Produced by me

Lyrics:
i like your face
and all your quippy jokes
they look at us
and everybody knows
i act indifferent
try to play it cool
I'll be paper-thin for you
it's not on the nose
And if it bends more i'm done
a bigger heart than mine
so when you look at me what do you see
will you be paper-thin for me

(why can't i be the one)

i wanna know (everything you like to do)
i know you know (you just don't want me to hurt)
why can't i be (the only girl you'll ever need)

paperthin (bonus)

Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

Light spills from my broken window through the street brightening up trash bags and cigarettes
She made it so fucking hard to feel like me under my skin, I know how it feels
But you know he doesn't play, I tried and nothing works
And even though we're still at war, we still bleed the same
Roses by the porch when I leave the house
Toxins in the air, Factories nearby

He hurts again but I would never tell
Was I good enough for you? Or good enough for me
I'd say I raised you fine or good enough
The kid's turned out fine

Once a dreamer, not a worker
Skipping in line so I could make it up to you
Someone said I changed but it's not nothing new
Fuse up in my heart it's not comfortable
I've been trying to figure out how to act less cold
Trynna take myself a place that nobody knows
Every passing year man it just feels so old
But the present year's the youngest you'll ever be

I've been trynna tell me myself that I'm not that bad
To enjoy the time I have cause I'll lose it all
I say sorry to the ones that I hate right now
When I die can you please come to my funeral
Wanna look like I did something
I wanna look like I was someone

twikipedia - factory (demo)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rJKlWP52pw
why is the intro HALF THE FUCKING SONG!!!!!!??????????

ftroyl scrap

twikipedia - one (unreleased, leaked, by @freightrains on yt)

https://soundcloud.com/csdgreatness/twikipedia-iflas-snippet
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9rgVhpvnfmk

ftroyl scrap

twikipedia - think fast (unreleased, leaked, by @freightrains on yt)

Minha tentative de fazer uma musica "twee pop", era pra estar no meu album quando eu comecei a fazer ele mas joguei fora em uma semana.  Lancei por que se não ia ficar num limbo musical.

Musica de 18 de Agosto de 2024.

Is It Just Me

Standard

i don't wanna fall back in love
i don't wanna be the one that you were thinking of
sometimes my arms weren't enough
and you might have a hard time reaching up above
time keeps passing so I'm counting on it to make me a little less sick
your opponent's always been somebody else you would've known
if you knew yourself

look how
look how you made me
and thank god for my new shriveled ways
I'm looking up from the bottom
somewhere under the bridge
i don't wanna be a martyr, i would rather be free

why don't you say what you want?
maybe you should go wherever you want for once
i can't pass my time

i gave staying an effort
somehow i still fell behind
and i don't want a cure, i just wanted to feel fine
and it seems like nothing's changing how i thought it would
i just wish that i had wanted something easier

easier, easier
life's all about getting what you want
why chase something that you will not be catching instead of giving up?
giving up?
give

in the midst of it all, i could see your face, i could try again
oh don't be so cold, you just wanna say i told you so
and watch as i fall flat
listen i just wanna change
and if it's really that simple why don't you come and fix my brain
who am i to judge if you're all alone?
and no one hangs your coat when you get back home
(no one hangs your coat)

medicine

Standard Capo 1

I know that this is all you've known
For all of it's worth
For all your life
And that's just how it is
Crotchet me my voodoo doll
This time I decide
If i win
Or if i get to lose
Painful, but that's just how it is when you lose yourself
In someone else
But what do I know?
Strangely it all seemed to stop right after I left
And back home every house starts losing space
Drawers ran through, choices made

Oh my god, I thought about it for a minute then stopped
Fucking myself won't get me any further
Looks like I did nothing but talk a lot
Like I said, the thought was hanging on the back of my head
And the city's hero turned his back in the end
The end, there was no saving left

You know that you can't fix the cold in the wintertime
You know that even if you pull the strings you flatline

But nothing matters like it does when I'm near you
And nothing matters like it does when I'm there
And nothing matters like it does when I'm near you
And nothing matters like it does

I know how it feels when giving up
Part of you pays back
Everyone had someone tell them that they're not enough
You took it and laughed
Riding on a promise, you won't ever say so
You threw out your microphone, took the bus and went home
Now I get the feeling it's some kind of syndrome
You said that you hated it why didn't you say so

Why didn't you say?  Why didn't you say so?
There's nothing else I would've said
I tried

promise

Standard

we won't be sisters
try to erase me
you dared to have my hand through your clothes again
don't you know we need some space
just maybe it was a phase in the end
i can't hold onto one weekend
i won't hold onto impossibles too
if the memory ends i might break
no one at all should know
don't be so afraid
in the limit, there's more you could take
i won't say if there's no curatives left
so go and find some on your own

lately, i've been having this dream
with some kind of earthquake shaking everything
i had seen this figure hold onto my hand
even though i knew there was no one left
and now the dream has gotten old
i wake up shaking, not from fear but something else
something i don't know
(i wasn't afraid of you at all)
(i wanna stray away)
(i wasn't afraid of you at all)

if we had to try
wouldn't it feel wronger to start over
doing whatever all over again?
but i shouldn't know
in the end of the world let's watch all the meteors fall
why wait until we're gone?

and i wanna see everything i'm missing
we all wanna be something that we're not
you'll feel accomplished for someone that looks like me
don't try so hard to get rid of everything

hourglass memory

FACGCE

Lately i’ve been struggling 
Separating seriousness From light hearted comments 
They all blend inside my head 
If that weren’t me, i would laugh B
ut there’s no one else in frame 
I don’t see the joke 
The irony in dirty busses home 
In acting like no one would ever know 
I tried hard to to shut myself up until i couldn’t stop throwing up on the floor 
Trying to solve, oh some riddle that’s not there at all 
Am I heaven-sent if i keep this body 
Selfishly waiting and selfishly rotting 

There’s a merit to it all 
Place your money on yourself 
There’s no getting out of this one
No one coming for your help

a play

Just For Me (prod. arceo)

This is my original song “The Call”. It is available to buy/stream on all major digital music outlets.

promise

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