crying in the club

Woke up at 10
Took a 10 
Cause I ain’t myself 
My only friends
Inside my head 
He says get some help
But you can’t listen to what he says 
cause he talks to himself
What’s he really know 
When he’s got nobody else 
I feel lost 
Stuck standing where the streets cross 

She says I look out of it 
Like im tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so im working all night  

I gotta be delirious thinking I can change my life     
Staying up through the night with these bloodshot eyes 
Got a little routine watching the sun rise 
But Im learning how to not hate myself 
Im still watching after everybody else 
Im still figuring out all of these fine lines 
Between alternate timelines
The last time I checked in I was in good health 
What’s the point in having it if I’m gonna ruin it 
Its almost like the pent up the fear in losing it 
Stops me from ever enjoying any of it    
Im just filling the emptiness…  
With a little more emptiness 

She says I look out of it 
Like I’m tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so I’m working all night
She says I look out of it 
Like I’m tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so I’m working all night    

Focus on the target that’s ahead of you 
Life is like a contest 
And everyones ahead of you 
There’s nothing you could ever do 
It was never up to you 
It was never meant for you

out of it

man in the broken mirror

I been
All night I been swiping
She says she kind of likes it
I don't want to entice her
She likes
The way I do my business
She tugging on my necklace
I need to make my exit
I been
Looking for a fixture
I know I can fix her
If I wasn't so focused on these figures
I can't
Afford to lose her ever
I just want to impress her
But I don't know how to apply enough pressure
Bleeding
I been slowly bleeding
My hearts open to peak in
She found a way to sneak in
Write back
I'll wait for her to write back
Then ima get her right back
She loves just how i'm like that
Last night
You said it was the last time
But she acting like
Shes still coming over tonight
Im wrapped up in this feeling
That both of us are sharing
Fall into the void
Before it gets destroyed

It's like counting to a meltdown
If there's no one there does it makes a sound
Is there anyway that we can escape
To a place that's farther than away
Back and forth
My heart is
Pushed and pulled
It's throbbing
Lights leaving in the distance
Times losing its existence

I been
All night I been swiping
She says she kind of likes it
I don't want to entice her
She likes
The way I do my business
She tugging on my necklace
I need to make my exit
I been
Looking for a fixture
I know I can fix her
If I wasn't so focused on these figures
I can't
Afford to lose her ever
I just want to impress her
But I don't know how to apply enough pressure
Bleeding
I been slowly bleeding
My hearts open to peak in
She found a way to sneak in
Write back
I'll wait for her to write back
Then ima get her right back
She loves just how i'm like that
Last night
You said it was the last time
But she acting like
Shes still coming over tonight
Im wrapped up in this feeling
That both of us are sharing
Fall into the void
Before it gets destroyed

Enter the Void pt. 1

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

It's been a long day
I got so much on my mind
So many things I could say
But none of it seems like
It ever really mattered
As long as I see you after
She makes me feel better
She would swallow me if I let her
We can do this night
After night
After night yeah
Watching all the stars in the sky
Shining bright like
She makes all the pain go away
Tell the doctor
I just want to vent to her
I'm afraid that she's an imposter

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

Babygirl
You got me fucked up
Fucked up
Got me thinking about what's love
What's love
Like what's love got to do with this
Cupid and his foolishness
Self sabotaging tendencies
It tends to get ahead of me
Does it stretch beyond horizons
Can I put it in autopilot
Is it really unconditional
Does it seep into your subliminal

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

herloveisadrugfromthefuture

And now im crying in the club
I'm just trying to have fun
I'm just thinking about us
While im geeking off the drugs
I'll just bury my head in my hands
And one more cup before the plane lands
And one more cup before I make plans
And one more cup and its out of my hands  
And now I'm crying in the club
I'm just trying to have fun
I'm just trying to have fun

Know you hate me
Call me crazy
I'm a goner
As of lately
I keep finding
My worlds colliding
The suspense climbing
The tension is rising
Back and forth
you keep pushing you keep pulling
Even if I want to
I know I really shouldn't
I can't keep on going around in circles
When I know that i'll be the one that hurts you
I've done all that I've can
Guess its out of my hands
But I'm still holding on to
Something I don't want to
But I'm still holding on to
Something I don't want to

And now im crying in the club
I'm just trying to have fun
I'm just thinking about us
While im geeking off the drugs
I'll just bury my head in my hands
And one more cup before the plane lands
And one more cup before I make plans
And one more cup and its out of my hands  
And now I'm crying in the club
I'm just trying to have fun
I'm just trying to have fun

Crying in the Club

if loving you so wrong 
i dont want to be right 
if it meant the world was ending
at elasst i had you for the night 
if loving you so wrong 
i dont want to be right 
if it meant the world was ending
at elasst i had you for the night 





if loving you so wrong 
i dont want to be right 
if it meant the world was ending
at elasst i had you for the night 
if loving you so wrong 
i dont want to be right 
if it meant the world was ending
at elasst i had you for the night

I Don't Want To Be Right ft. Jomie

I can't fight the feelings I got buried underneath
Like she's the spitting image of the girl inside my dreams
She's a diamond in the rough
Building up pressure and some heat
Silver lining in a rain cloud
Think she might be out of reach

