I think i accidentally smoked pesticides or pcp 
the year before i left for college 
Everything looked like a deep fried meme 
I think somebody laced my weed 
I didn’t do it to myself I promise 
My mama warned me about little pills and older men strawberry fields that never end 
She did her time 
Somehow escaped that clawing hand a strength ill never understand that iron grip can get so tight 
What if I broke this stupid glass over my dumb head?
Let all the blood run down my arms til the garden’s fed 
Wait til the flowers bloom in the same place that I bled 
Make a bouquet hoping i’m half as useful when i'm dead
My hair was blue when i met you 
Once purple pink even green too 
Poison dart frog taught me well 
Playing pretend for $10 a seat
What a small price to meet the queen of hell 
Springs and caves and muggy weather 
Things that make me feel i’m tethered 
As no one else is to their home 
Broken needles hummingbird feeders neural pathways over catacombs
What if I broke this stupid glass over my dumb head?
Let all the blood run down my arms til the garden’s fed 
Wait til the flowers bloom in the same place that I bled 
Make a bouquet hoping i’m half as useful when i'm dead
Oh my love i have done it again 
I have forced you to prove that when 
I fall 
You will catch me 
Shadows in my corner again but right before the dark can win you call 
Out to me 
And i didn’t think that i’d find anyone 
With half a brain to think i'm the one 
They’d like to wander home with 
What if I broke this stupid glass over my dumb head?
Let all the blood run down my arms til the garden’s fed 
Wait til the flowers bloom in the same place that I bled 
Make a bouquet hoping i’m half as useful when i'm dead

Pesticides (Acoustic)

1. "Of Whale" at the ICA by Olivia Flanz
2. Black Market Nubian by Amyah Bishop and Birdi Diehl
3. Dumpster Diving by Jacob Carozza
4. Public Art Upkeep by Max Reyes
5. Pop Culture in Classrooms by Nicole Poitras

You Are Here: March 3rd, 2024

Geoffrey Burke, member of the Old Hutsmen Association, reflects on the night he was shot at Carter Notch Hut in 1982.

Music from Creative Commons and @earthtones
Photo of 1982 Carter Croo


"A Powerful Spot" - The '82 Shooting at Carter Notch

1. Small Island Big Sound by Sean Perry
2. Accessibility by Jackie DeFusco
3. Dumpster Diving
4. Art by Max Reyes
5. Pop Culture in Class by Nicole Poitras
6. Sensory by Carissa Dunlap

You Are Here: March 10th, 2024

1. Animal Shelter by Grace Paradis
2. Harm Reduction by Nicole Belcastro
3. Cloning by Carissa Dunlap
4. Stuttering by Noel Gasca
5. Public Art by Max Reyes
6. Healey by Allison Marien

You Are Here: March 17th, 2024

1. Musics by Hannah Park
2. Early Childhood Development by Jackie DeFusco
3. Superpedestrian by Chloe Goldstein
4. American Diner by Dahlia Snaiderman
5. Ghost Writer by Victoria Bedford

You Are Here: March 24th, 2024

1. Racial Wealth Gap by Amyah Bishop and Birdi Diehl
2. Stuttering by Noel Gasca
3. Hate Speech by Asma Belhouri
4. Vitamins by Alyssa Gocinski
5. Superpedestrian by Chloe Goldstein

You Are Here: March 31st, 2024

1. Women in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu by Tara Nguyen
2. Boston Women's Soccer Summit by Ally Evans
3. Hallyu! The Korean Wave by Olivia Flanz
4. Club Passim by Sean Perry and Roxie Jenkin
5. ICU by Chloe Goldstein
6. Homeless by Rebecca Abrego

You Are Here: April 7th, 2024

1. Racial Wealth Gap Part 2 by Amyah Bishop and Birdi Diehl
2. Nursing Deficit by Meg Boucher
4. Music by Hannah Park
5. Vikings by Brittany Gervais
6. Gaming by Julia Champagne

You Are Here: April 14th, 2024

1. Boston Marathon Coverage by Meg Boucher and Ally Evans
2. Boston Marathon Feature Coverage by Birdi Diehl and Amyah Bishop
3. Fireli Baez ICA by Olivia Flanz
4. DCF by Meg Boucher
5. ICU by Chloe Goldstein
6. Dumpster Diving by Jacob Carozza
7. Homeless by Rebecca Abrego

You Are Here: April 21st, 2024

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I am a producer at KCRW, a Los Angeles-based public radio station featuring an eclectic mix of independent music, NPR news, talk and arts programming. Most of these tracks are from my college career at Emerson College and reporting for WERS in Boston.

"A Powerful Spot" - The '82 Shooting at Carter Notch

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