute might as well go n try ur luck
she thought that i was 25 holy wtf
so this wont go past tonight idgaf

19 i make connections when in drunk until i break them when im sober
in my heart im older
i bleed from underneath the scotch tape thats holding me together
its forever

why waste my time writing all these fucking metaphors
im still in love with the person that i met before
gave her my heart n she threw it on the fucking floor
i find it hard just to trust cus in the end
fucked my best friend
said she wishing i was dead
u live in my head
both u n him
and its such a mess 
that u have left
that u have left
that u have left

(hero)

i find it funny how we repeat such a cycle here again
shits so toxic its obnoxious she refuse to leave my head
and im okay with that, as okay with being sliced in half
"i got a thing for artists" oh i want ur take on that
chugging octane to experience a numbness when she on me
stop me, id like to see u try oh u could never
sulfate to really rub the cut into my skin
with scotch tape to wrap the fatal wound once again

scotchtape & sulfates ft. hero (branwen)

ｉｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ　ｗｏｎ＇ｔ　ｓｅｌｌ，　ｋｅｅｐ　ｏｎ　ｂａｒｇａｉｎｉｎｇ

thank you so much for listening.

prod. farber x @jang0x
(additional piano implemented by me)

another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

i cannot leave when the ground has been holding me
weep and repeat, cause the cycle has grown on me
you'll brush it off, "oh he's spittin some poetry"
but really i'm trying my best so you'll notice me
i ain't been up on my luck in a minute
it must be my fault that my health has diminished
but i'll fight my way through this shit to the finish
cause i'm all i got, and it's all i was given
i wish they saw what i see on the daily
but i no longer desire a saving
i've learnt a lot, but i still fuck it over (i always fuck it up)
birds feeding out of my chest while i smolder

i watch them fly away
my intestines in their veins
i'm in an empty space
in a stagnant state

this moment's passing me by
but just whose fault is it this time?
with wings made of sludge
blue is more than just the color it's made out to be
what chilled lips to cave into the temptation of frost
if the truth won't sell, keep on bargaining.
having the upper-hand doesn't determine how many fingers it's broken
but you can assume a lot, right?..
RIGHT?
-
another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

with wings to fly [prod. farber x jang0]

<33 luv yall w/ all my heart :) tysm for 30K on nites !!!

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

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dead (heyylotus & warheart)

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

cedar street w/ evergarden

this songs basically a song that is just being a song just bc ofc

prod by me bc i made the beat just my opinion

lyrics:

Just Look at all the shit that I had done went thru
U aint doubt me since about my drive cause its not true
Know I got some demons in my life I tap into
I needed change inside my life and that meant u I swear it
Something hit different when bathed in the moonlight
I feel my spirit come out in this blue light
This shit come naturally bathed in the stage lights
This is just what it had to be not just what I felt like yea

By myself I had got thru it by myself yea
Big blunt put some worry on my health
Its a kick drum when I listen to my chest
She bit me on my tongue and it took away my breathe
Scrapes bruise 
I could see the lake off pape
Views
I see plenty friends get snaked
Abused
Some shit never change and it’s painful
Oh Its hate full
And it Breaks you
Somewhere in the back I relocate
Something in this glass turn my drink to a drank
We had something in the past but its something that I hate
Something in my brain now its something in my bank
In my graduating class I was flunking everything
Now ill show up at reunions with that f on top my waist
When I show up at my home and she had waited on me in lace
Girl if u feeling that way u could put it on my face

Never in my life
Never in my life
Never in my life
I aint feel like this since bout never in my life

Just Look at all the shit that I had done went thru
U aint doubt me since about my drive cause its not true
Know I got some demons in my life I tap into
I needed change inside my life and that meant u I swear it
Something hit different when bathed in the moonlight
I feel my spirit come out in this blue light
This shit come naturally bathed in the stage lights
This is just what it had to be not just what I felt like yea

no pulse (jabarionthebeat)

produced by kelseytension and usergaunt

guitar by usergaunt

ily

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