it's not a religious song, it kinda sounds like it tho

Lyrics::

Lying here almost midnight
Waiting for my dreams to
Hit me at the right time
Thinking of you

Float away thru these colors
Use me when you feel like
You need another

So I'll be here
When you need me
I'll be close
So you'll never look back
Keep me near
I would hold you close forever

You're the only one I need in my life
You're the only reason left that I like
This must be what it feels like to be right
You make me feel like I could be fine

Layin' here feelin no good
Sippin on my coffee
Think I need a break from everything
Lately I've been tired
Won't you stay
For just a little while

Cuz I'll be here
When you need me
I'll be close
So you'll never look back
Keep me near
I would hold you close forever

You're the only one I need in my life
You're the only reason left that I like
This must be what it feels like to be right
You make me feel like I could be fine

You're the only one I need in my life
You're the only reason left that I like
This must be what it feels like to be right
You make me feel like I could be fine

you're the only one

Lyrics:
Sorry I was caught up in the moment
I was just depressed and somehow didn't notice
Maybe it was just another day I couldn't function
See you when I wake up
I don't wanna deal with this

How do you do it
How do you care
So many options
But no way there
I just wanna feel motivated in my head
Livin in my dreams, ya
Nothing in between
Tell me that you see me
Cuz I stopped believing
Why did all the time go wasted on me
I just wanna be medicated from my head
Tell me what to do now
Now

So what's the next step
Is it a secret
Shh
I'm breaking apart
But you're not gonna see it
And I promise I'm not beggin for attention
Honest, I just needed you to listen
Break up cuz I can't make a decision
Fucked up and I don't want it

I don't wanna lie
I'm not gonna mean it
Look me in the eyes
Maybe don't say it
I'm a disappointment
I'm a late notice
Feel like a waste cuz I can't keep
Focus
Baby don't go
Baby don't leave
I don't feel less when I hear you callin
Is it too late
For a comet
I just wanna wish
I just wanna

Tell me how do you do it
How do you care
So many options
But no way there
I just wanna feel motivated in my head
Livin in my dreams, ya
Nothing in between
Tell me that you see me
Cuz I stopped believing
Why did all the time go wasted on me
I just wanna be medicated from my head
Tell me what to do now
Now
How do you do it
How do you care
So many options
But no way there
I just wanna feel motivated in my head
Livin in my dreams, ya
Nothing in between
Tell me that you see me
Cuz I stopped believing
Why did all the time go wasted on me
I just wanna be medicated from my head
Tell me what to do now
Now

caught up

gotta deal

Lyrics:
I told myself that it'd be easy
Without you I could hear the voices in my head
I'm falling into pieces
Man, I don't even want to keep myself fed

So maybe it's time that I get myself out
I'm keeping this empty for someone to care about
Fill me stories of pain and regret
I'm feeling this sorrow so I won't forget it

I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna play pretend
I don't wanna get the phone
Without you on the other end
I don't wanna persuaded
That I could move on from this
I don't wanna get a mention
From someone I'm supposed to miss

Is it you, is it me
Did we fall apart naturally
Got me confused
'Cause I thought we had another week
Of saying goodbye
Calling your name
You want your life
Well, I want the same

I keep on doing what I used to do
I set my table like it's meant for two
Me and you
I'll sip on anything to take me out of this
The only one I want is fading out my lips

Well I'll been running around
Trying to look out for something
While I figure this out
While I figure this out
How do I make a sound
When I'm stuck under cover
Gotta turn it all down
Turn it all down

I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna play pretend
I don't wanna get the phone
Without you on the other end
I don't wanna persuaded
That I could move on from this
I don't wanna get a mention
From someone I'm supposed to miss

Is it you, is it me
Did we fall apart naturally
Got me confused
'Cause I thought we had another week
Of saying goodbye
Calling your name
You want your life
Well, I want the same

Spotify

someone i'm supposed to miss

all of my dreams

for the times that you know you can do it, but just not today.

sigh

Track #1: 

i don't want her to go.