I want you back
Never wanted to ever get attached
There's no need to pretend its not so bad
Your hands Arte far out of reach
Your missing me
Far from my reach
No way
There's nothing that you can say that makes it okay
Thought I'd end up dying today
But ill wait
Slipping out the side of my seat
Im on TV

I can't fight the feelings I got buried underneath
Like she's the spitting image of the girl inside my dreams
She's a diamond in the rough
Building up pressure and some heat
Silver lining in a rain cloud
Think she might be out of reach

She asked how she look
i said happy with a secret
Please don't smile my way
I might just have to keep it
I know things get scarier
In the land of fairy tale
Ill be the one that carries her
When no one else seems to care
Its almost like
We've done this a
Thousand times
Its the way it feels
Like my hearts on the line

I can't fight the feelings I got buried underneath
Like she's the spitting image of the girl inside my dreams
She's a diamond in the rough
Building up pressure and some heat
Silver lining in a rain cloud
Think she might be out of reach
I can't fight the feelings I got buried underneath
Like she's the spitting image of the girl inside my dreams
She's a diamond in the rough
Building up pressure and some heat
Silver lining in a rain cloud
Think she might be out of reach
I can't fight the feelings I got buried underneath
Like she's the spitting image of the girl inside my dreams
She's a diamond in the rough
Building up pressure and some heat
Silver lining in a rain cloud
Think she might be out of reach

Silver Lining ft. Celine Avalon

So far gone
I can't stay focused
It feels even worse when
It's at it's closest
I've been floating for
More than a moment
The walls are enclosing
I'm starting to notice

As i'm entering the void
I've been drowning in the noise
Like i'm about to be destroyed
That's what i was trying to avoid

Can't be alone
For more than long
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Might as well baby
You gonna see me when I drop dead
Wouldn't want it any other way
Life is a hot mess
Thought i was doing better
I've been making progress
But if i end it all right now
It would cost less

As i'm entering the void
i've been drowning in the noise
Like i'm about to be destroyed
That's what i was trying to avoid

Enter The Void Pt.2

Stuck in this city thinking about us
Sometimes this feeling feels like its enough
The idea of you is like the pain of the sun
Getting too close it just burns to the touch
Moving at light speed take it as it comes
It's hard to hear when your racing your heart
Babe i can't hear you signals breaking up

Rain, Snow, Sleet, Hail
Girl you're the wind in my sail
I don't know what's in the air
Where do you suppose we go from here
Cause I miss you
Can we go back
Rain, Snow, Sleet, Hail
Girl you're the wind in my sail
I don't know what's in the air
Where do you suppose we go from here
But the issue
Is all the time that we can't get back

I'm getting used to all of the tragedy
Girl I don't want you thinking that bad of me
I would be too
I would be mad at me
My love is black hole stretching reality
A supernova at the end of the galaxy
A relentless soul in human anatomy
A bond in blood bounded by alchemy
No one to love who should go bout for me
Stuck in outer space i'm thinking bout us
Hitting the firmament right on the cusp
Breaking out the snow globe of life
If I were to go
girl would you come

Rain, Snow, Sleet, Hail
Girl you're the wind in my sail
I don't know what's in the air
Where do you suppose we go from here
Cause I miss you
Can we go back
Rain, Snow, Sleet, Hail
Girl you're the wind in my sail
I don't know what's in the air
Where do you suppose we go from here
But the issue
Is all the time that we can't get back

Cause I miss you
Can we go back
But the issue
Is all the time that we can't get back

Operation Snowglobe

I got mud inside my cup its looking red like some blood
I can see her staring at me scorching something like the sun
Its like time keeps getting slower and my feelings are numb 
I been looking at the darkness waiting for it to come 
Fucked up 
I can’t have a taste 
She already makes my blood rush  
I can’t feel my face
And im feeling like im lovestruck
Fucked up 
I can’t have a taste 
She already makes my blood rush  
I can’t feel my face
And im feeling like im lovestruck 

if we got a problem
i’m calling up my shoota
he got a shoulder
he said thats not a blade that’s a cutta
no guala 
i turn his brain to pasta
he talking then we run up
we run up
we run up

i saw the fire in her eyes
another demon in disguise
i don’t know where ill sleep tonight
i sold my soul and paid the price
i told her gamble roll the dice
she rolled a 2 and then a 5
i told her break another line
i sold my soul and paid the price

I got mud inside my cup its looking red like some blood
I can see her staring at me scorching something like the sun
Its like time keeps getting slower and my feelings are numb 
I been looking at the darkness waiting for it to come 
Fucked up 
I can’t have a taste 
She already makes my blood rush  
I can’t feel my face
And im feeling like im lovestruck
Fucked up 
I can’t have a taste 
She already makes my blood rush  
I can’t feel my face
And im feeling like im lovestruck 

if we got a problem
i’m calling up my shoota
he got a shoulder
he said thats not a blade that’s a cutta
no guala 
i turn his brain to pasta
he talking then we run up
we run up
we run up

bloodRUSH ft. LOAT!

In a world of villains, be a hero
the salvadoran anti-hero
yards4le

crying in the club

Kenny Orlando