Wanted to wait until were eighteen
Should we have planned for the unforeseen 
Running outta town,  drinking till we drown
But its really got me down
You’ve really got me down now

 its almost easier to pretend
That its me there when you see him
Feeling so perplexed 
No telling what comes next 
I don’t know whats next

All the what ifs of us 
The what could’ve beens
When i see your face
A cool summers wind
So when its scary, mamma tells me don’t be weary
Pull the buttons off my shirt
Use them when you’re gettin married
tell ‘em all the things we did
Go on and swear it 
Tie that golden ribbon honey
Leave me dead and stranded 

Brush my fingers through your wet hair
On second thought we should’ve stayed there 
Hidden from the fools
Inches apart from love
Swallowed in the pool 
just me and you

Will i ever find it again
Seems like love hit all my best friends
The one that got away
Silenced all her prays
Promised he could stay

I said i would stay 

All the what ifs of us 
The what could’ve beens
When i see your face
A cool summers wind
So when its scary, mamma tells me don’t be weary
Take all my written letters
Almost like we’re getting married
tell him all the things we did 
Go on and swear it 
Tie that golden ribbon, honey
Leave me dead and stranded

Leave me dead and stranded

mall song (demo)

amends (demo)

rubber band! (demo)

🪺⛲️📬
-verse 1-
The lakes are frozen over
And the citys fast alseep
But youd still find a way
To sink your rotten teeth in me 
Drinking all that coffee
And smoking all that weed
Has really gotten to you
In a way i cant compete 

-verse 2-
Drove to your house
In the middle of the night
Was only here for something
Now i cant remember why
You have that kind of power
You screw with peoples minds
 now i shouldn’t talk to you
Dont try to make it right

-chorus-
But dad, i
Cant resent you for somethings you havent done
But ill hate you for loving and having fun
But now its too late to go back on your word
Like you always do
Like you always do
Like you always do
Like you always do 

-verse 3-
And i hate that when I’m with you
I know someday ill be you
Drunk in someone else’s car
With a girl in the rear view 
Do you At least feel sorry?
Even a little guilty?
The nasty things you’ve said
That i swore wouldn’t let kill me
And sure i guess you’re here now
At least you can try
But don’t sit and pretend that all hurtings only mine

-chorus-
And dad, i
Shouldn’t say how i really feel
Cause you’ll convince me it all isn’t real
But now its too late to go back on your word
Like you always do
Like you always do
Like you always do
Like you always do 

-outro-
Someday ill be like you
Ill be just like you
Dad, ill be just like you
Drove to your house
Wanted to work it out
You said not “not now”
But if not now?
Then ever?
Drowning in your stormy weather 
Don’t tell me it’ll get better
Cause we both know it wont ever
We know, it won’t ever
We know it wont ever.

ode to dad (demo)

⚰️🍓👼
-verse 1-
Strawberry moon
hanging low over the horizon
Takin its time, a perfect view
Is it everlasting?
And I’ll miss these years, 
not giving a shit for the past tense 
Cause in the blink of an eye, you find it all to be gone 

-chorus-
Don’t you? See it’s strange when you end the day
That nothing seems to offer any other way
When we go to the bottom, let me sit in the grave 
With all my love, no restraint
I’m pulling strings just to get a smile
Cause you’re so reluctant to my sweet style 
When we go to the heavens let me grace your cheek
With all my love, bittersweet 

-verse 2-
Strawberry moon
high and mighty In the sky line
Through our ups and downs 
the far and wide, you stay vibrant
We really made a mess
On the town, that once was silent 
Cause in the blink of an eye, you find it all to be gone 

-chorus-
Don’t you? See it’s strange when you end the day
That nothing seems to offer any other way
When we go to the bottom, let me sit in the grave 
With all my love, no restraint
I’m pulling strings just to get a smile
Cause you’re so reluctant to my sweet style 
When we go to the heavens let me grace your cheek
With all my love, bittersweet

-bridge- 
So when you fall, and the morning fades in
Will things change? Or stay the same?
Cause I don’t wanna lose you! 
I don’t wanna see you have a worth living without me 

-outro-
The strawberry moon comes around
when you really need it 
So I’ll sit for now, and wait for it 
to feel completed

strawberry moon (demo)