[lyrics]
you took the one i love
you took the one i love
you took the one i love so bring their body home
you took the one i love so bring their body home

~

you took the one i love so bring their body home
you took the one i love so bring their body home
you took the one i love so bring their body home
you took the one i love so bring their body home

I want to sit here, waiting for the stars to fall
and if i wait here, maybe one day you'd answer my call

i don't want her to go

Buy me on bandcamp

on top of my car

I had the incredible pleasure of working with @youknowlimbo. I came to know her as a fan and then as a friend these past couple month. This track meant a lot to me when I was writing it and it came to mean a lot more as I produced it, met people, and obtained new perspectives. Thanks for the ongoing support, I can't say that enough :).

Track #2: 

the last time i saw her.

[art] by Ilse Tse
email for inquiries: ilsetse@gmail.com

[lyrics]
Last night
you cried
i didn't know what to do
seems like
you tried
now im trying too
understand
how you are
soon we'll be
far apart
do i tear
myself
in two

tell me how to live
tell me how to stay
tell me how to hold back all of me
tell me where you go
will you be ok
tell me that you're coming back
tell me how to live

my breath is getting short
i don't know anymore
who i am
you told me i was wrong
i knew it all along
i want to be the one i hope i can
cuz baby its so hard to breathe
and all i ever want to be
is something that you see as free
and one day show the light in me
and all i want to know
is where to go
when things get slow
and when i'm alone
you're the one i want the most

how to live ft. limbo

This is the last and final track off the keepitinside EP. This has been one incredible journey, working with people I had never thought I would be working with as well as seeing my own growth as a producer. I hope you enjoy this conclusion to the EP narrative and wish you all the best. 

This track would have not been possible without my good friend @onistus he is a wonderful producer with an ear of an animal with good hearing.

until next time :)

[art] by Ilse Tse
email for inquiries: ilsetse@gmail.com

[lyrics]
said I'd get up today
said I'd do things the right way
now it's all just a game

and if I reach for the stars
do I reach for my heart
I don't understand where I am

I'll be here wonderin' wishin' what I've done
I've got nothing else to do
no one else help me through
all of my hopes and dreams and inbetweens
are left to rust
I just want to stay inside
shut the door and leave me
to die

fold me into you
I know
we'll hold me in pieces
I hope
it's hard just to think
that I'll break
give me a reason to wake
to wake

buy me on Bandcamp

get up ft. onistus

Art cover: twitter.com/kiwismoothie497
Sample: https://youtu.be/HpOJlHHxkG0

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6AP7hjESvJlXKWruEWpekc

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
I'll be with you in heart
From now on I'll never be a world apart

little christmas

Art cover: twitter.com/kiwismoothie497

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
where the treetops glisten
and children listen to hear the sleighbells in the snow

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
with every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
and may all your Christmas's be white.

dreaming

If you ever feel alone or you feel like you need someone, I'll be here.

[art] by Ilse Tse
email for inquiries: ilsetse@gmail.com

[lyrics]
I'll be here
waiting on those tears
hoping that they'll fall
onto me
swim in your hair
I'm gasping for air
and if I drown
you're with me
you're with me

I'll be here
facing all my fears
knowing that you've gone
from me
take me where
we used to stay up till three at night
wondering if we would be alright
talking as if we would try
talking as if we would try

with me

I wish everyday that I could give you something that you see as valuable and cherish it. But some days I feel like I have nothing.

[lyrics]
I've got nothing to give
nothing to share
I'm sorry
nothing's here

Visuals

nothing

EP coming out in JULY. thanks for listening and waiting on me. it means a lot that you still listen when I haven't done anything in a hot minute. I promise what's coming is something I'm proud of.

originals
https://soundcloud.com/noeldac/flying
https://soundcloud.com/keepitinside/on-top-of-my-car

I just want to release this. I had this ever since the vox box came out.

