the emotion wonderland, a place of convoluted emotions and lingering memories

this project is a meeting point between my past and present. its a final version of what was once a scrapped idea that was meant to be released under another name. i felt like putting it out there and give these songs a proper release, so i could turn the page and leave the path open for other projects. it's a way to make amends with my younger self, an ode to teen angst and the confusing journey of growing up

written & produced 2022 - 2025

1 - Allusion
2 - Emotion wonderland
3 - Would you bother to?
4 - Hesitancy
5 - Illusion / Aether

Emotion Wonderland EP

ABS/LAY (w/ astilbe)

hello! :)


lyrics:

I see the colour of blood
It's suffocating
I don't get it anymore
You change your plans too much
I'm not the one to tell
All those dark secrets of yours
And it seems like you forget
What you mean to his soul

I found you laying on the floor
I took my time to play along
Play victim like you always do
Why would I help you now?
I’d rather get away from here
And I’ve been saying that for years
You know this is all because of you

And I keep seeing things
That my heart doesn’t feel
And my heart doesn’t miss
It only conceals

(You got me trapped in your world)

I- I’m trying to overcome
The guilt and wonder
They’re running through my veins

I- told you i felt like shit before
But you dont care anymore

I know you tried to bring him down
I took my time to play along
Play victim like you always do
Why would I help you now?
I’d rather get away from here
And I’ve been saying that for years
You know this is all because of you

And I keep seeing things
That my heart doesn’t feel
And my heart doesn’t miss
It only conceals

My heart doesn't feel
It only conceals
My heart doesn't feel
It only conceals

It only conceals
It only conceals
My heart doesn't feel
It only conceals
It only conceals
It only conceals

The Kickoff

originally written and performed by jane remover aka venturing:
https://soundcloud.com/02_26_2001/aberdeen-dream-sequence
@02_26_2001

You'd rather live to please
And die a virgin
Said you wanna go see the world
But you're stuck at work

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
If you could go anywhere, would you wanna stay here?
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
If you could go anywhere, would you wanna stay-

Aberdeen Dream Sequence (venturing cover)

I craved for some more love
And now I feel unsafe
I'm lying at your door
I'll wait 'til you say my name

And now I feel unsafe (Feel unsafe)
I'm at your door

The way I imagined

life has been feeling rather dystopic lately. is it the end? something tells me it might be. but thats highly unlikely. its funny to think about it though since everything seems to be so messed up, even myself

The (temporary) end of the world

instrumental & vocals by me
original song by Gustavo Cerati
🤍

Nunca fue fácil
Pero creo en tus ojos
Es tan frágil depender de todo

Y cómo explicarte
Desde el encierro
Cuánto miedo da salir
A ese mar de dudas

Ya no hay más qué hacer
Sos tu propia ayuda
Ahora andá y viví
Yo siempre amé tu locura

Ya no hay más qué hacer
Sos tu propia ayuda
Ahora andá y viví
Que siempre amé tu locura

Tu Locura (Gustavo Cerati cover)

track 1:
when something begins, it should end at some point in time. nevertheless, it should never be forgotten

support on bandcamp <3

Allusion

track 2:
a place of convoluted emotions and lingering memories. it's a nice place, appreciate it. stay for too long, and you'll get lost.

Emotion Wonderland

made it in a couple of hours last night, happy birthday to me

Fix my time
Teach me how to close my eyes
I'd be so grateful
If i could run back to the past

Oh, I'm so sorry
If all I do is make my peers
wish I was dead

I promise I try my best

Promise I will learn to love again
Cause I've had enough of hating myself
I will let it be
And then I will accept my fate

Promise I know what it feels like
Cause I've had enough of hating myself
I will let it be
And then I will accept my fate

Fix my time
Teach me how to close my eyes

Promise I

track 3:
i don't fear loneliness. in fact, i know her very well. but i don't want her to be my friend.

lyrics:

And I'm scared, as I grow old
I'll do it by my own
I just don't want to be
alone anymore

I just don't want to be
alone anymore

Would you bother to?

Hesitancy

track 5:
every end is just another beginning. change should be always welcome.

lyrics:

Night is early and I should be home
I could go for some peace but I'm not sure

A misleading path
Painted in black
So I try to stay back
Turn around and see all my friends calling back

I know they're not real
I go my way and stay calm
Then stop and sit on the grass

Uh-oh

So many strangers, invading my mind
Looking for someone but I hide in plain sight

These people my age
Can't relate to them
I’m a bird in a cage
My purpose derailed

Get back up and fly free
Believe its delusion
And all that you see
Is just an illusion

Illusion / Aether

https://soundcloud.com/astilbe2

i left my mind about a year ago
it feels different to be in my own clothes
i froze the time i promised something to you
and its true
i ruined it all

so i hit the brakes
i couldn't stand the ache
just dont complain
it won’t suit you well

And the stars will break
and forget my name
why would you complain?

put words in my mouth like nothing's wrong
the weekend's passed and i don’t know where you are
before i know everything will be gone
we'll be gone

so i hit the brakes
i couldn't stand the ache
just dont complain
it won’t suit you well

And the stars will break
and forget my name
no need to complain

Stars will break
Don't complain
We'll be gone

ADVANCED BRAKE SYSTEM

https://soundcloud.com/astilbe2

Disguise your feelings with a taste of dread
And end up playing dead

You took control of his body and feelings
Pulled the strings and left him, bled

Said you scammed my dog, cash in hand
Sometime you will understand

And your apologies are past due this time
Does it hurt in your head?

Well, fuck you

You can't stay around
Oh they'll look at you in the eye
Those lies will soon or later get you drowned

Then try to stay around
Oh they'll look at you in the eye
Those lies will soon or later get you drowned

LOOK AT YOU

As heard during BUELFEST 2025 DAY 5, 05/11/2025

Live guitar & vocals by me

Sorry for the occasional out-of-tune singing. Singing while playing guitar and in front of a camera was something completely new for me. Thank you all for the support during the steam, it meant the world for me. <3

Setlist (* = unreleased):
- Untitled demo *
- Vulture City (venturing cover) *
- Promise I
- Illusion
- Fur *
- The Kickoff
- The way I imagined
- The (temporary) end of the world

Live at BUELFEST 2025

songwriter, guitarist, singer, producer
rock, pop & sometimes edm
she/her
@earlynetkids

contact: katheriinamusic@gmail.com

i believe coffee and music are the best things in this world.

Katheriina

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