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With each breath, I feel myself slipping more into you
Like a cosmic expansion or a field kissed by dew
Your name’s a melody that echoes in my mind
A rhythm I chase but can never leave behind

Over and over, you flood my brain with light
Like slow dancing with you in the dead of night
No one else exists when you’re in my head
You're the dream I dream every time I go to bed

And when I close my eyes, your face appears
Brighter than the stars, cutting through my fears
The silence speaks, but your voice breaks through
Every heartbeat whispers, "I need you"

Into you, I fall with no control
You take my body, take my soul
In this moment, nothing's true—
But every pulse says I want you

Into you, I fade, I break, I rise
You’re the thunder in my skies
Every second feels brand new
When I'm lost... lost into you

Holding you close 'til we both drift away
In dreams where time has no more say
Smiling at you makes my world ignite
You’re the fire in the dark, my only light

That’s where my mind goes when I’m alone
Building futures from feelings we've barely shown
Could we be something, could this be real?
Every thought of you is something I feel

And when I close my eyes, your face appears
Brighter than the stars, cutting through my fears
The silence speaks, but your voice breaks through
Every heartbeat whispers, "I need you"

Into you, I fall with no control
You take my body, take my soul
In this moment, nothing's true—
But every pulse says I want you

Into you, I fade, I break, I rise
You’re the thunder in my skies
Every second feels brand new
When I'm lost... lost into you

Lost Into You

For that one person mostly --

Just like the soil held that marigold tight
I wish I'd found you in a softer light
When your heart was whole and the world stood still
Not scattered and lost like leaves on a hill

But the clock won’t rewind
And your heart’s not mine

I can never hold you
No matter how I try
We’re marigolds in the wind
Waving goodbye
Your touch is a ghost
Your love’s out of reach
A tide pulling back from an empty beach

You carry a past like a pocket of stones
A weight I can’t lift
It’s yours alone
I dreamed we’d bloom where the wildflowers grow
But roots don’t take where the frost still shows

I can never hold you
No matter how I try
We’re marigolds in the wind
Waving goodbye
Your touch is a ghost
Your love’s out of reach
A tide pulling back from an empty beach

Oh
If I’d met you before the storm
Before your heart was weathered and worn
But the winds have spoken
The petals fall
I can’t rewrite the story at all

Marigolds in the Wind

Why does forbidden love burn so bright?
Is it the lust, or the lost right?
You pull me in like a tide, like fate
But I can't stay — it's far too late
You're the spark I can’t let go
The echo in my undertow
Crashing hearts in silent sound
But still, I’m spinning round and round

When someone strikes your soul that deep
What do you do when you can’t keep?
Like roots that grow inside your chest
Hope blooms, even when repressed
A flower in the dark, unseen
Fed by what could never be
But patience stands against the flame
Even when it's all just pain

Still I wonder, still I fall
Captivated by it all
Even if it ends in scars
I chase the shadow where you are

"Maybe never...
Isn't as far away... as forever" 
Love that’s held back, still won't sever
Hearts collide like crashing weather
"Maybe never...
Isn't as far away... as forever" 
You’re the storm I won’t forget
A fire I can't regret

 “Never... Forever...”
 “Never isn’t forever”

Never Isn’t Forever

Your words cut deeper, the farther they seep,
Too much to bear, too much to weep.
Like a blade, no blood can be found this deep,
Too much effort spent, feels wasted.
Washed away, like the love we tasted,
All I feel now is numb, numbing pain,
Plastered and painted, all over my brain.

Memories spiral, no chance for solace,
My heart’s bleeding, my mind’s lawless.
But I know you’ll remember,
Everything we’ve done, from January to December.

Like a stranger in my own home, I’m scared,
Each piece of me, with you, it’s paired.
I can’t breathe without a thought back to you,
A distant glimpse of what more we could do.
I’ll never forget, everything we’ve done,
I cherish it all, like trips in the sun.
When we were still one,
But now, I watch from afar, just not as lovers.

I find peace, knowing you will remember,
Everything we’ve done, from January to December.
But I'm broken now, in this quiet cold,
Pieces of us scattered, no longer whole.

Like a phantom touch, I still feel you near,
But I’m lost in this silence, I disappear.
My heart aches for what we could never be,
But I’ll carry these memories eternally.

Memories spiral, no chance for solace,
My heart’s bleeding, my mind’s lawless.
But I know you’ll remember,
Everything we’ve done, from January to December.

Like a stranger in my own home, I’m scared,
Each piece of me, with you, it’s paired.
I can’t breathe without a thought back to you,
A distant glimpse of what more we could do.
I’ll never forget, everything we’ve done,
I cherish it all, like trips in the sun.
When we were still one,
But now, I watch from afar, just not as lovers.

I’ll never forget, everything we’ve done,
I cherish it all, like trips in the sun.
I’ll never forget, everything we’ve done,
I cherish it all, like trips in the sun.
But now, I watch from afar, just not as lovers...
Only memories..

