instruments by twikipedia

when all my time is wasted
when I'm bitter and old
when my tongue is twisted
will this weight still hold me down
will fall get colder than old winters
in my head i'm not a victim
missing you and all your habits
and i barely even felt the slightest bit alive
how much time can i kill
before it's something else that dies
realized there's no point to scream and cry
I've tried harder than most
until i started asking why
I've seen every photograph
and i still can't spot what's wrong
it's like you weren't even there
and like i did it all alone

killing time

Everything by me

I've done it all
And something always seems to go wrong
Wake up and fall
Quickly after closing my curtains
Quickly after fading away
And they'll find out that I stayed put where i was placed
i dropped the ball
it wasn’t that simple at all
I'm tearing up
mold gets on my eyes as it falls
specs of dust make my vision blurry
i shut my eyes and let myself collapse

And i feel so hurt sometimes (I feel so hurt sometimes)
But nothing seems to get you to worry
I’ve been losing track of time (Lose track of time)
Trying to get back in your story
I have no life of my own
So please let me go home
One more day is all i need
To show you i could be
Somebody else

And I feel like you think I'm a waste of your time
Grain of sand or a rock in your sole
Would you be wrong if you said I have everything but nothing that i've ever wanted
But I'll let you know
The seasons change yet in the summer everything felt so cold
And i need you to be my hero just this once

And i feel so hurt sometimes (I feel so hurt sometimes)
But nothing seems to get you to worry
I’ve been losing track of time (Lose track of time)
Trying to get back in your story
I have no life of my own
So please let me go home
One more day is all i need
To show you i could be
Somebody else

hurt

Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

Light spills from my broken window through the street brightening up trash bags and cigarettes
She made it so fucking hard to feel like me under my skin, I know how it feels
But you know he doesn't play, I tried and nothing works
And even though we're still at war, we still bleed the same
Roses by the porch when I leave the house
Toxins in the air, Factories nearby

He hurts again but I would never tell
Was I good enough for you? Or good enough for me
I'd say I raised you fine or good enough
The kid's turned out fine

Once a dreamer, not a worker
Skipping in line so I could make it up to you
Someone said I changed but it's not nothing new
Fuse up in my heart it's not comfortable
I've been trying to figure out how to act less cold
Trynna take myself a place that nobody knows
Every passing year man it just feels so old
But the present year's the youngest you'll ever be

I've been trynna tell me myself that I'm not that bad
To enjoy the time I have cause I'll lose it all
I say sorry to the ones that I hate right now
When I die can you please come to my funeral
Wanna look like I did something
I wanna look like I was someone

twikipedia - factory (demo)

Minha tentative de fazer uma musica "twee pop", era pra estar no meu album quando eu comecei a fazer ele mas joguei fora em uma semana.  Lancei por que se não ia ficar num limbo musical.

One day the world had told me to stay
And then the light above had faded away
I think you're weird, Something so hard to explain
I'll stick around until you tell me that I should move out the way

I know 
That everything feels so real
And if you stared at me long enough, you'd start to get how I feel
These days are hard to put into words sometimes
How dare you make me feel so alive
I wanna know what's your deal

I hate you because you look like me
It's not your fault at all
Summer nights where it's hard to breathe
I'd find you in my coat
Maybe it's always been you

Musica de 18 de Agosto de 2024.

Is It Just Me

Standard

i don't wanna fall back in love
i don't wanna be the one that you were thinking of
sometimes my arms weren't enough
and you might have a hard time reaching up above
time keeps passing so I'm counting on it to make me a little less sick
your opponent's always been somebody else you would've known
if you knew yourself

look how
look how you made me
and thank god for my new shriveled ways
I'm looking up from the bottom
somewhere under the bridge
i don't wanna be a martyr, i would rather be free

why don't you say what you want?
maybe you should go wherever you want for once
i can't pass my time

i gave staying an effort
somehow i still fell behind
and i don't want a cure, i just wanted to feel fine
and it seems like nothing's changing how i thought it would
i just wish that i had wanted something easier

easier, easier
life's all about getting what you want
why chase something that you will not be catching instead of giving up?
giving up?
give

in the midst of it all, i could see your face, i could try again
oh don't be so cold, you just wanna say i told you so
and watch as i fall flat
listen i just wanna change
and if it's really that simple why don't you come and fix my brain
who am i to judge if you're all alone?
and no one hangs your coat when you get back home
(no one hangs your coat)

medicine

Standard Capo 1

I know that this is all you've known
For all of it's worth
For all your life
And that's just how it is
Crotchet me my voodoo doll
This time I decide
If i win
Or if i get to lose
Painful, but that's just how it is when you lose yourself
In someone else
But what do I know?
Strangely it all seemed to stop right after I left
And back home every house starts losing space
Drawers ran through, choices made

Oh my god, I thought about it for a minute then stopped
Fucking myself won't get me any further
Looks like I did nothing but talk a lot
Like I said, the thought was hanging on the back of my head
And the city's hero turned his back in the end
The end, there was no saving left

You know that you can't fix the cold in the wintertime
You know that even if you pull the strings you flatline

But nothing matters like it does when I'm near you
And nothing matters like it does when I'm there
And nothing matters like it does when I'm near you
And nothing matters like it does

I know how it feels when giving up
Part of you pays back
Everyone had someone tell them that they're not enough
You took it and laughed
Riding on a promise, you won't ever say so
You threw out your microphone, took the bus and went home
Now I get the feeling it's some kind of syndrome
You said that you hated it why didn't you say so

Why didn't you say?  Why didn't you say so?
There's nothing else I would've said
I tried

promise

D Standard

we had these wings
and we would always soar up and fly
take a leap
tell me what you see
we kept going fueled by nothing
for a moment, i was you

here i thought
if i flew
you would be there for me waiting
fall face flat
on asphalt
don't move away, just be patient
we wanna be king of
something larger than life in a scripture
if i gave you a decade to choose
in the end you'd make the same decision again
so know yourself

i don't know why i was so afraid of asking
don't be that way, i can't leave yet there's no time

let's be nothing for a moment
let's pretend like we don't know 
sheepish self don't you see 
there's a whole world beyond me
and i know i'll find you back

nothing for a moment

Eb Standard

Even in fall
You'll live out your sunny days
So when you're all alone
I hope you can find the missing space

And even in a dream
Even in a dream you found the words

I write this knowing you won't see it
We're both missing puzzle pieces
And i can't really explain right now what it is I'm even grieving
And everything's been drastic
And I'm not used to the feeling
I'm used to nothing at all

There's no point in knowing what there is to know of, what they all talk of
If you lose while trying, weaponizing dying's easier for most
If i was a rifle maybe then you'd hide me underneath your bed
When they chop my head off for the sin of being, they'll come for you next, you dumb fuck

rifle

Scrapped song from "i felt like a sketch" by key vs. locket
Happy birthday to me
Too lazy to write lyrics
Eb standard

Apologies

Sleepless nights, hidden scars. This EP is a piece of everything I couldn’t say out loud. Late Night Scars, Pt. 1 is just the beginning.


promise

keyvslocket