I really like how these two songs complement each other. I'm sitting on my car looking up while limbo is flying over the clouds

flying on top of my car ft. limbo

Watch the Music Video here!
https://youtu.be/UTU6DPUW-_8

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have a special EP coming out for you in the next month! It has some amazing features with beautiful and talented musicians.

Also! Let me know in the comments what you would like me to cover :3

stay (cover)

someplace far

~Thank You To~
lead guitar: @neanderthalofficial (amazing musician! He's the one that told me to make it into an actual song)
mixing: @ibr (a phenomenal individual who took the time to make sure everything was just right.)
art: www.instagram.com/joielse/

~On the EP~
Wow this EP took a long time to collect and put together. I started around January, after I finished making the keepitchristmas collection. I've had demos that didn't develop until months later so I thank you very much for stopping by and giving me a bit of your valuable time.

I started this EP with the intent of stepping away a bit from keepitinside and exploring my own identity as Adam Kim, but it ended up evolving into an appreciation and reflection of my past experiences. I hope to not dwell in them, but use them to grow and develop as a human bean.

~On the Song~
I always envision that scene in Sound of Music where Fräulein Maria goes out to an open hillside to sing. She is so alone, but at the same time, so full of life and wonder. 

~Lyrics~

~Chords~
D to Bm
and then G to A
and then finally D Bm G A

someplace far

memories

memories ft. Neanderthal

someplace far

~Thank You To~
art: https://www.instagram.com/joielse/

~Lyrics~
And the worst thing you said was goodbye
into my eyes
And you said that you'd leave me to die
you could've lied

now that you're gone
it could be better
now that you're gone
I could be better

And don't tell me to be strong
'cause I'm not
no I'm not
And I don't have an answer right now
don't think I'll ever
but I don't need an answer right now
I just need

the worst thing

someplace far
Chords: Cmaj7, Am7, Dm7, G

~Thank You To~
harmony vocals: @iamlanie
lending me his bass guitar: Simon
art: www.instagram.com/joielse/

~On The Song~
I didn't want you to know the worst things about me. I'm not perfect, I'm not always happy, and I'm not secure with myself. But whenever I dance with you I'm not afraid. Whenever I lie with you to talk, I'm not afraid. 

~Lyrics~
With those eyes
You could stop my hearts
Paralyze 
Aall my moving parts
But behind
All this masquerade
You will find a boy 
Who's just being afraid
Of loving you
Of loving you

So dance with me
Sway with me
Stay with me
Lay with me
Lead the way
Set the pace
I'll forget I'm afraid
I'll forget I'm afraid

With those lips
You could waltz away
Every inch of me
That's been left in pain
If our live 
Were to intertwine
Then I'd tell you up front
That I'm just a scar in disguise
I hope I would be toe to toe

So dance with me (I don't mind)
Sway with me (Side to side)
Stay with me (Take your time)
Lay with me (Take all of mine)
Lead the way (I don't mind)
Set the pace (Side to side)
I'll forget I'm afraid (Take your time)
I'll forget I'm afraid (Take all of mine)

Sway (Feat. Lanie)

sway ft. lanie

someplace far 

~Thank You To~
verse: @noeldac
art: www.instagram.com/joielse/
chorus vocals: @neanderthalofficial, @kastrosplace, @kvazi, Connor, Keir, Tammy, and Stephen

~On The Song~
As a whole, the song is about focusing on growing as a person and knowing that mistakes are a part of learning. I just don't want to regret things because I was too scared to do them. Life is too short.