🕊️🛣️👤

-verse 1-
I told you things that I probably shouldn’t
The past and the present have crossed 
Seen you at worst times, wanted to reach out, to save you from all of this hell 
but now that I read you, those beautiful reasons
I don’t think that I can stay true 
A second try over would be just as worse
but I’m willing to push it right through 

-chorus-
With your silhouette dancing, eyes start to glance and I’m the one driving you home 
The freeway exit, your hair in the wind
I guess that’s the way that it goes 
The girl who got free, like a dove in the wind 
And you’ve migrated far from home 
I wish that I could be strong

-verse 2-
The beaches we walked, and your feet in the sand
The castles we built are all gone
waves are still swaying, as if we had chances
I left them in the hot sun 
and sang you my songs a million times over 
Hoping that you’d heed the call
 now I don’t miss you, as much as I did
I’m just desperate to find you again

-chorus-
With your silhouette dancing, eyes start to glance and I’m the one driving you home 
The freeway exit, your hair in the wind
I guess that’s the way that it goes 
The girl who got free, like a dove in the wind 
And you’ve migrated far from home 
I wish that I could be strong

-bridge-
I guess it’s all over my face 
The reasons I intoxicate 
I want to feel more than ok 
I think now, that I’ll have to stay.

-chorus-
I see your silhouette walking away 
From messes that I might have made
Now I can thank you for all that you’ve done
For teaching a boy how to love 
And to all the he will become 
Now I take the exit, alone

silhouette (demo)

-verse 1- 
Listen to our hearts
just feel a little closer
Always on my mind 
like a rocky rollercoaster 
Feeling so alive
pen and paper all about ya 
Underneath the stars
soak it in like you’re supposed to

-chorus- 
I just wanna keep you here
Laying next to me dear 
But I don’t wanna say it’s love 
Cause what if one of us gives up 
Or a higher power intervenes 
Leaving us battered, obsolete
Still I don’t wanna say it’s love 
It sure will sting when we give up 
It sure will sting when we give up 

-verse 2-
Coming at you strong 
with a ton of motivation
Always on my mind 
racing faster toward the question 
Thoughts and admirations 
held in secret envelopes 
Not knowing which to send 
or ones to throw out anymore 

-chorus-
I just wanna keep you here
Laying next to me dear 
But I don’t wanna say it’s love 
Cause what if one of us gives up 
Or a higher power intervenes 
Leaving us battered, obsolete
Still I don’t wanna say it’s love 
It sure will sting when we give up 
It sure will sting when we give up 

-bridge-
Pollinate my life, dripping honey from the bottle 
Just to ease your mind, we’ll take it slow if you wanna
Love is in the air we’re tryna catch it like a lightbug
Trap it in a jar and wish to make in the long run

-chorus-
I just wanna keep you here
Laying next to me dear 
But I don’t wanna say it’s love 
Cause what if one of us gives up 
Or a higher power intervenes 
Leaving us battered, obsolete
Still I don’t wanna say it’s love 
It sure will sting when we give up 
It sure will sting when we give up

sting (demo)

-verse- 
Booked a flight to the LA game
 ended up with a player, a shame 
And there you were like the bluest flame
You turned my night to day 
Said “I love you” as I left the train 
Guess the doors hold all of the blame 
Cause they stopped me from screaming your name 
And suddenly 

-chorus-
I’m right back where I was once 
Right back where I belong 
Right back where I was once 
Right back where I belong 

-verse 2-
Took a trip all alone to the lake 
To clear my head, cause my heart was at stake
The winding waves distracted me
From the feeling 
Saw your text on the little screen 
Begging for forgiveness, “please 
It wasn’t right for me
To cut you off”

-chorus-
Im right back where I was once 
Right back where I belong 
Right back where I was once 
Right back where I belong 

-bridge-
Should I run and hide for cover
Or brace for the impact? 
Of your soft scent, falling back into my hands
What a shitty thing for you to do
To think I wouldn’t have a clue
as to what you wanted from me 

-outro/chorus-
Right back where I was once 
Right back where I belong 
Right back into your arms
Right back where I run from
right back where I was once
Right back where I belong

lucy’s song (demo)

🏆 
-verse 1-
My brain went 80 on a 20 I’m running again
Iditching town, and getting drunk with my narcissist friends
saw your caller ID on my phone when will it end 
Coming undone with a ford truck driver
Losing my mind, all my doubts get wider
If it’s not love then I’m not inspired

-chorus-
If you’re moving on
I know I’ll be the one
You can shut it off
I know you’re not that tough
If you find a place
To take all your mistakes
I won’t be there for you to break 
For something that we know we can’t take

