produced by kenkamon (me)

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lyrics: 
high as the empire state
afraid where I go out of frustration
guess I'll go tear out
someone somewhere 

i lost all until
i doubt myself
fear the sunlight
go somewhere
tell them to go away
until I live alone
fear made me run but
i'll learn later on

lot of people think they know what's next for me
lot of people think they know what's best for me
lot of people think they know that's the best of me
pain or drugs I don't need therapy
pray tell when you have notes on everything
question all doors thats a step for me
spaced out exposes everything 

bridge, burns it all up in my mental
shit won't just go away
questioning all What's the point?
pestering all what's the point of view?
but I stayed some time ago
i should've question about what you know
less time I talk I should go home and sulk
write down her notes
and I check on my phone
ain't no one home 

but I knock another day out
shoulda gone home but I won't do it twice
i want to see me go into another light
until I know there's another side
i know what to do but no description 
fear the store I don't need prescriptions
keep my face and keep my discretion
fear grows in offered aggression


if I'm coming back here 
just cut off my ears
ignoring again
i don't need to explain 
just to let go of friends
but they don't want to hear
ignoring what I said
i will never win
see the toll I hold
when it's not my plan
yes, I know descent
and I don't need to explain
sipping down my friends
just to slow me again
ignore my fate
and I'll never win
i thought I made my way back here 
it's the shit I said last year
and for what, to hold top here
and don't leave me to die here
spend too much time here
seems like you lurk in my dreams when I left you
see my plans didn't work out
even though I was free
once you said it
pissed off it didn't work out guess I shouldn't know once you planned it 


High as the empire state state st- st- st- sta-

Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now 
bend, break all sound

(you don't understand you don't know how it feels, truth is we really do know how it feels
maybe we don't experience the same thing, but down to the basics, to the rotten core, there is something that we share and to not allow us to get that chance can distort so many)

can't fuck up

fun fact: project was deleted and can't recover

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lyrics:
message came in(kamon) data recovery initiatialized. data recovered. error. error. file corrupted. continue salvaging?

made it all back here to tell my friends
i don't think you're here to know my end
man it's all i know so throw love back
i feel alone there's no end
man it's all down here 
so i'm leaving
then you called back me so i'm screaming
self-meaning tell me what your meaning
deleted
so i never repeated

i shouldve seen where i sowed this silk
i'm never waking up from filth
so sell me
i've drowned in a lake when you found me
aye
why
do i never see a ghost to the deal
i'm breaking off everyone of these seals
i've found me
wanna give my soul
but they robbed me


made a few ghosts so they have my back
struggling to go as they've burnt my stash
hiding my face once you knew like that
i've prayed from the start you knew whats said
should have stolen conversations 
when it's all i had
faking all of my tones, you won't see me dead
gonna clone my name when it's all in debt
i'm breaking all alone there's a noise again



made it all back here
to tell my friends
i don't think you're here 
to know my end
man it's all i know
so throw love back
i feel all alone
there's no end
made it all down here
so i'm leaving
and you called back to me
so i'm screaming
self meaning tell me what you meaning
deleted 
so never repeated

i've been feeling so anxious i'm making a change
and i'm feeling so heated i'm breaking away.
her palms were so sweat that i've been afraid
and there was the ground then no floating in space
but i've broken down now too many times
abandoned starbound not living by faith
man you got me so anxious i'm living the same
the grass is greener with no glass made


(hey i need your help please)

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Written by: kenkamon
Prod by: kenkamon
art by: kenkamon

[lyrics]
these trusted waits. 
leave me afraid 
I halted pain
but my sense escaped
I want it safely 
but you're always changing me 
substance alleviates
but it all stays 

with me,
trying to sit here, and never embrace
to elevate
can't drift away
but the ground just stays, and I'm always the same
patterns float 
they won't wait for free

for free, I would talk 
til you tuned me out
got the stereo played
and it all comes out 
to suffocate 
the space but we're moving now
I'd wait, for free
but I can't hear myself

can't hear myself


Empty talks, useless nodes
I'm not efficient 
barreled walks onto a level
with no momentum
Let me talk, let me fall
please just stand back
let me roll it right back
all passive aggression


the fame just started, and I'm here confessing
I wanna go and ball in explosions
I cannot stand for 
I'm talking to fester
the means take my deception

add to feel bad 
the means roll in your rage
dividing feels sad
the means of taking in pain

I mean it's over
you're talking in vein
I mean it's over
let me hear you again

let me hear you again

these trusted waits. 
leave me afraid 
I halted pain
but my sense escaped
patterns float 
they won't wait for free

for free, I would talk 
til you tuned me out
got the stereo played
and it all comes out 
to suffocate 
the space but we're moving now
I'd wait, for free
but I can't hear myself