~Lyrics~
Guess I could use a beginning
I've been messing up it's all still there
Maybe I could change the meaning
Look you in the eye and beg you for your
Sweetness, your tender lips
Fuck it, I'm going in
Wish that I was always like this
Just a boy to grow up with

Grow up, just grow up, grow up
Just a boy to grow up with

I've been in this bed
Nothing's making sense
Drunk on medicine for months now
I could use a pain
Just to feel again
Throw my heart away and tell me that I'm something
I've always been
Fuck it, I'm going in
Just a boy to grow up with

Grow up, just grow up, grow up
Just a boy to grow up with 

[RYCE]
Regretting all the times I kissed you
Acting like I'm fine, but I miss you
Got me looking for my sanity 
You're face it gave me clarity
Debating who I am 'cuz I'm a
Small boy big dreams
Only 16 tryna get the bag now
Moving slowly through the seems
Will I come out clean life is looking bad now
I've been thinking that I could be somethin' 
If I keep on growing if I'm hitting grind
Put my troubles to the side
Knowing it gets better with some time 'cuz I'll

Grow up, just grow up, grow up

Grow Up (feat. RYCE)

grow up ft. RYCE

someplace far

~Thank You To~
verse: @zamirraps
co-production, mastering: @kastrosplace
art: www.instagram.com/joielse/

~On The Song~
I got no sleep. 

~Lyrics~
It's been a long, long day
Baby, are you something to me?
Cuz I can't sleep
You shouldn't go
You shouldn't go

No sleep
I've been waiting on you
Every night I've been wishing
Getting myself through
Holding onto something
My pillows are breaking
I don't want to sleep
No I don't want
No sleep
I've been waiting on you
Every night I've been wishing
Getting myself through
Holding onto something
Our pillows are breaking
I don't want to sleep
No I don't want

[zamir]
I'm losing slumber
Yes I've become an insomniac
I've been calling your number
I understand you won't call me back
But this thunderous silence
This violent storm in my brain
That forms at even the thought of you
Drives me slowly insane
I've been waiting for so long
For you to return
So now how will i ever move on
How will i learn
With all these memories so strong
Stupidly yearning
That's why I wrote you this whole song
Wish you could've heard it, I

I, I really miss you
I really miss the way that life with you was really simple
I really wish the day had never come when you had left
Now I'm staring at my ceiling as I ponder and reflect
Burying my feelings trying to conquer my regrets
But it's useless
All the words that I had never said
I was stupid
And now I'm spending every single night sleepless
Holding onto any hope or thought of your return

[keepitinside]
Something tells me I'm doing this wrong
Everyday another memory, a verse in a song
Hope to god they don't see me cry
Cuz I've been keeping it together since she came to life
Now I'm holding onto something that I can't control
A walk in the partially unfunctional
Think about a place I can't believe
Cuz everything is better in a fucking dream I

Think I'll stay awake right now
Counting every hole in my life, somehow
Fill it all up with S-A-D
You aren't the only thing that's missing in me
I'll find my heel
Spin the wheel
Spend time feeling
Guess that I'm not sleeping

No Sleep (Feat. Zamir & Ka$tro)

no sleep ft. zamir, KA$TRO

thank you everyone for waiting. here's a song I worked with @ilwesto

Lyrics:

Don't let it get to ya
Just keep it in
This will all just be a yesterday's sin

Don't let it drop
Just smile
It'll be a while son (It'll be)
They get by because they don't know love (They don't know love)

Don't show your face
Just breathe
I just got to leave yes

I can tell you're leaving me
Bleeding, please
Heal this broken family

I hide, I hide, I hide my hopeless fantasy

[il Westo]
Take it as it is
You never knew me as a kid
Hate you're always pissed
I always hid
But you would always hit
What's love when it's abuse
It's hate without a clue
Dear dad it's just a grade
Please just put that sharpened knife away

I know I'm not good enough
So please just don't make it tough
4.0 GPA oh can you see these cuts on me
Wounds that bleed
Feeding off my fantasy

fanlink

no mornings ft. il Westo

thinking about you

one day we can stop droning and start doing what we are meant to do.

[lyrics]
I got nightmares that are better than
Everything that's going on
Turning off my 4 alarms
Checking every single one
Instagram is blowing up
Realize black mirror was
Deflecting all my images
I know I can change

I'm addicted to this fantasy
Of living in a battery
Away from possibilities
Just take it I don't want to be

Caffeine and dopamine they
Get me through the fuckin' day
It gets me week to week
How the hell am I supposed to care about you?