-verse 2-
And then I see you with your hair down, it’s April again 
Knew they were closer it got harder to keep it pretend
Saw my caller ID on your phone when will end 
Trying to forge what we both can’t scryer 
Gritting my teeth through a full-proof wire
If it’s not love? Then I’m not inspired 

-chorus-
If you’re moving on
I know I’ll be the one
You can shut it off
I know you’re not that tough
If you find a place
To take all your mistakes
I won’t be there for you to break 
For something that we know we can’t take

-bridge-
Im spinning out, driving out to the sun
I wanna watch, watch what we’ve become
The ride was fun, but i don’t wanna rerun
I wanna say, say what i really mean
If its enough, it’s enough for me
Go find a life, find normalcy 
If you’re moving on
You can shut it off
If you dont find love
If they’re not the one

-chorus-
If youre moving on
I know ill be the one
You can shut it off
I know you’re not  that tough
If you find a place
To take all your mistakes
I be there for you to break 
For something that we know we can’t take

not that tough (demo)

-verse 1-
Red all over you
Thought it couldn’t be true 
Polka dotted smile 
All the worth while 
Looked out at the trees 
I followed quietly
Lifted by the breeze 
all so suddenly

-chorus-
Oh ladybug, Oh ladybug 
Show me your kismet luck 
Oh ladybug
Oh ladybug, Oh ladybug
Where there is love, there is life
Oh ladybug 

-verse 2-
You taste just like the stars 
The sunshine in our hearts 
I know it’s gonna take us far 
Show me all the places darling 

-chorus-
Oh ladybug, Oh ladybug 
Show me your kismet luck 
Oh ladybug
Oh ladybug, Oh ladybug
Where there is love, there is life
Oh ladybug

-bridge-
Silence, pinning, primrose and violets
Distance, timing, long nights, crying

-chorus/outro-
Oh ladybug (Silence, pinning)
Oh ladybug (primrose and violets)
Oh ladybug  (Distance, timing) 
Oh ladybug (long nights, crying)
Show me your kismet luck, oh ladybug 
where there is love, there is life 
Oh ladybug

ladybug (demo)

-verse 1-
There’s a glow at the door that awaits me 
And I’m eager to find you behind 
With your paws leaving marks 
And howling at the moon in the night 
theres a part of myself I still hide 
The last shred of dignity to find 
Gone like the wind 
too soon for my own eyes to cry 

-chorus-
I still see you
I still hear you
I still fill up your bowl to the top
Hoping that the pain might stop 
I still smell you 
I still feel like I know you 
I still wait for the time when I come home
And you’re laying, wide eyed 

-verse 2-
There’s a storm coming over my head 
I try to wait it out instead 
But you can’t force the signs 
Can’t turn the tides 
Can’t wait for someone else to make it right 

-chorus-
I still see you
I still hear you
I still fill up your bowl to the top
Hoping that the pain might stop 
I still smell you 
I still feel like I know you 
I still wait for the time when I come home
And you’re laying, wide eyed

primrose (demo)

-verse 1-
Give me the time for a resolution 
To make it right for my peace of mind 
I’ve been so confused, and so out of touch
That I just won’t stop 
But I almost thought 

-chorus-
Parallel lines, and the truths untold 
The shape of our bodies intwined in folds 
A shot in my veins 
A lesson unlearned 
my narcan in days, where I’m too scared to hold on

-verse 2-
Chug it all down, the hurt you feel
Make me a villain, I’ll stay right here 
Foam at the mouth just for an answer
Take what you got, and don’t find lesser 

-chorus-
Parallel lines, and the truths untold 
The shape of our bodies intwined in folds 
A shot in my veins 
A lesson unlearned 
my narcan in days, where I’m too scared to hold on

-bridge-
I’ll be your god 
I’ll save you
If you let me 

-chorus-
Parallel lines, and the truths untold 
The shape of our bodies intwined in folds 
A shot in my veins 
A lesson unlearned 
my narcan in days, where I’m too scared to hold on

narcan (demo)

-verse 1-
Seen you walking with some guy
And you said he was your “whole life”
Almost caught me by surprised 
Till I remembered all the times
Cocoa Powder in your smile 
The reckless fun, you hair all wild
Someone taught you how to fly 
But didn’t think to love you right 

