If last night was my last night why did I wake up??

[Lyrics]

I can't stay asleep so I'm awake tonight
My friends are all gon patronize me
I think I’m gon stay alive for them, but not for me
Baby please don’t waste no time with me
I can travel space and time with ease.
But I can’t take no time to breathe
She said “Will u stay alive 4 me?”
I left on read.
It was just the other night she hated me
The next she’s in my bed.
And I would rather die alone, but she’s gon try her best.
Nothing and more and nothing less, it’s just the sex.
That’s all she thinks of me.
Fly away. I would rather fly away.

DreNeva: Kez, you straight bro??

I’m dying inside.
So that means that she wanna come fuck right now
I put eight or nine pills in my drink last night, so there’s no way I can get up right now.
And when the blood pools, come through
And hurt me a little more cause I wanna feel alive right now.
I’m miss my friends, and I don’t want it to end. No, I can’t die right now.

I can’t fall asleep and my eyes are way to fucking heavy for me.
I just text goodbye to everyone, my friends are headed for me.
It’s ETA 10 minutes until I doze off forever.

Bye, so long.
I’ma die alone.
Every night alone, waiting by the phone.
All those lies you told, you can cry alone.
Wipe your eyes and go now that I’m a ghost.
Haha
Bye, so long.
I’ma die alone.
Every night alone, waiting by the phone.
All those lies you told, you can cry alone.
Wipe your eyes and go now that I’m a ghost.

*yawns*
What happened last night?

Last Night (prodby. Crusty)

[Lyrics]

KEZ :
She don’t wanna wait for me
That’s my little baby
She gone takes some days, and just get away from me
She gon need her space from me, cause I’ve been all on the internet lately
She said that the internet changed me, but I don’t know no better
Than to air out all my grievances
I know everyone you’re sleeping with, and I don’t really wanna see that shit
DL, all over my TL with all of these people, shit.
Shorty you is evil, shit.
You is just an evil bitch.
You said our loves a movie, but you’re really out there looking for the sequel bitch
You’re deceitful
Look at the way that I was just treating you.
If no one else did, I believed in you.
And the person that you left me for is leaving you.
And I know, You take and break hearts to be put into cases to sit on display for sure.
Oh no, Oh no.
Fascination
Fascination
You can break my heart, but I’m picking up the pieces just to rebuild.
You think that I lost love, but I just found a girl for refills.
That remade me, changed my mind and she saved me.
No, you won’t get me back.
Your dreams and aspirations were the things I had to piggy back.
Anything you wanted it was “give me this, give me that”
And I gave, and some more.
I never got a penny back.
Now it’s fuck you, and that’s the end of that.

CODE BLU :
Baby I’ve been thinking this shit for awhile 
Think it’s time you let me throw in all the towels 
I don’t wanna leave you nothin there but a smile
I know that you need me so just hit my dial
You ain’t ever gotta be alone
Shawty you know you can always hit my phone 
Cause I’ve been in this shit
Swear that I’m stuck in my feelings 
Baby I don’t know how to deal em 
Cuz baby I’ve been really tryna chill uh
Cause sometimes I’m just losing all my trust
And I don’t wanna leave you in the dust 
Swear I’ll give you everything you want 
Love is really only up to god
Swear I don’t wanna lose you uh
Really wanna keep you til I die

Rejuvenation ft. CODE BLU (prod by. Crusty)

[Lyrics]

Broken.
Surrounding all the hopeful.
With roses at their feet, are they free?
As we fall down, and we lose all of ground
Moving forward, stuck in stasis.
Changing places, and we won’t make it
I might die, and that’s okay with me, I swear.
Cause you were never there.
And no one seems to care.
I’m alone.
And I died on my own.
And I died on my own.
All alone, all alone.
And I died on my own.
All alone.
All Alone.

I Died (prod by. Jang0)

[Lyrics]

Is it all a game, am I really alive.
Can I really be saved or am I wasting my time
I don’t know why, I’ve been staying alive
I try to take my life and then I change my mind
She gon try to fuck and I oblige
I’m gon roll up with the gang, yeah, we really finna slide
Got fucked up thoughts inside my mind.
No I can’t hide from all of my
Pain inside, my wrists run dry.
No, I don’t know if I’ll live this time.
If this is for you I’ll give my life.
Just blow me one last kiss goodbye.

But if you need me, I’ll be there, I’ll be there.
I will rise a corpse alive once more for you.
Surviving for you, I will never lose.