They tell me
Follow everything you love
It'll work itself out
Take on every challenge
Don't you let it bring you down
What am I supposed to do?
Moving out the backroom
I don't see the gain
I'm just taking up the volume

Am I tricked into this fantasy
The wasted opportunities
Away from integrity
Just take it I don't want to be

Caffeine and dopamine they
Get me through the fuckin' day
It gets me week to week
How the hell am i supposed to care about you?
Caffeine and dopamine they
Get me through the fuckin' day
It gets me week to week
How the hell am i supposed to care about you?

Caffeine and Dopamine

MUSIC VIDEO OUT NOW

caffeine and dopamine

[Chorus]
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I gave it to someone special

[Verse]
Pull me close I've been feeling kind of distant
They don't know how we just do it different
Whiter than the snow I would show you my heart
If I gave you mine, would you tear it apart

Last couple months have been a little tricky
Every single step, every day reminiscing
No one said to go, no one said to care
You left me all alone last year

[Chorus]
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I gave it to someone special
(x2)

[Verse]
I need hope standing
On my feet you're just tempting
All of my efforts not to dive in
30 more seconds and I'm caving in

For you I'd dip my heart in acid
I'm fascinated by this I'm trying
Hard to get myself to forget all of 

[Chorus]
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I gave it to someone special
(x2)

[Outro]
Pull me close I've been feeling kind of distant
They don't know how we just do it different
Whiter than the snow I would show you my heart
If I gave you mine, would you tear it apart

Last couple months have been a little tricky
Every single step, every day reminiscing
No one said to go, no one said to care
You left me all alone last year

i gave you my heart

Music Video

Please be safe during this crazy pandemic. Social distance. <3

I made this song back in January, but this line up is crazy. I wrote this about when I was hospitalized almost 5 years ago. I didn't know whether I'd ever leave, but it helped me learn about myself and take things less seriously.

Lyrics:
And I won't lie, won't lie
I spend all my late nights
Tryna get this head right
I'm not distant, I just need time

Hoping you'd take me to Nurse Joy
Play with me like you do all your toys
Look at my direction I can't avoid
The line's getting closer

Leave me by my bedside
I can't even move my legs right
I get zoned out looking at the twilight shift
Six more bags, get me outta this rig

This feels like a movie, 21, what's going on
Just tell me how much longer does it last
I'm getting past this, find another man, shit
We need better casting, yuh

Hoping you'd take me to Nurse Joy
Play with me like you do all your toys
Look at my direction I can't avoid
The line's getting closer
Hit me up, take me out, I'm a wreck
Tell me all the things that make you sick
Mess it up, talk it out, be upset
I'm tired, get closer

I've been spending all this time
Just waiting for the perfect lines
To tell me what I want to do, pull through
Do I want to be the greatest?
I choose you!

You make me feel like a dream
Soaring through this, Butterfree
Take me out this hell I've been in
Fucked up, but you're next to me

Hoping you'd take me to Nurse Joy
Play with me like you do all your toys
Look at my direction I can't avoid
The line's getting closer
Hit me up, take me out, I'm a wreck
Tell me all the things that make you sick
Mess it up, talk it out, be upset
I'm tired, get closer

And I won't lie, won't lie
I spend all my late nights
Tryna get this head right
I'm not distant, I just need time
And I know it don't work
But I know what doesn't hurt
Just call me lazy, I'm not ready
I don't deserve

Hoping you'd take me to Nurse Joy
Play with me like you do all your toys
Look at my direction I can't avoid
The line's getting closer
Hit me up, take me out, I'm a wreck
Tell me all the things that make you sick
Mess it up, talk it out, be upset
I'm tired, get closer

NURSE JOY

nightmares > reality

~ Aleebi ~
Spotify: https://spoti.fi/2zxVqVa
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/aleebi
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/aleebi
Twitter: http://twitter.com/Aleebi


[Lyrics]

I got nightmares that are better than
Everything that's going on
Turning off my 4 alarms
Checking every single one
Instagram is blowing up
Realize black mirror was
Deflecting all my images
I know I can change

I'm addicted to this fantasy
Of living in a battery 
Away from possibilities
Just take it I don't want to be

Caffeine and dopamine they
Get me through the fuckin' day
It gets me week to week
How the hell am I supposed to care about you?