-chorus-
My guilt, boils over 
That’s just how, the cookie crumbles 
My fault, cause I couldn’t 
give you what you wanted 

-verse 2-
Took me out with all your friends 
And kissed me there, to make amends 
He saw us standing hand in hand 
And dancing to an oldies jam 
Things have changed, and things have stayed exactly as they were
I’m teaching you to fly again, 
and spread your wings so high

-chorus-
My guilt, boils over 
That’s just how, the cookie crumbles 
My fault, cause I couldn’t 
give you what you wanted

-verse 3-
On the table, clear as day it seems like I have debt to pay
It’s harder now to figure out
If I have truly hurt you
Cause I didn’t show you off, and give you all my love

-bridge-
on meadow lane
Put my vows to shame 
Wounds inflamed
And I’m the one to blame 
Cause they take their shots 
You pour one out 
And waste away
on meadow lane
meadow lane 

-chorus-
My guilt, boils over 
That’s just how, the cookie crumbles 
My fault, cause I couldn’t 
give you what you wanted

meadow lane (demo)

-verse 1-
Look at me with those soft eyes 
Wake me up with a new guise 
Call your hoes at the red light 
So really now why am I surprised?

-chorus- 
When you drag me by the leash 
Begging at my feet
do the things you said you’d do to me
I am physically inept to turn your touch
Away 
I am breathing down your neck to find a better day 
I am risking things to love you all the same 
Begging baby please
Drag me by the leash

-verse 2-
Let when you in when I shouldn’t 
Teeth are gnashing, and grinning 
wasting faith on a hurt kid 
Start to wonder what I did

-bridge-
I know it’s easier to act like you give a fuck
But peach lips, and your faint touch 
Are all I’ve ever wanted 
Ive been there 
You’ve been scared 
Doing tricks for treats 
Begging, baby please

-chorus- 
drag me by the leash 
Begging at your feet
Do the things you said you’d do to me
I am physically inept to turn your touch
Away 
I am breathing down your neck to find a better day 
I am risking things to love you all the same 
Begging baby please
Drag me by the leash

leash (demo)

-verse 1-
I think im better off than sleeping in your closet
Downtown streets and city lights
Oh what a shame we lost it
And you said things i cant ignore
But ill keep your secret sergeant 
And if the story’s all untold
Ill make believe we fought it

-chorus-
But its all not up to me
And i swear i don’t wanna be 
That guy who drives you crazy
 But Its hard
 to be something 
when i have 
no heart beat

-verse 2-
I feel its pretty fun when you say that im psycho
Cinephiles in garbage piles, 
of all their drinks and narco
hollywoods a shit show now,  
of course you know ill visit
Hold me near to your chest dear, 
and I promise you’re forgiven

-Chorus-
But its not all up to me
And i swear i don’t wanna be 
That guy who drives you crazy
Its hard 
to be something 
when i have 
no heart beat

-verse 3-
Ravaged tombs and empty rooms
Its how i stand the daylight
Once youve said “ill be back soon“
I know to turn the headlights off

-Bridge-
Story of my life
Written in the fault line
Did you pass it by?
Cause its hard
To be known
When a pulse
Isn’t shown

-chorus-
No heartbeat
No heartbeat
No heartbeat
No heartbeat
No heartbeat

heartbeat (demo)

you&me

2,3..

-verse 1-
Saw your face in the tv screen
now the movies are haunting my dreams 
Heard your laugh at the bus stop last week 
Turned around and my knees got weak 
Wasn’t you now I’m sure that’s a fact 
Cause where I’m going, there’s no coming back

-chorus-
I am hopeless 
I am reckless 
I was holding on for something much more 
Like Blackberry bushes and taking what’s yours 
Handwritten letters in bottles on shores 
Boats capsizing, and men at war 
I think I might get it now
I hope I’m restored 

-verse 2-
Felt your touch at a party last night 
While, eating chocolate and guzzling down wine 
Halloween is the one time a year
I can put a mask on
And make belief fears 

-chorus-
I am hopeless 
I am reckless 
I was holding on for something much more 
Like Blackberry bushes and taking what’s yours 
Handwritten letters in bottles on shores 
Boats capsizing, and men at war 
I think I might get it now
I hope I’m restored 

-outro-
I think I might get it now
I hope i’m restored 
Boats capsizing and men at war 
I think I might get it now
I hope I’m restored 
I think I might get it now 
I hope I’m restored

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