Just Not As Lovers

How am I supposed to let go of a love I was never meant to feel?
A seed that can’t sprout, no roots, no leaves, it’s surreal.
I’m trying, or so I keep telling myself,
Separating my heart from my mind,  don't know what's real.
Spirals in my head, a race that never stops,
Crescendos, crashes, then falls,  right from the top.
Like a fog bathes a dim light, it hangs in the air,
Lingering, soaking, like I’m still there.

Everything I see, reminds me of different times,
When there was no fog, no falls, just simple lines.
I was happy, I was free, I was right.
Now it’s all just a blur in the night.

How do I fade into memories that slip away?
How do I let go when I’m drowning in the gray?
I try, but I can’t, the feeling never dies,
It just hides in the back of my mind, waiting to rise.
I’ll let it fade, but it won’t let go,
Haunted by a love I’ll never really know.
I’ll let it fade but it never feels far,
It’s embedded deep inside me, like a scar.

I’m staring back, thinking of simpler days,
When my soul felt calm, no chaos, no maze.
It’s like I want to bottle that peace in a jar,
Inject it in my heart, but I’m too far.
It had an end, something I couldn’t predict,
A twist, a turn, a time that I missed.
Now I’m left in this fog, floating through space,
Chasing the memory, but it’s just out of place.

Everything I see, reminds me of different times,
When there was no fog, no falls, just simple lines.
I was happy, I was free, I was right.
Now it’s all just a blur in the night.

Into the memory.
Let it fade, let it fade,
How do I fade into memories that slip away?
How do I let go when I’m drowning in the gray?
I try, but I can’t, the feeling never dies,
It just hides in the back of my mind, waiting to rise.
I’ll let it fade, but it won’t let go,
Haunted by a love I’ll never really know.
I’ll let it fade, but it never feels far,
It’s embedded deep inside me, like a scar.

Into the memory.
Let it fade, let it fade

Let It Fade (Like a Scar)


 If you could feel every time I thought of you
 You would probably think I was crazy too
 Like a ghost you follow me as a shadow
 However unto me you are welcome to follow

Your voice sings softly as the one in my head
 Hanging heavily on every word that is said
 Laughter, bubbling with your personality
 Sends me seeking with some form of carnality

 Staring deeply into the iris of adoration
 Causing my heart to burst with palpitation
 Every moment I beg for just one more
 Like waiting for a wave crashing on a shore

Oh, how I wish you could never be afar
 But here I will stay stationed like an eternal star
 I will be patient in this quixotic pursuit
 Despite my infatuation being beyond absolute

Your voice sings softly as the one in my head
 Hanging heavily on every word that is said
 Laughter, bubbling with your personality
 Sends me seeking with some form of carnality

Staring deeply into the iris of adoration
 Causing my heart to burst with palpitation
 Every moment I beg for just one more
 Like waiting for a wave crashing on a shore


 My feelings vehement, unwavering and stout
 Only gaining strength severely without doubt
 I would give anything for just any one chance
 To smile with you, laughing while we dance

Your voice sings softly as the one in my head
 Hanging heavily on every word that is said
 Laughter, bubbling with your personality
 Sends me seeking with some form of carnality


 To hold you anytime that you feel distress
 And be there with you upon any success
 But by your side I will long-fully reside
 Trying to keep these inundating feelings inside


 Out of all the things I want to say or do
 Really all I can say at this point is: I love you.

Carnality

[Intro]
 I guess I’ll never know what it’s like being yours
 To hold you freely and gently while life endures
[Verse]
 Instead I leapt feet first into the abyss
 Sinking slowly into an unknown feeling remiss
 Like traversing a dark pool I can’t see the base
 But then I remember I can swim in this place
[Chorus]
 With feelings of dread I still must preserve
 Falling forward instead or so it would appear
 With feelings of dread I still must preserve
 Falling forward instead or so it would appear
[Verse]
 To know one’s self is to let go of what’s unattainable
 And grow unto yourself to become more sustainable
 Staring into the abyss means it may stare back at you
 But otherwise you stay stagnant like a mountain bathed in dew
[Chorus]
 With feelings of dread I still must preserve
 Falling forward instead or so it would appear
 With feelings of dread I still must preserve
 Falling forward instead or so it would appear
[Bridge]
 Our love could never grow because it wasn’t free
 And so we separate from everything we could be
 Not because it is what we want or feel
 It did not start from a place that was real
 Maybe one day our luck and time can change
 But for now I must go and our touch must estrange
[Outro]
 My heart hurts deeply like it’s weeping from a song
 Where it’s written all in pain in a night everlong
 It drops and twists like a rock in a riverbed
 Wishing there was more I could do or have said
 I hope you find solace from the laughter we shared
 And joy from how deeply for you that I cared
 I hope that you know that this isn’t easy to do
 And that I truly and deeply will longingly miss you.


Falling Forward Instead

Long time listener, new creator. Hope you enjoy.