Smiths

produced by kenkamon
written by kenkamon

(track was inspired by plastic bodies) 

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lyrics:
all my life been a faker when
I never kept it to end
again
it all seemed
don't talk, I can't feel dumb
so what?
all in all I've forgotten
what's the point to solve it again
yea
we know it ends
I'll fail
I can't

all the lines blurred the time to solve it
feeling crushed by the same slope
all of my reasons for living 
are unfair
pay no mind, I don't sense any time
no


writing from what I built first
set me owner, didn't waver
felt like I wouldn't break first
after all that I wouldn't save it

now my thoughts sit in embers
then my friend said I lived some
thoughts in high contrast, fearsome
I live to hold back

I never talk when I can
scrub off my back all the dirt
started in my past, no intent
now it's the same things slow

crawling off the impacts that lands
It's not perfect

all those nights, still too tired
where am I? when afraid

then I had the idea
just to invite another receiver
to say I'm wrong inside of my fevers
someone, god, please. say I'm the achiever

and I can let it all roll off my back logs
and I can tell myself it didn't take that long
let it all adjust, just to say the same things
and wait slowly to choke out in the same scene
control the same system just to fake me

after all this you lay there
choke out ghosts just to pretend
this never meant anything
still too afraid to exist

(I̴̹͘ ̷͓́m̷̜̓é̷ͅȁ̸͔n̷̝̈́,̸̻̍ ̸̼̊s̴̙̓ö̸̘ ̴̗͝m̵̡͋ǎ̷̠n̵͇̔y̷͈͘ ̷̓͜y̶̺͒ë̶̱a̶͚͊r̶̳̈́s̴͖̈ ̶̞͑h̴̙͠a̵͎̽v̸̟̂è̵̫ ̵̮͗ḅ̸͠l̴̰͛ṷ̸̋ŕ̶͉r̶̰̆ė̴̤ḋ̶̮,̸͙̊ ̶̩͠t̶̖͛h̷̒͜è̶̤r̵̮̚ě̷ͅ'̸̤͒s̸̟͠ ̷͘ͅj̷̪̐ŭ̸͍ṣ̵͛t̴̻̾ ̶͕͝l̸̬̓ḯ̴̞k̴̭̓ẹ̶̏ ̶͍̀â̵̮ ̴̖̀g̸͑͜h̸̙͠o̷̺̕s̸̩̊ț̴̚ ̴̙͋ȯ̷̞f̴̪͋ ̸̧̊w̴̖̎h̸̜͐ã̷͚t̷̒͜ ̵͕͆I̴̖͋ ̵̠̾r̵̨͛e̷̝̎m̵̙̍ê̶̩m̸͍̆b̶͎͠ë̶̲r̸̞͒ ̷͎̕n̴͚̐o̷̹͘w̵̢̅,̴̯̔ ̵͇̽a̷̘͊n̸͍̓d̴̘͌ ̴̝̈Ị̴̀'̸̗̈m̸͎͒ ̴͓̍ẘ̸̦ǫ̶̛n̵̨͐d̸̜̈́ẽ̵͜r̸̮̈́i̸͍̓n̷̮̓g̷͎̈́ ̴̻͌i̵̝̓f̵͈̕ ̵̜̚t̶̖̄h̵̟͝e̵̗͝r̸̛͚e̶͕̐'̶̜̏s̷̝̚ ̷̻̂ą̷̛n̴̼̑y̴̤͝ ̷̹̓ṙ̶̖e̴͕͗a̸̡̐s̵̩̄s̷͓̽u̶͕͑ṙ̸̠a̷̤̒n̸̥͑c̶̱̋e̷̼͐ ̵͇̾t̴̤͒h̵̰̃a̶̠͘t̵̨̃ ̷̥̔I̷̭͑'̸͕̆ḿ̵͚ ̵̥̎n̵͚͘ő̷̙t̶̮̋ ̴͓̏f̸̳̐a̷̺̽ǩ̴̖i̸̓͜n̶͚͑g̵͐͜ ̸̱́i̴͔͘t̷̨̽)̵͖̌

stop talking to me
me 
me

"after all you wouldn't save first
maybe you should fail this time to do
your very best
cause all you do is skulk
-long as you feel good
practicing your calls
"you've got no respect
for anyone to trust"
decide til the very end
always bend your faults
hit pressure at the same weight
leave anyone involved
still the same fake
cheating out your walks
but headed to the same fate"

"oh you worry now?
what's to worry bout?"

not showing intent 
distill the same old reasons
to start again
delete my pages 
then the mice start to vent in
I'm still a mess 
slowly bash my head in
until she sounds upset 
I just wanted you to care
didn't mean for it to end.

kenkamon

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