Nostalgic

Are You Still a Lover

Stuck

Single by ML Buch released June 21, 2022
Written, produced and mixed by ML Buch
Mastered by Amir Shoat

Cover art by ML Buch

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the german word for despair is ‚verzweiflung‘ which has the word ‘zweifel’ (=doubt) at its core. this means that despair literally translates as ‘lost/entangled/caught up in doubts.’

etymologically, this can be explained by the loss of hope for improvement, i.e., doubt that something bad could turn out well in the foreseeable future.

one could philosophize at length about doubts. I guess this has already been done in heaps. especially since, beyond the torment of perceived hopelessness, doubts also have absolutely positive aspects. they are an essential part of intelligence and wisdom. just as their absence clearly indicates stupidity and arrogance (#dunning-kruger). so being smart always means agonizing over the question of whether you are actually smart.

apropos agonizing, a relatively tolerable form of despair undoubtedly goes hand in hand with the conflict between the desire for individual freedom and interpersonal bonds. can I translate that as the “have-your-cake-and-eat-it-too-dilemma”?

fortunately, I/we personally never had a problem with this, because I/we never experienced or felt our relationship as conflict of freedom and commitment. however, looking at the course of relationships in our son's generation, I get the feeling that there is a lot of turmoil at work. relationship stress and divorces all over the place. that fits with my album topic! 

here’s a song I wrote about 20 years ago with just the first line of the chorus and later released as a semi-instrumental on sc ages ago. now lyrics have been added (translation hopefully not too wordily phrased) – and with them vocals based on my guitar templates, where suno once again acted extremely annoying. the machine repeatedly tends to slip into hackneyed vocal patterns and that means having to start completely from scratch…

©music and lyrics by Hans-Michael Albers, instrumental cover & vocal performance by suno 5

I reach for your arms, but I dream of the sky
I ache for your touch, yet I can’t comply
You whisper ‘home,’ and I drift away
Each time I linger, I lose my way

My heart’s confined while my thoughts run free 
Two fractured souls coexist in me
One craves the flame, one longs for the breeze 
I’m love’s own patient, undone by its disease

As much I love you, I feel the blues
The more I hold you, the more I lose

It’s a holy war, a graceful crime
To beg for forever yet plead for time 
You’re my redemption, my sweet undoing 
Every path I take leads back to you

There’s no victory in a game like this
Where freedom and love can’t coexist 
To live is to lose, to stay is to die 
So, I fade to ash beneath your sky

As much I love you, I feel the blues
The more I hold you, the more I lose
As deep I feel you, I lose my ground
As near I find you, you can’t be found

As long I chase you, the more I fade
As much I trust you, the more I’m afraid
As much I need you, I pay the dues
As much I love you, I feel the blues

As much I love you

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Tracklist: 

	1.	The Love We Once Fed — 00:00.00 → 00:17.52
	2.	Left the House — 00:17.52 → 00:34.94
	3.	Dark Clouds — 00:34.94 → 00:51.24
	4.	Feel My Fire — 00:51.24 → 01:07.85
	5.	Diamonds in Disguise — 01:07.85 → 01:24.36
	6.	A Game I Wanna Lose — 01:24.36 → 01:41.24
	7.	À Chacun de Mes Rêves — 01:41.24 → 02:00.91
	8.	Freedom, I Call Your Name — 02:00.91 → 02:17.65
	9.	Still Nights — 02:17.65 → 02:33.89
	10.	Broken Flame — 02:33.89 → 02:51.01
	11.	Echoes in My Heart — 02:51.01 → 03:06.38
	12.	Old Memories — 03:06.38 → 03:23.57
	13.	Midnight Air — 03:23.57 → 03:39.98
	14.	Love We Couldn’t Keep — 03:39.98 → 03:55.49
	15.	Loving Him Against My Will — 03:55.49 → 04:13.31
	16.	Doubt and Belief — 04:13.31 → 04:30.97
	17.	Did You Find Your Path? — 04:30.97 → 04:49.26
	18.	Another Day — 04:49.26 → 05:05.87
	19.	Underneath the Whispering Sky — 05:05.87 → 05:22.38
	20.	Endless Desire — 05:22.38 → 05:37.33
	21.	The Shore — 05:37.33 → 05:55.13
	22.	Living On the Edge — 05:55.13 → 06:13.15
	23.	Break of Day — 06:13.15 → 06:31.73
	24.	Love’s Distant Call — 06:31.73 → 06:48.65
	25.	Hold Me Through the Night — 06:48.65 → 07:06.16
	26.	A Distant Home — 07:06.16 → 07:26.71
	27.	Lucifer — 07:26.71 → 07:46.13
	28.	Just for You — 07:46.13 → 08:04.39
	29.	In the Mirror — 08:04.39 → 08:23.33
	30.	Guided by Stars — 08:23.33 → 08:39.02
	31.	Your Empty Promises — 08:39.02 → 08:58.05
	32.	Turning the Heat Up — 08:58.05 → 09:15.11
	33.	Lonely Streets Call to Me — 09:15.11 → 09:35.03
	34.	Silver Star — 09:35.03 → 09:47.96
	35.	Flowers in Her Hair — 09:47.96 → 09:58.29


9. Still Nights

And it doesn’t make sense that I still love you 
And you try to make amends but I won’t let you 
So I put up my defense because you’ve hurt me so
I’ll just be another girl that you call a shit show 

And nothings ever bruised me 
In the way that it’s bruised you 
No one’s ever abused me 
Quite in the way that you do 

Shit show I know I can’t let you go 
I will pull you close then push you away slow 
Shit show you know that when it’s cold 
I will pull you close to stay warm in the winter 
Maybe just forget her
She’s moved on faster than you could ever call her a quitter 
Shit show I know you’ll never try to get her
Cause understanding a women takes a real strong 
listener

But in my defense I tried anything
To make you understand that I gave you everything 
I got the upper hand because you reap what you sow 
I’ll just be another ex that you call a shit show 

Screaming why won’t you choose me 
In the way that I choose you 
Why won’t you just refuse me
Even when I say that I need you to

Shit show I know I can’t let you go 
I will pull you close then push you away slow 
Shit show you know that when it’s cold 
I will pull you close to stay warm in the winter
Maybe just forget her 
She’s moved on faster than you could ever call her a quitter 
Shit show I know you’ll never try to get her 
Cause understanding a women takes a real strong listener 

Shit show I know 
You’ll find another girl to love bomb and tell her she’s the one 
Shit show I know 
You’ll find another girl to get drunk and take advantage of 

Shit show I know I can’t let you go 
I will pull you close then push you away slow

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