watching every move i make but bitch im standing still🔕😩

took too much it aint enough I can't sleep I'm staying up staying up just like the sun 😢 🌞

again and again ft. thebreathingbackwards (taylor morgan + saint tomorrow)

Babe you’re like the stars on the drive home
The ones that give you hope when you’re all alone
They replace all of the love that you couldn’t show
I might crash the car but you wouldn’t know 
You can’t tell me it ain’t something I said back to you
In the heat of the moment while my face turning dark blue 

Why you puttin up a fight 
Always say you love me but you never stay the night 
I’ve been dancing with the devil baby I might take my life 
Got a rope around my neck baby it’s hard to breathe alright 
Everytime you tried to hurt me was it always out of spite 
So fucked up, nauseas, stomach hurtin 
Tried to write you all these songs can’t get the words in 
I can’t stop shaking baby you make me so nervous 
Everytime we fall in love you leave me hurtin 

If I crashed tonight I know you wouldn’t care 
I keep dyin in my dreams blood everywhere 
Yellow tape around the scene you can meet me there
Broken, blood on the floor you cut me open
All the lies make your words worth nothing 
Tongue tied no I don’t like talkin
Saw her face now I can’t stop fallin
In love again I lost my mind 
Don’t know where it went 
I think of the days and the nights we spent 
Remember every second no I can’t forget 
No I can’t forget 

Babe you’re like the stars on the drive home
The ones that give you hope when you’re all alone
They replace all of the love that you couldn’t show
I might crash the car but you wouldn’t know 
You can’t tell me it ain’t something I said back to you
In the heat of the moment while my face turning dark blue

u wouldn't even notice :( w/ hamilton [prod. noahmadethiss x jolst] *LYRICS IN DESCRIPTION*

And
You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

Moral of the story everyday I'm on the same shit
I don't wanna talk about a thing it aint gone fix it
Oh no
Tell me what the fuck is going on cause I don't know bro
I keep holding on just by a thread this shit a tight rope
The voices in my head said ima be dead no matter where I go
So that's why I get high it help me balance out my lows
But if you ask me why ima tell you I don't know
I don't know yeah yeah

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

I'm just doing me
Could give a fuck what they think
Paranoid in public
Dropping E in my drink
Yeah I'm rolling now
Rolling round not coming down
I don't fuck with people
Always falling out
I can see your see through
Oh you think I need you
You must be confused
I just need the chemicals
Tweaking in the restroom
I hope that it ends soon
Stacking money staying true
That's like all I can do

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

highs & lows

spoitfy

highs & lows w/ hamilton (p. methboiswag+frevel+roxa)

madison & 1st, night lights in a coffin
w/ @betweentheveinsandi
prod. @sadboiforever
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

my mind
a fragile portrait of my architecture
my spine
is broken by the words that i have dragged along
inside
i’ve spent so long for progress to force me backwards
alive
im glad i am, its hard to carry on

veins:
Take my life if u want it 
I don't really give a shit 
2 shots that's a warning 
And I don't make ties they just loosen with time 
Back when throwing up was the best part of our lives 
Oh what u say book a hospital stay 
All the times and the days that u tried to run away 
Despite what u say I think ur mom is pretty sweet 
Cause if u always be the victim then u always live in pain 
She said that break ups suck 
But I don't think she gives a fuck 
And I don't think that meaning from a broken heart just takes a fuck 
Woah 
Laid back 
I'm at terms with the past 
And I'll follow the act 
Just tell me how to act  

yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

take it, it's yours (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [2001]

spotify!

love u all <3
vocals by harvest & @hammy
production by @memoryroseishere @gonetoofar @morgnbates & harvest
art/mix/master by harvest

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6ivVlTzoSvE6xLDtLdHp6g?si=bcafbe00735c440c

lyrics:
(hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

got a spark in my heart
i got smoke in my lungs
should’ve known from the start
you were never the one

im not the one that you want
why you put up a front
playing me like im dumb
make me feel like a dub

baby im done
yeah im movin on
you can call my phone
but i’m already gone

yeah im already ghost
i can’t let you close
no i don’t know
so my heart stay closed
no i don’t know
i just can’t tell
fucked up in the head
i can’t trust
one minute im cool
then the next im manic
crushing scripts up
under plastic

rolling spliffs up
i can’t feel shit
when i can’t think
that’s my favorite
when you kissed me
i just lost it
wishing i could’ve told
what it costed

(harvest & hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

(harvest)
you don’t even know what happened
I don’t want to fix it all
seeing through our glass it’s cracking 
hourglass, not filled at all

ill never know your passions
cause we’re in a late stage, we’re in a late stage 
i’m breaking down i’m crashing
not on the same page, not on the same page

i want you to be here, a main stay 
one day I wanna play on the main stage 
it’s just the same shit, said a different way
I’ll cough it up, I’m feeling grey 

i want to be in the nosebleed, know me, everything is better when you hold me
or scold me
im slowly 
finding somewhere to hide like brody

knowing that you’ll never know me gives me piece of mind 
i hope you know im lonely like all of the time

i start to realise that I won’t come to my senses
I hope when I leave this place I go on to the next thing

never knew feat. hamilton (prod. memoryrose, toofargone, homesick & harvest)

if we died, would our ghosts fw each other?

this city is a monster

spotify

this city is a monster (feat. hamilton) [p. stay woozy]

the little things in life ft. Love Jai + Hamilton *recycleBin*

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

the show goes on (drmabeats+mcx)

don’t cry
it’s okay
she lies
to me 
i’m done, just trash
u threw away 
i’m lost 
at shore
a castaway 
i’m fine, with that 
if you just stay 

and i know we only talk when i’m smokin propane yea 
u gon make me go back to my old ways 
i wasn’t so shallow back in the old days yea
she only wanna talk when she off the cocaine 
people love to say my name but they won’t show face
i’m way past caring bout u 
broke the curse i’m okay 
i don’t show emotion got a poker face baby
i don’t think i’ll feel again but it’s ok 

i don’t wanna talk to you
what the fuck are we gon talk about 
cus every time i try it doesn’t leave my mouth 
i’m drowning here my love 
help me out 

and i know we only talk when i’m smokin propane yea 
u gon make me go back to my old ways 
i wasn’t so shallow back in the old days yea
she only wanna talk when she off the cocaine 
people love to say my name but they won’t show face
i’m way past caring bout u 
broke the curse i’m okay 
i don’t show emotion got a poker face baby
i don’t think i’ll feel again but it’s ok 

i beg 
i plead
but they 
just leave 
you usually keep the spirits away when ur round me but
ever since u left my love 
think they found me

poker/face (taurs + homesick)

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