Its been 2 years and this still hits home

If I Die

If I Die (feat. Julia Alexa)

i tried to take a chance and open up 
to try to fall and love 
but every time i kept on getting closer i would feel a tug
whisper in my mind from my thoughts that i’m not enough
happiness i’ll never find i think it’s time to give it up

i tried to give you what you need
i left you incomplete 
apologize for all the times when i was being mean
when i told you i don’t want you really i just couldn’t see
a future where somebody good as you would be with me 

so out of fear i ruined everything any shot i had 
you moved on now i’m crying wishing i could take it back 
you the only girl that helped me not the think about the past 
now you gone and everything around me turning into black 

and i’m knowing it’s my fault 
that i got nobody blame 
i’m not surprised cause all i fucking do is keep making mistakes
then i’m drowning in my sorrows screaming i just wanna change 
but there’s nothing i can do to make you wish you woulda stayed

i wish you would’ve stayed
i wish you would’ve stayed
drowning in my sorrows screaming i just wanna change 
nothing i can do to make you wish you would’ve stayed

verse 2

i know that you are happier that i’m not in your life 
if i said the same for me we both would know that that’s a lie
an attempt to cover up the feelings that i love to hide 
since the day i made you leave it has been killing me inside 

damn you probably got a man that treats you well and loves to buy you things 
probably got a crib a couple kids a couple diamond rings
all i ever got you was a mockingbird that never sang 
i never gave you any chance to ever fall in love with me 

i built a wall and never took the shot to break it down 
you started coming close and i could see it where it was heading out 
knowing that i’d end up getting hurt but wasn’t knowing how 
decided i woulda give it up i wish that i did it different now 

alone and in my room 
never find someone like you 
never find someone who cares for me the way that you would do 
on that day i said we through 
was the day that i would lose
that part of me that gave me any hope 
of finding truth

Spotify

Wish You Would've Stayed

Kam Michael
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Kam Michael - i wish i was someone else 😔 [prod. Stafford Beats x King Kahlo]

- Official song is out on Promoting Sounds

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Rxseboy - heart is bleeding (prod. heroe & the bootleg boy)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

Upside Down in the Backseat

Upside Down in the Backseat (feat. Jomie)

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SEON
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Feel trapped and i feel weak
If these broken bones could speak
They’d say i’m worn out all the time 
Daytime gets more bleak
Wait for mood swings to reach its peak
Before i can shut my eyes 

I see all the beauty in life 
The next minute i wanna die 
Drugs ain’t been getting me high
I can’t get outta of mind 

I’m so in love then i’m not 
Ice in my veins but i’m hot 
I run away from my thoughts 
But i get scared when they stop

I guess that i’m crazy or maybe i’m bad at just numbing the pain 
I know there’s people that feel how i feel but i Guess they just better at running away  
living so fake  
I wish they’d say 
How they been feeling so i can feel safe 
With how i been living and all my mistakes  
I’m trying but i cannot change

Highest highs then lowest lows 
Undiagnosed with no way to cope 
Prescription pill make me feel alone 
I wish i’d know 
Where i’m supposed to go

When i’m at the peak i can see the valley
Why i’m still depressed when i’m feeling happy 
Will there come when it not coming at me 
Will they find me dead and laying in a alley 

Feel trapped and i feel weak
If these broken bones could speak
They’d say i’m worn out all the time 
Daytime gets more bleak
Wait for mood swings to reach its peak
Before i can shut my eyes 

I got back what i asked for 
My life’s a dream but i’m still bored
Stopped popping pills 
Thought i’d be alright
But i still like
Getting high more 

When i float up then im wanting down
So i’m flying back but i hate the ground 
So i seek for love
Till i see it comes
Then i chose to run 
Like i never found   

As i keep turning i’m running in circles and stuck at start 
Looking for signals that i’ll never find cause i Lost the key that would open my heart 
I’ve been to a victim to all of the scars 
And all of the times that they’ve torn me apart
Then fix it with the stitches just like it’s art 
But lately it’s getting too hard  (delay


You’ll never be who i am 
You cannot see what i’ve seen
That’s why my bones getting weak
I stand in defeat 
And planning to leave 
I’m planning to go im planning to end
Living this life without any friends 
Living this life no where to begin 
Start over a life without any sin

Broken Bones (feat. Deyaz)

written by Lxst Boy & Giovanni
produced by Boyfifty & Ayleen Valentine 
mixed and mastered by Giovanni
out on all platforms

thanks for all the support on the old version 💙
shoutout Matthias, love u bro

-lyrics-
(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
I'm sorry that I let you down
it's probably cause I sleep too much
and every time that you're around
there's always something wrong

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
late nights and talks with my conscience
lately i been feeling nauseous
I write songs so call me off topic
lowkey wanna tell them to stop it
I'll just get walked on
I'm feeling that way like non-stop
I'm sorry I'm an outcast wait no I'm not
but I let you down whenever I talk
I'm feeling like a 9tails knockoff
I came from the sewers then the time stopped
im running around in circles in my thoughts
the clock winding down, hear the tick tock
when I'm locked in my room
I'm feeling the tension
record at my desk
these lyrics unscripted
writing these songs
that you'll never listen
cause you never cared
I'm a solo mission woah
uh I wanna talk
without feeling guilty
I need a shower
you making me filthy
blood stains the wall
you know that you killed me
its cold in my room
and at night it gets chilly
I wanna talk
but every time I do my heartstrings in a knot
in getting tired of writing these songs
and day by day 
you wouldn't tell me what's wrong
yeah

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
 
(Verse 2: Giovanni)
where am i goin, what do i got 
i feel so lonely, everyone stop
want you to hold me, damn i forgot 
what it was like, i feel distraught 
i let you down and watched you depart
now everything’s loud and i’m caught in the dark
like i’m in the dirt, buried with the worms 
and that is the funniest fuckin part
cause what did we say together
all of those times, that you let me down
tell the words that we sang together
everything’s fine, we’ll be alright 
we’ll fuckin stand in the rain together 
i don’t mean to cry, but why did you lie
remind me again why stayed together 

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)

Let You Down w/ Giovanni & Ayleen Valentine (boyfifty)

Pray for Me (feat. Kuzu Mellow) [prod. Caps Ctrl]

Wish U Were Here (Prod. Brandon Taylor)

My New Mixtape “LOST IN LIFE: A Mental Health Tape” is out now on all platforms! I cannot even begin to express how thankful I am for everyone who has stuck with me over the past years...truly mean it when I say I wouldn’t be here without you guys. I wrote the majority of this project at one of the lowest points of my life while I was stuck in quarantine going through a lot. As hard as it was to put my emotions on paper, I knew that my tough times would be able to help some of you get through your own struggles.

Make sure to share the project with everyone you know! Every extra stream, play and view helps me reach new people who my music may be able to positively impact.

Kam Michael - i wish i was someone else 😔 [prod. Stafford Beats x King Kahlo]

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