From the 20-track album "Short and Familiar Music Groups"
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu
Illustration : MAMAKARI AKARI
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The Melody of Recollection / 回想の旋律

From the 2-track single "Not pure, not right, not beautiful"
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu
Illustration : humming__
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I was cursing a pure, right and beautiful man
Coz I can't reach the man, too dazzling, and its existence is painful
I don't want to admit that I have mental illness

Feeling like vomiting, feeling like going crazy
If I imagined going to stab someone
I don’t know if I lost myself or real intention
I want to run away into a dream

I longed a clean, right and beautiful person

Dive into the bed

Feeling like vomiting, feeling like going crazy.　
If I imagined jumping off the roof
I didn't know if I lost myself or real intention

I want to get along with everyone as much as possible
And do my best every day
It’s like a child's composition
I'm coming back to myself all of a sudden
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清く正しく美しい人を呪っていたよ
届かなくて眩しすぎて　存在が苦痛だ
認めたくないな　自分が心の病気だなんて

吐きそうで　狂いそうで　
誰かを刺しに行く想像をしていたら
気の迷いか本音か　分からなくなってきた
夢の中へ逃げたい

清く正しく美しい人に憧れていたよ

布団に潜って

吐きそうで　狂いそうで　
屋根から飛び降りる想像をしていたら
気の迷いか本音か
　　
出来るだけ　皆んなと仲良くして
毎日をがんばりたい
とかまるで　子供の作文かと
ふと我に返るけど

Not pure, Not right, Not beautiful / 清くない 正しくない 美しくない

From the 3-track single "Nostalgic Elation"
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu
Illustration : 青いワンピース/mar
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Run Through The Pitch Black / 出発は真夜中に

From the 6-track ep "Youthfulness Arrives"
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu,Yudo Yoyo
Illustration : Daiki
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I killed myself and I survived
It’s ok I died again and again
I'll kill myself and I'll survive
It‘s ok I was born again and again

Wounds, regrets, depression, distortions are my shards
If you understand

You kill yourself and you survive too
It’s ok even you die again and again
You kill yourself and I want you to survive
It's okay, you are born again and again

The past, lies, complaints, tears are parts of you
I wonder if I could accepted everything with you

I killed myself and I survived
It’s ok I died again and again
I'll kill myself and I'll survive
It’s ok I was born again and again
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僕を殺して　僕は生き延びたよ
いいじゃん　何回も何回も死んだし
僕を殺して　僕は生き延びてく
いいじゃん　何回も何回も生まれて

傷も悔いも鬱も歪みも　僕の欠片さ
君が分かってくれたらな

君を殺して　君も生き延びれば
いいじゃん　何回も何回も死んでも
君を殺して　君も生き延びてよ
いいじゃん　何回も何回も生まれる

過去も嘘も愚痴も涙も　君の一部だ
僕は受け入れられるかな

僕を殺して　僕は生き延びたよ
いいじゃん　何回も何回も死んだし
僕を殺して　僕は生き延びて行くんだ
いいじゃん　何回も何回も生まれて

Kill Myself / 僕を殺して

From the 3-track single "From the Dune"
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu
Illustration : 中根邦博
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Bittersweetness / ほろ苦さ

From the 2-track single "Ups and Downs"
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu
Illustration : Kurumi_design
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Not a song of a romance but of everyday ups and downs
We deposit frustrating day upon day and we can’t even come back

Everyone is different, everyone is colorful
We mix up and get influenced, it’s not black or white
Someone’s mercy sinks deep into my heart and makes me realize

We never even dream that there will be a farewell one day
But the time passes without difficulty, and without noticing
It creeps on and happens

Not a song of a romance but of everyday ups and downs
Every day, we deposit day upon day, with mistakes we can no longer apologize

Everyone is different, everyone is colorful
We mix up and get influenced, ugly and beautiful
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浮かれた恋の歌でなく　ありふれた悲喜こもごもを
重ね重ね暮らす　もどかしくて戻れない日々を

皆んな皆んな違うから　人は誰も色とりどり
混ざり合っては染まる　白か黒じゃ片付かない

誰かの情けに触れて気付く　沁みわたって　もう

別れがやって来るなんて　夢にさえも思わぬ内
時はあっさり過ぎてゆく

忘れてる間に　もう　忍び寄り　訪れると　
 
浮かれた恋の歌でなく　ありふれた悲喜こもごもを
重ね重ね暮らす　謝れない過ちを抱え

皆んな皆んな違うから　人は誰も色とりどり
混ざり合っては染まる　醜くして美しく

Ups and Downs / 悲喜こもごも

Unreleased song
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu
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Taste it Because the joy that gets the heart excited
sooner or later will fade soon

Repaint it Don't let the inexcusable mean end
with just abominable intent to murder
Try to bring back coloration to the feeling of stagnation

I want to keep moving Shake off the complaints piled up
Like slowly let go of the jealousy I had for a long time
I'll sweat the negation that has been kept saying
Loosen too dull body so as not to get caught up
in the suffocating atmosphere Let's get started
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噛み締めていたい　心弾む喜びは
ほらもうすぐ色褪せてしまうのだからさ

塗り替えてみたい　許し難き意地悪が
ただ忌まわしい殺意だけで終わらぬように

白け切った気持ちに彩りを　呼び戻そうよと

動き続けたい　募る愚痴を振り払い
持て余した嫉妬をゆっくり手放すように

浴びせられてきた否定を　汗とともに流すよ
息の詰まる空気に飲み込まれないように

鈍り切った身体を解きほぐしたら　取り掛かろう

Sweat / 汗

Unreleased song
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu
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彼は生まれつき特殊
理不尽だけど損をしてる
頑張ってみても
浮いて揉めて困られてしまうよ
酷い話さ

気持ち悪い　可哀想だって
馬鹿にされて　見下されて
気持ち悪い　可哀想だってさ

皆んなとずれる違和感
拭い切れない不自由さで
やることなすこと
拒まれて無気力になった
本音ではさ　
元気でいたいのにね

しょうがないとか　ぼやき飽きたら
比べず見直し讃えようよ　人百倍

気持ち悪い　可哀想だって
笑われても　貶されても
気持ち悪い　可哀想だってさ

気狂い呼ばわりの中　築いた感受性で
撥ね除けてよ　ひたすらしぶとく

Disabled Person / 障害者

Unreleased song
Songwriter : Kawabe Ayumu

A Little While Ago / ついさっき

Sparkling in the Light of the Ripples / さざ波燦めく

Minimalist handmade pop by far eastern amateur musician. Ryuichi Sakamoto's personality "Radio Sakamoto" song on-air.  34-track available on streaming services. Member of remote home recording duo "Monochrome hellow". 
さいはてアマチュア音楽家のミニマルハンドメイドポップス。坂本龍一氏パーソナリティー『RADIO SAKAMOTO』楽曲オンエア。北海道×岡山の遠隔宅録デュオ“白黒ハロー”で活動中。
Profile llustration / numata hitomi

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