Search My Heart (Demo)

From the upcoming Reflections (ylmid rorrim a ni)- EP.

The Holy and the Broken (Hallelujah) - Leonard Cohen [cover]

I love the tone of this song: it starts soft and somber and stays that way throughout the majority of the song, but it becomes almost triumphant in the reprise. Christmas is usually an exciting time for me, but I'm aware of the plurality of different emotional responses so many of my friends and loved ones have during this time. 

I hope this finds you wherever your heart happens to be this season.

Much Love,
kw 

O Come O Come Emmanuel (Demo)

Words and music by Stephan Goslinski and Kevin Wilcox
 © 2016

Lyrics: 
I am a teacup and you are the sea
I’ll never contain your fullness in me
One dip in your ocean and full I shall be
But striving for answers is petty, it seems

Oh Lord I need you

On top of a mountain I first saw your face
Washed by your water and dripping with grace
And when in the valley I cannot keep pace
I'll stand on your shoulders and stay in the race

So teach me the words to say for you
And walk with me all of my days
Firm in your promises I’ll stand

And I will be
I will be
I will be filled

Night after night I still stare at the sky
Wishing that wisdom may pour from your eye
But like to Elijah you whispered that night
Your love is a well that will never run dry


I'm still a teacup, I'm chipping and weak
Trying to trust you and striving to seek
But morning by morning new mercies I see
And cry out "My Lord is sufficient for me!";
(Jesus your love is sufficient for me)
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This song was born out of a resolve to just write something without regard for what other people thought; and thus, the first verse was born. I took an analogy I've used in the past to describe how I see God (and my relationship with/understanding of Him) and put it to music almost verbatim.

Then, I was stuck. I had put the whole of my thoughts on the subject into one verse and had nothing left to say.

So I took it to Stephan, a buddy and a brother and a killer of a songwriter and asked him if he had anything to contribute to it.
He came back with the rest of the song, and I realized in retrospect how much of my heart had yet to be unpacked by this simple analogy.

It's been said that books are best written in community. I now suspect the same of songs.

Teacup (demo)

It's hard for me to get my head wrapped around why I like this song so much. Maybe it has something to do with resonating with the reminder that, through the daily challenges and the longer-term, more serious ups-and-downs, He's there, and He'll meet us when we're willing. It's a reminder that He is worthy of our praise, and we belong at His feet in every circumstance. 

It's so cool to live in the reality that I serve a God who wants me to know Him intimately. If it takes a day of tears, a week of anxiety, or a chapter of suffering to get my attention, so be it. He's worth it.
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Lyrics: 

Take this fainted heart
Take these tainted hands
Wash me in your love
Come like grace again

Even when my strength is lost
I'll praise you
Even when I have no song
I'll praise you
Even when it's hard to find the words
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

Take this mountain weight
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like hope again

Even when the fight seems lost
I'll praise you
Even when it hurts like [mad]
I'll praise you
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I'll sing your praise

I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

And my heart burns only for you
You are all you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the morning has come

Lord my heart burns only for you
You are all you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the miracle comes

I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

Even when the morning comes
I'll praise you
Even when the fight is won
I'll praise you
Even when my time on earth is done
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

Even When it Hurts (Praise Song) [Hillsong United Cover]

Steph's really into K-Pop, and while I've not taken the time to explore it that she has, this song made it to the top of a couple lists for me when she showed it to me. 

Also, I love my sister and she has a killer singing voice. 

Much Love, 
kw

Mothers' Day

Lullaby (Roy Kim Cover) [Ft. Stephanie Wilcox]

I'm one of those weirdos that takes great pleasure in reading or listening to an expertly crafted sentence, regardless of that sentence's content. 

Example: in the brilliant Collin Firth movie "The King's Speech", the King is watching Adolf Hitler deliver a speech through the television with his young son. His son asks "Father, what's that man saying?" to which the King replies "I don't know, but he seems to be saying it rather well." 

Julien Baker is known for writing mournful songs. While I can only identify with this song to an extent, the depth and vulnerability expressed with such creative and emotional intelligence through this piece is a feat that's super humbling to me. I can only hope to be as skilful a writer some day.

That said, everyone has their preferences. Music I diagnose as "skillful" might just be me assuming that the things I like take skill to make. I hope that's not the case. At any rate, I love this song, and I hope you do too. 

Much Love, 
kw

Sprained Ankle (Julien Baker Cover)

from "Two Christmas Songs (Pa Rumpa Pum Pum)" - EP

Two Christmas Songs (Pa Rumpa Pum Pum) - EP

Little Drummer Boy

From "Two Christmas Songs (Pa Rumpa Pum Pum)" - EP

He Smiled At Me (Pa Rumpa Pum Pum)

Mary, Did You Know?

When I first heard this song, it almost brought me to tears. I didn't really understand why. All I knew is that it was kind of a love song, and one of the most tasteful uses of a vocoder I'd ever heard. 

I don't consider myself much of an authority on music. The Lord's been gracious in populating my life with people who think about music much more ingeniously than I do. That said, I loved this song in its original form (literally just a voice and a vocoder), and figured the emotion of it would translate well to other mediums.

I don't know if it did. This one's intentionally a little messy, but I think that's kinda what Vernon was going for when he wrote the original. 

Anyway, I hope you like it!

Much Love,
kw
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[Verse 1]
Down along the creek
I remember something
Her, the heron hurried away
When first I breached that last Sunday (Ooh)
Low moon don the yellow road
I remember something
That leaving wasn't easing all that heaving in my vines
And as certain it is evening 'at is now is not the time (Oooh)

[Verse 2]
Toiling with your blood
I remember something
In B, un—rationed kissing on a night second to last
Finding both your hands as second sun came past the glass
And oh, I know it felt right and I had you in my grasp

[Verse 3]
Oh then, how we gonna cry?
Cause it once might not mean something?
Love, a second glance
It is not something that we'll need
Honey, understand that I have been left here in the reeds
But all I'm trying to do is get my feet out from the crease

[Outro]
And I see you
Turn around, you're my A Team
Turn around, now you're my A Team
[come on], turn around now
You're my A Team

715 - CRΣΣKS (Bon Iver Cover)

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