They tell me 
Follow everything you love
It'll work itself out
Take on every challenge
Don't you let it bring you down
What am I supposed to do?
Moving out the backroom
I don't see the gain
I'm just taking up the volume

Am I tricked into this fantasy
The wasted opportunities
Away from integrity
Just take it I don't want to be

I'm addicted to this fantasy
Am I chasing dreams or my reality
Got me drinking thinking about things I do
Never could've made it without you 
I need you by my side and that's the truth

Every morning I wake doing the same shit, same things, same songs, same love it's not enough
Same friends, same views, same face, same drugs I'm losing touch 
I know I cant feel the pain, so why am I running away
Got me wasted, sipping gravity pulling me back anyway

Caffeine and dopamine they
Get me through the fuckin' day
It gets me week to week
How the hell am I supposed to care about you?
Caffeine and dopamine they
Get me through the fuckin' day
It gets me week to week
How the hell am I supposed to care about you?

Am I tricked into this fantasy
The wasted opportunities
Away from integrity
Away from integrity

caffeine and dopamine, pt. 2

Listen

caffeine and dopamine pt. 2 (with Aleebi)

I'm like your peanut butter jelly, no crust.

Thank you to @itsemmusic!

Follow Updates>>
twitter - twitter.com/keepitinside2
instagram - instagram.com/officialkeepitinside
website - keepitinside.com

[Lyrics]

I could say that she's good
But I don't think she tries
I could say that she wants me
Isn't that nice
It's been holding me back
The old, "it's just the past"
I could say that she's been true
It wouldn't be right

She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me

You keep on saying you're the best thing for us
I'm like your peanut butter jelly, no crust
I've been feeling kind of heavy
My chest is your file
It's not easy just to leave
A manipulating tease
I've been sobered by your treason

Stop finding reasons to get caught up in the mess
Your time was better spent without the added stress
I mean you're clapping for her crazy
(You're clapping, boy you're clapping)
Wish I could tell what's going on inside your head
Cuz you're intoxicated hanging by a thread
I know what's better for you baby

She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me

She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me

She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me
She lies, she lies
She lies to me

She Lies (feat. Em Beihold)

@kastrosplace
Production: KA$TRO & keepitinside
Vocals/Lyrics: keepitinside
Vocal Mixing: keepitinside
Mixing/Mastering: KA$TRO

Lyrics:

I’ve been feeling like a zombie
No one’s gonna want me
Stepping on the gas
Like I’m leaving
Art piece
Shouldn’t it come easy
Where did I go wrong
Shouldn’t it be something
I knew all along

I don’t know
What to do
Everyday’s
A fucking loop
Nothing good
Nothing new
On this life
Or on my view

Just give me
Just a little bit
Just give me
Just a little bit
Just give me
Just a little bit
Just something
To get on with it

I’ve been feeling like a zombie
No one’s gonna want me
Stepping on the gas
Like I’m leaving
Art piece
Shouldn’t it come easy
Where did I go wrong
Shouldn’t it be something
I knew all along

I don’t know
I don’t have the
Answers so 
Someone tell 
Don’t leave me cold
Little bit of something
Give me hope
Give me hope

Just give me
Just a little bit
Just give me
Just a little bit
Just give me
Just a little bit
Just something
To get on with it

I’ve been feeling like a zombie
No one’s gonna want me
Stepping on the gas
Like I’m leaving
Art piece
Shouldn’t it come easy
Where did I go wrong
Shouldn’t it be something
I knew all along