Dying on the floor.
Crying all alone inside my room.
One foot in the grave.
I cannot be saved.
Dying on the floor.
Crying all alone inside my room.
One foot in the grave.
These are my mistakes.

Funny what a corpse will get in the winter time, is bitter lies.
Everyone’s starting to finally realize.
That I was always there for them, but they were never there for me.
I put all my love in ones who never even cared me.
Man, it’s bullshit.
I lost everything and everybody turned to ghosts.
Brodie, I did the most for y’all cause we were all bros.
Or maybe no I suppose.
That’s just how this shit goes, more friends turned to foes.
I already lost my soul. I’ve done some things nobody knows.

But if you need me, I’ll be there, I’ll be there.
I will rise a corpse alive once more for you.
Surviving for you, I will never lose.

Dying on the floor.
Crying all alone inside my room.
One foot in the grave.
I cannot be saved.
Dying on the floor.
Crying all alone inside my room.
One foot in the grave.
These are my mistakes.

My Mistakes (prodby. Cian)

[Lyrics]

She said that she’s afraid of loving me.
Cause anything she’d touch decays.
And I think that’s the reason that she’s done with me
Cause we were fucking crazy, just the other day.
Was it a joke to you when I was bleeding out?
When none of my friends had noticed any of my cuts
Was it a joke to you when I was beaten down?
Or had you laughed your final laugh when I had enough.

My little baby over here, she’ll be fucking till the morning
Touching on my arms with my wrists split open
Losing sleep and losing focus
She’s my source of serotonin.
This ain’t love.
This ain’t nothing
She wanna fuck till I can’t function
On my deathbed, screaming that it’s always something.
I lay still cause my heart erupted

Cold Winters (prod by. Jang0)

[Lyrics]
KEZ :
If you’re gonna cry, come cry on me.
I’ll take the weight off your mind for a while.
Roses grow thorns, I don’t care if I bleed.
I’ll do anything to see you smile.
And what a sight.
In that pretty black dress you know I like.
And you made me smile when you didn’t even try.
It broke my heart when you said goodbye.

I live in a purgatory, everyday gets worser for me
And I’m screaming aloud, I’ve been bleeding out.
That I live in a purgatory, everyday’s uncertain for me.
And I’d rather be dead than without you.
Here in my mind.

CRUSTY : 
Got so used to lying bout my feelings and it sucks.
Growing up they all expected me to just be tough.
Bleeding out in silence while I’m trying to get up.
Mental state in purgatory, I’m forever stuck.
I know it hurts my momma, watching as I fall apart.
Fighting everyday when you’ve been losing from the start
I wanna take my life away when shit gets hard.
But I can’t leave my momma laying with a broken heart.
But I think so much about suicide.
I’m scared of losing time, cause when I lose my mind.
What the point in moving on, I’m no longer strong enough.

KEZ AND CRUSTY : 
I live in a purgatory, everyday gets worser for me
And I’m screaming aloud, I’ve been bleeding out.
That I live in a purgatory, everyday’s uncertain for me.
And I’d rather be dead than without you.
Here in my mind.

Here In My Mind ft. Crusty (prod by. Crusty)

[Lyrics]

I don’t wanna walk away from you.
I don’t wanna try to stay with you too.
But I’m getting used to.
How I’ve seen better days.
Outside I stepped away from you.
Every time I’d hesitate to move.

Crying over things I knew were not true.
Removed from all of those roots where I was grew.
She liked my sadness, and I knew that her favorite color was blue.
Abandon my youth.
Everything I hold on my shoulders is over the moon.
What am I to do, where am I to go?
Where is my home?
My heart isn’t whole, but I know it ain’t broke.
I’m alone, surrounded by ghosts.
Am I losing hope?
And I’m losing hope.

I don’t wanna walk away from you.
I don’t wanna try to stay with you too.
But I’m getting used to.
How I’ve seen better days.
Now when I step away from you.
I will not hesitate to move.

Ded Love (prod by. Jang0)

[Lyrics]

Roses ripped to shreds the petals ain’t falling like they used to.
Flutters on my heart, and she won’t save me but I’m used to it.
Ex-Communicae.
it ain’t been easy getting through to her, but I ain’t new to it.
If it ain’t hard on your heart of hearts, and it’s so easy why don’t you do it?
At war with my emotions.
If you really want the truth then it’s been tatted in my skin, and rapped in all my songs.
You wonder what you’ll have when you’re with him, you had it all along.
I swear you know my favorite songs, cause you’re the one that they all sing about.
You rag on me, cause it would wet you up, until I ring you out.
We’re fucking while I’m sad, are these tears on my face or you?
You know that breakup sex is savoring pain, it ain’t making due.
Holding onto nothing, our love’s broken, done, and dusted.
But you still insist on fucking?
That’s why you had bottled me up till I erupted.

