Everything I Need

I Fall To Pieces

This track pretty much speaks for itself.  Only a few of my songs are really autobiographical.  This is one.

I still find myself inside the system, the medical mechanical machinery

Little Big C was re-mixed and re-mastered June 2023.

============================

Verse 1:
Walking along, minding my business
Pretty much an ordinary day to me
When I encountered a remarkably small
A diminutive little big C

Verse 2:
It hit me as an almighty interruption
In the middle of my day to day
It didn't seem to make any kind of sense
How could I be sick when I was feeling Ok

Chorus:
Now I find myself inside the system
The medical mechanical machinery
All i want is to get out alive
Minus that little bitty ol' C

Verse 3:
I'm not one to bemoan my fate
Or say "how could this have happened to me"
Maybe it’s genetic maybe it’s just bad luck
Doesn’t seem to matter to the Little Big C

Verse 4:
People tell me if I change the way the way I think
Or the things that I eat and this will all go away
Nice to think it all could be that simple
But I'm pretty sure C doesn't roll that way


Chorus:
I still find myself inside the system
The medical mechanical machinery
All i want is to get out alive
Minus that little bitty ol' C


Bridge:
The doc read out some numbers
Such and such percent
At the time i couldn't puzzle out
What it was he meant
Cuz I don't think I heard another word
After I heard big C
But pretty soon all those numbers
Became important to me


Verse 5:
I'm not the first that ever got this message
And I know that I won't be the last
Everything is moving so impossibly slowly
But somehow it’s feeling too damn fast

Verse 6:
So far I’ve been lucky - dodged a bullet
Haven’t needed chemo or surgery
But I’ve still got another five years
Till they let me out of the machinery

Chorus:
And I still find myself inside the system
The medical mechanical machinery
All i want is to get out alive
Minus that little bitty ol' C

Little Big C

The Last Hope

'Rebar' by McDead a bass led indie banger reinforced with glitchy bits of IDM steel 👋💀✌️

Rebar

Website: https://stockmusicclouds.com/
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/antarcticbreeze
Buy License: https://audiojungle.net/user/antarctic/portfolio
Itunes: https://music.apple.com/ru/artist/antarcticbreeze/897705196

More Music

ANtarcticbreeze - Summer Rain

This song relates to world events/war and how it's fast becoming the new normal for those of us that are not directly involved. Its a worrying trend and this song acknowledges the innocent's that have suffered and are still suffering, I at least hear you and hope this track may enable others to do the same. Lyrics below.

Intro

This world it gets smaller, everyday of our lives
And it’s people are dying, killed with bombs, guns and lies
Mankind needs to wakeup and put an end to this strife
Instead of just accepting the loss of so, so many lives

Chorus

Together we stand and divided we fall
Is nobody listening to the Innocent’s call

Break

Will the evil that surrounds us and threatens all that we know
Be ever really vanquished unless we fight it toe to toe
Is war part of our makeup and could we ever change that stance
Were Lennon’s words just wasted, or should we still give peace a chance

Chorus

How many more will be born just to die
At the whim of an ego who’s truth is just a lie

Break

We are all human beings, we all have hopes and dreams
We live such different lives and may have never heard the screams
There are no, no easy answers, but there’s no reason we shouldn’t try
To all sit down together and leave the Deity’s to fight

Chorus

Together we’ll stand and and divided we’ll fall
If nobody listens to the Innocent’s call

Break

This world it gets more dangerous and we should not close our eyes
When so many of it’s people need to fight just to survive
If we all, all pulled together, used our hearts not just our minds
Then maybe we could change things and leave this madness far behind

Chorus

Together we stand or divided we fall
We all need to listen to the Innocent’s call

Can you hear them, just listen,
Can you hear them, just listen

Together We Stand (The Innocent's Call)

I can Handle Anything!!  produced by cabo beats

Lead Vox/Reading + Backing Vocals Arrangement by Stephanie Rodriguez M.

Words, melody, piano part (Yamaha U3 acoustic piano tuned to 432 Hz) by Ivano Bersini.

Cover art by a friend/un amico. 

Thank you very much to all listeners-:)
*****
Poems see beyond reality, poems are part of Us: thus, thus, thus, the song begins

Sleeping stars fall 
Fall worn-out images 
Forbidden dreams fall 
Fall mundane signs 
Dull luminous signs fall 
Fall curtains
That obscure Truth.

The memory of Us shining beings emerges,
strong is the ancient beat of Our heart.
The memory of Us shining beings emerges,
strong is the ancient beat of Our heart.

Poems
rebellious waves
poems
sincere waves
poems
search for truth
poems and truth

if you close your eyes
you might find them
reality
unspoken truth,
poetry
manifest truth.

The night
Glides over My face
Like soft dew
that in the morning
leaves
the marks of a battlefield
where ancient emotions
melt and heal
in the strength
of the sun's rays.


The memory of Us shining beings emerges,
strong is the ancient beat of Our heart.

Poems
rebellious waves
poems
sincere waves
poems
search for truth
poems and truth

if you close your eyes
you might find them
reality
unspoken truth,
poetry
manifest truth.

Dew petals
glide over my eyes
like binary codes
travelling fast
towards the future
and leave Our world
now ancient
already silent
defrauded of emotions.