I’ve been feeling like a zombie
No one’s gonna want me
Stepping on the gas
Like I’m leaving
Art piece
Shouldn’t it come easy
Where did I go wrong
Shouldn’t it be something
I knew all along

Well, I knew all along
I knew all along
I knew all along
I knew all along

zombie.

zombie. (w/ KA$TRO)

a song with @demxntia

[verse 1]
Another day
I messed it up
I’ll try it again
But Is it enough

You’re kidding yourself, now
You don’t even know how
Dreaming up angels 
Not even a payout

Calling for help
But they’re blocking your cell
He’s just talking you out of it
Pulling you back in this
Making a scene
So they know what you mean
I’m so scared that you’ll pull me back

[Chorus]
It isn’t so easy, easy
Why don’t you leave me, breathing
Cover me in ashes and branches
I don’t want to grow if I’m planted

It isn’t so easy, easy
My brain is trying hard to defeat me
Nothing but demons
Nothing to believe in

[demxntia]
and it's hard to get out 
this maze of self doubt 
i've been running around in circles 
and i'd like to forget 
all these thoughts in my head a
i'm sick of always holding on 

but every time i try to stop this feeling 
it gets so much worse 
and i feel so guilty that i'm blessed with a curse 
nicotine and liquor helps me numb the hurt 
wasted every night i wonder if it's worth it anymore

[Chorus]
It isn’t so easy, easy
Why don’t you leave me, breathing
Cover me in ashes and branches
I don’t want to grow if I’m planted

It isn’t so easy, easy
My brain is trying hard to defeat me
Nothing but demons
Nothing to believe in

[Bridge]
I’ll lay it on the table
Tell me why am I so
Hesitant
(Out of wishes, gonna miss this)

I’ll fix it, just give me time
I want it, so why am I so
Hesitant
(Out of wishes, gonna miss this)

[Chorus] x2
It isn’t so easy, easy
Why don’t you leave me, breathing
Cover me in ashes and branches
I don’t want to grow if I’m planted

It isn’t so easy, easy
My brain is trying hard to defeat me
Nothing but demons
Nothing to believe in

so easy

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so easy (ft. demxntia)

You can call me reaper
I’m not gonna keep her
I just play the game but   
I’m a fuckin loser
Fallen, like an angel
Every moment painful
Out of my mind thinking 
that I would be able

And I know that I mess up
And I’m not better
Just another ghost in a shell
Untethered
I don’t wanna leave
But at least she won’t get hurt
Buried in my enemy
All my insecurity

I got shackles
Just to keep me down
I’m lying
So I don’t ever have to figure it out 
Staring at my timeline wonder if I’ll make it
Forget maybe I’m reason 
 
It’s alright
I’ll be here
Watching those speed runs
All thru the year
Holding back
Comin in last
Catching my breath cuz 
I don’t wanna take yours 

You can call me reaper
I’m not gonna keep her
I just play the game but   
I’m a fuckin loser
Fallen, like an angel
Every moment painful
Out of my mind thinking 
that I would be able

And I know that I mess up
And I’m not better
Just another ghost in a shell
Untethered
I don’t wanna leave
But at least she won’t get hurt
Buried in my enemy
All my insecurity

And I’m sitting here, in the corner of the bedroom
Thinking of all the words I could’ve said to you
I thought this was right
You could’ve mine

Friday night
Goin without you
There’s nothin right
Trying to get myself to
Be alright
Peace of mind
Don’t think I deserve it

You can call me reaper
I’m not gonna keep her
I just play the game but   
I’m a fuckin loser
Fallen, like an angel
Every moment painful
Out of my mind thinking 
that I would be able

And I know that I mess up
And I’m not better
Just another ghost in a shell
Untethered
I don’t wanna leave
But at least she won’t get hurt
Buried in my enemy
All my insecurity

keepitinside

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