She is my red velvet.
I should let her go. I'm too selfish.
Follow her to hell I can’t help it.
All my problems dialed to 11.
I’ve been dying in my severance.
Fucked up my connection.
Ain’t nobody dying like me I don’t get it.
If I die an angel I won’t ever get to heaven.

Do you even--? Tsk
Forget it.

Do you hate me?
Can I come through?
Love you, hold you.
Touch you, Fuck--
Dying slowly since you left me.
I don’t wanna sit and live a lie.
You cut off both my wings when I just wanted you to fly.

She is my red velvet.
I should let her go. I'm too selfish.
Follow her to hell I can’t help it.
All my problems dialed to 11.
I’ve been dying in my severance.
Fucked up my connection.
Ain’t nobody dying like me I don’t get it.
If I die an angel I won’t ever get to heaven.

Red Velvet (prod by. Idly Blare)

[Lyrics]
Don’t say it’s alright, that’s a lie.
The fireflies were brighter back then than tonight.
And I can’t even hear the birds chirping. Even in silence.
I can’t even see the sun no more. I’ve been blinded.
I swear, I know nobody hates me like I do.
But I always catch myself.
I aimed for my arms, when I fell right through.

It’s all lies.
No wonder it’s hard to love life.
Hiding behind the known false statements.
Inclined to believe you went wrong.
When you know it’s not right.

I can’t relate my sad to a love song.
To be honest I’ve never been in love.
And it’s even harder to put in words what’s wrong.
I- I just- Fuck..

Don’t say it’s alright, cause it might.
The fireflies are brighter right now than I’d like
And I can even hear the birds chirping, when it gets quiet
I can see the sun, it just feels like I’m blinded

It’s all lies.
So why can’t I love life?
Hiding behind the known false statements.
And I believe I went wrong.
And nothing’s alright.

I Don't Like To Talk About My Feelings (prod by. Idly Blare)

[Lyrics]

She’d flick cigarettes off her ceiling fan.
She’s see through like cellophane, I don’t know what she sees in him.
And she change like the seasons.
She don’t need a reason to break my heart.
She’s on to worser treatment.
Stop fighting with her demons and play your part.
It’s prolly best to move on.
It’s prolly best to move on.

Caught in a daze.
Broken in two just like my heart.
Stuck in the way.
She’s in my brain till it falls apart.
And I loved her, but she hates me.
She’s so evil, but she’s so sweet.
And I don’t care.
And I don’t care.

She’d flick cigarettes off her ceiling fan.
She’s see through like cellophane, I don’t know what she sees in him.
And she change like the seasons.
She don’t need a reason to break my heart.
She’s on to worser treatment.
Stop fucking with her demons and play your part.
It’s prolly best to move on.
It’s prolly best to move on.

It’s prolly best to move on.

Cigarette Smoke (prod by. Bloom)

[Lyrics]

Do you wanna fly away?
With tears inside your eyes.
The same blurry visions deep and strange.
Rooted in your mind is pain.
And though despite the climb I fall
But way too many lives were lost
And every conversation I scribbled on these walls.
And I knew I’d never make it if you were never gone.
But I can’t let it go, it’s steady breaking my heart.
It’s so hard to be whole, when we were taken apart.
And ain’t nothing has changed, I’d rather stay in the dark.
If my brains was a canvas you’d write your names on my thoughts.

Follow me deeper into this world unknown.
Where I could get what I wanted if I just sold my soul.
And I might take the offer, it’s way to fucking hard for me.
Just staying off it. Please come save me.
It’s just darkness. All I see.
I know my heart don’t break it bleeds.
In my city you steal yourself to be free.
In a world ran by evil, I can’t compete.

Fuck bittersweet, it’s bitterness.
No more pitter patter on my heart, can’t feel my chest.
The giving tree was given death.
No forgiveness. Good riddance. This is my bitter end.
Fuck bittersweet, it’s bitterness.
No more pitter patter on my heart, can’t feel my chest.
The giving tree was given death.
No forgiveness. Good riddance. This is my bitter end.

Bitter (prodby. Jang0)

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I Died (prod by. Jang0)

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