Written by Kate Vermylen
Arranged & produced by Posey Durling

not a love song (collab. Kate Vermylen)

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Youtube link - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRBKRV1Ki6I&feature=youtu.be

G-Eazy x Louis The Child (Far Alone x Venice)

ANTHM - God Of Joy

Deep Down

Good Vibez

2 years ago today, I finished my last round of Chemotherapy. I produced, wrote, and performed this song, which details my thoughts, my struggles, and the tougher times I had during my battle with Cancer.

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Lyrics:
(Chorus Pt. 1) 
Find my purpose 
It’d be worth it 
Self reflect
I do deserve it
What i’ve been through 
Scratched the surface
Cancer got me
Close the curtains

(Verse)
Lil bit  
Smoke 
I got hella flows 
That tend to calm me down
When I be feeling low
Lil bit 
Drank up in my cup
Couple shots up to the head 
I can feel it in my gut 

(Bridge)
Father 
Give me time
I’m finding my reason 
Endless thoughts  
They change like the seasons
Lil bit 
Ease my mind 
From these demons 
So give me something to believe in 

(Verse)
Lil bitch
Goes
Up and down the pole
You wouldn’t know
Worked a 9 to 5
A year ago
Lil bit 
Of sadness  
Comes to show 
Life ain’t always what it seems
And we’ll never really know 

(Chorus Pt. 2)
Fought for life 
Knocked down
So nervous
Christmas day 
I felt so worthless
Legs felt weak 
Do me this service 
If I die 
Write me a sermon

(Verse 2)
Lil bit 
Motivation 
Drives my tendencies 
My instincts to survive
No matter who the fucks my enemy
Got no energy 
But momma  
By my side
And she help me
Through the worst times
Can’t even describe
Had to help me down the stairs
When i lost all of my hair
No one truly understands 
All the losses that I bear 
But i’m here 
And i’m here to stay
Cruising down the interstate
Top down 
When i ride
Took that girl out on a dinner date  

(Full Chorus) 
Find my purpose 
It’d be worth it 
Self reflect
I do deserve it
What i’ve been through 
Scratched the surface
Cancer got me
Close the curtains

Fought for life 
Knocked down
So nervous
Christmas day 
I felt so worthless
Legs felt weak 
Do me this service 
If I die 
Write me a sermon

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Kate Vermylen

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