Poems see beyond reality, poems are part of Us.
___________
Note
​Any element that refers to a person, such as personal pronouns, etc. will be capitalized (e.g.: We, You, Me…) to remind us that We are part of the primordial energy from which everything originated, in Us the divine spark is present, We are souls and not merely biological mechanisms with a limited life cycle (with this conviction and deep feelings I also wrote my previous publications).
​
Thus, it represents a way for Me to honour and re-evaluate the human being, which should not be considered separate from the whole, instead perceiving its subtle connections to the entire Creation, of which We are a part.

***********

 Poesie
(Original Italian version)


Le poesie vedono oltre la realtà, le poesie sono parte di Noi: così, così, così, inizia la canzone.

Cadono stelle assopite 
Cadono immagini usurate 
Cadono sogni proibiti 
Cadono insegne mondane 
Cadono insegne luminose spente 
Cadono sipari
che oscurano la Verità.

Emerge il ricordo, di Noi esseri splendenti
forte è il battito del Nostro antico cuore.
Emerge il ricordo, di Noi esseri splendenti
forte è il battito del Nostro antico cuore.


Poesie
onde ribelli
poesie
onde sincere
poesie
ricerca della verità
poesie e verità

se chiudi gli occhi
potresti trovarle
realtà
verità sottaciuta
poesia
verità manifesta.


La notte
scivola sul Mio viso
come morbida rugiada
che al mattino
lascia
i segni di un campo di battaglia
dove le emozioni antiche
si sciolgono e guariscono
nella forza
dei raggi del sole.

Emerge il ricordo, di Noi esseri splendenti
forte è il battito del Nostro antico cuore.

Petali di rugiada 
scivolano sui miei occhi
come codici binari
che viaggiano veloci
verso il futuro
e abbandonano il Nostro mondo
oramai antico,
già silenzioso
defraudato delle emozioni.

Le poesie vedono oltre la realtà, le poesie sono parte di Noi.

______
Nota
Ogni particella che si riferisce alla persona, quali pronomi personali, ecc. iniziano con la lettera maiuscola (es: Noi, Ci, Vi, Me...) per ricordarCi che Noi siamo parte dell'Energia primordiale da cui tutto è scaturito, in Noi è presente la scintilla divina, Noi siamo anime e non semplici meccanismi biologici con un ciclo di vita limitato (con questa Mia convinzione e sensazione profonda ho scritto anche le Mie precedenti pubblicazioni).

Rappresenta così per Me un modo di onorare e rivalutare l'Essere umano, che non dovrebbe considerarSi separato dal tutto, percependo invece la sottile connessione con l'intero Creato, di cui siamo parte.

Poems

In a dark, dark place, in a dark, dark wood.
You found your hiding place?
Because I think you should.
It's obscene.
You're out there looking pretty green.

You stand upon the hill, above the darkest town.
You like to waste your time.
You all just hang around.
Remaining seen.
It's no surprise, you're pretty green.

I can see your faults.
Can you see my needs?
Through the screen.
I can see your outline against the moon.
Pretty green.

Upon a lonely street, there is a golden house.
Even the quietest man can start the loudest shouts.
Fuck your machine.
Oh, my fucking God you are green.

In a dark, dark room, and down a dark, dark stair.
There is a hiding place, and we should hide in there.
Living the dream?
A pretty green flying machine.

You can't  hide your faults.
Can you meet my needs?
Hidden screams.
I can't make your outline against the sun.
It's all green.

You can't read my thoughts.
You wont get inside.
Just unseen.
Can you take me out from amongst the noise.
That's all green.
A pretty green flying machine.

Pretty Green [Pretty Green Mix]

Into the feilds, 
We run as winter turns to spring time
It's all mine.
Like Sunday is my day to shine.

We've made our deals.
With whoever dealt our lots out. 
I-won't-shout.
If you don't touch mine.

It's just my little pile.
I don't care about your in-style.
In a short while.
We'll all just fade away, one day.

Oh, it's just insanity.
Living for the vanity.
Soon you'll have to find your way home.
The money you have put away.
You hoping for a rainy day?
Let all the rainy days go.
Let's go home.
Let's go home.

Stare into the sun.
Have a debate upon the currents.
And wheth-er-they.
Belong in our buns.

Into the hills.
The crocuses are growing rotten.
In the bottoms.
I've forgotten more springs than you've seen.
(In your dreams)

All of our opposing wills.
Won't ever stop the sun from shining.
It's ti-ming-out.
The days, of our lives.

Oh, it's all insanity.
Is this for the vanity.
You'll have to find your way home.
The money you had stowed away.
You saving for a rainy day?
Let's just let the rainy days go.
Let's go home.
Let's go home.

A new guy on the scene.
And he's packing in the dreams which floated away.
Win-ter-days.
We all hide away.

To the feilds, 
At the lightest hint of spring time
Still it's all mine.
It's my day to shine. 
All mine.

Oh, it's just insanity.
Live for the vanity.
Soon you'll have to find your way home.
The money you have put away.
You hoping for a rainy day?
Let all the rainy days go.
Let's go home.
Let's go home.
Home.

The Last Hope

Khalture

Recent comments

Radio Rasheed

Juice Pop

Lilli A.

Related tracks